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Tuesday, 30 September 2008
Frankly, I rue the day we met.
Why did you have to come anyway?
If you hadn't approached and
Made a place for yourself in my heart,
I wouldn't be in this sorry state.
Is this fun?
Some kind of a secret joke?
To be friends and eager to know
All about me.
Only to distance yourself and withdraw away
In the very next breath.
Stop acting the victim,
I am telling you.
It doesn't work on me.
I've grown tired of your 'world-class' acts.
Leave all those things for other poor unsuspecting fools!
It is not you,
It is me.
Dropping you like the rotten potato you are.
Why did you have to come anyway?
If you hadn't approached and
Made a place for yourself in my heart,
I wouldn't be in this sorry state.
Is this fun?
Some kind of a secret joke?
To be friends and eager to know
All about me.
Only to distance yourself and withdraw away
In the very next breath.
Stop acting the victim,
I am telling you.
It doesn't work on me.
I've grown tired of your 'world-class' acts.
Leave all those things for other poor unsuspecting fools!
It is not you,
It is me.
Dropping you like the rotten potato you are.
Light my path
12:17:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Utterly miserable.
How did things turn out like this?
All signs pointed to a beautiful relationship in the making.
Yet all fell apart and are headed for a crash and burn.
An ugly disaster.
How did things turn out like this?
All signs pointed to a beautiful relationship in the making.
Yet all fell apart and are headed for a crash and burn.
An ugly disaster.
Light my path
12:15:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 29 September 2008
This sharp, hot and piercing pain (Is not mine).
(Drip. Drip. Drip. Drip)
This incessant sound of liquid dripping and
Pooling into a thick dark crimson. (Is not mine. Is not mine.)
And the sound of some thing breaking beyond repair
Is of course, not mine. Not mine.
No, no.
Not mine, not mine.
(Drip. Drip. Drip. Drip)
This incessant sound of liquid dripping and
Pooling into a thick dark crimson. (Is not mine. Is not mine.)
And the sound of some thing breaking beyond repair
Is of course, not mine. Not mine.
No, no.
Not mine, not mine.
Light my path
8:39:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 27 September 2008
“Keep loving me.” He whispered.
Light my path
9:50:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Finally sent out my transcripts to Uni SIM yesterday. I am a little worried that it may not reach Uni SIM on time, if there is any screw-up.
But anyway, thanks to Eileen, I do not have to go scrounging for a stamp. I paid for the 50-cents stamp she took from our office and left it on the 'Out Tray' for our driver to send out.
Wow.
I thank God for small things like these. Small but significant and impactful.
Went out with Jimmy for dinner last night. We went to Parkway Parade for dinner and helped him to choose a birthday gift for his church mate. We ate at Jack's Place. He had Steak & Chicken for dinner while I had the Grilled Codfish with Watercress Sauce and a Chocolate Mousse cake.
After dinner, we tried to find the watch shop that we had seen when we frst came in. But after walking around for some time and failing to find it, we settled for the smaller shop that I spotted. It was a touch and go as he had already decided to get a Fossil watch. We didn't take too long to decide what to get. Jimmy had his eye on a brown leather watch that comes with an additional patterned musky white strap to change into. It has a rectangular rose pink clock face. But I fancied another watch. It was a metal watch, coated in a pure and clean white, with a round clock face and small crystals circling the edge. This watch is simple, pretty and casual classy, while Jimmy's one was slightly formal, classy with a touch of elegance.
In the end, he listened to his advisor and got the watch that I told him I like better. Hope his friend likes it, for it wasn't cheap. S$219, if I remember correctly.
On the way to the car park, we stopped to look at some laptops before heading back. He had asked if there's any place that I'd like to go to; but as I was rather tired and I needed to work the next day, I said I'd like to go back home.
May be I shouldn't have said I wanted to go back, for he was rather down and said he had wanted to go to the East Coast Park for a walk. Some how, it seems to me that he has been rather down and unhappy lately. When I asked him about it the last time and last night, he told me he is still unable to pin point the cause of his slight depression; and that is adding onto his frustration, not being able to figure out why he's been feeling like this.
I wish I can help. But then, there really isn't much I can do. Pretty useless for a friend, huh?
He is rather unhappy over his PE (Professional Engineer) exams too. He blamed himself for not reading the instructions carefully, to have realized that he is allowed to bring additional references and texts other than those on the recommended list, to the exams.
As he was telling me of his unhappiness, struggles and frustrations, I felt really useless and helpless for I did not know what to say or what to do to make him feel better. He had helped me a lot in all these 7 years that we have known each other but, it seems like I had never helped him before.
Pretty lousy friend, huh??
Maybe I will call him out next Tuesday night or Wednesday to come out and talk or see what he wants to do.
But anyway, thanks to Eileen, I do not have to go scrounging for a stamp. I paid for the 50-cents stamp she took from our office and left it on the 'Out Tray' for our driver to send out.
Wow.
I thank God for small things like these. Small but significant and impactful.
Went out with Jimmy for dinner last night. We went to Parkway Parade for dinner and helped him to choose a birthday gift for his church mate. We ate at Jack's Place. He had Steak & Chicken for dinner while I had the Grilled Codfish with Watercress Sauce and a Chocolate Mousse cake.
After dinner, we tried to find the watch shop that we had seen when we frst came in. But after walking around for some time and failing to find it, we settled for the smaller shop that I spotted. It was a touch and go as he had already decided to get a Fossil watch. We didn't take too long to decide what to get. Jimmy had his eye on a brown leather watch that comes with an additional patterned musky white strap to change into. It has a rectangular rose pink clock face. But I fancied another watch. It was a metal watch, coated in a pure and clean white, with a round clock face and small crystals circling the edge. This watch is simple, pretty and casual classy, while Jimmy's one was slightly formal, classy with a touch of elegance.
In the end, he listened to his advisor and got the watch that I told him I like better. Hope his friend likes it, for it wasn't cheap. S$219, if I remember correctly.
On the way to the car park, we stopped to look at some laptops before heading back. He had asked if there's any place that I'd like to go to; but as I was rather tired and I needed to work the next day, I said I'd like to go back home.
May be I shouldn't have said I wanted to go back, for he was rather down and said he had wanted to go to the East Coast Park for a walk. Some how, it seems to me that he has been rather down and unhappy lately. When I asked him about it the last time and last night, he told me he is still unable to pin point the cause of his slight depression; and that is adding onto his frustration, not being able to figure out why he's been feeling like this.
I wish I can help. But then, there really isn't much I can do. Pretty useless for a friend, huh?
He is rather unhappy over his PE (Professional Engineer) exams too. He blamed himself for not reading the instructions carefully, to have realized that he is allowed to bring additional references and texts other than those on the recommended list, to the exams.
As he was telling me of his unhappiness, struggles and frustrations, I felt really useless and helpless for I did not know what to say or what to do to make him feel better. He had helped me a lot in all these 7 years that we have known each other but, it seems like I had never helped him before.
Pretty lousy friend, huh??
Maybe I will call him out next Tuesday night or Wednesday to come out and talk or see what he wants to do.
Light my path
9:43:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Caught in a haze of confusion and with clouded senses,
I moved down.
Missed my footing and started to tumble down the stairs.
Frozen in that moment of panic and dread,
Knowing that you are falling and you can't stop it.
And that it is gonna hurt bad.
Adrenaline coursing through the veins
Sends the heart into overdrive.
And my breath is frozen in my lungs.
And in a space of milliseconds,
Every thing cleared.
The anticipated pain did not come.
The ground is firm and solid beneath my feet.
I moved down.
Missed my footing and started to tumble down the stairs.
Frozen in that moment of panic and dread,
Knowing that you are falling and you can't stop it.
And that it is gonna hurt bad.
Adrenaline coursing through the veins
Sends the heart into overdrive.
And my breath is frozen in my lungs.
And in a space of milliseconds,
Every thing cleared.
The anticipated pain did not come.
The ground is firm and solid beneath my feet.
Light my path
9:28:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 25 September 2008
If things were different, if I were a different person, if certain things didn't happen, I'd love you.
Light my path
10:15:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
And they went roaring down the old, old highway
With horns blaring and music soaring,
And the addictive taste of the wind in their mouths.
All too soon it came to an end,
As the cops caught up (some one must have ratted).
It was a long way home.
(But none forgot the rush of pure and careless abandon).
With horns blaring and music soaring,
And the addictive taste of the wind in their mouths.
All too soon it came to an end,
As the cops caught up (some one must have ratted).
It was a long way home.
(But none forgot the rush of pure and careless abandon).
Light my path
10:34:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 24 September 2008
Wake up and smell the coffee burning.
Life's aint a rainbow, with sugar, spice
And every thing nice.
Wake up to reality.
The danger may be closer to home
Than you think.
If you ignore the warning signals,
Remaining oblivious to the screaming sirens,
The only place you will be going is
Down, down and down.
Life's aint a rainbow, with sugar, spice
And every thing nice.
Wake up to reality.
The danger may be closer to home
Than you think.
If you ignore the warning signals,
Remaining oblivious to the screaming sirens,
The only place you will be going is
Down, down and down.
Light my path
12:28:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 22 September 2008
Had a bad night last night. As in Sunday night. I wasn't feeling that great, nursing a headache that was getting worse by the minute, thus I went to bed around 2240.
I couldn't fall asleep. Thinking that it'd help if I am cooled down a bit, I shut the windows and switched on the air-con. I didn't feel any better. In fact, I felt worse than before and my headache wasn't helping any. It had spread to the back of my skull. I tried sitting up in bed, propping up my pillow so that I was leaning against it in some sort of a 60° position. It all failed to work, I felt more and more uncomfortable and queasy. Fed up, I switched off the air-con, opened all the windows and tried to find a comfortable position whereby my head won't ache too much.
Sad to say, all failed. I ended up waiting it out beside the toilet bowl and threw up my dinner and the apple and orange I ate.
With all those hoo-ha, I think by the time I finally fell asleep, it was around 1am or so. So long for my trying to sleep early.
Hn.
I couldn't fall asleep. Thinking that it'd help if I am cooled down a bit, I shut the windows and switched on the air-con. I didn't feel any better. In fact, I felt worse than before and my headache wasn't helping any. It had spread to the back of my skull. I tried sitting up in bed, propping up my pillow so that I was leaning against it in some sort of a 60° position. It all failed to work, I felt more and more uncomfortable and queasy. Fed up, I switched off the air-con, opened all the windows and tried to find a comfortable position whereby my head won't ache too much.
Sad to say, all failed. I ended up waiting it out beside the toilet bowl and threw up my dinner and the apple and orange I ate.
With all those hoo-ha, I think by the time I finally fell asleep, it was around 1am or so. So long for my trying to sleep early.
Hn.
Light my path
7:26:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 21 September 2008
Beautiful Girl - Jose Mari Chan
Beautiful girl, wherever you are
I knew when I saw you, you had opened the door
I knew that I'd love again after a long, long while
I'd love again.
You said "hello" and I turned to go
But something in your eyes left my heart beating so
I just knew that I'd love again after a long, long while
I'd love again.
Refrain : It was destiny's game
For when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to find
That you were gone.
Whenever you are, I fear that I might
Have lost you forever like a song in the night
Now that I've loved again after a long, long while
I've loved again.
*Repeat Refrain*
Beautiful girl, I'll search on for you
'Til all of your loveliness in my arms come true
You've made me love again after a long, long while
In love again
And I'm glad that it's you
Hmm, beautiful girl.
http://www.esnips.com/doc/15762a1d-0e88-46b8-9307-c076650313d9/Beautiful_girl
Beautiful girl, wherever you are
I knew when I saw you, you had opened the door
I knew that I'd love again after a long, long while
I'd love again.
You said "hello" and I turned to go
But something in your eyes left my heart beating so
I just knew that I'd love again after a long, long while
I'd love again.
Refrain : It was destiny's game
For when love finally came on
I rushed in line only to find
That you were gone.
Whenever you are, I fear that I might
Have lost you forever like a song in the night
Now that I've loved again after a long, long while
I've loved again.
*Repeat Refrain*
Beautiful girl, I'll search on for you
'Til all of your loveliness in my arms come true
You've made me love again after a long, long while
In love again
And I'm glad that it's you
Hmm, beautiful girl.
http://www.esnips.com/doc/15762a1d-0e88-46b8-9307-c076650313d9/Beautiful_girl
Light my path
8:12:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
It’s over, it just took them a little more time to realize it.
Light my path
4:55:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 20 September 2008
“Those who hate most fervently must have once loved deeply, those who want to deny the world must have once embraced what they now set on fire.”
-Kurt Tucholsky
-Kurt Tucholsky
Light my path
11:35:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 19 September 2008
It was with great and utmost satisfaction as I clicked on the 'Yes'.
'Yes' to delete and block this person who has been harrassing me online for quite some time.
Aaaa....feel the peace and happiness radiating from me.
I am thinking of changing my handphone number too. Been wanting to change it for so long. May be I will get around to it soon. With that, I can finally have some peace and quiet, as the people whom I do not want to be able to contact me, will not be able to do.
Sounds pretty good.
'Yes' to delete and block this person who has been harrassing me online for quite some time.
Aaaa....feel the peace and happiness radiating from me.
I am thinking of changing my handphone number too. Been wanting to change it for so long. May be I will get around to it soon. With that, I can finally have some peace and quiet, as the people whom I do not want to be able to contact me, will not be able to do.
Sounds pretty good.
Light my path
7:39:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 18 September 2008
Was near the entrance of my office, sorting out some documents to be sent out to the consultants; as it was time to knock off, I had my bag with me so that I can leave after settling the work.
I was there, minding my own business, then this idiot walked in through the door and walked past me for a few metres and turned around again (I heard him doing all that even when I had my back turned); just as he was behind me, he said, "Wanting to go home, still pretend to be working."
I didn't deign to turn around, just plain ignored him while seething internally.
That smart mouth ass.
What pretending to do work?! If I was pretending to be hardworking, I'd have stayed in the office till 10pm, while surfing the Net. For goodness' sake, I was merely sending out the sub-contractors submissions as what I had been doing every day!
That don't-know-a-thing-yet-pretends-to ass.
So what if I go back on the dot every evening? Is that a crime? Is that wrong? Are you my boss? Is it against the company's rules or against the law? And for your info, I almost never go back on the dot every evening. Technically speaking, I almost always go off at 5.10pm or later. Almost never on the dot.
So there, presumptuous asses. Get off my case!
I was there, minding my own business, then this idiot walked in through the door and walked past me for a few metres and turned around again (I heard him doing all that even when I had my back turned); just as he was behind me, he said, "Wanting to go home, still pretend to be working."
I didn't deign to turn around, just plain ignored him while seething internally.
That smart mouth ass.
What pretending to do work?! If I was pretending to be hardworking, I'd have stayed in the office till 10pm, while surfing the Net. For goodness' sake, I was merely sending out the sub-contractors submissions as what I had been doing every day!
That don't-know-a-thing-yet-pretends-to ass.
So what if I go back on the dot every evening? Is that a crime? Is that wrong? Are you my boss? Is it against the company's rules or against the law? And for your info, I almost never go back on the dot every evening. Technically speaking, I almost always go off at 5.10pm or later. Almost never on the dot.
So there, presumptuous asses. Get off my case!
Light my path
10:58:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Having a one track mind is kind of annoying at times.
My throat hurts. *cries* A few days ago, the left side was hurting, but today it switched sides. The right of my throat is hurting.
Too much durian mooncakes. But they are too good to say 'No' to.
My throat hurts. *cries* A few days ago, the left side was hurting, but today it switched sides. The right of my throat is hurting.
Too much durian mooncakes. But they are too good to say 'No' to.
Light my path
8:58:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 17 September 2008
Ok, this is it.
I've just sent in my application to Uni SIM. Prayerfully hope that I can get in.
Yep.
It's been a long 3 years, but I am finally able to apply into Uni SIM. It had been torturous, watching others go into NUS, NTU, SIM, Uni SIM and other schools, while I were unable to due to financial problems.
The insecurity's all there. Fear of not being good enough. All those years ago, my school teachers had always given me high marks for my English assignments, tests and exams (though my O' Level English was really very disappointing), what if they are wrong? What if I am just plain lousy? I am just not bad in grammar, vocabulary, spelling, comprehension and composition. That doesn't mean much.
There really is nothing to be confident about. I find it kind of hard to believe that a mediocre person like me will be good in anything, except to be mediocre for the rest of my life. I had been a plain child, was a plain teenager, am a plain adult and will be an average and plain old woman (that is if I live to be that old).
Things of beauty, sweetness, joy and everything nice and wonderful, with sparkles and rainbows have long been dead.
No, I am not cynical nor am I jaded. A few more years down the road, may be.
Right.
Anyway, this is it. I hope I can get in and I hope that I will do excel (with plenty of hard work, of course).
I've just sent in my application to Uni SIM. Prayerfully hope that I can get in.
Yep.
It's been a long 3 years, but I am finally able to apply into Uni SIM. It had been torturous, watching others go into NUS, NTU, SIM, Uni SIM and other schools, while I were unable to due to financial problems.
The insecurity's all there. Fear of not being good enough. All those years ago, my school teachers had always given me high marks for my English assignments, tests and exams (though my O' Level English was really very disappointing), what if they are wrong? What if I am just plain lousy? I am just not bad in grammar, vocabulary, spelling, comprehension and composition. That doesn't mean much.
There really is nothing to be confident about. I find it kind of hard to believe that a mediocre person like me will be good in anything, except to be mediocre for the rest of my life. I had been a plain child, was a plain teenager, am a plain adult and will be an average and plain old woman (that is if I live to be that old).
Things of beauty, sweetness, joy and everything nice and wonderful, with sparkles and rainbows have long been dead.
No, I am not cynical nor am I jaded. A few more years down the road, may be.
Right.
Anyway, this is it. I hope I can get in and I hope that I will do excel (with plenty of hard work, of course).
Light my path
10:27:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
From now on, our paths diverge.
New roads are created, by the choices we make in life.
New roads are created, by the choices we make in life.
Light my path
10:25:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
"These last few hours we have together-"
"I'll make you forget everything-"
"-I'll make you forget this war-"
"-I'll make you forget every death you've witnessed-"
"-I'll make you forget your name-"
"...I'll make you forget everything...except my name!"
"I'll make you forget everything-"
"-I'll make you forget this war-"
"-I'll make you forget every death you've witnessed-"
"-I'll make you forget your name-"
"...I'll make you forget everything...except my name!"
Light my path
8:23:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
It's kind of private and kind of hidden
In the deep, dank place called a heart.
In the deep, dank place called a heart.
Light my path
12:14:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 16 September 2008
“Kiss me when I die.”
“That won’t bring you back to life.”
“Please.”
“…Okay.”
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“So, what would you do for me?”
“Lie, kiss, steal and kill and die and crawl on hands and knees—”
“Very funny.”
“I might’ve. Once upon a time.”
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4540705/1/Fake_Kingdom
“That won’t bring you back to life.”
“Please.”
“…Okay.”
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“So, what would you do for me?”
“Lie, kiss, steal and kill and die and crawl on hands and knees—”
“Very funny.”
“I might’ve. Once upon a time.”
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4540705/1/Fake_Kingdom
Light my path
11:01:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
“I look in the mirror sometimes and I can see everything looking back at me, everything that is ugly and twisted, and nothing of what I used to be. All the choices I have made seem to circle back to regrets.”
"...It's just me talking to myself now, isn't it?"
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4540705/1/Fake_Kingdom
"...It's just me talking to myself now, isn't it?"
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4540705/1/Fake_Kingdom
Light my path
10:58:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
And The Winner Is.........
HOME'S FAVOURITE!
For the uninformed, I am talking about Durian Mooncakes. Between the few that I tried, Home's Favourite's durian mooncakes is the best. Even better than the famous Goodwood Park Hotel's.
Seriously.
Though the snow skin of Home's Favourite's durian mooncake is rather mushy and overly soft, to the point of needing to use to a spoon to scoop some to eat; the durian filling is simply excellent. Thick and flavoured filled, bursting with aroma and durian goodness. I'd have given it 90 marks if not for the mushy snowskin, thus, a 70 it is, for Home's Favourite's Durian Mooncakes.
As for Goodwood Park's Durian Mooncakes, it was rather disappointing. I had such high expectations for them. The snow skin was a tad better than Home's Favourite, not as soft to the extent of melty; but nevertheless, it was a chore to cut it with a knife as it was really too soft (even though it had been in the refrigerator for a couple of days), in the end, I gave up and bit into the whole thing. Now, for the durian filling, it was a letdown too. After eating Home's Favourite's durian mooncakes, Goodwood Park's pale in comparison. It was not bad, but not as great as Home's Favourite. Next year, I am definitely buying Home's Favourite Durian Mooncakes. Goodwood Park's durian mooncakes have a rating of 60.
HOME'S FAVOURITE!
For the uninformed, I am talking about Durian Mooncakes. Between the few that I tried, Home's Favourite's durian mooncakes is the best. Even better than the famous Goodwood Park Hotel's.
Seriously.
Though the snow skin of Home's Favourite's durian mooncake is rather mushy and overly soft, to the point of needing to use to a spoon to scoop some to eat; the durian filling is simply excellent. Thick and flavoured filled, bursting with aroma and durian goodness. I'd have given it 90 marks if not for the mushy snowskin, thus, a 70 it is, for Home's Favourite's Durian Mooncakes.
As for Goodwood Park's Durian Mooncakes, it was rather disappointing. I had such high expectations for them. The snow skin was a tad better than Home's Favourite, not as soft to the extent of melty; but nevertheless, it was a chore to cut it with a knife as it was really too soft (even though it had been in the refrigerator for a couple of days), in the end, I gave up and bit into the whole thing. Now, for the durian filling, it was a letdown too. After eating Home's Favourite's durian mooncakes, Goodwood Park's pale in comparison. It was not bad, but not as great as Home's Favourite. Next year, I am definitely buying Home's Favourite Durian Mooncakes. Goodwood Park's durian mooncakes have a rating of 60.
Light my path
8:32:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 15 September 2008
Ugh.
Monday.
I think I am suffering from Monday blues. Make that workday blues.
Forgot to put on some blusher before going out, I only remembered that when I was at the bus stop. I suppose I will look ghastly for the rest of the day. All pale.
Feel like ditching work. For a long, long time. But I suppose I can't huh? 'Cause it'd be kind of irresponsible and all that.
Yah.
But, I am really, really, really sick and tired of it here. There isn't any reason to stay here anymore.
Everyone's telling me my problems at work are nothing compared to theirs. I suppose, that is true. I am just a little insignifcant nobody, so my troubles and stress amount to nothing. Yah, they have it worse, etc, etc.
They never understood a thing.
Anyway, last Saturday, after my course talk ended; Angeline drove us to an ice-cream shop at Sunset Way. The ice-cream at The Daily Scoop was pretty excellent. I got a scoop of Hazelnut on a piece of crispy and light waffle, while Angeline got a scoop of Strawberry and another of Cempedak. We had wanted to call Ronny out but he didn't answer our calls. The dial tone sounds a little different than usual, so we suppose he is out of the country. (Turns out we were right as I SMSed him last night to tell him that Angeline and I will be joining him in Uni SIM next January. And that we may be graduating together as Angeline told me that Ronny is deferring his studies. He replied and told me that he is in LA.)
Yah.
Back to the story, anyway, as we had no idea where to go and what to do after the ice-cream, Angeline and I sat in her car for some time. We talked for a bit and I went through the course booklet while she wiped her car's windscreen with some tissue papers.
Soon it was almost time for dinner, we headed off to some where near NUS for dinner. Once there, I was torn between the noodles shop (I saw that they sell 'man tou' too and I do love that) and the roti prata shop (been having a craving for roti prata recently). In the end, we went to both stalls!!=p
We shared a bowl of spicy noodles (it was rather oily though, but was spicy enough for the both of us) and a 'man tou'. The 'man tou' was disappointing. It was tasteless. Pure flour taste. Lacking in the slight sweetness of the 'man tous' we ate before.
When we were done, we went to the prata shop, which was one shop down and ordered a piece of cheese prata. Angeline got a glass of lime juice while I got the teh tarik. A group of us ate at that prata shop a few years back. Around 6-7 years back. That was when we had some sort of camp at NUS. When it ended, a group of us went to that prata shop to eat. I forgot all about that until I saw that shop. Couldn't remember it despite Angeline's reminders, until we drove to that place.
How funny it is, since that used to be a cherished memory. How quickly one forgets! I guess, when that thing or that person or place ceases to be as important as before; the memories just fade and sink into the depths of our minds.
After dinner, Angeline drove me home before heading back.
As for my Sunday, I went to AMK's Kbox with Chun Mei. It was pretty fun. We went during their Klunch hour.
Monday.
I think I am suffering from Monday blues. Make that workday blues.
Forgot to put on some blusher before going out, I only remembered that when I was at the bus stop. I suppose I will look ghastly for the rest of the day. All pale.
Feel like ditching work. For a long, long time. But I suppose I can't huh? 'Cause it'd be kind of irresponsible and all that.
Yah.
But, I am really, really, really sick and tired of it here. There isn't any reason to stay here anymore.
Everyone's telling me my problems at work are nothing compared to theirs. I suppose, that is true. I am just a little insignifcant nobody, so my troubles and stress amount to nothing. Yah, they have it worse, etc, etc.
They never understood a thing.
Anyway, last Saturday, after my course talk ended; Angeline drove us to an ice-cream shop at Sunset Way. The ice-cream at The Daily Scoop was pretty excellent. I got a scoop of Hazelnut on a piece of crispy and light waffle, while Angeline got a scoop of Strawberry and another of Cempedak. We had wanted to call Ronny out but he didn't answer our calls. The dial tone sounds a little different than usual, so we suppose he is out of the country. (Turns out we were right as I SMSed him last night to tell him that Angeline and I will be joining him in Uni SIM next January. And that we may be graduating together as Angeline told me that Ronny is deferring his studies. He replied and told me that he is in LA.)
Yah.
Back to the story, anyway, as we had no idea where to go and what to do after the ice-cream, Angeline and I sat in her car for some time. We talked for a bit and I went through the course booklet while she wiped her car's windscreen with some tissue papers.
Soon it was almost time for dinner, we headed off to some where near NUS for dinner. Once there, I was torn between the noodles shop (I saw that they sell 'man tou' too and I do love that) and the roti prata shop (been having a craving for roti prata recently). In the end, we went to both stalls!!=p
We shared a bowl of spicy noodles (it was rather oily though, but was spicy enough for the both of us) and a 'man tou'. The 'man tou' was disappointing. It was tasteless. Pure flour taste. Lacking in the slight sweetness of the 'man tous' we ate before.
When we were done, we went to the prata shop, which was one shop down and ordered a piece of cheese prata. Angeline got a glass of lime juice while I got the teh tarik. A group of us ate at that prata shop a few years back. Around 6-7 years back. That was when we had some sort of camp at NUS. When it ended, a group of us went to that prata shop to eat. I forgot all about that until I saw that shop. Couldn't remember it despite Angeline's reminders, until we drove to that place.
How funny it is, since that used to be a cherished memory. How quickly one forgets! I guess, when that thing or that person or place ceases to be as important as before; the memories just fade and sink into the depths of our minds.
After dinner, Angeline drove me home before heading back.
As for my Sunday, I went to AMK's Kbox with Chun Mei. It was pretty fun. We went during their Klunch hour.
Light my path
8:34:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Detest.
Thick and overwhelming distaste.
It is pulling me down.
Thick and overwhelming distaste.
It is pulling me down.
Light my path
8:20:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
This sense of dread is stifling.
Light my path
8:19:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 13 September 2008
“A fool in love makes no sense to me. I only think you are a fool if you do not love.”
-Anonymous
-Anonymous
Light my path
10:11:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
“Ever has it been that love knows not its own depth until the hour of separation.”
-Kahlil Gibran
-Kahlil Gibran
Light my path
10:11:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
“When I was little, I ran away from home for… a few hours, I suppose. I was upset over… something that I don’t even remember,” his voice is wobbly, like it can’t find anything to balance on. “I didn’t want friends. I didn’t want to be close to anyone. I thought… that maybe it would be easier not to be. And then I met somebody who showed me the first moment of kindness… ever.”
“…and then when I saw her again, I was happy. It was odd, for me. I spent a lot of time wanting to impress her, but never knowing how. So I just… stuck by her. I tried to. I tried not to be jealous when others were so open around her… and when she decided to make other friends and leave me behind…”
“…I wanted to hate her. Because she gave me kindness, and then she drifted away. For a long time I felt like that… but then I decided it had been my fault. Because I had never shown how much I’d cared. How much I’d appreciated her. Years later… I didn’t want to see her as a friend. I didn’t want to, because I knew she’d probably just leave again…I’m not the best company, only idiots befriend me…”
“…but then she started seeing someone,” his voice cracks a little. “Everything that I’d tried to forget came to the surface again, reminding me of… how much I did care. And how much I thought I never had. It got stronger, instead of going away… I tried to deny it, but… I couldn’t. And then, it got more complicated… and after so many ordeals, when she kissed me…”
“…I thought maybe it was kindness. Until it seemed like it was just all a ploy… I felt betrayed again. Like she’d single-handedly taken everything away. But… now I realise that was stupid, too, because she… she actually felt the same way as me, and I never thought to ask. I never saw it.”
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4044212/15/
“…and then when I saw her again, I was happy. It was odd, for me. I spent a lot of time wanting to impress her, but never knowing how. So I just… stuck by her. I tried to. I tried not to be jealous when others were so open around her… and when she decided to make other friends and leave me behind…”
“…I wanted to hate her. Because she gave me kindness, and then she drifted away. For a long time I felt like that… but then I decided it had been my fault. Because I had never shown how much I’d cared. How much I’d appreciated her. Years later… I didn’t want to see her as a friend. I didn’t want to, because I knew she’d probably just leave again…I’m not the best company, only idiots befriend me…”
“…but then she started seeing someone,” his voice cracks a little. “Everything that I’d tried to forget came to the surface again, reminding me of… how much I did care. And how much I thought I never had. It got stronger, instead of going away… I tried to deny it, but… I couldn’t. And then, it got more complicated… and after so many ordeals, when she kissed me…”
“…I thought maybe it was kindness. Until it seemed like it was just all a ploy… I felt betrayed again. Like she’d single-handedly taken everything away. But… now I realise that was stupid, too, because she… she actually felt the same way as me, and I never thought to ask. I never saw it.”
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4044212/15/
Light my path
9:42:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Living in the warmth of childhood naivety.
Wrapped in the blanket of surrealism.
I have never been colder than now.
When everything's stripped away.
Right down to the bare and ugly sludge.
Yet the mind has never been clearer.
Even as the body contorts from pain and cold,
And horrifying screams echo down the hallway.
Wrapped in the blanket of surrealism.
I have never been colder than now.
When everything's stripped away.
Right down to the bare and ugly sludge.
Yet the mind has never been clearer.
Even as the body contorts from pain and cold,
And horrifying screams echo down the hallway.
Light my path
9:14:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Can you go away?
It is a torture, seeing you.
Knowing that you can never
And will never give me what I want.
That what you can and are willing
To give, ain't what I want.
But, though it's kinda hard and it kinda hurts,
I will still take whatever you shell out.
If only to have a part of me in your life.
So, please stay.
As long as possible.
It is a torture, seeing you.
Knowing that you can never
And will never give me what I want.
That what you can and are willing
To give, ain't what I want.
But, though it's kinda hard and it kinda hurts,
I will still take whatever you shell out.
If only to have a part of me in your life.
So, please stay.
As long as possible.
Light my path
9:08:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Don't decide my life for me.
Don't assume you know all of me.
(You know nothing.)
Don't look at me that way.
Don't laugh with that twinkle in your eyes.
Don't touch me with such gentle tentativeness.
(When you don't see me that way.)
Don't assume you know all of me.
(You know nothing.)
Don't look at me that way.
Don't laugh with that twinkle in your eyes.
Don't touch me with such gentle tentativeness.
(When you don't see me that way.)
Light my path
9:03:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Moving and gliding along the night.
It is like silk and cream.
Smooth and savoury.
Addictive and with a tinge of sweetness.
It is like silk and cream.
Smooth and savoury.
Addictive and with a tinge of sweetness.
Light my path
8:59:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
What should it be?
Communications? Or Sociology with Communication?
Can any one tell me?
Pretty confused and at a loss.
Ya. I know that no one can and should tell me which course to go for. 'Cause I will be the one studying, not the other person and all that jazz.
But still......
Feeling like a pretty useless and dumb person.
I hate that.
Utterly.
Communications? Or Sociology with Communication?
Can any one tell me?
Pretty confused and at a loss.
Ya. I know that no one can and should tell me which course to go for. 'Cause I will be the one studying, not the other person and all that jazz.
But still......
Feeling like a pretty useless and dumb person.
I hate that.
Utterly.
Light my path
8:54:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
There's some people whom you long to see,
Long to meet.
Yet never do you ever run into them
Even if you live and work in the same building.
There's some people whom you never want
To set your eyes upon again.
Yet some how, you see them every day.
Every time you turn a corner, be it at a bustling mall
Or a quiet corner.
You will see them there. Right in front of you.
Long to meet.
Yet never do you ever run into them
Even if you live and work in the same building.
There's some people whom you never want
To set your eyes upon again.
Yet some how, you see them every day.
Every time you turn a corner, be it at a bustling mall
Or a quiet corner.
You will see them there. Right in front of you.
Light my path
8:44:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 11 September 2008
Watching from the sidelines.
This is another person's story.
A different person's life.
Not my joys and pains.
This is not my life.
They are not my friends.
And you are not my love.
Who is that?
That ugly and broken thing in the mirror.
This is another person's story.
A different person's life.
Not my joys and pains.
This is not my life.
They are not my friends.
And you are not my love.
Who is that?
That ugly and broken thing in the mirror.
Light my path
12:01:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 10 September 2008
The more she cares,
The deeper she fell.
And each day, things just get thinner and thinner.
And the heart grows colder and colder
As every thing spirals out of control and
It just hurts.
Everywhere.
The deeper she fell.
And each day, things just get thinner and thinner.
And the heart grows colder and colder
As every thing spirals out of control and
It just hurts.
Everywhere.
Light my path
11:55:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
“The heart has its reasons that reason knows nothing of.”
-Blaise Pascal
-Blaise Pascal
Light my path
12:20:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
“True love comes quietly, without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked.”
-Erich Segal
-Erich Segal
Light my path
12:19:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 9 September 2008
Was caught in a traffic jam this morning. Ugh. The traffic along Upper Thomson Road was very slow moving and I ended up late for work, reaching the office around 0830.
Getting rather fed up, pissed, annoyed, unhappy and stressed at work.
Please, my documents may be scattered about. But that doesn't mean that you can say I didn't issue your document to you when you can't find it in your record.
I guess all those keeping records and making things official does helps.
There seems to be never ending work. Ugh. Cleared this pile only to have few more piles coming in from different directions. There's 15 subcons and only one of me. And within the 15 companies, there's quite a few engineers and other staff. Do the math.
I wonder if I can hang on till end of the year (Year-end bonus). But, regardless of when I am leaving, I must clear off all my documents before I tender my resignation.
Ya.
I should get started. The sooner I start, the earlier I can leave this hell.
Getting rather fed up, pissed, annoyed, unhappy and stressed at work.
Please, my documents may be scattered about. But that doesn't mean that you can say I didn't issue your document to you when you can't find it in your record.
I guess all those keeping records and making things official does helps.
There seems to be never ending work. Ugh. Cleared this pile only to have few more piles coming in from different directions. There's 15 subcons and only one of me. And within the 15 companies, there's quite a few engineers and other staff. Do the math.
I wonder if I can hang on till end of the year (Year-end bonus). But, regardless of when I am leaving, I must clear off all my documents before I tender my resignation.
Ya.
I should get started. The sooner I start, the earlier I can leave this hell.
Light my path
10:36:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 6 September 2008
This is nothing. This too, will pass.
Been telling myself that every day.
Chanting it like a mantra.
This is ok. Everything's gonna be fine.
In its own time.
Every thing in its time.
With time and some getting-used-tos,
I'll be fine.
As I watch from the sidelines,
The happiness you derive from being by her side.
Been telling myself that every day.
Chanting it like a mantra.
This is ok. Everything's gonna be fine.
In its own time.
Every thing in its time.
With time and some getting-used-tos,
I'll be fine.
As I watch from the sidelines,
The happiness you derive from being by her side.
Light my path
11:53:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
My family thinks that I have a boyfriend.
*smacks head*
Must be those late nights and stuff like that.
*smacks head*
Must be those late nights and stuff like that.
Light my path
10:06:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
.
.
-x-
And I'll confess
That I can be a little selfish
Yeah, I'll admit
I don't want you to help me through this
I don't want to start over again
-x-
.
.
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4076687/8/Chasing_Rainbows
.
-x-
And I'll confess
That I can be a little selfish
Yeah, I'll admit
I don't want you to help me through this
I don't want to start over again
-x-
.
.
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4076687/8/Chasing_Rainbows
Light my path
9:51:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 5 September 2008
Many times I wondered why you lingered in my dreams.
Places I’ve wandered through, only hoping to get a glimpse of you.
Yet each time I’ve tried, you wandered further away from my grasp.
Were we not meant to be?
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4345943/4/The_Violinists_Phone
Places I’ve wandered through, only hoping to get a glimpse of you.
Yet each time I’ve tried, you wandered further away from my grasp.
Were we not meant to be?
- http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4345943/4/The_Violinists_Phone
Light my path
9:44:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
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