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I like the catchy one liner:
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處處聞啼鳥
夜來風雨聲
花落知多少
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勸君莫惜金縷衣
勸君惜取少年時
花開堪折直須折
莫待無花空折枝
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"An article with misrepresentation can pierce the heart of the other person."
-RAIN
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Because of this, I think a person should live on doing something he/she loves.
-RAIN
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Sunday, 29 April 2007
I had thought that I've put on an impenetrable armor, from the start of my hair to the ends of my toe nails; that nothing my 'family' does, can ever hurt me.
Again and again, I am proven wrong.
Damn.
Why does it hurt so much to be excluded?
To be cast aside?
Why does it hurt when I do not want it to be?
Why do I care what the hell they do?
Why do I hurt?
Why does my heart clenches in pain and is wounded?
Why do tears roll unbidden?
Why am I crying?
Why am I in this state, when I am fully armoured?
I hate giving others the ability, the permission to cause hurt.
I have long stopped giving them permission to hurt me.
So why are they still able to hurt me, even with the slightest act?
The act of unconcern and disregard.
I hate being a stranger in this place. I am an outcast in my own 'home'!!
I can never forget. All these years. I can never forget.
This 'family' is the biggest bloody stain in my entire life. Staining me since the day I was conceived.
Perhaps, one day, I will forgive. But forget?
Never.
It is not that I do not want to forget, (who wants to remember such a crappy 'family life'?), but rather, that I am unable not to remember.
Every time I look at my eldest sister, I remember those days of beatings, bullying, denial of my worth and the refusal to help when I am in need. Every time I look at my parents, I remember that during those dark days; when the little girl looked to them with mute appeal in her eyes and a cry for help behind the goodbyes as she saw them set off for work, with a growing dread and trepidation in her entire being, at what would come after their departure.
They never saw.
They never heard her silent pleas for help, for relief.
My own parents.
My own parents never knew what kind of fate they sent me into when they left me in the house.
Alone with my eldest sister.
They were too busy, so busy that they never saw a 5 year old girl's misery. And terror.
All these followed the 5 year old girl, all the way into her late teens. Though the physical violence did slow and cease over the years, the emotional abuse never did stopped.
In the later part, when the girl's parents saw a little of the physical punishments; they never really did stopped her, they just called out to her. She stopped that time, but there was always another time.
Whenver I looked at my second sister, I remembered how gentle she was with me when I was young. The way she played games with me when she was free, when she was cooking, when it was raining and I sang "Rain, Rain Go Away". I also remembered her betrayal. We were close. My childhood playmate was her. I had thought and believed that she truly loves me. But, a few years later; when I was in the middle of my primary education, she turned her back on me, and joined my eldest sister in heaping verbal abuse (though she neverlaid a hand on me) on me and telling my parents lies about me.
My 3rd sister, I am closer to her, ever since the middle of my primary school education. Till now, she is still the one I trust more.
But not the most, for she had betrayed my trust. I had told her a secret and she blabbered it to the whole family, right in front of me. And my eldest sister used it to make crude jokes at my expense and laugh in my face.
Thus, though I am closer with my 3rd sister, I never fully trusted her again.
The people I trust more will be my parents and my 3rd sister; to a lesser degree, my 2nd sister. I will never trust the monster from my younger days.
From my experience, in order not to get hurt; it is better not to get too close to others, don't trust them and you will not hurt even when betrayed.
I am entering into a new job environment. Who knows what kind of angels or devils lie in wait? Are the angels truly angels? Or bad ass devils clothed as angels?
It pays to be cautious. Better to be safe than sorry. Even when it comes to my current friends. If the parents who bore me, if the family with whom I had been and is still living with, can treat me thus, what more to say of outsiders? With whom I have not one iota of relation?
Again and again, I am proven wrong.
Damn.
Why does it hurt so much to be excluded?
To be cast aside?
Why does it hurt when I do not want it to be?
Why do I care what the hell they do?
Why do I hurt?
Why does my heart clenches in pain and is wounded?
Why do tears roll unbidden?
Why am I crying?
Why am I in this state, when I am fully armoured?
I hate giving others the ability, the permission to cause hurt.
I have long stopped giving them permission to hurt me.
So why are they still able to hurt me, even with the slightest act?
The act of unconcern and disregard.
I hate being a stranger in this place. I am an outcast in my own 'home'!!
I can never forget. All these years. I can never forget.
This 'family' is the biggest bloody stain in my entire life. Staining me since the day I was conceived.
Perhaps, one day, I will forgive. But forget?
Never.
It is not that I do not want to forget, (who wants to remember such a crappy 'family life'?), but rather, that I am unable not to remember.
Every time I look at my eldest sister, I remember those days of beatings, bullying, denial of my worth and the refusal to help when I am in need. Every time I look at my parents, I remember that during those dark days; when the little girl looked to them with mute appeal in her eyes and a cry for help behind the goodbyes as she saw them set off for work, with a growing dread and trepidation in her entire being, at what would come after their departure.
They never saw.
They never heard her silent pleas for help, for relief.
My own parents.
My own parents never knew what kind of fate they sent me into when they left me in the house.
Alone with my eldest sister.
They were too busy, so busy that they never saw a 5 year old girl's misery. And terror.
All these followed the 5 year old girl, all the way into her late teens. Though the physical violence did slow and cease over the years, the emotional abuse never did stopped.
In the later part, when the girl's parents saw a little of the physical punishments; they never really did stopped her, they just called out to her. She stopped that time, but there was always another time.
Whenver I looked at my second sister, I remembered how gentle she was with me when I was young. The way she played games with me when she was free, when she was cooking, when it was raining and I sang "Rain, Rain Go Away". I also remembered her betrayal. We were close. My childhood playmate was her. I had thought and believed that she truly loves me. But, a few years later; when I was in the middle of my primary education, she turned her back on me, and joined my eldest sister in heaping verbal abuse (though she neverlaid a hand on me) on me and telling my parents lies about me.
My 3rd sister, I am closer to her, ever since the middle of my primary school education. Till now, she is still the one I trust more.
But not the most, for she had betrayed my trust. I had told her a secret and she blabbered it to the whole family, right in front of me. And my eldest sister used it to make crude jokes at my expense and laugh in my face.
Thus, though I am closer with my 3rd sister, I never fully trusted her again.
The people I trust more will be my parents and my 3rd sister; to a lesser degree, my 2nd sister. I will never trust the monster from my younger days.
From my experience, in order not to get hurt; it is better not to get too close to others, don't trust them and you will not hurt even when betrayed.
I am entering into a new job environment. Who knows what kind of angels or devils lie in wait? Are the angels truly angels? Or bad ass devils clothed as angels?
It pays to be cautious. Better to be safe than sorry. Even when it comes to my current friends. If the parents who bore me, if the family with whom I had been and is still living with, can treat me thus, what more to say of outsiders? With whom I have not one iota of relation?
Light my path
6:36:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 28 April 2007
Never give up before starting, you gotta challenge it! That's the spirit! When you spend 100% effort, it's easier for you to accept the failure. Only those who challenges, can succeed.
-RAIN
(RAIN's reply when asked about what has he gained from his world tour)
(RAIN's reply when asked about what has he gained from his world tour)
Light my path
10:31:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Damn.
I think I dumped my newly bought earrings into the rubbish bin.
I went out with Shuhui to buy a new wardrobe, as I will be starting work in the office next Wednesday.
Anyway, I think that I threw away the spiffy new earrings, together with the receipts and tags.
Double damn.
I am thoroughly and completely upset.
In the end, I went down to the basement, dragged out the rubbish bin and dug through it.
Trying to ignore the oh-so-familiar sour stench, I literally pawed through the trash, hoping to find my pretty earrings.
To my utter disappointment and disgust (at the rubbish), I did not find it.
Triple damn.
It was with the deepest regret, as I threw back all the rubbish I dumped on the floor, into the bin.
And the earrings were so pretty too!!
They cost a pretty penny. I seldom buy earrings above $3/pair. That pair of earrings cost me $6.90.
Just as I was stewing and mourning over the loss of my new earrings; that stupid and insensitive ass of a bitch of a sister of mine, walked past my bedroom door and loudly announced her thoughts. In an obnoxious voice, she said that it was only $6.90, not a big deal. Only $6.90. That bitch made sure to repeat it several times as she walked past my bedroom door.
What a prick.
Ya, I know that it is $6.90, but I wouldn't call it only. After all, isn't $6.90 money too? In addition, I really like those earrings and they are newly bought and pretty. See my point of view?? I LIKE my NEWLY-BOUGHT, PRETTY earrings.
Reason enough, BITCH?
You arrogant asshole.
I think I dumped my newly bought earrings into the rubbish bin.
I went out with Shuhui to buy a new wardrobe, as I will be starting work in the office next Wednesday.
Anyway, I think that I threw away the spiffy new earrings, together with the receipts and tags.
Double damn.
I am thoroughly and completely upset.
In the end, I went down to the basement, dragged out the rubbish bin and dug through it.
Trying to ignore the oh-so-familiar sour stench, I literally pawed through the trash, hoping to find my pretty earrings.
To my utter disappointment and disgust (at the rubbish), I did not find it.
Triple damn.
It was with the deepest regret, as I threw back all the rubbish I dumped on the floor, into the bin.
And the earrings were so pretty too!!
They cost a pretty penny. I seldom buy earrings above $3/pair. That pair of earrings cost me $6.90.
Just as I was stewing and mourning over the loss of my new earrings; that stupid and insensitive ass of a bitch of a sister of mine, walked past my bedroom door and loudly announced her thoughts. In an obnoxious voice, she said that it was only $6.90, not a big deal. Only $6.90. That bitch made sure to repeat it several times as she walked past my bedroom door.
What a prick.
Ya, I know that it is $6.90, but I wouldn't call it only. After all, isn't $6.90 money too? In addition, I really like those earrings and they are newly bought and pretty. See my point of view?? I LIKE my NEWLY-BOUGHT, PRETTY earrings.
Reason enough, BITCH?
You arrogant asshole.
Light my path
9:01:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 27 April 2007
千里之外
歌手：周杰伦 费玉清
专辑：依然范特西
屋檐如悬崖 风铃如沧海 我等燕归来
时间被安排 演一场意外 你悄然走开
故事在城外 浓雾散不开 看不清对白
你听不出来 风声不存在 是我在感慨
梦醒来 是谁在窗台 把结局打开
那薄如蝉翼的未来 经不起谁来拆
我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待
RAP：
闻泪声入林 寻梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我两鬓斑白
闻泪声入林 寻梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我等你来
一身琉璃白 透明着尘埃 你无瑕的爱
你从雨中来 诗化了悲哀 我淋湿现在
芙蓉水面采 船行影犹在 你却不回来
被岁月覆盖 你说的花开 过去成空白
梦醒来 是谁在窗台 把结局打开
那薄如蝉翼的未来 经不起谁来拆
我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待
我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待
歌手：周杰伦 费玉清
专辑：依然范特西
| 千里之外 |
屋檐如悬崖 风铃如沧海 我等燕归来
时间被安排 演一场意外 你悄然走开
故事在城外 浓雾散不开 看不清对白
你听不出来 风声不存在 是我在感慨
梦醒来 是谁在窗台 把结局打开
那薄如蝉翼的未来 经不起谁来拆
我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待
RAP：
闻泪声入林 寻梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我两鬓斑白
闻泪声入林 寻梨花白 只得一行 青苔
天在山之外 雨落花台 我等你来
一身琉璃白 透明着尘埃 你无瑕的爱
你从雨中来 诗化了悲哀 我淋湿现在
芙蓉水面采 船行影犹在 你却不回来
被岁月覆盖 你说的花开 过去成空白
梦醒来 是谁在窗台 把结局打开
那薄如蝉翼的未来 经不起谁来拆
我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待
我送你离开 千里之外 你无声黑白
沉默年代 或许不该 太遥远的相爱
我送你离开 天涯之外 你是否还在
琴声何来 生死难猜 用一生 去等待
Light my path
12:52:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 26 April 2007
It's late and I am tired, so I'll try to keep it brief.
After work, I went for supper with a friend. It was yummy. I love the chilli crab from the Kim San Leng Coffee Shop in Bishan. We ordered rice, chilli crab and a plate of sambal kang kong. The food was good and the company pleasant. Though, I do feel a little more than guilty at indulging in supper. It is easy to expand horizontally, you know. I have to keep in mind that it is not nice to have excess baggage when dancing in skin tight leotard.
Lol.
Most likely, I will be staring my ballet dance next January, in order that my classes at UniSim do not clash with ballet and violin classes.
The strap of my left sandal snapped and I had to buy a new pair from my friendly neighbour.
Haiz.
Kexin, a friend from my church small group passed by and we talked for a bit. She is preparing for her exam for entry into medical school. I spilt out to her my fears of being unable to fit into my new company, that I am inept at making small talk and new friends. In the end, my conclusion is to be friendly and let nature runs its course.
Listening to Kexin talk about trying out for medical school, made me think about my current situation. both of us have the interest and desire, in whatever we would like to do (to be a doctor, in her case), but due to different circumstances, we did not immediately pursue our interest after graduation.
I shared my fears with her. I fear that after spending so much money and time in pursuing the degree, only to find out in my new job that I suck at what I think I am good at. I fear realizing that I am not as good as my teachers, friends and myself, believe I am. Isn't that too high of a price to pay? After so many years (I've been given to believe that I am good at what I do) and now, paying $20k-$24k for a degree course, only to realize that I cannot make it. That I do not have the flair for writing. It will be very crushing.
Kexin confessed that she too, struggled with such thoughts. Like failing to be a doctor, realizing that she isn't cut out to be one.
But one thing she mentioned, struck me very hard. She told me that she do not want to look back and regret, to wonder how different things would have been, if only she had tried.
Yes.
It was like a light bulb went off in my head.
There seem to be so much to lose. But if I never try, I will never know what I can gain. I will not lose any of the things which I fear losing, but I will live my life, regretting, thinking, wondering what could have been.
Below are quotes from the movie, Center Stage:
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"That's what ballet would be . . a life of wishing that I found something I loved, instead of something I just happened to do well. I'm not you, Mom. You didn't have the feet. I don't have the heart."
Life is short. I made quite a few mistakes when I was young. Not cherishing opportunities is a major part of them. I do not want to lose out any more, to lie down at night and regret.
Thus, I WILL be applying into UniSim for their Jan 2008 intake, learn ballet and play my violin well.
After work, I went for supper with a friend. It was yummy. I love the chilli crab from the Kim San Leng Coffee Shop in Bishan. We ordered rice, chilli crab and a plate of sambal kang kong. The food was good and the company pleasant. Though, I do feel a little more than guilty at indulging in supper. It is easy to expand horizontally, you know. I have to keep in mind that it is not nice to have excess baggage when dancing in skin tight leotard.
Lol.
Most likely, I will be staring my ballet dance next January, in order that my classes at UniSim do not clash with ballet and violin classes.
The strap of my left sandal snapped and I had to buy a new pair from my friendly neighbour.
Haiz.
Kexin, a friend from my church small group passed by and we talked for a bit. She is preparing for her exam for entry into medical school. I spilt out to her my fears of being unable to fit into my new company, that I am inept at making small talk and new friends. In the end, my conclusion is to be friendly and let nature runs its course.
Listening to Kexin talk about trying out for medical school, made me think about my current situation. both of us have the interest and desire, in whatever we would like to do (to be a doctor, in her case), but due to different circumstances, we did not immediately pursue our interest after graduation.
I shared my fears with her. I fear that after spending so much money and time in pursuing the degree, only to find out in my new job that I suck at what I think I am good at. I fear realizing that I am not as good as my teachers, friends and myself, believe I am. Isn't that too high of a price to pay? After so many years (I've been given to believe that I am good at what I do) and now, paying $20k-$24k for a degree course, only to realize that I cannot make it. That I do not have the flair for writing. It will be very crushing.
Kexin confessed that she too, struggled with such thoughts. Like failing to be a doctor, realizing that she isn't cut out to be one.
But one thing she mentioned, struck me very hard. She told me that she do not want to look back and regret, to wonder how different things would have been, if only she had tried.
Yes.
It was like a light bulb went off in my head.
There seem to be so much to lose. But if I never try, I will never know what I can gain. I will not lose any of the things which I fear losing, but I will live my life, regretting, thinking, wondering what could have been.
Below are quotes from the movie, Center Stage:
"I know what regret feels like, and I don't want that for you."
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"That's what ballet would be . . a life of wishing that I found something I loved, instead of something I just happened to do well. I'm not you, Mom. You didn't have the feet. I don't have the heart."
Life is short. I made quite a few mistakes when I was young. Not cherishing opportunities is a major part of them. I do not want to lose out any more, to lie down at night and regret.
Thus, I WILL be applying into UniSim for their Jan 2008 intake, learn ballet and play my violin well.
I do not know what lies ahead, maybe I will fall very badly, but at least I know that I have tried my best to go after what I want. There will be no regrets.
Light my path
1:32:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 25 April 2007
I am on the lookout for adult beginner ballet class. It has been my childhood dream to learn ballet and piano. Since I cannot afford a piano (plus my eldest sister will definitely SLAUGHTER me if I buy one), this dream has been pu on hold. Besides, I am learning violin, so it is still alright.
Ballet classes at schools range from $130-150 for a period of 8-10 weeks for each level. The price is reasonable, I suppose. But I am looking more for some thing long term. Not just a few months course, kind of thing. My friend, Mei Zheng advised me to check out the community centres, for their fees are cheaper.
I am feeling a trifle down, for I am forced to put my violin classes on hold till further notice. The school is unable to fit me into a suitable time slot. I had requested to change my Saturday morning class to other timings, for I have to work half day on Saturdays. Unfortunately, there is no suitable slot and no one is asking for a change in lesson time.
Sigh.
Ballet classes at schools range from $130-150 for a period of 8-10 weeks for each level. The price is reasonable, I suppose. But I am looking more for some thing long term. Not just a few months course, kind of thing. My friend, Mei Zheng advised me to check out the community centres, for their fees are cheaper.
I am feeling a trifle down, for I am forced to put my violin classes on hold till further notice. The school is unable to fit me into a suitable time slot. I had requested to change my Saturday morning class to other timings, for I have to work half day on Saturdays. Unfortunately, there is no suitable slot and no one is asking for a change in lesson time.
Sigh.
Light my path
12:12:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 24 April 2007
I encountered a fortune teller at my workplace this afternoon. He approached me and started telling things about me. Seeing that he is pretty accurate, I decided to listen to what he has to say.
He told me that I am a person who is easily cheated and used by others. Under normal circumstances, I am quite a laidback person, but when I am angry, my anger is red hot, burning. I am a smart person and had good results in my studies when I was young, but sadly, I am fickle in things that I do and do not put in the effort; thus if I do not get a degree or attain good results, I cannot blame anyone but myself. In addition, I do not spend my money on things which I should spend on, things that I don't need, I spend on them.
He added that many people find my personality weird. I am some one who is straightforward and honest. To people who treat me well, I will treat them even better. To those who do not, I could not be bothered with them. He even said that I will live up to 79. (Haha...this one, I really do not believe. For my days on earth, it is in my Creator's control. Only God can determine how long I leave.)
He commented that my body has been rather weak, recently. (How true!! Ever since I recovered from food poisoning, I've been sick on and off.)
The fortune teller pointed out that the current job which I am in, is not my ideal job.
With regards to my love life, he warned me that I am easily cheated (my goodness! Sob. I admit that there is a grain of truth in what he says, for I trust others too easily). Using a pen, he traced my love line, saying that it diverges into 3 paths. (I forgot to ask him to elaborate more.) He said that I once had a boyfriend who was unfaithful to me. When I heard that I was laughing on the inside. I told him, I never had a boyfriend before. He then said that it may be because there is a guy who likes me, but never expressed himself. I was all confused. Bah.
As I am typing and recalling our conversation, I suddenly remembered the guy who was 'unfaithful' to me. I had almost forgotten about him. Hn. So, I guess what the fortune teller said was true after all. But, he wasn't really my boyfriend. He was just a guy who thinks he is Casanova. He isn't good looking but he really has the moves. I was pretty touched till I found out that he had been 'romancing' 2 to 3 other girls, of which, 2 are my classmates. Thank God that I discovered it very early, if not, I guess it will be my first heartbreak at 15 years old. It stung a little but I was more angry than sad. More disgusted than heartbroken. How pathetic, huh? At 15, I was naive. Now at 23 years old, I am still not much different. Though I do not get cheated in relationships anymore, I am still a greenhorn in the ways of the world. I am frustrated with myself, by my naiveté.
He advised me not to get married too early, better to wait till I am between 25-28 years old. My husband will be 4-5 years older than me. Whoever who marries me will be blessed, because I will be a good wife. He continued on, saying that the later part of my life will be better, richer.
Most of the stuff that he said about me, were true. But still I'd take all that he said, with a pinch of salt.
He told me that I am a person who is easily cheated and used by others. Under normal circumstances, I am quite a laidback person, but when I am angry, my anger is red hot, burning. I am a smart person and had good results in my studies when I was young, but sadly, I am fickle in things that I do and do not put in the effort; thus if I do not get a degree or attain good results, I cannot blame anyone but myself. In addition, I do not spend my money on things which I should spend on, things that I don't need, I spend on them.
He added that many people find my personality weird. I am some one who is straightforward and honest. To people who treat me well, I will treat them even better. To those who do not, I could not be bothered with them. He even said that I will live up to 79. (Haha...this one, I really do not believe. For my days on earth, it is in my Creator's control. Only God can determine how long I leave.)
He commented that my body has been rather weak, recently. (How true!! Ever since I recovered from food poisoning, I've been sick on and off.)
The fortune teller pointed out that the current job which I am in, is not my ideal job.
With regards to my love life, he warned me that I am easily cheated (my goodness! Sob. I admit that there is a grain of truth in what he says, for I trust others too easily). Using a pen, he traced my love line, saying that it diverges into 3 paths. (I forgot to ask him to elaborate more.) He said that I once had a boyfriend who was unfaithful to me. When I heard that I was laughing on the inside. I told him, I never had a boyfriend before. He then said that it may be because there is a guy who likes me, but never expressed himself. I was all confused. Bah.
As I am typing and recalling our conversation, I suddenly remembered the guy who was 'unfaithful' to me. I had almost forgotten about him. Hn. So, I guess what the fortune teller said was true after all. But, he wasn't really my boyfriend. He was just a guy who thinks he is Casanova. He isn't good looking but he really has the moves. I was pretty touched till I found out that he had been 'romancing' 2 to 3 other girls, of which, 2 are my classmates. Thank God that I discovered it very early, if not, I guess it will be my first heartbreak at 15 years old. It stung a little but I was more angry than sad. More disgusted than heartbroken. How pathetic, huh? At 15, I was naive. Now at 23 years old, I am still not much different. Though I do not get cheated in relationships anymore, I am still a greenhorn in the ways of the world. I am frustrated with myself, by my naiveté.
He advised me not to get married too early, better to wait till I am between 25-28 years old. My husband will be 4-5 years older than me. Whoever who marries me will be blessed, because I will be a good wife. He continued on, saying that the later part of my life will be better, richer.
Most of the stuff that he said about me, were true. But still I'd take all that he said, with a pinch of salt.
Light my path
11:26:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I like the catchy one liner:
CENTER STAGE
LIFE DOESN'T HOLD TRYOUTS
Light my path
2:39:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I had first heard of Amanda Schull from a movie called Center Stage. In it, she was starring as a Jodie Sawyer - a ballet dancer who has the passion for dance, but not the 'right' body.
In my opinion, it was a stellar performance by the whole cast. The dances, they speak. Through twists, turns, jumps, the slightest twitch of the body...they all convey what speech fails to do.
I had made up my mind then, to fly to the States to watch her and Sascha Radetsky dance. I was so looking forward to it too! And kept reminding myself to save up faster, for a ballet dancer has a short career lifespan.
Sascha Radetsky(left) as Charlie Sim and Amanda Schull as Jodie Sawyer
To my utter disappointment, it was announced on 12 April 2006 that Amanda Schull (who danced in San Franciso Ballet) will be retiring following the end of the 2006 Repertory Season. To say that I am a little close to feeling crushed, will not be lying. It was so sudden! She is still so young...
Below is a video of Amanda Schull taking her final bow at a dance performance.
Plot Summary of Center Stage:
After competitions, 12 young dancers make it to the American Ballet Academy. They'll prepare for a recital to determine who will be asked to join the American Ballet Company. Tensions mount between Jonathan, the company's aging choreographer, and Cooper, his best dancer, who also wants to choreograph. The brilliant Maureen seems poised for success, but she discovers that life is passing her by. Jody, whose body may be the wrong type and whose technique is ragged, elicits Cooper's interest. The edgy, smart-mouthed Eva loves to dance but seems destined to be stuck in the back of the chorus. The recital will decide their fates.
"Center Stage" is an intimate look into the education of three young students, Jodie, Eva and Maureen, as they study at the American Ballet Academy. Life isn't what they expected at the esteemed ABC, and all three face problems along the road. Jodie doesn't have the "ideal" body for dancing, Eva doesn't have the right attitude, and Maureen doesn't have the heart. Along the way, they learn that love can be found in unlikely places, and dancing should be a passion, not a duty.
In my opinion, it was a stellar performance by the whole cast. The dances, they speak. Through twists, turns, jumps, the slightest twitch of the body...they all convey what speech fails to do.
I had made up my mind then, to fly to the States to watch her and Sascha Radetsky dance. I was so looking forward to it too! And kept reminding myself to save up faster, for a ballet dancer has a short career lifespan.
Sascha Radetsky(left) as Charlie Sim and Amanda Schull as Jodie Sawyer
To my utter disappointment, it was announced on 12 April 2006 that Amanda Schull (who danced in San Franciso Ballet) will be retiring following the end of the 2006 Repertory Season. To say that I am a little close to feeling crushed, will not be lying. It was so sudden! She is still so young...
Below is a video of Amanda Schull taking her final bow at a dance performance.
Plot Summary of Center Stage:
After competitions, 12 young dancers make it to the American Ballet Academy. They'll prepare for a recital to determine who will be asked to join the American Ballet Company. Tensions mount between Jonathan, the company's aging choreographer, and Cooper, his best dancer, who also wants to choreograph. The brilliant Maureen seems poised for success, but she discovers that life is passing her by. Jody, whose body may be the wrong type and whose technique is ragged, elicits Cooper's interest. The edgy, smart-mouthed Eva loves to dance but seems destined to be stuck in the back of the chorus. The recital will decide their fates.
"Center Stage" is an intimate look into the education of three young students, Jodie, Eva and Maureen, as they study at the American Ballet Academy. Life isn't what they expected at the esteemed ABC, and all three face problems along the road. Jodie doesn't have the "ideal" body for dancing, Eva doesn't have the right attitude, and Maureen doesn't have the heart. Along the way, they learn that love can be found in unlikely places, and dancing should be a passion, not a duty.
Light my path
1:57:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 23 April 2007
Ruff Endz - If I Was The One
(from the movie: Center Stage)
I see the way he treats you,
I feel the tears you cry,
And it makes sad, and it makes mad,
There's nothing I can do baby.
Cause your lover is my best friend,
And I guess that's where they story ends.
So I've gotta try, to keep it inside.
You will never be, never be mine
But, if I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
If I could have just one wish,
I'd wish that you were mine,
I would hold you near,
Kiss away those tears.
I'd be so good to you baby.
You're the one I want next to me,
But I guess that's just not meant to be.
He's there in your life,
And he's sharing your nights,
It'll never be, never be right.
If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night.
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
Yeah, baby.
I wanna reach out and view beside me,
Right here beside me, babe.
Take you in my arms right there,
Scream 'I love you' right out loud.
Some day I pray, that I'll find the strength,
To turn to you and say,
If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
If I was the one,
If I was the one,
In your life.
(from the movie: Center Stage)
I see the way he treats you,
I feel the tears you cry,
And it makes sad, and it makes mad,
There's nothing I can do baby.
Cause your lover is my best friend,
And I guess that's where they story ends.
So I've gotta try, to keep it inside.
You will never be, never be mine
But, if I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
If I could have just one wish,
I'd wish that you were mine,
I would hold you near,
Kiss away those tears.
I'd be so good to you baby.
You're the one I want next to me,
But I guess that's just not meant to be.
He's there in your life,
And he's sharing your nights,
It'll never be, never be right.
If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night.
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
Yeah, baby.
I wanna reach out and view beside me,
Right here beside me, babe.
Take you in my arms right there,
Scream 'I love you' right out loud.
Some day I pray, that I'll find the strength,
To turn to you and say,
If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
If I was the one who was loving you, baby.
The only tears you'd cry would be tears of joy.
And if I was by your side,
You'll never know one lonely night
And if it was my arms you were running to,
I'd give you love in these arms of mine.
If I was the one in your life.
If I was the one,
If I was the one,
In your life.
| Ruff Endz - If I Was The One |
Light my path
11:42:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 22 April 2007
3 Doors Down - Here Without You
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same.
All the miles that seperate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that this gets better as we go.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.
Everything I know, and anywhere I go,
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
And when the last one falls, when its all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.
A hundred days have made me older
Since the last time that I saw your pretty face.
A thousand lies have made me colder
And I don't think I can look at this the same.
All the miles that seperate
Disappear now when I'm dreamin' of your face.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.
The miles just keep rollin'
As the people leave their way to say hello
I've heard this life is overrated
But I hope that this gets better as we go.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind.
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.
Everything I know, and anywhere I go,
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
And when the last one falls, when its all said and done.
It gets hard but it won't take away my love.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby and I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight, girl, it's only you and me.
3 Doors Down - Here Without You |
Light my path
4:03:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 21 April 2007
孟浩然 - 春曉
春眠眠不覺曉
春眠眠不覺曉
處處聞啼鳥
夜來風雨聲
花落知多少
I awake light-hearted this morning of spring,
Everywhere round me the singing of birds -
But now I remember the night, the storm,
And I wonder how many blossoms had fallen.
Light my path
5:59:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
杜 秋 娘 - 金縷衣
勸君莫惜金縷衣
勸君惜取少年時
花開堪折直須折
莫待無花空折枝
Covet not a gold-threaded robe,
Cherish only your young days!
If a bud opens, gather it –
Lest you but wait for an empty bough
Light my path
5:56:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Light my path
5:50:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Every one in my family, are currently having their afternoon nap.
Lol.
I am progressing in my violin playing, but I still have the sense of inadequacy. That I am still up to par with people of my level. It seems like, the more I play, the more bad habits I develop and are revealed.
Big sigh.
So many things I wish to do, so little time and so little money.
6 more days (my working days) to go, before I leave my current job. To a certain extent, I can't wait for my last day. Yet, on the other hand, I am pensive about the new working environment. In a new set-up, I am like a fish out of water.
How do I put this? currently, I am feeling that life is short, time is running out, I feel anxious. I want to accomplish all that I desire. Yet, I am forced to move at a snail's pace. I suppose this is where a Chinese saying comes in: 小不忍则乱大谋。
I need to be patient and bid my time.
Lol.
I am progressing in my violin playing, but I still have the sense of inadequacy. That I am still up to par with people of my level. It seems like, the more I play, the more bad habits I develop and are revealed.
Big sigh.
So many things I wish to do, so little time and so little money.
6 more days (my working days) to go, before I leave my current job. To a certain extent, I can't wait for my last day. Yet, on the other hand, I am pensive about the new working environment. In a new set-up, I am like a fish out of water.
How do I put this? currently, I am feeling that life is short, time is running out, I feel anxious. I want to accomplish all that I desire. Yet, I am forced to move at a snail's pace. I suppose this is where a Chinese saying comes in: 小不忍则乱大谋。
I need to be patient and bid my time.
Light my path
5:25:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Boy, oh boy.
I really must be going to sleep, for I have violin class early in the morning.
Man.
I really am asking for it, sleeping so late.
For it is now 0316, even as I am typing now.
I have decided to go for it.
To study in UniSIM. In the meantime, I wish to sign up for dance class. I've always wanted to learn ballet ever since I was little. Now, in addition to that, I am interested in learning waltz and ballroom dance.
I am planning to sign up for Korean language course withing these few months, too.
The financial advisor's going to kill me.
He's going to be not so pleased with all the additional expenses.
Though, it may be quite late, by the time I graduate from my degree course, I am determined to take it up, for I've some thing to fulfill.
A goal which I want to achieve.
A dream may always remain a dream. And a hope may never come true. But a goal may be fufilled.
I really must be going to sleep, for I have violin class early in the morning.
Man.
I really am asking for it, sleeping so late.
For it is now 0316, even as I am typing now.
I have decided to go for it.
To study in UniSIM. In the meantime, I wish to sign up for dance class. I've always wanted to learn ballet ever since I was little. Now, in addition to that, I am interested in learning waltz and ballroom dance.
I am planning to sign up for Korean language course withing these few months, too.
The financial advisor's going to kill me.
He's going to be not so pleased with all the additional expenses.
Though, it may be quite late, by the time I graduate from my degree course, I am determined to take it up, for I've some thing to fulfill.
A goal which I want to achieve.
A dream may always remain a dream. And a hope may never come true. But a goal may be fufilled.
"An article with misrepresentation can pierce the heart of the other person."
-RAIN
Light my path
3:15:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Oh Carol
by Neil Sedaka
Oh! Carol, I am but a fool,
Darling I love you tho' you treat me cruel,
You hurt me and you made me cry
But if you leave me I will surely die.
Darling there will never be another
Cause I love you so,
don't ever leave me,
Say you'll never go
I will always want you for my sweetheart
No matter what you do
Oh! Carol, I'm so in love with you.
Oh! Carol, I am but a fool,
Darling I love you tho' you treat me cruel,
You hurt me and you made me cry
But if you leave me I will surely die.
Darling there will never be another
Cause I love you so,
don't ever leave me,
Say you'll never go
I will always want you for my sweetheart
No matter what you do
Oh! Carol, I'm so in love with you.
by Neil Sedaka
Oh! Carol, I am but a fool,
Darling I love you tho' you treat me cruel,
You hurt me and you made me cry
But if you leave me I will surely die.
Darling there will never be another
Cause I love you so,
don't ever leave me,
Say you'll never go
I will always want you for my sweetheart
No matter what you do
Oh! Carol, I'm so in love with you.
Oh! Carol, I am but a fool,
Darling I love you tho' you treat me cruel,
You hurt me and you made me cry
But if you leave me I will surely die.
Darling there will never be another
Cause I love you so,
don't ever leave me,
Say you'll never go
I will always want you for my sweetheart
No matter what you do
Oh! Carol, I'm so in love with you.
| Oh Carol |
Light my path
3:10:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tell Laura I Love Her
By Ray Peterson
Laura and Tommy were lovers
He wanted to give her everything
Flowers, presents,
But most of all, a wedding ring
He saw a sign for a stock car race
A thousand dollar prize it read
He couldn't get Laura on the phone
So to her mother, Tommy said
Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura I may be late
I've something to do, that cannot wait
He drove his car to the racing grounds
He was the youngest driver there
The crowed roared as they started the race
Around the track they drove at a deadly pace
No one knows what happened that day
Or how his car overturned in flames
But as they pulled him from the twisted wreck
With his dying breath, they heard him say
Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die
Now in the chapel where Laura prays
For her poor Tommy, who passed away
It was just for Laura he lived and died
Alone in the chapel she can hear him cry
Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die
Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die
By Ray Peterson
Laura and Tommy were lovers
He wanted to give her everything
Flowers, presents,
But most of all, a wedding ring
He saw a sign for a stock car race
A thousand dollar prize it read
He couldn't get Laura on the phone
So to her mother, Tommy said
Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura I may be late
I've something to do, that cannot wait
He drove his car to the racing grounds
He was the youngest driver there
The crowed roared as they started the race
Around the track they drove at a deadly pace
No one knows what happened that day
Or how his car overturned in flames
But as they pulled him from the twisted wreck
With his dying breath, they heard him say
Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die
Now in the chapel where Laura prays
For her poor Tommy, who passed away
It was just for Laura he lived and died
Alone in the chapel she can hear him cry
Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die
Tell Laura I love her
Tell Laura I need her
Tell Laura not to cry
My love for her will never die
| Tell Laura I Love Her |
Light my path
2:58:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I think I am on the verge of suffering from insomnia.
Bah.
I can't sleep unless it is past 2am, or some times, even later.
ZZz....
An early mid-life crisis is upon me.
My gosh.
Anyway, the following song is a duet between Jackie Chan and Korea's No. 1 Beauty - Kim Hee Sun, from a movie- The Myth.
Bah.
I can't sleep unless it is past 2am, or some times, even later.
ZZz....
An early mid-life crisis is upon me.
My gosh.
Anyway, the following song is a duet between Jackie Chan and Korea's No. 1 Beauty - Kim Hee Sun, from a movie- The Myth.
| Jackie Chan & Kim Hee Sun - Endless Love |
Light my path
2:48:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
How Can I Tell Her
By Lobo
She knows when I'm lonesome, she cries when I'm sad.
She's up in the good times, she's down in the bad.
And whenever I'm discouraged, she knows just what to do.
But girl, she doesn't know about you.
I can tell her troubles, she makes them all seem right.
I can make up excuses, not to hold her at night.
We can talk of tomorrow, I'll tell her things I want to do.
But girl, how can I tell her about you?
How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right, whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me, how to tell her about you.
How can I tell her I don't miss her, whenever I'm away?
How can I say it's you I think of, every single night and day?
And when is it easy, telling someone we're through?
Ah girl, help me tell her about you.
How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right, whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me, how to tell her about you.
By Lobo
She knows when I'm lonesome, she cries when I'm sad.
She's up in the good times, she's down in the bad.
And whenever I'm discouraged, she knows just what to do.
But girl, she doesn't know about you.
I can tell her troubles, she makes them all seem right.
I can make up excuses, not to hold her at night.
We can talk of tomorrow, I'll tell her things I want to do.
But girl, how can I tell her about you?
How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right, whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me, how to tell her about you.
How can I tell her I don't miss her, whenever I'm away?
How can I say it's you I think of, every single night and day?
And when is it easy, telling someone we're through?
Ah girl, help me tell her about you.
How can I tell her about you?
Girl, please tell me what to do.
Everything seems right, whenever I'm with you.
So girl, won't you tell me, how to tell her about you.
Light my path
2:18:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 19 April 2007
Welcome Rain to Lotte
The giant posters of Bae Youngjun are gradually replaced from the headquater of Lotte, which is located at Seoul. In the past three years, Bae was their spokesman.
From April 17, Lotte will use the giant posters of RAIN, a dedicated singer who is working hard to be an international super star.
Lotte Shopping Mall released announcement on April 17, stating that singer Rain and actor Park Yong Har will be their new models. Bae's spokesman contract is going to end this month. His contract was signed in year 2004.
From the viewpoints of marketing strategy, Lotte replaced Bae who has strong influence in Japan with world class singer Rain, it may show Lotte's ambition to explore in more overseas markets. Rain who is influential enough in Asia and Southeast Asia regions, is now moving towards the world. Therefore, it is said that Rain's current image fits with Lotte's marketing strategies. Lotte is one of the worldwide logistic enterprises.
In addition, Rain will be an attractive selling point to China travellers, indirectly it will promote Lotte's brand name in China since Lotte China was recently set up.
Source: Naver
The giant posters of Bae Youngjun are gradually replaced from the headquater of Lotte, which is located at Seoul. In the past three years, Bae was their spokesman.
From April 17, Lotte will use the giant posters of RAIN, a dedicated singer who is working hard to be an international super star.
Lotte Shopping Mall released announcement on April 17, stating that singer Rain and actor Park Yong Har will be their new models. Bae's spokesman contract is going to end this month. His contract was signed in year 2004.
From the viewpoints of marketing strategy, Lotte replaced Bae who has strong influence in Japan with world class singer Rain, it may show Lotte's ambition to explore in more overseas markets. Rain who is influential enough in Asia and Southeast Asia regions, is now moving towards the world. Therefore, it is said that Rain's current image fits with Lotte's marketing strategies. Lotte is one of the worldwide logistic enterprises.
In addition, Rain will be an attractive selling point to China travellers, indirectly it will promote Lotte's brand name in China since Lotte China was recently set up.
Source: Naver
Light my path
11:05:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
人们爱的是一些人，
与之结婚生子的，
又是另外一些人。
Light my path
10:56:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
我不快乐， 也是应该的。
因为我并无追求快乐。
Light my path
10:51:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 18 April 2007
"When I was a student, I thought studying was dry and boring.
But practising my singing and dancing is something I love;
something I find interesting and can rid of my straying thoughts.
Because of this, I think a person should live on doing something he/she loves.
This seems to be the way of life."
-RAIN
When a journalist asked him, "Let's change our positions. If you're a journalist, what would you like to ask Rain?"
"Well, I have no special questions. I just have one thing to say, 'An article with misrepresentation can pierce the heart of the other person'."
-RAIN
Light my path
1:20:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Just as I was wondering if I am a fool for having an idealistic way of living, I found out in an interview that I am not alone in such a thought.
-RAIN
People may say that I am still young, inexperienced and sheltered, that is way I am still thinking like that. Once again, I can say with confidence and assurance that this thinking, is my way of life. I truly believe that we CAN live our life that way. That it is not wrong or unrealistic to pursue a career, course of study or way of life, in the area of our passion and interest; despite the fact that we are passionate about may not be a huge demand in the working world.
I read novels because it is my interest.
I write because it is my passion. It expresses my way of life, my thoughts, in a way that spoken words can never.
I put in hard work into my English, Chemistry and Literature because I love these subjects.
It is ALL about interest and passion.
Perhaps in times of finiancial need, one may have to bow down to reality; nevertheless, I still believe that it is not impossible or foolish to work, to do things because of interest.
Till the end of my earthly life and for the eternity of my life with the Lord, this is my way of thinking and living.
I do not know how to take my interest and passion and turn them into what RAIN did and is still doing, but it is my greatest wish to do so.
Life is fragile and short.
If we spend this short span doing things which make us miserable, how truly miserable and sad fools we are!
".....Because of this, I think a person should live on doing something he/she loves.
This seems to be the way of life."
This seems to be the way of life."
-RAIN
People may say that I am still young, inexperienced and sheltered, that is way I am still thinking like that. Once again, I can say with confidence and assurance that this thinking, is my way of life. I truly believe that we CAN live our life that way. That it is not wrong or unrealistic to pursue a career, course of study or way of life, in the area of our passion and interest; despite the fact that we are passionate about may not be a huge demand in the working world.
I read novels because it is my interest.
I write because it is my passion. It expresses my way of life, my thoughts, in a way that spoken words can never.
I put in hard work into my English, Chemistry and Literature because I love these subjects.
It is ALL about interest and passion.
Perhaps in times of finiancial need, one may have to bow down to reality; nevertheless, I still believe that it is not impossible or foolish to work, to do things because of interest.
Till the end of my earthly life and for the eternity of my life with the Lord, this is my way of thinking and living.
I do not know how to take my interest and passion and turn them into what RAIN did and is still doing, but it is my greatest wish to do so.
Life is fragile and short.
If we spend this short span doing things which make us miserable, how truly miserable and sad fools we are!
Light my path
1:10:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I've never thought that I am such an idealistic person till my 2nd job interview. The interviewer was rather practical. To a certain extent, I agree with his views, but still, I do not really agree with him on most things.
Money certainly isn't every thing. Perhaps you may say that I am saying this now because I am not in great need or dire circumstances. But, I can say this with confidence: Money is not everything. It has never been my first priority before and it never will.
True, we need money for loads of things. But there are things, principles, people, that money can never buy or replace.
If you ask me, "Do you want money?" My answer will be, "Of course."
Why not?
I do want money.
But it isn't what I am aiming for in life, it is not my priority when making decisions. It doesn't run my life.
It is not the love of my life.
The love of my life....it is some thing else.
I believe in and want to study and work in an area that interests me. I am one who studies for interest. Who works because I need to and because this job interests me. We spend only so few years studying, but most of our lives working. Would it not be truly pathetic if we hate the job we are in, yet stay in it because of the pay and benefits? I would be extremely miserable.
Of course, there'll be people who beg to differ.
This is just my personal opinion and my way of life.
Money certainly isn't every thing. Perhaps you may say that I am saying this now because I am not in great need or dire circumstances. But, I can say this with confidence: Money is not everything. It has never been my first priority before and it never will.
True, we need money for loads of things. But there are things, principles, people, that money can never buy or replace.
If you ask me, "Do you want money?" My answer will be, "Of course."
Why not?
I do want money.
But it isn't what I am aiming for in life, it is not my priority when making decisions. It doesn't run my life.
It is not the love of my life.
The love of my life....it is some thing else.
I believe in and want to study and work in an area that interests me. I am one who studies for interest. Who works because I need to and because this job interests me. We spend only so few years studying, but most of our lives working. Would it not be truly pathetic if we hate the job we are in, yet stay in it because of the pay and benefits? I would be extremely miserable.
Of course, there'll be people who beg to differ.
This is just my personal opinion and my way of life.
Light my path
12:48:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Once again, the following interview presents reasons why I like Rain (Jung Ji-hoon) so very much.
On certain subjects, our views are the same. On others, his way of life, is a source of inspiration and encouragement for me.
He is not my idol. RAIN, Jung Ji-hoon is a person whom I admire and respect the most.
Things which I dare not reach out for, things that I daren't even dream of, RAIN reaches out and does his best to grasp hold of them.
If you cannot understand why I like him, as much as I do, read the following interview.
On certain subjects, our views are the same. On others, his way of life, is a source of inspiration and encouragement for me.
He is not my idol. RAIN, Jung Ji-hoon is a person whom I admire and respect the most.
Things which I dare not reach out for, things that I daren't even dream of, RAIN reaches out and does his best to grasp hold of them.
If you cannot understand why I like him, as much as I do, read the following interview.
Light my path
12:45:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Even if I fail in the US, I want to make it a successful failure
Exclusive Interview with singer, Rain, who will be holding his concert in Sydney on the 14th.
In our 15 minutes interview, Rain repeated the words "Enter the US market" and "Best performance" etc -- words which he often uses -- more than 10 times. Journalists waiting for their interview slots were either observing this no-nonsense interview, or busy trying to capture some shots. With the Sydney concert just three days away, this journalist was fortunate to be able to locate out interview venue: a hotel crowded with groups of female fans at Double Bay.
"I intend to give the most wonderful stage to the "few" Sydney and Asian fans here. You can say this is a pre-event to heading towards a bigger stage." Rain admits he has yet to have enough to "walk out of Asia". He also said, "My performance is linked through a series of well-though choreographies. Even if the location may change, the stage will not undergo too much changes."
As of last year, Rain has been transitting through US, Hong Kong, Singapore, Malaysia, Vietnam, Taiwan for his world concert tour. China, Japan and US are also stops scheduled within his World Tour. What does Rain, who is now busy with his world concer tour, normally do in the plane?
"I conceptualise my next album and project, or listen to music. In preparation for my debut in the US, I'm also learning English. I'm not bored during my flights"
Rain is drifting from place to place in a plane with his promotion printed on it. Because of this, senior singer, Lee Seung Chol (known as the king of "LIVE" in Korea) said on a recent TV programme, "Among all the singers, I envy Rain the most".
"I exist to perform. It's my honour that a senior I like in the singing industry said those words. I consider myself a fortunate man being able to perform in different parts of the world."
As one of the first Korean singer to have a world concert tour, Rain said, "To me, it is still to early to label me as a 'World Star'. It is my dream to be worthy of this label when I make a successful debut in the US." "There are many dangerous factors and lackings in this world concert tour. Going thorugh these hurdles, I'll like to pave a smoother road for artistes to have their world concert tour in future."
A Shrewd CEO, A Successful Entrepreneur -- Rain in the next 10, 20 years.
Although exuding a high level of confidence, his tone suddenly became quiet and calm.
"I don't feel uneasy about my long period of absence in Korea. Because if I do my best for the next album, I will be warmly received. Otherwise, I will be harshly criticised. I may only get one of such chances in this life. If I give up this chance (to make a debut in the US) because I cannot bear to take my absence from the Korean market, I will regret it for the rest of my life," Rain said. Even if the US debut "is a failure, I want to make it a successful (glorious) failure". "If you hold tight to the sand in your fist, that sand will still escape and disappear through your fingers sooner or later. I want to try to grasp hold of a new fistful of sand, and take on a new challenge."
Rain said, "Touring the different countries like what I'm doing now may very well be the climax of my career as a singer". But then later, he changed his tone and added on "If I lead every single day of my life seriously, I should be able to enjoy the fruits of labour when I'm 50, 60 year old?" With regards to what he thinks he'll become in the next 10, 20 years, he said, "Hopefully a shrewd CEO and a successful entrepreneur. It'll be nice, even if it's not in the entertainment industry. So I intend to take time to learn about business management."
What are the songs you like to sing normally?
-- "Mona Lisa"*, "I only have you"* etc
In the previous interviews, Rain said before, "Even when I'm having a glass of soju, I'll be thinking, 'I really should spend this time practising. It's such a waste of time to spend it drinking'." "When I was a student, I thought studying was dry and boring. But practising my singing and dancing is something I love; something I find interesting and can rid of my straying thoughts. Because of this, I think a person should live on doing something he/she loves. This seems to be the way of life."
"Century Icon" Rain and 25-year-old Jung Jihoon. Doesn't he have any reminiscences about those pleasures in life which he has yet to enjoy?
"Perhaps some people will pity on how I'm already standing at the top at such a young age, unable to enjoy the joy and freedom of my age. But now, I just want to pour all my passion into my work."
He said, "Occasionally, I'll go to the Karaoke with good friends. I like to sing senior Cho Yong Pil's 'Come back, come back to Pusan habour'*, 'Mona Lisa'* and Senior Lee Seung Chol's 'I only have you"*.
When this journalist asked him, "Let's change our positions. If you're a journalist, what would you like to ask Rain?"
"Well, I have no special questions. I just have one thing to say, 'An article with misrepresentation can pierce the heart of the other person'."
Exclusive Interview with singer, Rain, who will be holding his concert in Sydney on the 14th.
In our 15 minutes interview, Rain repeated the words "Enter the US market" and "Best performance" etc -- words which he often uses -- more than 10 times. Journalists waiting for their interview slots were either observing this no-nonsense interview, or busy trying to capture some shots. With the Sydney concert just three days away, this journalist was fortunate to be able to locate out interview venue: a hotel crowded with groups of female fans at Double Bay.
"I intend to give the most wonderful stage to the "few" Sydney and Asian fans here. You can say this is a pre-event to heading towards a bigger stage." Rain admits he has yet to have enough to "walk out of Asia". He also said, "My performance is linked through a series of well-though choreographies. Even if the location may change, the stage will not undergo too much changes."
As of last year, Rain has been transitting through US, Hong Kong, Singapore, Malaysia, Vietnam, Taiwan for his world concert tour. China, Japan and US are also stops scheduled within his World Tour. What does Rain, who is now busy with his world concer tour, normally do in the plane?
"I conceptualise my next album and project, or listen to music. In preparation for my debut in the US, I'm also learning English. I'm not bored during my flights"
Rain is drifting from place to place in a plane with his promotion printed on it. Because of this, senior singer, Lee Seung Chol (known as the king of "LIVE" in Korea) said on a recent TV programme, "Among all the singers, I envy Rain the most".
"I exist to perform. It's my honour that a senior I like in the singing industry said those words. I consider myself a fortunate man being able to perform in different parts of the world."
As one of the first Korean singer to have a world concert tour, Rain said, "To me, it is still to early to label me as a 'World Star'. It is my dream to be worthy of this label when I make a successful debut in the US." "There are many dangerous factors and lackings in this world concert tour. Going thorugh these hurdles, I'll like to pave a smoother road for artistes to have their world concert tour in future."
A Shrewd CEO, A Successful Entrepreneur -- Rain in the next 10, 20 years.
Although exuding a high level of confidence, his tone suddenly became quiet and calm.
"I don't feel uneasy about my long period of absence in Korea. Because if I do my best for the next album, I will be warmly received. Otherwise, I will be harshly criticised. I may only get one of such chances in this life. If I give up this chance (to make a debut in the US) because I cannot bear to take my absence from the Korean market, I will regret it for the rest of my life," Rain said. Even if the US debut "is a failure, I want to make it a successful (glorious) failure". "If you hold tight to the sand in your fist, that sand will still escape and disappear through your fingers sooner or later. I want to try to grasp hold of a new fistful of sand, and take on a new challenge."
Rain said, "Touring the different countries like what I'm doing now may very well be the climax of my career as a singer". But then later, he changed his tone and added on "If I lead every single day of my life seriously, I should be able to enjoy the fruits of labour when I'm 50, 60 year old?" With regards to what he thinks he'll become in the next 10, 20 years, he said, "Hopefully a shrewd CEO and a successful entrepreneur. It'll be nice, even if it's not in the entertainment industry. So I intend to take time to learn about business management."
What are the songs you like to sing normally?
-- "Mona Lisa"*, "I only have you"* etc
In the previous interviews, Rain said before, "Even when I'm having a glass of soju, I'll be thinking, 'I really should spend this time practising. It's such a waste of time to spend it drinking'." "When I was a student, I thought studying was dry and boring. But practising my singing and dancing is something I love; something I find interesting and can rid of my straying thoughts. Because of this, I think a person should live on doing something he/she loves. This seems to be the way of life."
"Century Icon" Rain and 25-year-old Jung Jihoon. Doesn't he have any reminiscences about those pleasures in life which he has yet to enjoy?
"Perhaps some people will pity on how I'm already standing at the top at such a young age, unable to enjoy the joy and freedom of my age. But now, I just want to pour all my passion into my work."
He said, "Occasionally, I'll go to the Karaoke with good friends. I like to sing senior Cho Yong Pil's 'Come back, come back to Pusan habour'*, 'Mona Lisa'* and Senior Lee Seung Chol's 'I only have you"*.
When this journalist asked him, "Let's change our positions. If you're a journalist, what would you like to ask Rain?"
"Well, I have no special questions. I just have one thing to say, 'An article with misrepresentation can pierce the heart of the other person'."
Light my path
12:40:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Jihoon in the Eyes of his Tango Instructor
This is from last year's concert. A Korean Cloud found it.
The text is by a Tango Choreographer.
I saw Rain.
Starting from 15-16 December, The World Concert Tour known as "Rain's World Tour Seoul". I am now responsible for part of the dance choreography.
Looking at Rain from the viewpoint of a teacher,
Rain is "a person who is very courteous, honest, hardworking, filled with agility and yet mysterious."
Rain's cells possesses the "dance talent" which normal people does not have.
When his "dance cells" come alive, all his other cells become inactive.
Speaking of that feeling of dance movements filled with vitality.
Rain's body is filled with a strong primitive vigority when he is dancing.
It touches you and even relaxes you;
It gives you a feeling of stability and greatness;
It makes you sigh involuntarily with an "Ah!"
On top of that, his humility as well as the allure of his strength and ability,
I don't think there's any exaggeration that in this busy entertainment industry of the 21st century, he is able to stand right on top and become the center of this system,
and be chosen as one of the 100 most influential people in the world.
This young singer Rain has a matured side to him.
He practises his dance with a strong rhythm
as if he's trying to suck up all the air in the dance studio.
The next moment, he quietly appears by your side, staring ernestly at you with a shy expression, he asks the tango expert's opinion on the dance choreography he did for "the tango with Hyori Lee"
Such an innocent young man......
On that automated rising platform, the accident due to a lack of coordination in timing,
Like a lion, he rather protect others and be hurt himself .
Such a matured young man!
What strength do I have to resist liking him...
Please look forward to that Rain who tangos in the World Concert Tour~!
This is from last year's concert. A Korean Cloud found it.
The text is by a Tango Choreographer.
I saw Rain.
Starting from 15-16 December, The World Concert Tour known as "Rain's World Tour Seoul". I am now responsible for part of the dance choreography.
Looking at Rain from the viewpoint of a teacher,
Rain is "a person who is very courteous, honest, hardworking, filled with agility and yet mysterious."
Rain's cells possesses the "dance talent" which normal people does not have.
When his "dance cells" come alive, all his other cells become inactive.
Speaking of that feeling of dance movements filled with vitality.
Rain's body is filled with a strong primitive vigority when he is dancing.
It touches you and even relaxes you;
It gives you a feeling of stability and greatness;
It makes you sigh involuntarily with an "Ah!"
On top of that, his humility as well as the allure of his strength and ability,
I don't think there's any exaggeration that in this busy entertainment industry of the 21st century, he is able to stand right on top and become the center of this system,
and be chosen as one of the 100 most influential people in the world.
This young singer Rain has a matured side to him.
He practises his dance with a strong rhythm
as if he's trying to suck up all the air in the dance studio.
The next moment, he quietly appears by your side, staring ernestly at you with a shy expression, he asks the tango expert's opinion on the dance choreography he did for "the tango with Hyori Lee"
Such an innocent young man......
On that automated rising platform, the accident due to a lack of coordination in timing,
Like a lion, he rather protect others and be hurt himself .
Such a matured young man!
What strength do I have to resist liking him...
Please look forward to that Rain who tangos in the World Concert Tour~!
Light my path
12:31:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 17 April 2007
Rain's Australia concert was highly appraised by local media "Rain comes, he did much better than Beyonce"!
International Star RAIN successfully held his concert in Sydney, Australia.
Although there were some screw-ups such as sudden change of location, etc, Rain still deeply impressed his fans and local professionals with his excellent dance and stage performance in his Sydney concert started at 7.20pm on Apr 14.
This concert took place in Acer Arena within Sydney Olympic Park, which is also the biggest performance stage in Australia and only world class super stars are able to step on it.
The entrance of concert hall was jammed up by Rain's fans. They were wearing customised uniform with the word 'RAIN' or his icon. Yuli (19) said, "Since I knew him 5 years ago, I am already his fan. Well, this concert is quite sudden actually, there're still many people who are not able to come even they are aware of it..." She hoped that the organiser can plan the schedule properly next time.
It was said that the scale, equipment & setup, performance level were highly appraised by local professionals. The passionate response from the audience also proved that this concert was a great success.
Performance manager Jade admitted that Rain is the first Asian singer who held his concert in Acer Arena. Indeed, initially they were shocked when knowing that an Asian singer wanted to hold his concert in such a large scale stage. However, the most advanced equipment and strong technologies showed by Korean team during concert preparation surprised them more! He commented that Rain's world tour is definitely high quality no matter where he goes.
Another manager Don Elfor said, "Rain did come... and WOW... What a show it was!" From the viewpoint of performance planning, he agreed that this is the most advanced performance held in Acer Arena. In the meantime, the scale of overall performance, as well as Rain's cultural values and professionality impressed them very much. Undoubtedly the fans are demanding, but Rain's performance satisfied them, and even performed better than what they expected!
A local crew Andre Smith said that such large scale concert is quite rare in Australia. Rain's concert is about two times bigger than Beyonce's concert and in fact it was a spectacular stage! On that day, the locals were shocked by the screams of audience.
One of the performers, Joven knew about Rain through this concert. It was his first time watching Rain's performance but he can't feel there's any difference compared to USA pop stars. Thus he could understand why the audience were so mad about him.
Rain will rest in Sydney and leaves in the morning of Apr 16.
Source: Newsen & Daum
International Star RAIN successfully held his concert in Sydney, Australia.
Although there were some screw-ups such as sudden change of location, etc, Rain still deeply impressed his fans and local professionals with his excellent dance and stage performance in his Sydney concert started at 7.20pm on Apr 14.
This concert took place in Acer Arena within Sydney Olympic Park, which is also the biggest performance stage in Australia and only world class super stars are able to step on it.
The entrance of concert hall was jammed up by Rain's fans. They were wearing customised uniform with the word 'RAIN' or his icon. Yuli (19) said, "Since I knew him 5 years ago, I am already his fan. Well, this concert is quite sudden actually, there're still many people who are not able to come even they are aware of it..." She hoped that the organiser can plan the schedule properly next time.
It was said that the scale, equipment & setup, performance level were highly appraised by local professionals. The passionate response from the audience also proved that this concert was a great success.
Performance manager Jade admitted that Rain is the first Asian singer who held his concert in Acer Arena. Indeed, initially they were shocked when knowing that an Asian singer wanted to hold his concert in such a large scale stage. However, the most advanced equipment and strong technologies showed by Korean team during concert preparation surprised them more! He commented that Rain's world tour is definitely high quality no matter where he goes.
Another manager Don Elfor said, "Rain did come... and WOW... What a show it was!" From the viewpoint of performance planning, he agreed that this is the most advanced performance held in Acer Arena. In the meantime, the scale of overall performance, as well as Rain's cultural values and professionality impressed them very much. Undoubtedly the fans are demanding, but Rain's performance satisfied them, and even performed better than what they expected!
A local crew Andre Smith said that such large scale concert is quite rare in Australia. Rain's concert is about two times bigger than Beyonce's concert and in fact it was a spectacular stage! On that day, the locals were shocked by the screams of audience.
One of the performers, Joven knew about Rain through this concert. It was his first time watching Rain's performance but he can't feel there's any difference compared to USA pop stars. Thus he could understand why the audience were so mad about him.
Rain will rest in Sydney and leaves in the morning of Apr 16.
Source: Newsen & Daum
Light my path
11:29:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 16 April 2007
Rain: Income is of Secondary, Fans Come First
Rain's organiser for his concert tour, StarM, called up Rain himself during our interview yesterday. Rain expressed his anticipation towards having his concert in Shanghai as well as meeting all his fans. He assured that he will definitely meet the Shanghai fans in his best condition.
Rain has come to Shanghai numerous times for various promotion activities. Although many papers have reported the concerts in Taipei and Beijing as popular but lacking in ticket sales, Rain exhibits full confidence in his Shanghai concert,
"I know everything is not progressing very smoothly, but I will not give up. Even if I have to reduce my personal income, I want to make good my promise to fans. I don't care how many people are listening below the stage. Even if there is only one person there, I will give my hundred percent."
Rain's organiser for his concert tour, StarM, called up Rain himself during our interview yesterday. Rain expressed his anticipation towards having his concert in Shanghai as well as meeting all his fans. He assured that he will definitely meet the Shanghai fans in his best condition.
Rain has come to Shanghai numerous times for various promotion activities. Although many papers have reported the concerts in Taipei and Beijing as popular but lacking in ticket sales, Rain exhibits full confidence in his Shanghai concert,
"I know everything is not progressing very smoothly, but I will not give up. Even if I have to reduce my personal income, I want to make good my promise to fans. I don't care how many people are listening below the stage. Even if there is only one person there, I will give my hundred percent."
Light my path
10:51:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 13 April 2007
After a few weeks of searching, I've found a job at a Japan based construction company, called Penta-Ocean Construction Co., Ltd
The pay is rather low -$1200. Initially, I'd asked for $1400-$1500. The man who interviewed me, said tat for the 1st few weeks I'll be doing documentation control and branch out to engineering stuff. They are willing to let me explore to see which area suits me; if I can do engineering duties, they said they will give me the pay I asked for..$1400-$1500.
A friend who was attached to the HR department of a company, during her polytechnic Industrial Attachment, said that the company is under paying me and there aren't much benefits. In addition, the terms and conditions in appointment letter which I'd signed this morning, seemed to be in the company's interest more than mine.
She pointed out that the people may not follow up on what they had promised me. It is a tactic which she'd seen during her time in that company. She added that they may keep extending my confirmation period so as to save money. (For there is a pay rise when the staff is confirmed.)
When I mentioned that they said they'll give me the pay I want if I can do the engineering duties, my friend said that they never said how long will I be doing those documentation control, it could be many weeks before they let me try out new stuff.
Even if they let me try out, it may be because there's a lack of manpower in the department, so by letting me try out here and there, they're saving money.
At first, though I was a bit let down by the pay and disappointed with myself, that I didn't fight for at least $1300, before agreeing. I'd thought that, this is a hard to come by opportunity. A place where people are willing to let me explore and try out, to feel around, understanding that no one is good at every thing, that it takes time for people to learn and pick things up.
Thus, the low starting point, is alright.
But, now, after what my friend had said, I am feeling quite let down.
I mentioned my concerns to Jimmy, he then asked, if I am alright with the job scope. I replied, "Yes", for I want to try it out, to put my diploma into use. I do not want to be doing administrative duties for my whole life.
He encouraged me that it is a good job to consider, that starting pay is not always the most important factor when considering a job, the experience you can get is more important in long term.
Still rather affected my my friend's tales of horror, I asked Jimmy, "What if they do not let me learn new stuff, like they said they would?"
His reply was simple, "Then learn. Life is about learning new things."
I totally agree with what he said. I can always learn by myself. If things really come down to such a point, at least I'll learn to look at people differently and not to trust everything that comes out of their mouths.
The pay is rather low -$1200. Initially, I'd asked for $1400-$1500. The man who interviewed me, said tat for the 1st few weeks I'll be doing documentation control and branch out to engineering stuff. They are willing to let me explore to see which area suits me; if I can do engineering duties, they said they will give me the pay I asked for..$1400-$1500.
A friend who was attached to the HR department of a company, during her polytechnic Industrial Attachment, said that the company is under paying me and there aren't much benefits. In addition, the terms and conditions in appointment letter which I'd signed this morning, seemed to be in the company's interest more than mine.
She pointed out that the people may not follow up on what they had promised me. It is a tactic which she'd seen during her time in that company. She added that they may keep extending my confirmation period so as to save money. (For there is a pay rise when the staff is confirmed.)
When I mentioned that they said they'll give me the pay I want if I can do the engineering duties, my friend said that they never said how long will I be doing those documentation control, it could be many weeks before they let me try out new stuff.
Even if they let me try out, it may be because there's a lack of manpower in the department, so by letting me try out here and there, they're saving money.
At first, though I was a bit let down by the pay and disappointed with myself, that I didn't fight for at least $1300, before agreeing. I'd thought that, this is a hard to come by opportunity. A place where people are willing to let me explore and try out, to feel around, understanding that no one is good at every thing, that it takes time for people to learn and pick things up.
Thus, the low starting point, is alright.
But, now, after what my friend had said, I am feeling quite let down.
I mentioned my concerns to Jimmy, he then asked, if I am alright with the job scope. I replied, "Yes", for I want to try it out, to put my diploma into use. I do not want to be doing administrative duties for my whole life.
He encouraged me that it is a good job to consider, that starting pay is not always the most important factor when considering a job, the experience you can get is more important in long term.
Still rather affected my my friend's tales of horror, I asked Jimmy, "What if they do not let me learn new stuff, like they said they would?"
His reply was simple, "Then learn. Life is about learning new things."
I totally agree with what he said. I can always learn by myself. If things really come down to such a point, at least I'll learn to look at people differently and not to trust everything that comes out of their mouths.
Light my path
11:12:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
My gosh.
I think I've lost my SD card reader and the SD card inside it.
It must have dropped out of my bag, for I couldn't find it anywhere.
HAIZ.
Bummer.
Thank the Lord that all my RAIN concert photos are safely saved on the external hard disk. I think that I will freak out and go crazy if I ever lose those photos.
Does anyone has any idea where can I get a cheap SD card reader and SD card? What is the price range for the reader and a 512MB card?
I think I've lost my SD card reader and the SD card inside it.
It must have dropped out of my bag, for I couldn't find it anywhere.
HAIZ.
Bummer.
Thank the Lord that all my RAIN concert photos are safely saved on the external hard disk. I think that I will freak out and go crazy if I ever lose those photos.
Does anyone has any idea where can I get a cheap SD card reader and SD card? What is the price range for the reader and a 512MB card?
Light my path
11:06:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Singer Rain Descends on Australia for World Tour
Korean singer Rain looks at an Australia koala known as 'Jaffa'
before a news conference in Sydney on Wednesday.
Rain, whose real name is Jung Ji-hoon,
will perform in a concert in Sydney on Saturday night
as part of his current world tour./REUTERS
The Stamford Plaza Hotel in Sydney on Wednesday was bustling with about 100 reporters and photographers from all over Asia and Australia. They were there for a press conference with Rain who had arrived a few days ahead of his Saturday concert, his first show in Australia and part of his "Rain's Coming" world tour.
Journalists from the Sydney Morning Herald, ABC TV, Reuters TV and other local and international news outlets turned their attention to the Korean pop singer who is rapidly becoming a global star.
Rain, in both one-on-one morning interviews and at the press conference, talked confidently about his feelings preparing for the show, the results of the tour so far and his future plans.
Rain arrived in Australia on Tuesday to find a crowd of 150 fans waiting for him at Sydney Airport. Despite a hiccup in the tour date -- the concert was postponed a week because of a venue change -- ticket sales have been going well. Even the Easter holidays didn't slow down the weekend bookings.
Rain will take to the stage on Saturday at Acer Arena, where other top international acts such as the Red Hot Chili Peppers and Beyonce Knowles have performed.
(englishnews@chosun.com)
Source: Digital Chosunilbo
Korean singer Rain looks at an Australia koala known as 'Jaffa'
before a news conference in Sydney on Wednesday.
Rain, whose real name is Jung Ji-hoon,
will perform in a concert in Sydney on Saturday night
as part of his current world tour./REUTERS
The Stamford Plaza Hotel in Sydney on Wednesday was bustling with about 100 reporters and photographers from all over Asia and Australia. They were there for a press conference with Rain who had arrived a few days ahead of his Saturday concert, his first show in Australia and part of his "Rain's Coming" world tour.
Journalists from the Sydney Morning Herald, ABC TV, Reuters TV and other local and international news outlets turned their attention to the Korean pop singer who is rapidly becoming a global star.
Rain, in both one-on-one morning interviews and at the press conference, talked confidently about his feelings preparing for the show, the results of the tour so far and his future plans.
Rain arrived in Australia on Tuesday to find a crowd of 150 fans waiting for him at Sydney Airport. Despite a hiccup in the tour date -- the concert was postponed a week because of a venue change -- ticket sales have been going well. Even the Easter holidays didn't slow down the weekend bookings.
Rain will take to the stage on Saturday at Acer Arena, where other top international acts such as the Red Hot Chili Peppers and Beyonce Knowles have performed.
(englishnews@chosun.com)
Source: Digital Chosunilbo
Light my path
10:48:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 11 April 2007
“You see, at just the right time, when we were still powerless, Christ died for the ungodly. Very rarely will anyone die for a righteous man, though for a good man someone might possibly dare to die. But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
Light my path
1:33:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I think I am slowly, but surely going crazy.
There's so much going on in my life right now.
In addition, I have a job interview tomorrow morning, which is this coming morning, in fact.
I want to get a new job, but at the same time, I hate the idea of changing to a new environment.
Contradicting, much?
My goodness. I am coughing so much, so hard, that it is a wonder that my internal organs haven't come up.
I need to grow up. Be stronger.
When I was younger, teachers took care of me. In poly, there are especially close friends who indulge me. At my current work place, my employer is great to me. Although I have been through tough times, but in general, I've been pampered.
I really need to take the advice of others. Just suck it up and GO for it!! Do not think so much. Else, like Jimmy suggested, find some guy and get hitched. Then stay home and take care of kids.
Bah.
-Philippians 4:13 (NIV)
-Philippians 4:19 (NKJV)
As I was fretting over my prospective job and the salary, Phil 4:19 came into my mind. I thank God for His assurance that He knows what I need and that He will for provide me.
There's so much going on in my life right now.
In addition, I have a job interview tomorrow morning, which is this coming morning, in fact.
I want to get a new job, but at the same time, I hate the idea of changing to a new environment.
Contradicting, much?
My goodness. I am coughing so much, so hard, that it is a wonder that my internal organs haven't come up.
I need to grow up. Be stronger.
When I was younger, teachers took care of me. In poly, there are especially close friends who indulge me. At my current work place, my employer is great to me. Although I have been through tough times, but in general, I've been pampered.
I really need to take the advice of others. Just suck it up and GO for it!! Do not think so much. Else, like Jimmy suggested, find some guy and get hitched. Then stay home and take care of kids.
Bah.
"I can do everything through him who gives me strength."
-Philippians 4:13 (NIV)
"And my God shall supply all your need according to His riches in glory by Christ Jesus."
-Philippians 4:19 (NKJV)
As I was fretting over my prospective job and the salary, Phil 4:19 came into my mind. I thank God for His assurance that He knows what I need and that He will for provide me.
Light my path
1:11:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 9 April 2007
Light my path
11:41:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 8 April 2007
This is getting very annoying.
Yea, tell me about it.
I've been coughing real bad these few days and instead of getting better, the coughing fits grew worse.
I coughed till I came within a hair's breath of throwing up. It is in my opinion that if this continues on, my lungs would come out first.
I received a call from AIA, to go for a job interview this tuesday.
I am not complaining about the distance. You do not hear me gripping about having to go all the way to Alexandra Road for the interview and head down to Bishan to work.
No, you don't.
Yea, tell me about it.
I've been coughing real bad these few days and instead of getting better, the coughing fits grew worse.
I coughed till I came within a hair's breath of throwing up. It is in my opinion that if this continues on, my lungs would come out first.
I received a call from AIA, to go for a job interview this tuesday.
I am not complaining about the distance. You do not hear me gripping about having to go all the way to Alexandra Road for the interview and head down to Bishan to work.
No, you don't.
Light my path
10:29:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 6 April 2007
While I was on the way home from work, my thoughts wandered to things in the past. It was triggered by many, many things. But what they have in common is their relation to my belief.
To start off with some thing: I haven't been going to church or small group for months; the last time being the Christmas celebration we had at Abby's place. And I wasn't exactly consistent in putting in appearances at small group sessions before then. Everyone wondered what happened to me. Even I wanted to know what happened to me.
Every day, I wake up and prepare to go to work; work, go home, surf the Net and sleep. It's really no life at all. I suppose, I can go out with friends if I want to, but there's the problem of timing; in addition, I am usually too beat to want to go any where after being on my feet for almost the entire day. When my rest days roll around, I usually do not want to go anywhere, for I want to recuperate at home (after a week of being surrounded by people and getting traumatised), have some ME-time (without anyone intruding on my personal space and time) or there are times when I am simply plain lazy and just want to stay in.
So there isn't much of a social life for me. I guess it is pretty lonely. Most of the time, I am pretty fine with it, for being alone has been a way of life for me since young. Especially during my secondary school days. Still, there's a tinge of loneliness touching the corners of my life, always there, always near. Not conquered by it, but it's not gone from my life either.
There are times when my loneness scares even me.
Life's gotten much tasteless, like tepid water.
I was reminded of some thing which I had heard from a friend. He'd told me that our senior in school had said that I joined the SPCCC for fun, just to play around. I was freaking pissed. So those times when I lug things around for people, cooked and went around doing other stuff, were all for fun? To play around? SP Campus Crusade for Christ was my playground? If I had wanted to play around, I wouldn't have left the other club which I'd joined. If I wanted to play, the other club, with it's truckload of activities, would have been the wagon on which I'd have leapt onto, instead of SPCCC.
What a prick. Who thinks that he has me oh-so figured out. I don't like him. But I had never ever gone around telling his friends, exactly what do I think of him. Yet, he did that to me. What a fucking asshole.
You may be thinking, whoa..hold your horses, girl...cool down and all that stuff. Well, leave it alone, man. I don't go around stabbing people's backs, no matter how I dislike them. Yet, he did that. I hadn't even started on what he had done to me. And here he was, telling others what kind of a girl, I am.
I'd never forget this. About how he never saved any consideration for me, showing me up in front of people whom are close to me.
Seriously, I don't give a fig what he thinks. He can throw himself off the nearest cliff, for all I care.
To start off with some thing: I haven't been going to church or small group for months; the last time being the Christmas celebration we had at Abby's place. And I wasn't exactly consistent in putting in appearances at small group sessions before then. Everyone wondered what happened to me. Even I wanted to know what happened to me.
Every day, I wake up and prepare to go to work; work, go home, surf the Net and sleep. It's really no life at all. I suppose, I can go out with friends if I want to, but there's the problem of timing; in addition, I am usually too beat to want to go any where after being on my feet for almost the entire day. When my rest days roll around, I usually do not want to go anywhere, for I want to recuperate at home (after a week of being surrounded by people and getting traumatised), have some ME-time (without anyone intruding on my personal space and time) or there are times when I am simply plain lazy and just want to stay in.
So there isn't much of a social life for me. I guess it is pretty lonely. Most of the time, I am pretty fine with it, for being alone has been a way of life for me since young. Especially during my secondary school days. Still, there's a tinge of loneliness touching the corners of my life, always there, always near. Not conquered by it, but it's not gone from my life either.
There are times when my loneness scares even me.
Life's gotten much tasteless, like tepid water.
I was reminded of some thing which I had heard from a friend. He'd told me that our senior in school had said that I joined the SPCCC for fun, just to play around. I was freaking pissed. So those times when I lug things around for people, cooked and went around doing other stuff, were all for fun? To play around? SP Campus Crusade for Christ was my playground? If I had wanted to play around, I wouldn't have left the other club which I'd joined. If I wanted to play, the other club, with it's truckload of activities, would have been the wagon on which I'd have leapt onto, instead of SPCCC.
What a prick. Who thinks that he has me oh-so figured out. I don't like him. But I had never ever gone around telling his friends, exactly what do I think of him. Yet, he did that to me. What a fucking asshole.
You may be thinking, whoa..hold your horses, girl...cool down and all that stuff. Well, leave it alone, man. I don't go around stabbing people's backs, no matter how I dislike them. Yet, he did that. I hadn't even started on what he had done to me. And here he was, telling others what kind of a girl, I am.
I'd never forget this. About how he never saved any consideration for me, showing me up in front of people whom are close to me.
Seriously, I don't give a fig what he thinks. He can throw himself off the nearest cliff, for all I care.
Light my path
11:03:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 4 April 2007
Damm.
This is getting old.
Moi is still sick.
Same old, same old.
What a shitty day.
Had a lousy day at work today.
Had a disagreement with a friend who works in the neighbouring pushcart. It's damn lame la. I find her attitude ridiculous, childish and stupid.
I seriously don't give a damn if she wants to throw a fit over nothing. Making a mountain out of a molehill.
This is getting old.
Moi is still sick.
Same old, same old.
What a shitty day.
Had a lousy day at work today.
Had a disagreement with a friend who works in the neighbouring pushcart. It's damn lame la. I find her attitude ridiculous, childish and stupid.
I seriously don't give a damn if she wants to throw a fit over nothing. Making a mountain out of a molehill.
Light my path
10:57:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 3 April 2007
Man.
I've landed in the sick bay AGAIN.
Currently burning up with fever and my sore throat is acting up too.
What's wrong with my body, may I ask?
Ever since I got food poisoning, I've been falling sick. When I recovered from the food poisoning, I fell sick the next week. After recovering from a bout of fever, influenza, coughing and sore throat, once again, I am sick again, the week after.
This is horrible.
I've landed in the sick bay AGAIN.
Currently burning up with fever and my sore throat is acting up too.
What's wrong with my body, may I ask?
Ever since I got food poisoning, I've been falling sick. When I recovered from the food poisoning, I fell sick the next week. After recovering from a bout of fever, influenza, coughing and sore throat, once again, I am sick again, the week after.
This is horrible.
Light my path
11:38:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 2 April 2007
As Right As Rain
''When I first started acting [in 2002], I decided to use my real name because I didn't want the name 'Rain' to overshadow me,'' he said. ''People knew me as a singer called 'Rain', but I considered myself a newcomer in acting, and I wanted to start afresh. I want people to see me as an actor and see me for what I do.''
After "I'm a Cyborg" which wasn't a big success in Korea though it was selected for the main competition at the recent Berlin International Film Festival _ Rain said he's been approached to star in many movies. ''I'm serious about acting,'' he said. ''I love doing it, and I'm considering a number of scenarios though I've not yet decided.''
He should: Rain's turn as an endearing nutcase in I'm a Cyborg shows he has a future in the movies if he so decides. Playing a jolly lunatic, he manages to smuggle in his natural charm while unconsciously immersing into the role of a madman who fears that his entire existence will soon be reduced into a tiny dot. In a madhouse that's more merry than distressing, Rain's character befriends another patient, a woman who believes she's a robot and refuses to eat anything lest her circuits go haywire.
On the night of the Asian Film Awards in Hong Kong, a glitzy procession that combined the Oscar-like fiesta with red-and-gold Asian quirks resembling a Chinese New Year celebration, Rain was paired with Hong Kong star Maggie Q to present an award, and his supporters at the back of the 3,000-strong hall nearly brought the house down with their screams. ''Surprise, surprise: none of that was for me,'' joked Maggie. This despite the fact that she wore a much sexier wardrobe.
He didn't win best actor, though. Rain was grateful enough that he was nominated by the committee, who favoured arthouse movies, and the trophy went to Song Kang-ho, his fellow Korean from the smart monster flick The Host.
''I'm Cyborg has a scene in which I draw a door on the back of Lee [his co-star] with a pen, though she believes that I was actually cutting her open with a knife [to fix her engine],'' said Rain.
''That was a very touching scene for me, because that door is supposed to open to the world of fantasy, and that's what the film is all about: the fantasy that happens around these crazy characters.''
Director Park Chan-wook's previous three movies were bile-churning bloodfests with a nod to Greek tragedy, especially Oldboy, a gory revenge epic which enjoyed a theatrical run in Bangkok after winning a Grand Prix at Cannes in 2004. In his latest film, however, Park switches from cruelty to cuteness, daubing his mental hospital with cheerful colours while his headcases are more eccentric than suicidal. In short, it's an insane house in which the sane would want to spend time. This, the director said, has nothing to do with the fact that no audiences would want to see Rain playing a wrist-slashing, possibly frothing maniac stuck in a dreary mental asylum.
''I want to make a leap [by doing a romantic comedy,'' says Park. ''And I want to keep experimenting, and that's why I changed the style so radically.
''In movies, a mental hospital is always depicted as a place that tortures and vegetates the patients, who're dying to get out. But modern institutions aren't like that. My concept is to make a mental hospital that looks and feels like a big kindergarten and the patients are the kids playing inside. So I made everything bright and sweet. We shot the movie with a high-definition digital camera, and the image came out clear and luminous.''
Luminous the visuals may be, but I'm a Cyborg has had a lukewarm reception from the critics, and box-office figures in most Asian territories aren't as sensational as early predictions. The film is neither commercial nor edgy enough, and it didn't succeed in pulling in audiences who're not fans of the actor. Only Rain seems to have passed the test: He's proved that his acting is as decent as his singing and footwork. His next stop is the US, where he hopes to break into the ranks of global superstars by working with hip-hop artists.
That's a line of questioning worth pursuing, but the publicists, politely, were quick to cut us short and shepherded Rain, Park and Lim away. That's the protocol of international superstars who're in big demand. Isn't it important for us to know whether they are courteous or intelligent, aloof or dim? For publicists, it only matters that we know that they're tall, charming, cute and nice. Rain is an exceptional talent, and he should be allowed to show more of that in person, in close-up, and off-screen.
We recently caught up with the prince of K-Pop, who stars as a happy lunatic in his cinematic debut
Kong Rithdee
Yes, he is tall. Yes, in person he is charming, more charming than on TV. Yes, in close-up his teeth are bright and his eyes twinkle. Yes, he speaks staccato English, though he prefers using a Korean translator. And yes, he can leave the first four buttons of his shirt unfastened, cover it with a suede jacket, and still look good, and tall, and charming, and bright, and twinkling.
These are the testimonies this reporter has been repeating to a number of dreamy-eyed females (aged 12 to 42) who heard that I'd met Rain. Judging from the screams of fans and his up-up-up rocketship of a career, this guy is not just a shower but a typhoon, a cyclone, a scintillating moonsoon that has swept across Asia and is now aiming to drench the world.
The prince of K-Pop appeared for a brief interview in Hong Kong last week, so brief that hardly any Asian press present could form a worthwhile opinion about him, only that he seemed like a nice person. Rain, or Jung Ji-hoon, was there to promote his first movie role in I'm a Cyborg, But That's OK, for which he was also nominated for the best actor prize at the inaugural Asian Film Awards, tipped as the Oscars of Asia.
Park Chan-wook, one of the most well-known Korean filmmakers, who directed Rain, accompanied his actor at the interview and ended up doing most of the talking. Rain's co-star, actress Lim Su-jeong, was also present, hiding half of her doll-like face in her hair and her hat, saying exactly three sentences during the 20 minute press rendezvous.
Thai fans have thronged Bangkok theatres for I'm a Cyborg _ an appetiser before Rain's concerts here in July. Though it's apparent that this film was engineered to be Rain's vehicle _ and to cement the ever-growing might of Korea's exportable pop culture _ even the most anti-pop observers must be half-blind not to realise that this 25-year-old lad is a genuine talent. He's made his way to the status of Asia's popster du jour by dancing back-up for other Korean singers in 2000, before releasing his first album in 2002. His robust jumps, supple-boned leaps and lithe footwork have earned comparisons with Justin Timberlake, even Gene Kelly. For Thai audiences Rain, who uses his real name Jung Ji-hoon when acting, the fever was brewed with the TV series Full House in 2005, a sensational hit in all East Asian nations from China to Vietnam, from Thailand to Hong Kong, from Japan to Singapore, from Malaysia to Indonesia and the Philippines.
Kong Rithdee
Yes, he is tall. Yes, in person he is charming, more charming than on TV. Yes, in close-up his teeth are bright and his eyes twinkle. Yes, he speaks staccato English, though he prefers using a Korean translator. And yes, he can leave the first four buttons of his shirt unfastened, cover it with a suede jacket, and still look good, and tall, and charming, and bright, and twinkling.These are the testimonies this reporter has been repeating to a number of dreamy-eyed females (aged 12 to 42) who heard that I'd met Rain. Judging from the screams of fans and his up-up-up rocketship of a career, this guy is not just a shower but a typhoon, a cyclone, a scintillating moonsoon that has swept across Asia and is now aiming to drench the world.
The prince of K-Pop appeared for a brief interview in Hong Kong last week, so brief that hardly any Asian press present could form a worthwhile opinion about him, only that he seemed like a nice person. Rain, or Jung Ji-hoon, was there to promote his first movie role in I'm a Cyborg, But That's OK, for which he was also nominated for the best actor prize at the inaugural Asian Film Awards, tipped as the Oscars of Asia.
Park Chan-wook, one of the most well-known Korean filmmakers, who directed Rain, accompanied his actor at the interview and ended up doing most of the talking. Rain's co-star, actress Lim Su-jeong, was also present, hiding half of her doll-like face in her hair and her hat, saying exactly three sentences during the 20 minute press rendezvous.
Thai fans have thronged Bangkok theatres for I'm a Cyborg _ an appetiser before Rain's concerts here in July. Though it's apparent that this film was engineered to be Rain's vehicle _ and to cement the ever-growing might of Korea's exportable pop culture _ even the most anti-pop observers must be half-blind not to realise that this 25-year-old lad is a genuine talent. He's made his way to the status of Asia's popster du jour by dancing back-up for other Korean singers in 2000, before releasing his first album in 2002. His robust jumps, supple-boned leaps and lithe footwork have earned comparisons with Justin Timberlake, even Gene Kelly. For Thai audiences Rain, who uses his real name Jung Ji-hoon when acting, the fever was brewed with the TV series Full House in 2005, a sensational hit in all East Asian nations from China to Vietnam, from Thailand to Hong Kong, from Japan to Singapore, from Malaysia to Indonesia and the Philippines.
''When I first started acting [in 2002], I decided to use my real name because I didn't want the name 'Rain' to overshadow me,'' he said. ''People knew me as a singer called 'Rain', but I considered myself a newcomer in acting, and I wanted to start afresh. I want people to see me as an actor and see me for what I do.''
After "I'm a Cyborg" which wasn't a big success in Korea though it was selected for the main competition at the recent Berlin International Film Festival _ Rain said he's been approached to star in many movies. ''I'm serious about acting,'' he said. ''I love doing it, and I'm considering a number of scenarios though I've not yet decided.''
He should: Rain's turn as an endearing nutcase in I'm a Cyborg shows he has a future in the movies if he so decides. Playing a jolly lunatic, he manages to smuggle in his natural charm while unconsciously immersing into the role of a madman who fears that his entire existence will soon be reduced into a tiny dot. In a madhouse that's more merry than distressing, Rain's character befriends another patient, a woman who believes she's a robot and refuses to eat anything lest her circuits go haywire.
On the night of the Asian Film Awards in Hong Kong, a glitzy procession that combined the Oscar-like fiesta with red-and-gold Asian quirks resembling a Chinese New Year celebration, Rain was paired with Hong Kong star Maggie Q to present an award, and his supporters at the back of the 3,000-strong hall nearly brought the house down with their screams. ''Surprise, surprise: none of that was for me,'' joked Maggie. This despite the fact that she wore a much sexier wardrobe.
He didn't win best actor, though. Rain was grateful enough that he was nominated by the committee, who favoured arthouse movies, and the trophy went to Song Kang-ho, his fellow Korean from the smart monster flick The Host.
''I'm Cyborg has a scene in which I draw a door on the back of Lee [his co-star] with a pen, though she believes that I was actually cutting her open with a knife [to fix her engine],'' said Rain.
''That was a very touching scene for me, because that door is supposed to open to the world of fantasy, and that's what the film is all about: the fantasy that happens around these crazy characters.''
Director Park Chan-wook's previous three movies were bile-churning bloodfests with a nod to Greek tragedy, especially Oldboy, a gory revenge epic which enjoyed a theatrical run in Bangkok after winning a Grand Prix at Cannes in 2004. In his latest film, however, Park switches from cruelty to cuteness, daubing his mental hospital with cheerful colours while his headcases are more eccentric than suicidal. In short, it's an insane house in which the sane would want to spend time. This, the director said, has nothing to do with the fact that no audiences would want to see Rain playing a wrist-slashing, possibly frothing maniac stuck in a dreary mental asylum.
''I want to make a leap [by doing a romantic comedy,'' says Park. ''And I want to keep experimenting, and that's why I changed the style so radically.
''In movies, a mental hospital is always depicted as a place that tortures and vegetates the patients, who're dying to get out. But modern institutions aren't like that. My concept is to make a mental hospital that looks and feels like a big kindergarten and the patients are the kids playing inside. So I made everything bright and sweet. We shot the movie with a high-definition digital camera, and the image came out clear and luminous.''
Luminous the visuals may be, but I'm a Cyborg has had a lukewarm reception from the critics, and box-office figures in most Asian territories aren't as sensational as early predictions. The film is neither commercial nor edgy enough, and it didn't succeed in pulling in audiences who're not fans of the actor. Only Rain seems to have passed the test: He's proved that his acting is as decent as his singing and footwork. His next stop is the US, where he hopes to break into the ranks of global superstars by working with hip-hop artists.
That's a line of questioning worth pursuing, but the publicists, politely, were quick to cut us short and shepherded Rain, Park and Lim away. That's the protocol of international superstars who're in big demand. Isn't it important for us to know whether they are courteous or intelligent, aloof or dim? For publicists, it only matters that we know that they're tall, charming, cute and nice. Rain is an exceptional talent, and he should be allowed to show more of that in person, in close-up, and off-screen.
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