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UNITED KINGDOM - Highland cattle during blizzards on Tyneside, Newcastle as the bad weather across the UK continues.
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As for this song, I love the way he sang it and how different his voice seems to be. It doesn't sounds like him. In a good way, of course. It'd be kind of boring and rather stale to always have the same style and expression.
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張信哲 - 受罪
陌生的城市 被惡夢驚醒的黑夜 拉開窗簾 看著無人的街
熟悉的音樂響在耳邊 我看著眼前已沒有感覺的世界 想起了你
我發現 我在安靜無聲地掉淚 這才明白被傷得有多重
曾經我以為 事過境遷
走了這麼遠 總該能把痛給忘卻
距離卻一再提醒對你的想念
就讓我愛裡頭受罪 瘋狂的疲憊 不相信你會走得那麼絕
既然沒有權利快樂 至少擁有全部傷悲
你讓我愛裡頭受罪 卻沒有怨言 連折磨自己都無法避免
活在你留下的深淵 我看不見天
開始習慣黑夜
Most of Jeff Chang's songs are my favourites. But this is song is one of my very favourites. Somehow the lyrics speak to me. The opening lines set the tone for the song. They bring out an image. The picture of a man, alone in a strange and new city; jolted awake from a nightmare. He walks to the window to get some fresh air and to chase away any remnants of that upsetting dream. It is dark and late at night; all are quiet and the streets are empty. All these made this man fall into a world of solitude. It is like he is all alone.
It is beautiful, in a melancholic way.
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http://science.howstuffworks.com/disappearing-lake.htm
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Monday, 28 April 2008
Love and dreams are not for me.
It is written in my DNA
And mingles in every breath I take.
Love and dreams are never mine.
Like a child, I had thought if I lingered around
And waited.
One day, you'd see me as I've always seen you.
But I should have known,
Should have wised up.
To realise that it is all fool's gold.
The fabled pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
Is naught but a tale.
Just like the foolish hope in my heart.
Love and dreams are not for me.
It is written in my DNA
And mingles in every breath I take.
Love and dreams are never mine.
It is written in my DNA
And mingles in every breath I take.
Love and dreams are never mine.
Like a child, I had thought if I lingered around
And waited.
One day, you'd see me as I've always seen you.
But I should have known,
Should have wised up.
To realise that it is all fool's gold.
The fabled pot of gold at the end of the rainbow
Is naught but a tale.
Just like the foolish hope in my heart.
Love and dreams are not for me.
It is written in my DNA
And mingles in every breath I take.
Love and dreams are never mine.
Just like you...
Light my path
4:47:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Last week had been a very trying week for me.
More emotionally than physically. Thus, in a way, it is good that I have better control over my emotions than last time.
The route ahead looms ominously. I am torn between staying and leaving. I'd land a new job first before resigning, of course.
On one hand, I am dying and desperate to get out of here. For a better paying job in order to finance my studies. On the other hand, I can't bear to leave my newfound friends. They are great people. But as one of them told me, this project will end. We will still have to part ways. It is only a matter of time.
So very true. Even if I do not leave now and hang on till the end of the project, so what then? We will still part. Frankly, there is nothing keeping me here, in my company. Except for the comfortable environment. And some people, of course. Other than that, no.
I know that, there will be always be problems, no matter what kind of job I take up. Leaving here doesn't mean leaving my problems behind. So, I guess, my main issue is the pay.
Just last year, I was still naively thinking that money isn't everything. That I should and must find a job I like. Now, I know, that is just a child's way of thought. True, money isn't everything. But without it, you can't do a lot of things. When you have bills to pay and mouths to feed, can you still say, "I want to work in a job where I have the interest."?
Can you?
I know I can't.
I used to think that I can. But now, in reality, I know I can't.
It is cynical, a jaded way of thinking. But all too real.
Now, as long as the price is right, I do not hate the job and I can cope with the job scope; I will take up the job in a breath. Who cares about whether I am interested in the job or not? Just get the job done and done well, are all that I ask of myself.
More emotionally than physically. Thus, in a way, it is good that I have better control over my emotions than last time.
The route ahead looms ominously. I am torn between staying and leaving. I'd land a new job first before resigning, of course.
On one hand, I am dying and desperate to get out of here. For a better paying job in order to finance my studies. On the other hand, I can't bear to leave my newfound friends. They are great people. But as one of them told me, this project will end. We will still have to part ways. It is only a matter of time.
So very true. Even if I do not leave now and hang on till the end of the project, so what then? We will still part. Frankly, there is nothing keeping me here, in my company. Except for the comfortable environment. And some people, of course. Other than that, no.
I know that, there will be always be problems, no matter what kind of job I take up. Leaving here doesn't mean leaving my problems behind. So, I guess, my main issue is the pay.
Just last year, I was still naively thinking that money isn't everything. That I should and must find a job I like. Now, I know, that is just a child's way of thought. True, money isn't everything. But without it, you can't do a lot of things. When you have bills to pay and mouths to feed, can you still say, "I want to work in a job where I have the interest."?
Can you?
I know I can't.
I used to think that I can. But now, in reality, I know I can't.
It is cynical, a jaded way of thinking. But all too real.
Now, as long as the price is right, I do not hate the job and I can cope with the job scope; I will take up the job in a breath. Who cares about whether I am interested in the job or not? Just get the job done and done well, are all that I ask of myself.
Light my path
4:21:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 26 April 2008
If love can be measured,
(My love will not lose to hers).
If love is defined by superficiality,
(Then surely, you will be mine).
If love can be defined by the very first meeting,
(Then surely, you'd have loved me).
But the cold, harsh truth is,
Love can't be measured.
Love isn't based on superficiality.
Love isn't based on who met whom first.
So baby, even though I pine and whine.
Even as this gaping hole aches and consumes.
I know, you'd never be mine.
'Cause you have eyes only for my best friend.
All day long and all night long,
Going through all the 'Ifs',
The way some go through their wardrobe.
If she'd never met you, would you have loved me the way you love her?
If I am gentle like a lady, would you have cradled and cherished me like a priceless treasure?
If my beauty is like hers, would your eyes be drawn to me the way yours are captured by her beauty?
If my personality is as colourful as the rainbow, would you have appreciated me more?
If I am her, would I be you world?
If love can be measured,
If love can be cheated,
If it can be manipulated,
If it is superficial,
Then you'd have been mine.
(My love will not lose to hers).
If love is defined by superficiality,
(Then surely, you will be mine).
If love can be defined by the very first meeting,
(Then surely, you'd have loved me).
But the cold, harsh truth is,
Love can't be measured.
Love isn't based on superficiality.
Love isn't based on who met whom first.
So baby, even though I pine and whine.
Even as this gaping hole aches and consumes.
I know, you'd never be mine.
'Cause you have eyes only for my best friend.
All day long and all night long,
Going through all the 'Ifs',
The way some go through their wardrobe.
If she'd never met you, would you have loved me the way you love her?
If I am gentle like a lady, would you have cradled and cherished me like a priceless treasure?
If my beauty is like hers, would your eyes be drawn to me the way yours are captured by her beauty?
If my personality is as colourful as the rainbow, would you have appreciated me more?
If I am her, would I be you world?
If love can be measured,
If love can be cheated,
If it can be manipulated,
If it is superficial,
Then you'd have been mine.
Light my path
2:45:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
If feelings can be stopped
And love can be made to order.
Then, this agony wouldn't be mine.
If I can go to bed loving you
And wake up not loving you.
Perhaps, there would no tears tonight.
If it can be let known,
And be let go.
Just maybe, a happily ever after is that not far off.
If wishes and crushes do come true,
And all things nice do exist.
You might have loved me too.
And love can be made to order.
Then, this agony wouldn't be mine.
If I can go to bed loving you
And wake up not loving you.
Perhaps, there would no tears tonight.
If it can be let known,
And be let go.
Just maybe, a happily ever after is that not far off.
If wishes and crushes do come true,
And all things nice do exist.
You might have loved me too.
Light my path
2:17:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 24 April 2008
The more I see of you, the more I am drawn to you.
The way a moth is attracted to the flame of a candle.
Mesmerized by the bright flickering light,
Closer and closer.
Till its wings catch fire
And burn.
Surely, it knew that it would be burnt.
Yet it still drew near, being entranced
By your beauty and the deep throated chuckles.
In the end, who's to be blamed?
There is no one to be blamed.
Surely, not the flame!!
The fates can only lament at the moth's feeble will.
For desiring the flame.
Despite knowing nothing good will ever come.
(You entrance me so.)
The way a moth is attracted to the flame of a candle.
Mesmerized by the bright flickering light,
Closer and closer.
Till its wings catch fire
And burn.
Surely, it knew that it would be burnt.
Yet it still drew near, being entranced
By your beauty and the deep throated chuckles.
In the end, who's to be blamed?
There is no one to be blamed.
Surely, not the flame!!
The fates can only lament at the moth's feeble will.
For desiring the flame.
Despite knowing nothing good will ever come.
(You entrance me so.)
Light my path
10:26:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Why look when I know you won't be there?
Why search when you aren't willing to be found?
Why wait, when you won't be coming back?
Light my path
10:23:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 19 April 2008
Made some new friends lately! I am very glad, for I never expect to be making real friends after I start working. All that office politics and stuff. Thank God that there isn't much of that in my company. Or maybe I am just out of the loop?
Anyway, the new friends I made are not from my company. I got to know them from work. They are really fun and nice people!=) It's been so long since I had fun with friends, aside from the usual people like Ronny, Angeline, Alvin & Sebastian. I think I have started to forget what is 'fun'. But this group of people are really cool and great to be with. There is this lady with whom I can talk crap with. And she always offers me food! I think I've been down to her office, almost every single day of the week!!
Gosh!
If this goes on...........the pounds will start piling on!!
*cries*
If they haven't already.
We went out for dinner on Monday, to a Japanese place in Bugis Junction. It is called MOF @ My Izakaya, found on level 2, located near Watsons. The food there is great! I would recommend it to people who likes Japanese cuisine.
We went out again this afternoon. It was an impromptu thingy. We watched "The Other Boleyn Girl". The ladies had wanted to watch "Definitely Maybe", one wanted all blood, gore and fighting; while the other guy and I remained neutral. In the end we settled for "The Other Boleyn Girl" (partly due to my suggestion) as the timing for "Definitely Maybe" wasn't suitable. I don't know if they enjoyed the movie, but I found it above average. Not as nice as I had expected. I admire the younger sister - Mary Boleyn. She really loved the King, but her sister betrayed her, turned him away from her; all because Anne Boleyn thought that her sister had seduced him away from her (The Boleyn family wanted to remain and rise up in power, so they arranged for Anne Boleyn to ensnare King Henry. But Mary, who was married, caught his eye instead. Thus, he arranged for her and her husband to go and serve in the court so as to facilitate meetings with Mary. Mary had no choice but to be his mistress as her husband and family had agreed to the King's arrangement.) Despite Anne's betrayal, she still came through for Anne when she needed her help. Her testimony helped Anne became the Queen of England. Towards the end of the movie, when Anne and their brother were found guilty of incest and adultery and sentenced to death; Mary, at the risk of her well-being (her whole family's in disgrace), rushed back to beg the King for her sister's life.
Not every one can do that. It takes a big heart. I admire her a lot for that.
After leaving the movie theatre, we went for some retail therapy. We shopped all the way, from Shaw to Wisma and Ngee Ann City. A skirt had caught my eye, but it was too expensive so I didn't buy it. I like it, but I don't love it. When I am buying things, I abide by that rule. In the end, I bought a skirt from Iora in Wisma. When we passed by Famous Amos, I nearly drooled. I think it almost came out!!=X
We ate dinner at Central, located in basement 2 of Ngee Ann City. The seafood in tomato & white sauce cheese baked rice is tasty. I love the gooey cheese!! But sadly, I wasn't able to finish the whole thing. Nevertheless, I ate up all the cheese and seafood, leaving almost half of the rice untouched.
During the whole outing, we took turns teasing one of the guy. He's real fun to tease!=p It is really a joy to see the way they interact with each other. Never before have I been in a working environment where I enjoyed such a relaxed working relationship with my boss. (Though Cassandra comes close to it.) But on the other hand, I was rather uncomfortable at times when it was too quiet. It made me wonder if it is because I am there, so they do not feel comfortable enough to talk freely. I try not to dwell upon that and just let things be. After all, all friendships do not start off, with the people being on such familiar terms with each other, right?
After dinner, we went up to the upper levels. The Orchard library is gone!!!
*cries*
I had heard about it, but did not know that they had moved out. I had thought that they will be moving out in year 2010. We wandered about and stopped at OSIM. There we took turns trying out the products and giving our poor feet a good massage!=p
By the time we departed from Ngee Ann City, it was almost 10pm. We stopped at 7-Eleven to buy some drinks before heading back to our office tower. I got a slight surprise when we reached. The front entrance was teeming with foreigners. It was rather intimidating. I had always known about what goes on at that building after 7 or 8pm. But what I saw earlier was a little more extreme than what I am used to.
We parted ways after reaching the carpark, hitching a ride home with one of the guys. Thank you!
All in all, it was a great evening! Come to think of it, I didn't pay a single cent for the movie we watched and the things we ate and drank. This isn't so good, is it? Yikes!!
I guess, that sums up what happened today. I am off to bed, as I will be helping out in Funky B, 9 hours later!
Anyway, the new friends I made are not from my company. I got to know them from work. They are really fun and nice people!=) It's been so long since I had fun with friends, aside from the usual people like Ronny, Angeline, Alvin & Sebastian. I think I have started to forget what is 'fun'. But this group of people are really cool and great to be with. There is this lady with whom I can talk crap with. And she always offers me food! I think I've been down to her office, almost every single day of the week!!
Gosh!
If this goes on...........the pounds will start piling on!!
*cries*
If they haven't already.
We went out for dinner on Monday, to a Japanese place in Bugis Junction. It is called MOF @ My Izakaya, found on level 2, located near Watsons. The food there is great! I would recommend it to people who likes Japanese cuisine.
We went out again this afternoon. It was an impromptu thingy. We watched "The Other Boleyn Girl". The ladies had wanted to watch "Definitely Maybe", one wanted all blood, gore and fighting; while the other guy and I remained neutral. In the end we settled for "The Other Boleyn Girl" (partly due to my suggestion) as the timing for "Definitely Maybe" wasn't suitable. I don't know if they enjoyed the movie, but I found it above average. Not as nice as I had expected. I admire the younger sister - Mary Boleyn. She really loved the King, but her sister betrayed her, turned him away from her; all because Anne Boleyn thought that her sister had seduced him away from her (The Boleyn family wanted to remain and rise up in power, so they arranged for Anne Boleyn to ensnare King Henry. But Mary, who was married, caught his eye instead. Thus, he arranged for her and her husband to go and serve in the court so as to facilitate meetings with Mary. Mary had no choice but to be his mistress as her husband and family had agreed to the King's arrangement.) Despite Anne's betrayal, she still came through for Anne when she needed her help. Her testimony helped Anne became the Queen of England. Towards the end of the movie, when Anne and their brother were found guilty of incest and adultery and sentenced to death; Mary, at the risk of her well-being (her whole family's in disgrace), rushed back to beg the King for her sister's life.
Not every one can do that. It takes a big heart. I admire her a lot for that.
After leaving the movie theatre, we went for some retail therapy. We shopped all the way, from Shaw to Wisma and Ngee Ann City. A skirt had caught my eye, but it was too expensive so I didn't buy it. I like it, but I don't love it. When I am buying things, I abide by that rule. In the end, I bought a skirt from Iora in Wisma. When we passed by Famous Amos, I nearly drooled. I think it almost came out!!=X
We ate dinner at Central, located in basement 2 of Ngee Ann City. The seafood in tomato & white sauce cheese baked rice is tasty. I love the gooey cheese!! But sadly, I wasn't able to finish the whole thing. Nevertheless, I ate up all the cheese and seafood, leaving almost half of the rice untouched.
During the whole outing, we took turns teasing one of the guy. He's real fun to tease!=p It is really a joy to see the way they interact with each other. Never before have I been in a working environment where I enjoyed such a relaxed working relationship with my boss. (Though Cassandra comes close to it.) But on the other hand, I was rather uncomfortable at times when it was too quiet. It made me wonder if it is because I am there, so they do not feel comfortable enough to talk freely. I try not to dwell upon that and just let things be. After all, all friendships do not start off, with the people being on such familiar terms with each other, right?
After dinner, we went up to the upper levels. The Orchard library is gone!!!
*cries*
I had heard about it, but did not know that they had moved out. I had thought that they will be moving out in year 2010. We wandered about and stopped at OSIM. There we took turns trying out the products and giving our poor feet a good massage!=p
By the time we departed from Ngee Ann City, it was almost 10pm. We stopped at 7-Eleven to buy some drinks before heading back to our office tower. I got a slight surprise when we reached. The front entrance was teeming with foreigners. It was rather intimidating. I had always known about what goes on at that building after 7 or 8pm. But what I saw earlier was a little more extreme than what I am used to.
We parted ways after reaching the carpark, hitching a ride home with one of the guys. Thank you!
All in all, it was a great evening! Come to think of it, I didn't pay a single cent for the movie we watched and the things we ate and drank. This isn't so good, is it? Yikes!!
I guess, that sums up what happened today. I am off to bed, as I will be helping out in Funky B, 9 hours later!
Light my path
11:17:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 17 April 2008
Morning! And I am loving my peanut butter & jelly sandwich!=)
Yummy!
I collected my Jeff Chang CDs last evening from the Post Office. Now, I am the proud owner of 16 or 17 Jeff Chang CDs!!
I am still trying to source for the remaining ones. Some of his earliest albums are being sold at sky high prices. The most expensive one I saw was $500. No way, man!
I am not made of money, nor does my parents operate a money printing press. Though they do own a printing company, but it is a totally different thing altogether .
The ones which I newly acquired yesterday, are mainly second hand CDs. They are in pretty good condition and being sold rather cheaply too. So, I guess I lucked out this time!=p
Had been rather busy the past few days. I was going crazy and was at the point of exploding. Thank God for nice people who simply brightens my dreary days. Other people who made those past few days hellish, I sure can do without them.
In a slightly morbid (not really very morbid) way, looking at things from a different point of view; it was rather amusing how I got annoyed & pushed to my limits and recovered by the end of the day. And how the same old thing happens the next day. If I am a suspicious person, I would think that it is all a conspiracy. That the people are ganging up on me, to push me a little more each day, to see when I will break.
Haha.......
Some good things happened to me recently. I am really very happy and glad. I am basking in this newfound joy, but at the same time, a dark cloud of gloom has been gathering at a corner of my mind.
I really detest my way of thinking. Why can I not accept the good things in my life as what they are - God's blessings. But some how or rather, a part of me, is thinking that what if all these are fake? What if it is not true? What if it is all a pretence?
I think, it would break my heart if it is true.
I am scared to put my heart in. Only to discover later, that what a fool I have been. I am really scared.
Another thing, is that: slowly but surely, I am developing a dislike for myself. I never really like myself a lot. But recently, I have really start to detest myself.
Why am I such a pretender? Why does my lips speak one thing and my heart speaks another? I hate this dishonest side of myself. I hate this pretentious person. It is so disgusting. Why can't I be speak my mind? Why must I be such a bad person?
At times, when there are people who annoyed me, the past me would be giving them that kind of 'face' and some words but instead I still smile (albeit forced, I must say) at them. Why am I like that? What a hypocrite.
What happened to the past Hazel? She would have not given any one 'face' when she was pissed. She was the one who would have her feelings written all over her face. Be it joy, anger or sadness. Who is this person who calls herself 'Hazel'?
Why does the words that fall from her lips, not match up to what she is feeling inside?
I hate myself. And the worst part is that people seem to think that I am a not bad person.
But on the other hand, I do not know if I ought to be glad or not; I am still unable to hide my feelings of anger and displeasure. My face will turn totally dark and tense. Just a bit down from my normal 'black' face as I had been called in secondary school.
Ugh.
I cannot help it if my normal expressionless face seems so forbidding to others, making me seem angry when I am not.
I hope to be more honest with myself.
Yummy!
I collected my Jeff Chang CDs last evening from the Post Office. Now, I am the proud owner of 16 or 17 Jeff Chang CDs!!
I am still trying to source for the remaining ones. Some of his earliest albums are being sold at sky high prices. The most expensive one I saw was $500. No way, man!
I am not made of money, nor does my parents operate a money printing press. Though they do own a printing company, but it is a totally different thing altogether .
The ones which I newly acquired yesterday, are mainly second hand CDs. They are in pretty good condition and being sold rather cheaply too. So, I guess I lucked out this time!=p
Had been rather busy the past few days. I was going crazy and was at the point of exploding. Thank God for nice people who simply brightens my dreary days. Other people who made those past few days hellish, I sure can do without them.
In a slightly morbid (not really very morbid) way, looking at things from a different point of view; it was rather amusing how I got annoyed & pushed to my limits and recovered by the end of the day. And how the same old thing happens the next day. If I am a suspicious person, I would think that it is all a conspiracy. That the people are ganging up on me, to push me a little more each day, to see when I will break.
Haha.......
Some good things happened to me recently. I am really very happy and glad. I am basking in this newfound joy, but at the same time, a dark cloud of gloom has been gathering at a corner of my mind.
I really detest my way of thinking. Why can I not accept the good things in my life as what they are - God's blessings. But some how or rather, a part of me, is thinking that what if all these are fake? What if it is not true? What if it is all a pretence?
I think, it would break my heart if it is true.
I am scared to put my heart in. Only to discover later, that what a fool I have been. I am really scared.
Another thing, is that: slowly but surely, I am developing a dislike for myself. I never really like myself a lot. But recently, I have really start to detest myself.
Why am I such a pretender? Why does my lips speak one thing and my heart speaks another? I hate this dishonest side of myself. I hate this pretentious person. It is so disgusting. Why can't I be speak my mind? Why must I be such a bad person?
At times, when there are people who annoyed me, the past me would be giving them that kind of 'face' and some words but instead I still smile (albeit forced, I must say) at them. Why am I like that? What a hypocrite.
What happened to the past Hazel? She would have not given any one 'face' when she was pissed. She was the one who would have her feelings written all over her face. Be it joy, anger or sadness. Who is this person who calls herself 'Hazel'?
Why does the words that fall from her lips, not match up to what she is feeling inside?
I hate myself. And the worst part is that people seem to think that I am a not bad person.
But on the other hand, I do not know if I ought to be glad or not; I am still unable to hide my feelings of anger and displeasure. My face will turn totally dark and tense. Just a bit down from my normal 'black' face as I had been called in secondary school.
Ugh.
I cannot help it if my normal expressionless face seems so forbidding to others, making me seem angry when I am not.
I hope to be more honest with myself.
Light my path
8:03:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 16 April 2008
I have been dreaming…
A long... Never-ending, dream...
In that dream I have loved… I have hated…. I have died….
In that dream I have changed….
But perhaps, that was the truest form of my nature
I have dreamt of the past…
Or was it the catalyst to resolve my future?
-http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3980543/4/
A long... Never-ending, dream...
In that dream I have loved… I have hated…. I have died….
In that dream I have changed….
But perhaps, that was the truest form of my nature
I have dreamt of the past…
Or was it the catalyst to resolve my future?
-http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3980543/4/
Light my path
9:45:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Why do humans…
…need another?
Why do they hurt and love each other?
Why do they die… and left their loved ones miserable and alone?
If in the end we will be left by the one we care the most…
… then why do we need to find love?
Why do we meet the one half of our heart?
…need another?
Why do they hurt and love each other?
Why do they die… and left their loved ones miserable and alone?
If in the end we will be left by the one we care the most…
… then why do we need to find love?
Why do we meet the one half of our heart?
-http://www.fanfiction.net/s/3980543/4/
Light my path
9:43:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 12 April 2008
"You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, you can close your ears to things you don't want to hear, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel."
-http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4082238/7/
-http://www.fanfiction.net/s/4082238/7/
Light my path
8:22:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 11 April 2008
Oh, God of my heart
And Lover of my soul.
Show me the path ahead!
Which are the available routes?
Are the secret desires of my heart pleasing to you?
May I desire what You desire for me!
To the One who never slumbers,
And never fails to hear my cry.
Forsake me not, though I might have forsaken You.
Remember me always, though I might have forgotten You.
For though I live as if You do not exist, and do not need You.
Surely You know me better than that.
(I need You. Though my actions and words say otherwise.)
Shepherd of my life.
Giver of my life. And Saviour of my soul.
Can I love this man who is before me?
And Lover of my soul.
Show me the path ahead!
Which are the available routes?
Are the secret desires of my heart pleasing to you?
May I desire what You desire for me!
To the One who never slumbers,
And never fails to hear my cry.
Forsake me not, though I might have forsaken You.
Remember me always, though I might have forgotten You.
For though I live as if You do not exist, and do not need You.
Surely You know me better than that.
(I need You. Though my actions and words say otherwise.)
Shepherd of my life.
Giver of my life. And Saviour of my soul.
Can I love this man who is before me?
Light my path
11:10:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I reached the office pretty early this morning too. I can get used to it...=) Plus, the bus was way emptier than the day before.
Upon reaching, I SMSed David and we had breakfast together. Well, I had breakfast, while he just drank his black coffee. Rats. He told me he ate McSpicy.
*cries*
I'd have loved to eat McDonald's too. Especially their Sausage McMuffin and Hot Cakes. Damn. I love their Chocolate Milkshake too. It has been a particular favourite of mine in my secondary school days. I drank it every time I went to McDonald's. Aaaa......those good old days. I'd always go to the library with Mei Zheng, after Chinese Dance practice. We'd happily borrow a lot of books and set off for AMK Central's McDonald's to order our meal. And we'd read and eat there too.
Really good old days.
Ugh.
I feel old. Like a granny.
I hate cross-checking (is there such a word?) our records with the other contractors' records. As there'd be bound to be discrepancies and there would be problems then. I feel like pulling my hair out. Or rather..those offenders' hair....=p
But I think, the contractors don't have an easy life too. They get scolded for things which are not their fault. And they have to work very late! Hmm...
*drifts off*
Upon reaching, I SMSed David and we had breakfast together. Well, I had breakfast, while he just drank his black coffee. Rats. He told me he ate McSpicy.
*cries*
I'd have loved to eat McDonald's too. Especially their Sausage McMuffin and Hot Cakes. Damn. I love their Chocolate Milkshake too. It has been a particular favourite of mine in my secondary school days. I drank it every time I went to McDonald's. Aaaa......those good old days. I'd always go to the library with Mei Zheng, after Chinese Dance practice. We'd happily borrow a lot of books and set off for AMK Central's McDonald's to order our meal. And we'd read and eat there too.
Really good old days.
Ugh.
I feel old. Like a granny.
I hate cross-checking (is there such a word?) our records with the other contractors' records. As there'd be bound to be discrepancies and there would be problems then. I feel like pulling my hair out. Or rather..those offenders' hair....=p
But I think, the contractors don't have an easy life too. They get scolded for things which are not their fault. And they have to work very late! Hmm...
*drifts off*
Light my path
9:42:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 10 April 2008
I won't turn around at the slightest sound.
I won't look over my shoulder at the slightest hint
Of some one entering.
I won't stray from the path my eyes have set for me.
So, I won't stop and look back.
I won't turn around and hope that it's you who called out my name.
I won't look over my shoulder and hope to see you standing there
Waiting for me.
I won't stray from the path in front of me and go down the never ending path of self-destruction.
I won't turn down that route again.
So, I won't look for you.
I won't look over my shoulder at the slightest hint
Of some one entering.
I won't stray from the path my eyes have set for me.
So, I won't stop and look back.
I won't turn around and hope that it's you who called out my name.
I won't look over my shoulder and hope to see you standing there
Waiting for me.
I won't stray from the path in front of me and go down the never ending path of self-destruction.
I won't turn down that route again.
So, I won't look for you.
Light my path
8:29:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
For once, the bus that I boarded today was fairly empty. But, of course that changed as it moved along its route.
I reached the office pretty early. As early as I did on Monday. I am having a craving for Teh-C. But I convinced myself that I shan't drink it this morning. Too much of it, is not good for my waistline.
Bleah.
All the food that I like, are not good for my body. Heh.
I am having breakfast now. My boss just came in a few minutes ago. I love bread! It is so soft, slightly moist. Yummy! I love custard buns, my absolute favourite type of bun! I love chocolate, WITHOUT nuts. I love Famous Amos' No Nut Chocolate Chip Cookies. (Oh, what wouldn't I give for a bag of those?) I am a rice person. I love to eat chicken, all kinds. And fish! Cod fish is great! And salmon too. As for veggies, I love almost all veggies. Those green, yellow and red peppers are not my kind of thing though. Including raw onions.
Yuck!!! Eww!!! Gross!!!!!!
You get the point.
I never liked them when I was young. I learnt to detest them later on when my mother forced them upon me. She read in the newspapers that eating eraw onions are good. So every monring, she'd butter a slice of bread and heaped LOADS of RAW ONIONS on top of it and expected me to finish it.
*Turns green at the memory*
At first, I tolerated it. Scrunching up my nose, I psycho-ed myself into chewing and swallowing the entire thing. But as it carried on, with no looks of it stopping any time in the near future; I devised ways to dispose of the hated onions. I was in primary school during that time. It was my June holidays, so every morning, I would follow my parents to their office and help out. On the way, I would eat the hated raw onions with buttered bread. Whenever we walk past the moonson drain, I would look and make sure that they are not turning around to look at me; and open up the folded slice of bread and start flinging the raw onions into the moonson drain.
Yay!!!!!
I did that everytime my mother made my those raw onions with bread. I never got caught. But there was a time when I came close to it.
Phew!!
Thank God that my mother stopped making me eat that after some time. I think I stood my ground and refused to eat it even when she said I'd have no breakfast if I didn't eat that.
Ugh.
What a nightmare...=(
But that was all in the past. Phew. Though, I can understand that my mother is merely trying to take care of my health. She wanted me to be healthy..=)
I reached the office pretty early. As early as I did on Monday. I am having a craving for Teh-C. But I convinced myself that I shan't drink it this morning. Too much of it, is not good for my waistline.
Bleah.
All the food that I like, are not good for my body. Heh.
I am having breakfast now. My boss just came in a few minutes ago. I love bread! It is so soft, slightly moist. Yummy! I love custard buns, my absolute favourite type of bun! I love chocolate, WITHOUT nuts. I love Famous Amos' No Nut Chocolate Chip Cookies. (Oh, what wouldn't I give for a bag of those?) I am a rice person. I love to eat chicken, all kinds. And fish! Cod fish is great! And salmon too. As for veggies, I love almost all veggies. Those green, yellow and red peppers are not my kind of thing though. Including raw onions.
Yuck!!! Eww!!! Gross!!!!!!
You get the point.
I never liked them when I was young. I learnt to detest them later on when my mother forced them upon me. She read in the newspapers that eating eraw onions are good. So every monring, she'd butter a slice of bread and heaped LOADS of RAW ONIONS on top of it and expected me to finish it.
*Turns green at the memory*
At first, I tolerated it. Scrunching up my nose, I psycho-ed myself into chewing and swallowing the entire thing. But as it carried on, with no looks of it stopping any time in the near future; I devised ways to dispose of the hated onions. I was in primary school during that time. It was my June holidays, so every morning, I would follow my parents to their office and help out. On the way, I would eat the hated raw onions with buttered bread. Whenever we walk past the moonson drain, I would look and make sure that they are not turning around to look at me; and open up the folded slice of bread and start flinging the raw onions into the moonson drain.
Yay!!!!!
I did that everytime my mother made my those raw onions with bread. I never got caught. But there was a time when I came close to it.
Phew!!
Thank God that my mother stopped making me eat that after some time. I think I stood my ground and refused to eat it even when she said I'd have no breakfast if I didn't eat that.
Ugh.
What a nightmare...=(
But that was all in the past. Phew. Though, I can understand that my mother is merely trying to take care of my health. She wanted me to be healthy..=)
Light my path
7:54:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 9 April 2008
Ugh.
Bleah.
I think my posts are getting depressing. Which is bad. Very bad. I am not a cheerful person by nature.
Once again, the sands of sleep are in my eyes. I am sitting in front of my PC and trying not to let my head fall splat on the table and konk out. This is a serious battle, I tell you. This is no joke.
Gosh.
How horrid.
My boss is in a meeting with most of my department's people. There are only two of us at our desks now. Miss Goh and I.
Come on. Isn't there some work I can do? Why aren't there any submissions from the contractors? I shouldn't have rejected that stack of SDS submissions. But some stuff were wrong, so I had to return back for him to correct it. If I knew I would be this bored, I should have corrected those submissions, myself. At least there would be some thing to do.
Is my future working life going to be like this? Waiting and waiting. Trying not to fall asleep amidst bouts of inactivity?
It is a thought not worth contemplating.
It is a tad cold in here.
*Brrrrrr......*
Bleah.
I think my posts are getting depressing. Which is bad. Very bad. I am not a cheerful person by nature.
Once again, the sands of sleep are in my eyes. I am sitting in front of my PC and trying not to let my head fall splat on the table and konk out. This is a serious battle, I tell you. This is no joke.
Gosh.
How horrid.
My boss is in a meeting with most of my department's people. There are only two of us at our desks now. Miss Goh and I.
Come on. Isn't there some work I can do? Why aren't there any submissions from the contractors? I shouldn't have rejected that stack of SDS submissions. But some stuff were wrong, so I had to return back for him to correct it. If I knew I would be this bored, I should have corrected those submissions, myself. At least there would be some thing to do.
Is my future working life going to be like this? Waiting and waiting. Trying not to fall asleep amidst bouts of inactivity?
It is a thought not worth contemplating.
It is a tad cold in here.
*Brrrrrr......*
Light my path
3:06:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
It may seem unamusing to some, but I for one, am thoroughly amused. By what? By one of my friend's use of profanity. The way he uses it, makes his words flow as smooth as cream and as beautiful and natural as poetry. I never fail to be amused by his words. He makes vulgarities seem polite and a piece of art.
But of course, there isn't any sarcasm meant on my part. Perhaps I should learn from him. The art of speaking profanities. The way he used those words makes other users seem vulgar.
Ugh. Our company's internet connection is crappy.
On a side note, I wonder why is it that the bus I take to work, has been so crowded these few weeks? It had never been so packed before.
Bah. I hate crowded places.
Uh-oh. My boss is raising his voice against one of the contractors. Angry voices make me cringe. I think my boss is upset. Think that things are not going smoothly. *shiver*
But of course, there isn't any sarcasm meant on my part. Perhaps I should learn from him. The art of speaking profanities. The way he used those words makes other users seem vulgar.
Ugh. Our company's internet connection is crappy.
On a side note, I wonder why is it that the bus I take to work, has been so crowded these few weeks? It had never been so packed before.
Bah. I hate crowded places.
Uh-oh. My boss is raising his voice against one of the contractors. Angry voices make me cringe. I think my boss is upset. Think that things are not going smoothly. *shiver*
Light my path
8:59:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 8 April 2008
UNITED KINGDOM - Highland cattle during blizzards on Tyneside, Newcastle as the bad weather across the UK continues.
Light my path
12:45:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I am thinking of calling it quits. Perhaps I am giving up too easily. Maybe I am a person who can't take too much stress.
But what ever it is, I am leaning towards throwing in the towel. Why should I be the one to pay for others' fault? Because of some people's lousy attitude and irresponsibility towards work they deem not important, I am forced to delay my work.
Freaking tired and pissed.
I am not paid to wait for them and to clean up after their mess.
Time and time again, this kind of things happen.
Am I too rash if I hand in my resignation letter this week? Before finding another job.
Damn. I should have taken up Cassandra on her offer. Now it is too late. But it is not fair to her, as that is still not what I'd like to do for life. So one day, I will still have to leave. Going back defeats the purpose of my leaving, back then.
Ya. I know that frustration and incooperative people are part and parcel of working life. They exist everywhere. I can't escape such people, things and situations. Perhaps I am being young and stupid, taking this kind of things so hard. I know life is never fair. Working life is shitty. And all that.
Yada. Yada.
Maybe in the end, I am just a stupid little girl, after all. One who has yet to experience true desperation. That kind of desperation that your grumbling stomach is reminding you of. The kind of desperation which shows in your daily life.
Ya. I have never been through that. Which is why I can complain like a spoilt little brat.
Whatever you think I am, one thing I am very sure of, is that I will not be staying till the end of the project. I have had enough.
But what ever it is, I am leaning towards throwing in the towel. Why should I be the one to pay for others' fault? Because of some people's lousy attitude and irresponsibility towards work they deem not important, I am forced to delay my work.
Freaking tired and pissed.
I am not paid to wait for them and to clean up after their mess.
Time and time again, this kind of things happen.
Am I too rash if I hand in my resignation letter this week? Before finding another job.
Damn. I should have taken up Cassandra on her offer. Now it is too late. But it is not fair to her, as that is still not what I'd like to do for life. So one day, I will still have to leave. Going back defeats the purpose of my leaving, back then.
Ya. I know that frustration and incooperative people are part and parcel of working life. They exist everywhere. I can't escape such people, things and situations. Perhaps I am being young and stupid, taking this kind of things so hard. I know life is never fair. Working life is shitty. And all that.
Yada. Yada.
Maybe in the end, I am just a stupid little girl, after all. One who has yet to experience true desperation. That kind of desperation that your grumbling stomach is reminding you of. The kind of desperation which shows in your daily life.
Ya. I have never been through that. Which is why I can complain like a spoilt little brat.
Whatever you think I am, one thing I am very sure of, is that I will not be staying till the end of the project. I have had enough.
Light my path
10:03:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 7 April 2008
张信哲 - 有个人想我就好
这么羡慕天空的飞鸟 没有爱的人很渺小
把你的发丝当成戒指绕 温柔烙印再也抹不掉
谁忘得了
一辈子为我从不知道 等你的心到天涯海角
它藏不住拟定俄感情线条 隐隐约约我都看得到
有字句燃烧 有雪花轻飘 如获至宝
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
寂寞越来越少 我们有彼此可依靠
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
黑暗偷偷潜逃 我能明了你的沉默你的笑
一辈子为我从不知道 等你的心到天涯海角
它藏不住拟定俄感情线条 隐隐约约我都看得到
有字句燃烧 有雪花轻飘 如获至宝
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
寂寞越来越少 我们有彼此可依靠
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
黑暗偷偷潜逃 我能明了你的沉默你的笑
(我终于明了你有多重要）
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
寂寞越来越少 我们有彼此可依靠
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
黑暗偷偷潜逃 我能明了你的沉默你的笑
This song is fantastic. The wistfulness, the yearning and the slight hope of the lyrics are all brought out as Jeff Chang's voice woved seamlessly with the heartstrings-tugging music. The melody of the sole violin in the background, completes the song; giving it the perfect touch.
这么羡慕天空的飞鸟 没有爱的人很渺小
把你的发丝当成戒指绕 温柔烙印再也抹不掉
谁忘得了
一辈子为我从不知道 等你的心到天涯海角
它藏不住拟定俄感情线条 隐隐约约我都看得到
有字句燃烧 有雪花轻飘 如获至宝
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
寂寞越来越少 我们有彼此可依靠
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
黑暗偷偷潜逃 我能明了你的沉默你的笑
一辈子为我从不知道 等你的心到天涯海角
它藏不住拟定俄感情线条 隐隐约约我都看得到
有字句燃烧 有雪花轻飘 如获至宝
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
寂寞越来越少 我们有彼此可依靠
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
黑暗偷偷潜逃 我能明了你的沉默你的笑
(我终于明了你有多重要）
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
寂寞越来越少 我们有彼此可依靠
有个人想我就好 像被月光拥抱 你悄悄住进我的心灵城堡
黑暗偷偷潜逃 我能明了你的沉默你的笑
This song is fantastic. The wistfulness, the yearning and the slight hope of the lyrics are all brought out as Jeff Chang's voice woved seamlessly with the heartstrings-tugging music. The melody of the sole violin in the background, completes the song; giving it the perfect touch.
Light my path
11:05:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Ugh. some time is wrong with my body's internal alarm clock. I woke up waaaaaaaay before I was supposed to.
This in turn, made me early for work. I reached Orchard around 7.15am. By the time I moseyed to the office, it was just 7.25am. There was no one in the office except for Kenneth, Hafizul, Miss Goh and Shiro san. All the other Japanese colleagues have yet to arrive.
The sun was shining all the way into the office and right into my area. That was my first time seeing the sun light come that far into the office.
Of course, by now, my Japanese colleagues have come in to work and the sun's retreated. I like being early to work. But not by cutting down on my beauty sleep.
I love Teh-C. It is yummy!
Good morning to all!
This in turn, made me early for work. I reached Orchard around 7.15am. By the time I moseyed to the office, it was just 7.25am. There was no one in the office except for Kenneth, Hafizul, Miss Goh and Shiro san. All the other Japanese colleagues have yet to arrive.
The sun was shining all the way into the office and right into my area. That was my first time seeing the sun light come that far into the office.
Of course, by now, my Japanese colleagues have come in to work and the sun's retreated. I like being early to work. But not by cutting down on my beauty sleep.
I love Teh-C. It is yummy!
Good morning to all!
Light my path
7:43:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 5 April 2008
張信哲 - 不回首
不回首 往事雖又壓在我心頭
伸出手 只是一片無緣的哀愁
琴瑟的弦已斷 擊鼓聲已亂
破空而起 嘹亮的歌不再有
不回首 失去一切雖不能想透
向前走 忘掉過去絕不再停留
琴瑟的弦已斷 擊鼓聲已亂
破空而起 嘹亮的歌不再有 不再有
只有在馬蹄揚塵處 依稀尋得當時路
只有在歡樂後的沉默中 彷彿見到此時苦
我不知怎麼能夠接受 怎麼能相信就此分手
怎麼做才能將往事拋在腦後 不回首
不回首 往事雖又壓在我心頭
伸出手 只是一片無緣的哀愁
琴瑟的弦已斷 擊鼓聲已亂
破空而起 嘹亮的歌不再有
不回首 失去一切雖不能想透
向前走 忘掉過去絕不再停留
琴瑟的弦已斷 擊鼓聲已亂
破空而起 嘹亮的歌不再有 不再有
只有在馬蹄揚塵處 依稀尋得當時路
只有在歡樂後的沉默中 彷彿見到此時苦
我不知怎麼能夠接受 怎麼能相信就此分手
怎麼做才能將往事拋在腦後 不回首
As for this song, I love the way he sang it and how different his voice seems to be. It doesn't sounds like him. In a good way, of course. It'd be kind of boring and rather stale to always have the same style and expression.
Light my path
11:01:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
張信哲 - 信仰
每當我聽見憂鬱的樂章，勾起回憶的傷。
每當我看見白色的月光，想起你的臉龐，明知不
該去想，不能去想，偏又想到迷惘 是誰讓我心酸，誰讓我牽掛，是你啊!
我知道那些不該說的話，讓你負氣流浪。
想知道多年漂浮的時光，是否你也想家如果當時吻你，
當時抱你，也許結局難講我那麼多遺憾，那麼多期盼，你知道嗎？
我愛你，是多麼清楚，多麼堅固的信仰。我愛你，是多麼溫暖，多麼勇敢的力量
我不管心多傷，不管愛多慌，不管別人怎壓想 愛是一種信仰，把我，帶到你的身旁。
我愛你，是忠於自己，忠於愛情的信仰 我愛你，是來自靈魂，來自生命的力量 在遙遠
的地方，你是否一樣，聽見我的呼喊。愛是一種信仰，把你，帶回我的身旁。
每當我聽見憂鬱的樂章，勾起回憶的傷。
每當我看見白色的月光，想起你的臉龐，明知不
該去想，不能去想，偏又想到迷惘 是誰讓我心酸，誰讓我牽掛，是你啊!
我知道那些不該說的話，讓你負氣流浪。
想知道多年漂浮的時光，是否你也想家如果當時吻你，
當時抱你，也許結局難講我那麼多遺憾，那麼多期盼，你知道嗎？
我愛你，是多麼清楚，多麼堅固的信仰。我愛你，是多麼溫暖，多麼勇敢的力量
我不管心多傷，不管愛多慌，不管別人怎壓想 愛是一種信仰，把我，帶到你的身旁。
我愛你，是忠於自己，忠於愛情的信仰 我愛你，是來自靈魂，來自生命的力量 在遙遠
的地方，你是否一樣，聽見我的呼喊。愛是一種信仰，把你，帶回我的身旁。
Light my path
10:58:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
張信哲 - 我最愛的女人
看我們的愛渡過多少個秋冬
這一段歲月妳傷不傷痛
看多少相愛的人能成為永恆
是不是情人 如果再相逢
我最愛的女人
妳會不會愛我 和我過這一生
難捨又難分
我最愛的女人
妳已經變成了我無法再做的夢
我想我只能說 JE T'AIME MY LOVE
妳那不定的感情
我已決定 從此 不必有妳同行
JE T'AIME MY LOVE
糾纏好久的感情
已到如今何分明 (你又要我如何分明)
看我們的愛渡過多少個秋冬
這一段歲月妳傷不傷痛
看多少相愛的人能成為永恆
是不是情人 如果再相逢
我最愛的女人
妳會不會愛我 和我過這一生
難捨又難分
我最愛的女人
妳已經變成了我無法再做的夢
我想我只能說 JE T'AIME MY LOVE
妳那不定的感情
我已決定 從此 不必有妳同行
JE T'AIME MY LOVE
糾纏好久的感情
已到如今何分明 (你又要我如何分明)
Light my path
10:54:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
張信哲 - 受罪
陌生的城市 被惡夢驚醒的黑夜 拉開窗簾 看著無人的街
熟悉的音樂響在耳邊 我看著眼前已沒有感覺的世界 想起了你
我發現 我在安靜無聲地掉淚 這才明白被傷得有多重
曾經我以為 事過境遷
走了這麼遠 總該能把痛給忘卻
距離卻一再提醒對你的想念
就讓我愛裡頭受罪 瘋狂的疲憊 不相信你會走得那麼絕
既然沒有權利快樂 至少擁有全部傷悲
你讓我愛裡頭受罪 卻沒有怨言 連折磨自己都無法避免
活在你留下的深淵 我看不見天
開始習慣黑夜
Most of Jeff Chang's songs are my favourites. But this is song is one of my very favourites. Somehow the lyrics speak to me. The opening lines set the tone for the song. They bring out an image. The picture of a man, alone in a strange and new city; jolted awake from a nightmare. He walks to the window to get some fresh air and to chase away any remnants of that upsetting dream. It is dark and late at night; all are quiet and the streets are empty. All these made this man fall into a world of solitude. It is like he is all alone.
It is beautiful, in a melancholic way.
Light my path
10:44:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
"Make your choice, adventurous stranger,
Strike the bell and bide the danger,
Or wonder, till it drives you mad,
What would have followed if you had."
-The Magician's Nephew, by C.S. Lewis
Strike the bell and bide the danger,
Or wonder, till it drives you mad,
What would have followed if you had."
-The Magician's Nephew, by C.S. Lewis
Light my path
10:27:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Once again, folks! It is the long awaited weekend!=D
And I am slogging in the office.
*Groans*
Never mind! I've cleared 80% of the work which suddenly appeared last evening. Now what is left is just the updating of the registers and the filing. (Sigh. I hate filing.)
Feeling pretty slack right now. And sleepy too.
Just a random thought - I wonder if I can still grow taller. Do you think I can? Just 3 - 5cm more and I will be satisfied!
Angeline SMSed me on Thursday night that she is giving up Issachar and Candace, as she can't take her mother's nagging anymore. My poor darlings! They are once again homeless!
*Bursts into tears*
Jimmy MSNed me last night asking about them. I debated about whether to let him know of the hamsters' situation or not. In the end, I decided to tell him. After all, he is the one who bought them, so he has a right to know. As usual, he got really agitated (sort of) and started to beat up on himself. Saying like he shouldn't have gotten me animals without asking me first. And how it is all his fault....blah blah BLAHHHHHHHHh....
Then he said he will take responsibility for them. I told him, "No." He is already going all guilty and upset with himself about his idea of getting me hamsters and causing me to be in a tight spot when my family did not allow me to keep them. He is very busy with work and his brother is a meance to my hamsters. In addition, I do not want to add on to his guilt. Thus, I told him, "No". I will not let Issachar & Candace go with him. No need to trouble him when he has more than enough of his own.
I am thinking of asking Shuhui if she can keep them. I have asked Ronny, but frankly speaking, he is not my first choice. As he is busy with work and all that. I hope to give Issachar & Candace to some one I am closer with, so that I can visit them or smuggle them home for a few days. Plus, I will be updated about their condition. If they are given to some one I don't know, I may not know if any thing happens to them. To add to that, I would like for them to live with some one I trust. Whom I know, will take good care of them.
Poor Issachar & Candace! =(
Will no one take them in??
And I am slogging in the office.
*Groans*
Never mind! I've cleared 80% of the work which suddenly appeared last evening. Now what is left is just the updating of the registers and the filing. (Sigh. I hate filing.)
Feeling pretty slack right now. And sleepy too.
Just a random thought - I wonder if I can still grow taller. Do you think I can? Just 3 - 5cm more and I will be satisfied!
Angeline SMSed me on Thursday night that she is giving up Issachar and Candace, as she can't take her mother's nagging anymore. My poor darlings! They are once again homeless!
*Bursts into tears*
Jimmy MSNed me last night asking about them. I debated about whether to let him know of the hamsters' situation or not. In the end, I decided to tell him. After all, he is the one who bought them, so he has a right to know. As usual, he got really agitated (sort of) and started to beat up on himself. Saying like he shouldn't have gotten me animals without asking me first. And how it is all his fault....blah blah BLAHHHHHHHHh....
Then he said he will take responsibility for them. I told him, "No." He is already going all guilty and upset with himself about his idea of getting me hamsters and causing me to be in a tight spot when my family did not allow me to keep them. He is very busy with work and his brother is a meance to my hamsters. In addition, I do not want to add on to his guilt. Thus, I told him, "No". I will not let Issachar & Candace go with him. No need to trouble him when he has more than enough of his own.
I am thinking of asking Shuhui if she can keep them. I have asked Ronny, but frankly speaking, he is not my first choice. As he is busy with work and all that. I hope to give Issachar & Candace to some one I am closer with, so that I can visit them or smuggle them home for a few days. Plus, I will be updated about their condition. If they are given to some one I don't know, I may not know if any thing happens to them. To add to that, I would like for them to live with some one I trust. Whom I know, will take good care of them.
Poor Issachar & Candace! =(
Will no one take them in??
Light my path
10:25:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 4 April 2008
I am seeing red!
Ugh.
No, not red as in angry. (Like the bull) The registers that I am checking are swimming in red. All discrepancies are highlighted in red. It is rather discouraging. But!! I am almost done checking!=p There's only a few contractors who have yet to revert by the deadline. Their items are not that much. Not when compared to Shinryo's huge chunk of submissions. Especially their SFRs. They have hit the big 3. Their SFR submissions have numbered to over 300. My goodness.
And they are one of the contractors who have yet to revert back.
Double ugh.
Actually, I can't do much either. As I only update the changes when I received the hard copy. If there is no hard copy, I can't update. So, I can only know which are the ones to look out for and wait for them to give me the hard copies before making any changes in our records.
Hmm...I am thankful for small favours though. Like contractors who are open with their submissions and the replies they received, so their records are perfect...=) Another thing is one of the contractors, he is really great. His company has a lot of SDS submissions (hundred over). When he emailed me back with the changes, in addition to highlighting the changes in red, he hid the unrelated rows. Thus, I do not have to scroll and scroll down the records.
Yippee!!!
The skies are looking grey.
It poured last evening. I wonder if it will be pouring today too??
Today is the 4th day that a colleague of mine missed work. I think it is confirmed that she wouldn't be reporting back to work. I wonder why she chose to disappear like that? Shouldn't she give a month's notice if she doesn't want to work anymore? Now our Planning department's in trouble. All the documents and no one to transmit them. I think my colleagues aren't very happy. But then, who will be happy?
Ugh.
No, not red as in angry. (Like the bull) The registers that I am checking are swimming in red. All discrepancies are highlighted in red. It is rather discouraging. But!! I am almost done checking!=p There's only a few contractors who have yet to revert by the deadline. Their items are not that much. Not when compared to Shinryo's huge chunk of submissions. Especially their SFRs. They have hit the big 3. Their SFR submissions have numbered to over 300. My goodness.
And they are one of the contractors who have yet to revert back.
Double ugh.
Actually, I can't do much either. As I only update the changes when I received the hard copy. If there is no hard copy, I can't update. So, I can only know which are the ones to look out for and wait for them to give me the hard copies before making any changes in our records.
Hmm...I am thankful for small favours though. Like contractors who are open with their submissions and the replies they received, so their records are perfect...=) Another thing is one of the contractors, he is really great. His company has a lot of SDS submissions (hundred over). When he emailed me back with the changes, in addition to highlighting the changes in red, he hid the unrelated rows. Thus, I do not have to scroll and scroll down the records.
Yippee!!!
The skies are looking grey.
It poured last evening. I wonder if it will be pouring today too??
Today is the 4th day that a colleague of mine missed work. I think it is confirmed that she wouldn't be reporting back to work. I wonder why she chose to disappear like that? Shouldn't she give a month's notice if she doesn't want to work anymore? Now our Planning department's in trouble. All the documents and no one to transmit them. I think my colleagues aren't very happy. But then, who will be happy?
Light my path
2:47:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 3 April 2008
I am in a pretty mood!!
Pretty mooooooooood! =p
I am feeling all fine and dandy!
High & mighty!
That I want to burst into song!
And take flight on my litte wings!
Alright, alright.
I shall cease and desist.
*Gosh. You can't even take a joke!*
It is just a spur of the moment thingy. Please do not think that this good mood will last. What can I say? I am a woman. Women are fickle and hormonal creatures.
There is no particular reason for the sweet mood. But, if I MUST have one. It'd be that I have cleared half of my mountain of paperwork. Horrid little things they are. Last time, I never had anything against filing but now I detest it with a passion.
Ugh.
But I do feel pretty good after putting in order the contractors' submissions. There is a sense of accomplishment. The only blemishes are that some documents are lost forever (that was before I came into this project) and that I still have 2 files worth of Consultants' replies to sort and file.
Yeeks.
Another cause for my good mood is that I found most of Jeff Chang's CDs, albeit that they are second hand. But the one that I received, is in very good condition. Almost like it is brand new. I can't wait for the others to start coming in! I would have to wait for about 2 more weeks before Ishould start expecting my package of 9 CDs. The guy whom I ordered them from, told me that it will take about a month, if he does not have the stock on hand. I really hope that he will not run away with my money. I paid $205.10 for the 9 CDs (inclusive of the postage). Some of Jeff Chang's earlier CDs, are more than $100 EACH.
Of course I didn't buy those. I plan to look around in auctions and see if anyone is putting them up for sale.
The reason why I waited till now to get Jeff Chang's CDs; is because when his earlier albums came out, I was still young and broke. Plus, I did not have a discman back then. Now that I am earning some money (and am still young) and have a discman; I am trying my best to buy all of Jeff Chang's CDs. I am not planning to buy his compliation CDs.
Jeff Chang's latest album is going to be out in the market soon. That is if it is not already out. It was said that it would be out early April.
Hmm!!
I am so excited! I can't wait to listen to his new songs!=)
Pretty mooooooooood! =p
I am feeling all fine and dandy!
High & mighty!
That I want to burst into song!
And take flight on my litte wings!
Alright, alright.
I shall cease and desist.
*Gosh. You can't even take a joke!*
It is just a spur of the moment thingy. Please do not think that this good mood will last. What can I say? I am a woman. Women are fickle and hormonal creatures.
There is no particular reason for the sweet mood. But, if I MUST have one. It'd be that I have cleared half of my mountain of paperwork. Horrid little things they are. Last time, I never had anything against filing but now I detest it with a passion.
Ugh.
But I do feel pretty good after putting in order the contractors' submissions. There is a sense of accomplishment. The only blemishes are that some documents are lost forever (that was before I came into this project) and that I still have 2 files worth of Consultants' replies to sort and file.
Yeeks.
Another cause for my good mood is that I found most of Jeff Chang's CDs, albeit that they are second hand. But the one that I received, is in very good condition. Almost like it is brand new. I can't wait for the others to start coming in! I would have to wait for about 2 more weeks before Ishould start expecting my package of 9 CDs. The guy whom I ordered them from, told me that it will take about a month, if he does not have the stock on hand. I really hope that he will not run away with my money. I paid $205.10 for the 9 CDs (inclusive of the postage). Some of Jeff Chang's earlier CDs, are more than $100 EACH.
Of course I didn't buy those. I plan to look around in auctions and see if anyone is putting them up for sale.
The reason why I waited till now to get Jeff Chang's CDs; is because when his earlier albums came out, I was still young and broke. Plus, I did not have a discman back then. Now that I am earning some money (and am still young) and have a discman; I am trying my best to buy all of Jeff Chang's CDs. I am not planning to buy his compliation CDs.
Jeff Chang's latest album is going to be out in the market soon. That is if it is not already out. It was said that it would be out early April.
Hmm!!
I am so excited! I can't wait to listen to his new songs!=)
Light my path
2:31:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
How Can a Lake Simply Disappear?
by Jacob Silverman
Sometime in May 2007, a glacial lake in southern Chile disappeared. Chilean surveyors reported in March that the lake was its usual size, 100 feet deep and covering an area around five acres. Located in Bernardo O'Higgins Park, in the southern Andes mountains, the lake is (was) rarely visited and didn't even have a name. When Chilean forestry officials arrived, they were surprised to find nothing more than "chunks of ice on the dry lake-bed and an enormous fissure" where the unnamed lake had once been [Source: The Guardian]. Five miles away, a river that was once more than 130 feet wide barely flowed. What could cause such a massive disturbance to make an entire lake and much of a river disappear?
Scientists were at first puzzled out how a glacial lake
like this one could abruptly disappear.
Global warming seems to be the knee-jerk response lately whenever a dramatic environmental change is observed. Indeed, global warming is a big concern for lakes, as many bodies of water are experiencing receding water levels due to a combination of low rainfall and high temperatures. In the Magallanes province, where the lake is located, the Tempano and Bernardo glaciers are shrinking, and both of those glaciers contributed water to the lake. Experts like Gino Casassa and Andres Rivera, both glaciologists, point to global warming as the cause of the glaciers' melting. So global warming was immediately considered as a possible cause, but when investigating the lake, scientists considered several other possibilities.
One theory scientists considered was that an earthquake in the area opened a fissure in the earth, which sucked down the lake. Southern Chile experiences hundreds of small earthquakes a year, and a fairly large tremor was detected on April 21. The fissure observed in the empty lake bed could have provided an outlet for the lake water to escape, much like a stopper being pulled from a sink.
A second possibility draws in part on global warming and the melting of glaciers. Glacial lakes often develop behind natural dams called moraines, which are made of ice. Once a moraine is broken, whether by an avalanche, earthquake, warming or other event, water bursts through and the lake sometimes drains.
It took scientists several weeks before they were able to discover the answer because the site is very remote -- about 4,900 feet above sea level and 1,250 miles south of Chile's capital, Santiago. But in early July 2007, scientists got their answer.
An investigation has revealed that too much water was the problem. The melting Tempano and Bernardo glaciers filled the lake beyond the crater's capacity. The increased pressure broke the lake's moraine through which water flowed out, later ending up in the ocean. The lake is refilling as the chunks of ice on the lake bed melt, though Chilean scientists pointed out that global warming did have a serious effect. Glaciers naturally melt and reform, but warming is causing the Tempano and Bernardo glaciers to melt more than they should..
For some lakes, rapidly appearing or disappearing is part of a natural process. The lake in Chile did not exist 30 years ago, though, again, global warming is likely affecting the process. Some lakes, including many in Alaska and Florida's Lake Jackson, go through a similar process regularly, disappearing and reappearing during certain seasons, or from year-to-year or decade-to-decade.
by Jacob Silverman
Sometime in May 2007, a glacial lake in southern Chile disappeared. Chilean surveyors reported in March that the lake was its usual size, 100 feet deep and covering an area around five acres. Located in Bernardo O'Higgins Park, in the southern Andes mountains, the lake is (was) rarely visited and didn't even have a name. When Chilean forestry officials arrived, they were surprised to find nothing more than "chunks of ice on the dry lake-bed and an enormous fissure" where the unnamed lake had once been [Source: The Guardian]. Five miles away, a river that was once more than 130 feet wide barely flowed. What could cause such a massive disturbance to make an entire lake and much of a river disappear?
Scientists were at first puzzled out how a glacial lake
like this one could abruptly disappear.
Global warming seems to be the knee-jerk response lately whenever a dramatic environmental change is observed. Indeed, global warming is a big concern for lakes, as many bodies of water are experiencing receding water levels due to a combination of low rainfall and high temperatures. In the Magallanes province, where the lake is located, the Tempano and Bernardo glaciers are shrinking, and both of those glaciers contributed water to the lake. Experts like Gino Casassa and Andres Rivera, both glaciologists, point to global warming as the cause of the glaciers' melting. So global warming was immediately considered as a possible cause, but when investigating the lake, scientists considered several other possibilities.
One theory scientists considered was that an earthquake in the area opened a fissure in the earth, which sucked down the lake. Southern Chile experiences hundreds of small earthquakes a year, and a fairly large tremor was detected on April 21. The fissure observed in the empty lake bed could have provided an outlet for the lake water to escape, much like a stopper being pulled from a sink.
A second possibility draws in part on global warming and the melting of glaciers. Glacial lakes often develop behind natural dams called moraines, which are made of ice. Once a moraine is broken, whether by an avalanche, earthquake, warming or other event, water bursts through and the lake sometimes drains.
It took scientists several weeks before they were able to discover the answer because the site is very remote -- about 4,900 feet above sea level and 1,250 miles south of Chile's capital, Santiago. But in early July 2007, scientists got their answer.
An investigation has revealed that too much water was the problem. The melting Tempano and Bernardo glaciers filled the lake beyond the crater's capacity. The increased pressure broke the lake's moraine through which water flowed out, later ending up in the ocean. The lake is refilling as the chunks of ice on the lake bed melt, though Chilean scientists pointed out that global warming did have a serious effect. Glaciers naturally melt and reform, but warming is causing the Tempano and Bernardo glaciers to melt more than they should..
For some lakes, rapidly appearing or disappearing is part of a natural process. The lake in Chile did not exist 30 years ago, though, again, global warming is likely affecting the process. Some lakes, including many in Alaska and Florida's Lake Jackson, go through a similar process regularly, disappearing and reappearing during certain seasons, or from year-to-year or decade-to-decade.
http://science.howstuffworks.com/disappearing-lake.htm
Light my path
10:40:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
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He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
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for his name's sake.
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