Man, looking back as I try to sum up what had happened these few months, the words that come to my mind are depressing. Well, I am a pretty depressing person, I guess. Always wallowing in self-pity.
Damn pathetic.
Ok, in general, things are currently fine. I am still living, with all limbs intact. Thank God for that..=) Some times we are too deep in our wants & selfish desires that we forgot to be thankful for the most basic things.
I think, I should go back to church.
I don't know why I think going back to church is a solution. But, I think I should go back. Yah.
Maybe because of my parents' salvation.
Maybe because there's so many things wrong with me that I don't know where to start the repair work. And I don't know how to repair myself either.
Things seem to be okie on the surface, but at times, I will just flare & blow up at the innocent (mostly) people. I really don't want to continue hurting the people around me. Hurting them & hurting myself.
Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
Joshua 1:9
Psalm 23
A psalm of David.
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
"Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
Matthew 11:28-30
"Call to Me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know"