The Beauty of Simplicity

`` my daily journey. [#] `-

Friday, 30 May 2008

Maintaining a mask of politeness in face of some one whom you have low regards for, is an art that I have yet to perfect.

Slowly, but surely, I am progressing; I thought as I held my breath, gritted my teeth and counted to 20.

I am wondering, I am sure that at unguarded moments, my mask slipped. But why is it that those people still chose to pester me? Why do they want to stick to me? Is it pity, I wonder. Out of the many things I hate, 'pity' tops my list.

You can dislike me, backstab me or do whatever you want, but I want no one's pity. I am not pathetic, so I need no one's pity. Please don't be with me just 'cause you 'pity' me. It is an insult to me. I don't need you to be by my side just 'cause I seem lonely and depressed. I don't need your 'love' just 'cause you see that I am chasing so desperately after you, so in love with you that I will do anything as long as you asked. Thus, you are together with me. Because you see all that I did and my heart on my sleeve.

I don't need all that, alright?

If that is what you can and want to offer, I would rather I do not have you at all. I would rather you tell me the truth, instead of being by my side because of 'pity'.

I am not pitiful so I do not need your pity. I do not need anyone's pity. If you can't reciprocate, then say so. I can take it. I had taken it before, so one more time is nothing at all. After all, I learnt my lesson good and well. He is a good teacher.

I am wondering, why do some people never seem to get the hint. Is my coldness not obvious enough? Or do they not seem to feel the cold? Or perhaps, they are masochists?

Why do they persist on coming close to me? To me it is harrassment, since it is unwanted friendliness.

Go away, alright? Disappear from my line of vision.

Light my path
10:45:00 am

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Thursday, 29 May 2008

Man, some one should do some thing about those oh-so-frequent power trips. Not only are they an annoyance, a disturbance and a hindrance to the progress of work; it is simply unhealthy for the computers affected.

The power system at my section tripped a grand total of 5 times within a paltry half hour. For the last trip, the whole company was affected. Everything was cut all.

*Faints*

But, no fear!!!

My boss came to the rescue. Under his ministrations, everything was up and running within 10 minutes.

Yay.

Is he good or what?=) It is great having an LEW around.

Lalala...

Let's hope that things will be fine for the rest of the day.

Light my path
9:45:00 am

youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*

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Wednesday, 28 May 2008

Leona Lewis - Better in Time

It's been the longest winter without you
I didn't know where to turn to
See somehow I can't forget you
After all that we've been through

Going coming thought I heard a knock
Who's there no one
Thinking that I deserve it
Now I realise that I really didn't know
If you didn't notice you mean everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too (oh yeah)
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

I couldn't turn on the TV
Without something there to remind me
Was it all that easy
To just put aside your feelings

If I'm dreaming don't wanna laugh
Hurt my feelings but that's the path
I believe in
And I know that time will heal it
If you didn't notice boy you meant everything
Quickly I'm learning to love again
All I know is I'm gon' be ok

[Chorus:]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too (oh yeah)
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

[Chorus: X2]
Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too (oh)
It'll all get better in time
And even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to (Yes, I do)
It'll all get better in time

Heard this song by chance while I was in the gym today. Some parts of the song pretty much reflect my feelings. Do you like it?

Light my path
9:52:00 pm

youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*

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Monday, 26 May 2008

I am feeling weak
And am almost at the end of my tethers.

Though I know that you do not know,
Though I know that you do not have
Mind reading skills.
Though I know you do not have
The ability to to read my emotions and
Know my heart.

It is kinda unreasonable.
It is kinda demanding
And out of line.

But I can't help but wish that
You will be here for me.
Silently appearing by my side.
Knowing that I need you now.

I need you now,
I need you here.

Though it is kinda unreasonable,
Kinda illogical
To expect you to know, to sense
When I never said a thing.

But, in the deep recesses of my heart,
Ungoverned by rationality,
I wish and yearn for your presence by my side now.
Telling me things will be fine.
That you will be here.
That with you around, my world will
Never collapse.

I need you...

Light my path
11:31:00 pm

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Stop it, alright?

I am tired and have enough on my plate. Stop using me as the middle person.

What you want, just say it out. Don't say 'don't know' or 'anything' when it is anything but those. I am not a puppet, alright?

Stop! Stop!! STOP!!!!!!!

Solve your own differences. If they are resolved, then why are you avoiding each other? If you want to avoid each other, then say so. I would know what to do. Don't say 'anything' or 'I don't know' and expect me to know what you want. Give me a definite answer, alright?

Light my path
11:23:00 pm

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Sunday, 25 May 2008

I woke up rather early this morning, around 0830.

It is early, for a non-working day. Normally, I would wake up around 9:30am or 10am. My biological clock changed after I started working in POC.

With nothing much to do, I picked up my book and continued where I left off last night. My parents and eldest sister went out around 10:30am. I went into the kitchen in search of food, though I wasn't feeling hungry. It is just an action inspired by duty. Eating for the sake of it. I had a rather filling lunch yesterday with Rae Rae, Joling, Samuel and Thio. When my parents and 3rd sister asked if I would like to join them for dinner around 1740, my stomach was rebelling against that very idea.

Ugh.

They went ahead without me, to the Thai & Chinese restaurant across the road; while I went without dinner.

Anyway, I decided to order Mcdonald's after searching through the kitechen and finding no food to my liking. It was either instant noodles or biscuits or go hungry. In the end, I ordered a Hotcakes set and an additional Sasuage McMuffin without egg. I thought Id faint when the operator told me that the estimated time of delivery was 1 hour. But, what else can I do besides wait? As I have a bad craving for bread (thus the Sasuage McMuffin) and Hotcakes.

I returned to my book while waiting for my breakfast to come. Thank God that it wasn't a long wait, only 30 minutes.

So exciting!! I happily tucked into my hotcakes. Yum!!! I haven't had it in a year or more!! The melted magarine coupled with the syrup soaked hotcakes are heavenly!! If the hotcakes were piping hot................

Whoa.

To sum things up, it had been a very satisfying breakfast. Good enough to last me the entire day.

I think I should be making a trip to the library soon as I have finished reading those books. The library board should consider adjusting the loan limit. A 4 books limit is simply too low. Though they do adjust it to 8 books per card when it is the school holiday, what about non school holidays?

Ugh.

I need my books. Good books.

Light my path
12:18:00 pm

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Saturday, 24 May 2008

Ok. I am officially freaked out.

*Faint*

Why is it that things are getting more and more strange? Why are the people around me getting weirder and weirder? Giving me shocks? People whom I have known for years are not turning out to be what I had thought they are.

*Faint*

I am freaking out and at a loss about what to do.

Light my path
9:39:00 pm

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Alright, I know that I've been complaining and rambling a lot lately. But......*faints*

Ugh.

Was in a rather pissed mood earlier this morning. Some one whom I've been trying to avoid, SMSed me twice; asking 'How are you now?' and 'Have you reached the office?' And before I could reply, he actually called!!

Gah!

What if I had been asleep?!!!

No one calls at 7.30 in the morning, unless it is an emergency!!! And I SO do not think that asking if I had reached the office qualifies as an emergency or some thing urgent. Anyway, my first reflex was to reject the call.

Did I mentioned it before? That I do not answer any calls, which numbers are not in my phone book and that, in general, I seldom answer any call, unless it is from people whom are on my 'non-annoyance list'?

Aaa..if I have neglected to mentioned it before, you know it now. Friends who have known me for years would know.

With the slight disturbance, my mood took a nose dive for awhile, as I replied to those offending SMSes. Fine, I know that I may seem to be making a fuss out of nothing. But, please understand that when you are facing some one, whom you have mixed feelings for; it is hard not to react like this. Or perhaps, this is just me. I can never hide my feelings. But I'd like to think that I have better self control than last time. If it was last time, I would have scolded the person upside down for calling at an uncivilized hour (which is why I always switch off my phone when I sleep), just to ask such a trivial thing.

Though, I think I should still work on my self-restraint, for I think my irritation showed through my replies.

Yes!!

I will work at it. Mustn't be too rude, you know.

Light my path
7:57:00 am

youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*

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Friday, 23 May 2008

I am in a foul mood.

Ugh.

Alright, maybe because I am in a not-so-shiny mood so everything seems to annoy me.

I hate strangers touching me. And I hate people whom are only aquaintances, invading my personal space. All in all, I detest those whom I don't know touching me or standing too close to me.

How rude can they be?!

If you want to call me, can't you open your mouth and talk? Must you touch me?!!!

Don't touch me!!!!! I don't know you, period.

Friends, I am fine. But you, you are not a friend. So stay clear of me and no touching allowed. This is a civilized society and you've got a voice.

Use it.

Light my path
10:46:00 am

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All of a sudden, I realized that I am in a world of silence and solitude. All of a sudden, the previously cherished quietness and solitude; became overwhelming and oppressive. My world has become rather dreary and uncomfortable.

Why is that so, I wonder?

Is it because, now that I've known warmth; now that I've experienced light and tasted sweetness, thus making what I had once treasured pale in comparison?

I had thought, I had thought I am fine in my own world. I had once wandered about, trying to find a place to fit into, but never found one. Waking up to create my own haven and revelling in it. It had been comfortable enough, being alone. Though lonely at times, but those had been overcome. Not being overcame by it.

But now, it seems that once again, my world has became strange and ill-fitting.

Nonetheless, one day, things will be fine and my world will resume its comforting cool darkness. Because, after all, the earth doesn't stop spinning and the world doesn't stop just 'cause my world is off-kilter.

I just need to get used to things.

Light my path
10:21:00 am

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So, in the end,
All are for naught.

Is this the ending you want?

If that is so,
We shouldn't have met.

Light my path
10:19:00 am

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Wednesday, 21 May 2008

Lost Parrot Tells Veterinarian His Address

TOKYO - When Yosuke the parrot flew out of his cage and got lost, he did exactly what he had been taught — recite his name and address to a stranger willing to help.

Police rescued the African grey parrot two weeks ago from a neighbor's roof in the city of Nagareyama, near Tokyo. After spending a night at the station, he was transferred to a nearby veterinary hospital while police searched for clues, local policeman Shinjiro Uemura said.

He kept mum with the cops, but began chatting after a few days with the vet.

"I'm Mr. Yosuke Nakamura," the bird told the veterinarian, according to Uemura. The parrot also provided his full home address, down to the street number, and even entertained the hospital staff by singing songs.

"We checked the address, and what do you know, a Nakamura family really lived there. So we told them we've found Yosuke," Uemura said.

The Nakamura family told police they had been teaching the bird its name and address for about two years.

But Yosuke apparently wasn't keen on opening up to police officials.

"I tried to be friendly and talked to him, but he completely ignored me," Uemura said.

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20080521/ap_on_fe_st/odd_japan_parrot_returns

Light my path
11:17:00 pm

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Monday, 19 May 2008

I try not to care
About what you think of me.
I try not to wonder
If you noticed me or not.
I try not to be bothered
By your lukewarm responses.

I try not to think of you.
I try not to think, try not to wonder
If I am gone, will I be easily replaced?

I try not to see, not to hear
The affection you have for her.
Insecurities arising, sweeping me under like a tidal wave.
Despite reassurances.
For the chemistry, the magnetism between you and her
Allows no space in between.
There is no room for me. (Can't you see?)

I try not to let you
Have a firmer grasp on my heart.
I try not to depend on you
For strength to go from day to day.

For when you decide to leave,
At least I can still go on with life.

So, I must shut you from my heart.
I must tell myself, those soft gestures mean nothing.
But mere politeness and courtesy.
So, I say to myself, those looks are just over-imagination
On my part.
And so, I warn myself:
Never ever hold any hopes for you.

From you, there are many things,
But love and affection will never ever come from you.

(Let's just..be friends.)

Light my path
10:38:00 pm

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Saturday, 17 May 2008

There's enough paper at my desk to bury me completely.

Come! I am lying here now. Come! Bury me under all those documents! I am commanding you. This is an open invitation.

Never mind me.

I am just being sarcastic and trying to find joy in the pain. There's a lot of work to be done but I am feeling tired and boneless. I had a late night and I am now paying for it by feeling as if a truck had run me over, reversed and ran me over again. Repeatedly.

Feeling rather guilty as I had indulged in bad food last dinner. I brought Jimmy to the Japanese place, that Rae Rae, Joling and Thio brought me the other time. After dinner was dessert and tea at the NYDC next door. We had thought of going to Delifrance or Intercontinental or the place at Paragon for dessert. But in the end, we settled for NYDC. Dinner was on Jimmy so dessert was on me. Finally!! I think this is the first time he allowed me to treat him.

He ordered Ally's New York Cheesecake and a glass of OJ, while I had a slice of their 2X Chocolate Cheesecake and a cup of Earl Grey. He wasn't really happy with his cake and commented that we should have gone to the place at Paragon. Aa well......I liked mine pretty well. Chocolate and cheesecake. They are my two most favourite things in the world. Combined together, they made a marvellous pair.

Thus, I am now feeling guilty after indulging in "sinful" food. Man, I feel fat and I think I look fat.

HELP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It is a Saturday, most of my friends are not working; but sadly, I am. Joling, Rae Rae, Thio, Lynette, Ronny, Angeline are all not online. Haiz..............

Where is everyone?!!!!!!!!

Maybe it is me, though I don't think so, but it is rather cold in the office now. Hmm. I don't think it is me, for Miss Goh's wearing her jacket too.

I want to go home!!!! I don't want to work!!

*Bursts into tears*

Even my boss isn't here.

Sigh...

Where is everyone?!

I think, dependency is a scary thing. You get so used to the thing being there and one day if its isn't there anymore; the emptiness and loss of direction are scary and overwhelming.

But, I think, it is kind of too late for me, I fear. That presence, I can't do without now.

I was with Lois last evening, while waiting for Jimmy. We walked around and I bought a bottle of lilac nail polish. I'd never had thought that lilac is my colour. But I think, some how it looks not bad on me. We wandered around Bugis and went down to the basement.

I was amazed.

Whoa!! Look at all those food!! Delicious, yummy and drools-worthy food!!!

My gosh. I was so excited! There were crepes, chocolates, western food, sweets, muffins, pastries, Korean snacks and sushi, ice creams, cakes and more.

Whoa.

Witness my drooling.

In the end, I gave in to temptation and bought a chocolate coated pastry, that oozes chocolate cream when I bit into it. Its texture is soft and chewy with a slight tender moistness to its breadlike pastry.

I think it'd taste more wonderful if it was warm.

Where is everyone?!

I am bored and not in the mood to work! Though I have tonnes of work to do.

Did I mention before why I love Rain's voice?

Aa...why the sudden change of subject? You ask. Well, I am listening to his songs, right now. I love his voice. It is mellow, smooth like a good chocolate, tender and alive. I love it when he sings ballads. The way he sings, it is like he is singing to you; softly, gently, lovingly and tenderly. I enjoy some of his more 'rock' songs too. Though I do not understand what he is singing, but the way he sang and the music, are more than enough to win my heart. Besides, I do go online to look up the lyrics translation.

Oh boy...there's a whole load of submissions coming in.

I wanna cry.

Light my path
9:13:00 am

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Friday, 16 May 2008

*Repeatedly bangs head against wall*

I spoke too soon.

I got another big box of submissions. Courtesy of another contractor.

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

Sinks into depression.

Light my path
4:46:00 pm

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Dependency is detrimental to one's health.
Yet, I can't take my eyes off you.
Can't tear my thoughts away from you.

If one day, you are going to leave.
I will be one very tattered soul!

Light my path
4:35:00 pm

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TGIF!!

For the un-initiated, TGIF = Thank God It's Friday.

I am current feeling as if I have been drawn into a whirlwind and spat out (after being tossed and pulled in all directions).

It is with great relief that I announce that I have cleared 90% of the incoming work dumped on me. Of course, you must understand that the 90% does not include the updating, sorting and filing. As for the latter, it is 100% un-completed. I have merely cleared the easy part. There are more to come. But for the moment, I am glad. This feeling is indescrible. Kind of like a weight have been lifted off my chest. I can breathe easier now. Hopefully, the incoming onslaught will cease for the time being. At least till I clear my 100% un-completed stuff.

Desperately needing a break, thus, I am going out tonight. Actually, I was planning to meet up with Alvin tomorrow to pass him his birthday present and celebrate with him; but he SMSed me this morning, saying that his grandmother passed away. I wonder how he is doing. I hope he is not close to his grandmother, if not the pain will be greater. Is it kind of bad to think that way?

It is 30 minutes to 5pm. Almost time to knock-off! Going out with Jimmy for dinner tonight. Another birthday boy, but he is from April. And I have no present prepared. It is at home. Hmm, I will give it to him later, then. He is one whom I do not know what to give during all the birthdays and Christmases, as he can buy what he wants himself.

I hope things go well, all the way to the weekend!=)

Light my path
4:19:00 pm

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Monday, 12 May 2008

You'll know how far each has drifted away.

The gaping distance in between.

When the other didn't comprehend

What he or she had once did.

Light my path
10:19:00 pm

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I think I may have to retire my laptop pretty soon. It has been hanging recently. It is working fine one minute and will freeze and hang the next.

I am on a 2-days M.C. Even now, I am wondering what will be greeting me when I return to work on Wednesday. I have fallen sick at a bad time. Monday is the cut-off date for my weekly submissions. I have until Wednesday morning to tidy up everything and submit the reports. Now that I am on M.C., I won't be able to complete my work. I am wondering if I should return to work tomorrow.

I don't really want to, but on the other hand, the thought of my work piling even higher than it is now, sends chills down my back. I think I might faint or have seizures. Or go into hysterics.

Yes, yes. I am being over-dramatic.

*Sigh*

Ugh.

I am feeling sore all over, but am well on the road of recovery!=)

Rather disappointed though, that I am unable to meet up with Alvin to celebrate his birthday with him. I had made cookies for him too. And they can't be left uneaten for too long. Maybe I will bring them to his home. Yup! Delivery sounds good! A pretty good birthday surprise!

I am clever!=p

By the way, I saw Jeff Chang on one of the Taiwanese entertainment variety shows. I didn't know he is in the show till I saw the poster of his latest album.

*Cries*

By then, there was only 30 minutes of the show left.

*Bangs head*

I was channel surfing around and happened to stop at that particular channel. After watching for a few minutes, I switched to other channels but switched back when I failed to find more interesting shows. It was a few minutes after that, that I saw Jeff Chang's poster. Some time later, the camera swerved to reveal him sitting on a chair. Inwardly, I was banging my head against the wall. I should have woken up earlier!! I didn't even catch him sing!!

So, in order to assuage my disappointment, I am now listening to Jeff Chang's latest album!!=)

Light my path
8:54:00 pm

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Saturday, 10 May 2008

From this moment on,
Our paths will diverge.

Never will they cross again.

Light my path
8:39:00 am

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Perpetual Motion
The motion of a theoretical mechanism that, without any losses due to friction or other forms of dissipation of energy, would continue to operate indefinitely at the same rate without any external energy being applied to it.

Light my path
8:36:00 am

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Wednesday, 7 May 2008

I am going to go crazy. Utterly fed up and frustrated at work. Tired and snowed under with mountains of documents. Of which the sender/s has/have no decent amount of intelligence to handle them with. And they call themselves engineers. They do not even have the basic common sense to do simple reading. I wonder why their lecturers let them out of the school.

I am so totally 'pek chek' that I do not even have the words to go on.

Totally down and upset. Really want to go screaming as I destroy those offending documents. But rationality tells me otherwise. I do not want to go on and on and on about the same old thing. After all, people will get tired of me complaining. Another thing is that, this should be just a trifle matter; it is just that while one is in the situation, things seem bigger and overwhelming. Lastly, I doubt they will really understand and empathize.

In addition to the abovementioned frustrations, I am wrestling with some inner dilemmas too. So this is not a good time for me.

Light my path
9:58:00 am

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Thinking of you...
Desolate without you.

Wishing that you are here..
Am I ever in your thoughts?

Miss you.

Light my path
9:55:00 am

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Saturday, 3 May 2008

It has been a long and great day!!

I am really contented. Not overtly excited or elated.

Rachel and I went to IMM after we left Shaw. (We had meet up at the lobby of our workplace after I ended work and went there.)

We reached IMM mall around 1530. We were walking leisurely until I heard his latest song "逃生" wafting out from the inside of the mall. We picked up pace and even ran at times. Gosh. The whole meet & greet session was supposed to start at 1500. It hadn't matter even if we didn't go, for I am not the type to go chasing after any one. Even if he is the man who makes me heart triples..=p

Just not my style. I really am a mule at times. The more I like some one, the more I will distance myself and appear to be unconcerned. I like Jeff Chang's singing ever since I had first heard him sing. I want to see him, yet at the same time, I do not want to appear to be too eager; acting like a lovesick school girl or crazed fan. I have nothing against those who express their admiration for him in their own unique way. Like I mentioned before, it is not my style to do such things.

I was contented to watch him, though I couldn't really see past all those heads straining to get a better position. Though contented and satisfied, a twinge still remained. I would have wondered what would have it been if I had given in and bought his album and joined the queue to ask for his signature.

In the end, thanks to Rachel who gave me a little push and much needed encouragement and courage; I went up and bought his album and joined the long queue.

(Thank you, Rae Rae!!)

If she hadn't encouraged me to go ahead, I would have just stood by and let things happen. I am glad that I did what I did today.

I was a little nervous as soon as I saw him singing, which was even before I went to buy his album. Before it was decided that I would go and ask for his signature.

My face was totally tensed and fierce.

*cries*

That is my weak point. Whenever in situations like this,, when I am scared and nervous; I would show my fiercest face. Perhaps it is a form of self defense, protection. Not letting others see into my world, to know how scared or nervous I am feeling.

When I was in the queue, my signature face was on. Unshakable. Firmly on.

*Bangs head*

I know that I looked angry and unapproachable with that forbidding expression on. But, that wasn't what I was truly feeling. As the line moved ahead, the anxiety became very overwhelming. I think my expression was at its peak or some thing like that.

Gosh.

By the time I was very near to the stage and with no people in front of me blocking the view; I know it sounds fangirly, but I was really captivated. I think my heart went into overdrive.

*Blushes*

There is something attractive about him. After all, he has been singing love songs to me ever since I first heard him. I am quite a melancholic person by nature and his songs, full of longing, agony, wistfulness, loss, dreams and hope; struck a chord within me. Coupled with beautifully heartrending lyrics, his voice accompanied me through the years. Forever able to bring comfort and resonates with my heart.

When it was finally my turn, I was completely and totally nervous. I kept looking at him. Staring or maybe glaring. Though I do not mean to glare. Never!!

*cries*

As Jeff Chang was signing my album, I looked down at his bent head. Though it si completely irrelvant, I observed his head of hair and thought to myself, "Wow.....His hair is curly. And slightly highlighted." Before that, while I was waiting for my turn, I was given a pink carnation. It is Jeff Chang's gift to us, in addition, Mother's Day is near; thus the gift.

*swoons*

LOL.

Forgive me, I am merely on high. Not on drugs, mind you.

A letdown part would be that I think I surprised him when I presented him with a rather dark look. *sobs* I was nervous!! And he was right in front of me!!

*Crashes into wall*

Anyway, we shook hands and I said, "Thank you.", all the while trying to smile but failing, I think.

Sigh.

I oughta get rid of this bad habit of mine.

I have been rambling long enough! And.......................*drum roll*

Now I proudly present Jeff Chang's newest album - 逃生!!!

It is a wonderful new album, with new breakthroughs in music. Jeff Chang's voice is still serenading me all the way to my heart. With the release of a new album, new genres of music have been added and listeners will be in for some pleasant surprises. It is strongly recommended to purchase his latest album - 逃生! I like 残念，逃生，牡丹优，小木马，长途旅行 and 天使的眼泪.

Light my path
11:32:00 pm

youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*

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Friday, 2 May 2008

Even if it hurts me deep,
And cuts me to me to the quick,
I have to leave.

Even if everything inside
Is screaming and shouting,
Urging and pleading
For me to stay.

I can't.

I can't stay any longer.
So please make all these feelings go away.
Silence those urgent voices.
Promising utter regret if I choose to go.

I got to go. I've got to leave.
It is painful leaving you.
It is scary facing the unknown without you.
It is uncertain, the looming darkness ahead.

But, I've got to leave.
For I have my goals
And life's a harsh reality.
Though I am fearful of losing you
To another,
I've got to go and create my own world.

If we are meant to be,
Surely under this vast blue skies,
We will reunite.

(This is my goodbye song.)

Light my path
9:06:00 am

youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*

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