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Wednesday, 28 April 2010
I don't care.
I really don't.
It doesn't bothers me.
Not at all.
Not one iota.
I really don't give a damn.
Truly.
I really don't.
It doesn't bothers me.
Not at all.
Not one iota.
I really don't give a damn.
Truly.
Light my path
3:08:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 13 April 2010
I finally know, why I like being in the rain. It is not because it can hide my tears or to have some thing to commiserate with me...
Rain water is not clean, no matter how clear it appears. Environmental pollution made sure of that.
Thus, tainted rain water is comforting to a tainted soul. It is not pure, for that, is not what I seek. It is not accusing thus I don't feel the burn of acid.
It is plain and simple. Cold and soothing. A balm to a tainted person.
It is home.
Rain water is not clean, no matter how clear it appears. Environmental pollution made sure of that.
Thus, tainted rain water is comforting to a tainted soul. It is not pure, for that, is not what I seek. It is not accusing thus I don't feel the burn of acid.
It is plain and simple. Cold and soothing. A balm to a tainted person.
It is home.
Light my path
10:47:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 12 April 2010
I really should spend less time playing games on Facebook and devote some time on maintaining my writing skills through blogging.
Looking at the entry from last night, it was really a half-hearted piece of pale and lifeless work.
Practise makes perfect. Neglect leads to loss of skill and talent.
Have I mentioned before that I had shifted house? If I haven't, well, now I have.
I am now living with my 2nd eldest sister and her husband. Things were pretty stifled and odd at first, with everyone trying to make things natural and being friendly. There is nothign wrong with being friendly, just that this kind of polite friendliness, coming from your own sister...now, that is strange. We weren't close. We used to interact more and were closer when I was a child. But that changed when she started acting weird and telling tales on me. After that, I learnt to place her in the same catergory with my eldest sister.
After living with them for 2 months and 13 days, things have gotten better. We do laugh, joke, tease and chat with each other. I have gotten more comfortable there. But I must remind myself not to get too comfortable, for that place is still not my home. I pay rent, however little it is, I should respect the house rules and always keep in mind that no matter how close we may become, that house that I am currently living in, is not my home.
I have no home.
I must never forget that fact. I have no home the day I moved out and into my 2nd sister's home, while my parents and eldest sister shifted to Yishun.
Even though things are fine now (but it has only been 2 months and 13 days, who knows about what will happen in the future???), I cannot be staying long-term with my sister and brother - in law. Everyday, this fact is always present in my mind. With housing prices soaring but with my pay not rising by much; and with rent, bills, insurance premiums and daily expenses, I have little to none left of my monthly salary. In addition, getting a degree is still within my plans. When all that adds up, when and how can I ever have the money to get my own flat when I am eligible to purchase it when I turn 35 years old??
I am so scared that one day they will get sick of me or that they will want to shift home. What will happen to me then? I am an adult, I cannot be relying on anyone.
What am I to do?
Friends have been telling me to get married, so I can have my own flat too. But the problem is, I am not attached and there are no pursers and there is this man I have feelings for but I don't think he returns them. Getting married is not as easy as everyone says. Plus, I do not want to go into a relationship for the sake of it. For the sake of finding some one to take my burdens. If I go into one, it will be because I love him and wants to marry him and he too wants me and wants to marry me.
Looking at the entry from last night, it was really a half-hearted piece of pale and lifeless work.
Practise makes perfect. Neglect leads to loss of skill and talent.
Have I mentioned before that I had shifted house? If I haven't, well, now I have.
I am now living with my 2nd eldest sister and her husband. Things were pretty stifled and odd at first, with everyone trying to make things natural and being friendly. There is nothign wrong with being friendly, just that this kind of polite friendliness, coming from your own sister...now, that is strange. We weren't close. We used to interact more and were closer when I was a child. But that changed when she started acting weird and telling tales on me. After that, I learnt to place her in the same catergory with my eldest sister.
After living with them for 2 months and 13 days, things have gotten better. We do laugh, joke, tease and chat with each other. I have gotten more comfortable there. But I must remind myself not to get too comfortable, for that place is still not my home. I pay rent, however little it is, I should respect the house rules and always keep in mind that no matter how close we may become, that house that I am currently living in, is not my home.
I have no home.
I must never forget that fact. I have no home the day I moved out and into my 2nd sister's home, while my parents and eldest sister shifted to Yishun.
Even though things are fine now (but it has only been 2 months and 13 days, who knows about what will happen in the future???), I cannot be staying long-term with my sister and brother - in law. Everyday, this fact is always present in my mind. With housing prices soaring but with my pay not rising by much; and with rent, bills, insurance premiums and daily expenses, I have little to none left of my monthly salary. In addition, getting a degree is still within my plans. When all that adds up, when and how can I ever have the money to get my own flat when I am eligible to purchase it when I turn 35 years old??
I am so scared that one day they will get sick of me or that they will want to shift home. What will happen to me then? I am an adult, I cannot be relying on anyone.
What am I to do?
Friends have been telling me to get married, so I can have my own flat too. But the problem is, I am not attached and there are no pursers and there is this man I have feelings for but I don't think he returns them. Getting married is not as easy as everyone says. Plus, I do not want to go into a relationship for the sake of it. For the sake of finding some one to take my burdens. If I go into one, it will be because I love him and wants to marry him and he too wants me and wants to marry me.
Light my path
9:22:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
他还是不懂 - S.H.E.
要说什么
杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪天寒又地冻
是不是到了
爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞
为什么当我推开门
他没有来拉住我
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂还是不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
要用什么
融化这一片沉默
在四周的冷空气里叹息化成烟飘走
过去的种种在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话泪就会先流
爱不是他给得不多
是不知道我要什么
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
都是背了太多的心愿
流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多心也有坠毁的时候
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
在第一时间拯救我
要说什么
杯子都已经空了
闭上眼睛心里下起大雪天寒又地冻
是不是到了
爱情结帐的时候
只剩下各自买单的寂寞
为什么当我推开门
他没有来拉住我
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂还是不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
要用什么
融化这一片沉默
在四周的冷空气里叹息化成烟飘走
过去的种种在心里滚成雪球
怕还没说话泪就会先流
爱不是他给得不多
是不知道我要什么
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
都是背了太多的心愿
流星才会跌的那么重
爱太多心也有坠毁的时候
他还不懂还是不懂
离开是想要被挽留
如果开口那只是我要来的温柔
他还不懂永远不懂
一个拥抱能代替所有
爱绝对能够动摇我
在第一时间拯救我
Light my path
9:15:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 11 April 2010
After 2 years and 11 months, yesterday was the first time with just the both of us....
Light my path
11:48:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
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