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Saturday, 31 March 2007
My goodness!
Upon reaching home, putting down my stuff and changing, I logged on to my Yahoo mail and saw a reply from one of the jobs which I had applied for.
The job opening is for a translator. Inside, the person had included 3 files for the job appliacants to translate. Of which, the very first file consists of an interview with a singer, spanning FIVE pages!!
My head swam when I saw so many Chinese characters.
Now is the time to curse and swear.
Must he give us 3 documents to translate???! I am already swamped when I opened the first file. Isn't one file (with 5 full pages) enough?
I suspect that the person is trying to get away with people doing the translation for free.
I am not in a very good frame of mind now. I shall open the rest of the files tomorrow. My stomach is queasy after the bus ride home. Maybe I shouldn't have had read on the bus. Another reason may be that I ate too much at dinner.
Bah.
Anyway, to report on my performance at this evening's mini concert. I played quite alright, not as bad as I had feared. I was quite worried as my performance had gone from bad to worse during this week's morning practise.
To put it short, I was rather nervous, though not fearful or close to having a nervous breakdown. My anxiety wasn't as bad as those days in secondary school, whenever I had a dance performance the next day, I'd fret and lose sleep the night before. In addition, I would have the classic 'butterflies in my stomach' syndrome and would a nervous wreck.
Thank God that this was not the case for today's mini concert. It was just a small case of nerves.
Frankly, I was rather intimidated by the younger ones (who played SO MUCH better, in my opinion) and quite disappointed by my own ability when I listen to their playing and mentally compared our performances. Everyone just seem so good. While I am not even an amateur. Merely a struggling student.
Even though it was rather bad of me, but I was relieved when a few students made some mistakes while playing. That made them seem more human, to me. Thus, my fears lessened a little.
When it was my turn, I went through the first 2 pieces without any major bumps, just one or two small hiccups. It was during the last piece - Allegro, that some thing happened. I started a little badly. I asked the pianist for a re-start and completed the piece without much trouble.
All the while, throughout my performance, my hands were trembling. Especially my left. I can feel it quaking all the way, while changing from finger to finger. My right hand was shaking too, thus I tried to control it; for it is the one controlling the bow. I can't have my right hand shaking while playing th violin as it'd affect the music. I tried my best, but I did hear some quavering in the tone quality.
It was SUPER EMBARRASSING. For the parents of the students were all seated on my left. Thus, my trembling hands were so very clear to them. I am an adult, for goodness sake! And there I was, my hands shaking like a leaf.
Anyway, discounting that, it was an alright performance by yours truly.
Looking at and listening to the others, made me determined to play as well as them. It is such a steep climb, I am no sure if I can do it, but I'll do my utmost to play well, not to let my partner (the violin) down and bring out the best of us both.
I do not know if I am shortchanging myself, but I realize that there are some things, which are really difficult to grasp. Part of the reason may be that, with age, the learning ability deteriorates. Though the mind is fully capable of understanding the motions and manoeuvres, physically, the body is simply unable to execute movement. You know it, you understand the theory, but you just can't carry it out.
Do you understand what am I writing about?
I know, because I went through and am going through this. At times like these, I bemoan my ageing body and slowing learning ability. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak. Like Paul, I really want to beat and thrash my body into submission.
-1 Corinthians 9:26-27 (New International Version)
Upon reaching home, putting down my stuff and changing, I logged on to my Yahoo mail and saw a reply from one of the jobs which I had applied for.
The job opening is for a translator. Inside, the person had included 3 files for the job appliacants to translate. Of which, the very first file consists of an interview with a singer, spanning FIVE pages!!
My head swam when I saw so many Chinese characters.
Now is the time to curse and swear.
Must he give us 3 documents to translate???! I am already swamped when I opened the first file. Isn't one file (with 5 full pages) enough?
I suspect that the person is trying to get away with people doing the translation for free.
I am not in a very good frame of mind now. I shall open the rest of the files tomorrow. My stomach is queasy after the bus ride home. Maybe I shouldn't have had read on the bus. Another reason may be that I ate too much at dinner.
Bah.
Anyway, to report on my performance at this evening's mini concert. I played quite alright, not as bad as I had feared. I was quite worried as my performance had gone from bad to worse during this week's morning practise.
To put it short, I was rather nervous, though not fearful or close to having a nervous breakdown. My anxiety wasn't as bad as those days in secondary school, whenever I had a dance performance the next day, I'd fret and lose sleep the night before. In addition, I would have the classic 'butterflies in my stomach' syndrome and would a nervous wreck.
Thank God that this was not the case for today's mini concert. It was just a small case of nerves.
Frankly, I was rather intimidated by the younger ones (who played SO MUCH better, in my opinion) and quite disappointed by my own ability when I listen to their playing and mentally compared our performances. Everyone just seem so good. While I am not even an amateur. Merely a struggling student.
Even though it was rather bad of me, but I was relieved when a few students made some mistakes while playing. That made them seem more human, to me. Thus, my fears lessened a little.
When it was my turn, I went through the first 2 pieces without any major bumps, just one or two small hiccups. It was during the last piece - Allegro, that some thing happened. I started a little badly. I asked the pianist for a re-start and completed the piece without much trouble.
All the while, throughout my performance, my hands were trembling. Especially my left. I can feel it quaking all the way, while changing from finger to finger. My right hand was shaking too, thus I tried to control it; for it is the one controlling the bow. I can't have my right hand shaking while playing th violin as it'd affect the music. I tried my best, but I did hear some quavering in the tone quality.
It was SUPER EMBARRASSING. For the parents of the students were all seated on my left. Thus, my trembling hands were so very clear to them. I am an adult, for goodness sake! And there I was, my hands shaking like a leaf.
Anyway, discounting that, it was an alright performance by yours truly.
Looking at and listening to the others, made me determined to play as well as them. It is such a steep climb, I am no sure if I can do it, but I'll do my utmost to play well, not to let my partner (the violin) down and bring out the best of us both.
I do not know if I am shortchanging myself, but I realize that there are some things, which are really difficult to grasp. Part of the reason may be that, with age, the learning ability deteriorates. Though the mind is fully capable of understanding the motions and manoeuvres, physically, the body is simply unable to execute movement. You know it, you understand the theory, but you just can't carry it out.
Do you understand what am I writing about?
I know, because I went through and am going through this. At times like these, I bemoan my ageing body and slowing learning ability. The spirit is willing, but the body is weak. Like Paul, I really want to beat and thrash my body into submission.
"Therefore I do not run like a man running aimlessly; I do not fight like a man beating the air. No, I beat my body and make it my slave so that after I have preached to others, I myself will not be disqualified for the prize."
-1 Corinthians 9:26-27 (New International Version)
Light my path
11:12:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Anyway, just a brief re-cap:
After work, I went out for supper with a friend, Carol. She is from the neighbouring pushcart at my work place.
Sales has been average this week, not too bad, but not that excellent, either.
I am suffering from a case of dry lips. It has gotten pretty bad. The area surrounding my lips, is dry and skin is flaking off. No amount of lip balm or drinking of water are helping. Finally, I got so fed up that I marched down to Watsons and bought a Vaseline lip balm (I lost the previous tube) and a tube of medicated lip ointment.
So far, the ointment is helping. We'll have to see if it really works.
Man, I do not know what went wrong. I never had such a problem with my lips before. It is only in recent months that this problem came up.
This morning, a lady called me up to go for an interview on Monday morning. It'll be at Paya Lebar, 9.30 am. I am concerned about many things. I've applied for other types of job, besides administrative. If given a choice, I'd definitely take up the other types. I worry that if I pass up on this job (I am thinking too much, aren't I? For I have not even gone for the interview yet! I may not even get the job!), I may not get one that soon, as I will be leaving my current job by the end of April. Yet, I do not want to limit myself or rush into things, for better job offers may be coming soon.
Grr........
In addition, I will feel kind of bad if I have to reject this potential job (asumming that they want me), as the people seem to be pretty nice. Initially, the lady had asked me to go down for interview at 1430, but I told her that I couldn't make it at that time as I will be working. She then told me that she'll ask her boss if the interview could be moved to morning. At that time, I was kicking myself. Who would agree to that? It is not like they're hiring for some top management post. They'd be plenty of people fighting to go for an interview at the company's convenience. Not theirs.
But, guess what?
In the end, the lady called back and fixed my interview at 0930 next Monday!
See?
The people seem nice. So, how can I bear to reject them (assuming that I will get the job) if some better offer comes along???
Another thing which I worry about is the availability period. I am only available after 30th8 April. Will my prospective employer be willing to wait?
So much to fret over!!!
And how do I negotiate for my pay? How do I present myself?
Bombarded and overwhemed by so many concerns.
I am such a fretter.
After work, I went out for supper with a friend, Carol. She is from the neighbouring pushcart at my work place.
Sales has been average this week, not too bad, but not that excellent, either.
I am suffering from a case of dry lips. It has gotten pretty bad. The area surrounding my lips, is dry and skin is flaking off. No amount of lip balm or drinking of water are helping. Finally, I got so fed up that I marched down to Watsons and bought a Vaseline lip balm (I lost the previous tube) and a tube of medicated lip ointment.
So far, the ointment is helping. We'll have to see if it really works.
Man, I do not know what went wrong. I never had such a problem with my lips before. It is only in recent months that this problem came up.
This morning, a lady called me up to go for an interview on Monday morning. It'll be at Paya Lebar, 9.30 am. I am concerned about many things. I've applied for other types of job, besides administrative. If given a choice, I'd definitely take up the other types. I worry that if I pass up on this job (I am thinking too much, aren't I? For I have not even gone for the interview yet! I may not even get the job!), I may not get one that soon, as I will be leaving my current job by the end of April. Yet, I do not want to limit myself or rush into things, for better job offers may be coming soon.
Grr........
In addition, I will feel kind of bad if I have to reject this potential job (asumming that they want me), as the people seem to be pretty nice. Initially, the lady had asked me to go down for interview at 1430, but I told her that I couldn't make it at that time as I will be working. She then told me that she'll ask her boss if the interview could be moved to morning. At that time, I was kicking myself. Who would agree to that? It is not like they're hiring for some top management post. They'd be plenty of people fighting to go for an interview at the company's convenience. Not theirs.
But, guess what?
In the end, the lady called back and fixed my interview at 0930 next Monday!
See?
The people seem nice. So, how can I bear to reject them (assuming that I will get the job) if some better offer comes along???
Another thing which I worry about is the availability period. I am only available after 30th8 April. Will my prospective employer be willing to wait?
So much to fret over!!!
And how do I negotiate for my pay? How do I present myself?
Bombarded and overwhemed by so many concerns.
I am such a fretter.
Light my path
1:28:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I seriously detest my laptop.
It bailed on me while I was halfway through my blog entry.
Now, every thing is gone.
*In a FOUL mood*
It bailed on me while I was halfway through my blog entry.
Now, every thing is gone.
*In a FOUL mood*
Light my path
1:26:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 24 March 2007
Finally, it is Saturday!
The arrival of this day means that my suffering has ended.
For the moment.
I never thought I'd live to see the arrival of this particular day.
Exaggerating much?
Lol.
Well, anyway, I am very glad to see the end of my 9 days of continous full-shift. It's been a torture, let me tell you. Though my work isn't strenous, the long hours are killing me. And nine consecutive days of it, isn't helping at all. In the midst of it all, I caught a virus (the human kind) and fell sick. My conclusion is that, after the food poisoning episode from the week before last, my immune system is still weak; thus I caught the virus from either a friend at work or from my eldest sister.
It is rather funny, though, if you're in my shoes, you wouldn't think that way. Whenever I get sick, it is the full works. The whole package. Influenza, cough, fever and sore throat. It has always been like that. I had noticed it some time back.
This time, however, my throat is the one giving me a lot of grief. It is so sore, so very raw. It hurts whenever I speak, thus I am reduced to squeaking; which made others go, "HUH???" even more often than before.
The other one is my fever. It got so high that I wondered if I would suffer brain damage.
Being sick is no fun (no one pampers me and there isn't any one to pout at...lol!), as I am in a state of lethergic-ness (the body simply refuses to snap to attention) and there simply isn't enough energy to go around.
Even though I am sick, I went to sleep rather late, last night; and woke up early this morning to squeeze in some violin practice time before going for class. I feel rather bad as I hadn't been practising my violin pieces, but it can't be helped as I am sick and isn't in the mood nor do I have the energy to practice.
I was dropped a small bomb during violin class. Each student is to play 3 pieces of music.
My goodness.
I am a little traumatised and the stress is building up and reaching a crescendo.
The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.
It is at this moment that I once again experience the truth of those words.
My fingers are refusing to cooperate, even though, in theory, I do understand my teacher's corrections.
Alright! I will work hard tomorrow too!=) For the mini concert is next Saturday - 31st March 2007.
Sebastian and Angeline have agreed to come. Actually, the person I wanted most to come, is Jimmy. For he is the one who gave me this violin and I had promised to let him be the first one to hear me play.
Aa well.
I will play him his requested piece next time. Just for this one audience. A friend who's rendered me a lot of help throughout all these years and never complained or asked for any returns. He put up with my childishness and indulged me; allowing me to run wild but not become spoilt.
The arrival of this day means that my suffering has ended.
For the moment.
I never thought I'd live to see the arrival of this particular day.
Exaggerating much?
Lol.
Well, anyway, I am very glad to see the end of my 9 days of continous full-shift. It's been a torture, let me tell you. Though my work isn't strenous, the long hours are killing me. And nine consecutive days of it, isn't helping at all. In the midst of it all, I caught a virus (the human kind) and fell sick. My conclusion is that, after the food poisoning episode from the week before last, my immune system is still weak; thus I caught the virus from either a friend at work or from my eldest sister.
It is rather funny, though, if you're in my shoes, you wouldn't think that way. Whenever I get sick, it is the full works. The whole package. Influenza, cough, fever and sore throat. It has always been like that. I had noticed it some time back.
This time, however, my throat is the one giving me a lot of grief. It is so sore, so very raw. It hurts whenever I speak, thus I am reduced to squeaking; which made others go, "HUH???" even more often than before.
The other one is my fever. It got so high that I wondered if I would suffer brain damage.
Being sick is no fun (no one pampers me and there isn't any one to pout at...lol!), as I am in a state of lethergic-ness (the body simply refuses to snap to attention) and there simply isn't enough energy to go around.
Even though I am sick, I went to sleep rather late, last night; and woke up early this morning to squeeze in some violin practice time before going for class. I feel rather bad as I hadn't been practising my violin pieces, but it can't be helped as I am sick and isn't in the mood nor do I have the energy to practice.
I was dropped a small bomb during violin class. Each student is to play 3 pieces of music.
My goodness.
I am a little traumatised and the stress is building up and reaching a crescendo.
The spirit is willing, but the body is weak.
It is at this moment that I once again experience the truth of those words.
My fingers are refusing to cooperate, even though, in theory, I do understand my teacher's corrections.
Alright! I will work hard tomorrow too!=) For the mini concert is next Saturday - 31st March 2007.
Sebastian and Angeline have agreed to come. Actually, the person I wanted most to come, is Jimmy. For he is the one who gave me this violin and I had promised to let him be the first one to hear me play.
Aa well.
I will play him his requested piece next time. Just for this one audience. A friend who's rendered me a lot of help throughout all these years and never complained or asked for any returns. He put up with my childishness and indulged me; allowing me to run wild but not become spoilt.
Light my path
9:48:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 22 March 2007
Not every story ends with a "And they lived happily ever after"...
Not every story has an ending.
Not every story has an ending.
Light my path
10:52:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Though I am still sick, I am pleased to report that I am feeling better. Not like a sick cat anymore. There's still some sniffles, hacking out my lungs (coughing), pain in my throat and fever.
Feeling rather lethargic.
I am currently on the look out for jobs and have already sent out some resumes.
Please pray that I'll find a suitable job with a reasonable pay.
Feeling rather lethargic.
I am currently on the look out for jobs and have already sent out some resumes.
Please pray that I'll find a suitable job with a reasonable pay.
Light my path
10:48:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 20 March 2007
Today's been a totally crappy day.
First, I tripped and fell flat on my face, while walking up the car park staircase. I ended up with a bag of freshly brewed coffee on the floor, on my bag, my shirt and jeans and in my hair. My day was ruined even before I started working.
On top of smelling like I went swimming in a pool of coffee, all day; I had a skinned knee and a gigantic bruise on my left thigh. Which, may I add, is developing into a lovely green, edged with brown and with a burst of healthly red blooming right in the centre of every thing.
Second, I am officially sick.
I am afflicted with a scrappy throat, which emits a gravelly and sexy voice; fever and a case of the sniffles.
Totally bummed.
First, I tripped and fell flat on my face, while walking up the car park staircase. I ended up with a bag of freshly brewed coffee on the floor, on my bag, my shirt and jeans and in my hair. My day was ruined even before I started working.
On top of smelling like I went swimming in a pool of coffee, all day; I had a skinned knee and a gigantic bruise on my left thigh. Which, may I add, is developing into a lovely green, edged with brown and with a burst of healthly red blooming right in the centre of every thing.
Second, I am officially sick.
I am afflicted with a scrappy throat, which emits a gravelly and sexy voice; fever and a case of the sniffles.
Totally bummed.
Light my path
10:51:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
I'm getting sick.
You know, sniffles and sore throat.
The works.
In addition, I am nursing a headache too.
Gah.
You know, sniffles and sore throat.
The works.
In addition, I am nursing a headache too.
Gah.
Light my path
12:22:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 16 March 2007
Having a computer which is down, is a DRAG.
I am currently re-installing my anti-virus software and the Windows Service Pack 2.
This is taking sooooooooo long.
Big SIGH.
2 down and 7 more days to go.
I am working 9 full shifts at one go.
Come on, congratulate me.
Yes, yes. Thank you, thank you.
Let's hope I survive through this weekend. And that there would not be a lot of crappy people walking about without their brains.
I don't know how I can take this. Foolish people asking questions which expose their stupidity for the whole world to marvel at.
See?
I can be nice when I want to be.
Life is catching up on me.
Or rather, should I put it, REALITY is catching up on me.
Got to face up to the realities in life. Being a grown-up isn't as good as I had once envisioned.
My goodness.
The installation is taking forever.
I am currently re-installing my anti-virus software and the Windows Service Pack 2.
This is taking sooooooooo long.
Big SIGH.
2 down and 7 more days to go.
I am working 9 full shifts at one go.
Come on, congratulate me.
Yes, yes. Thank you, thank you.
Let's hope I survive through this weekend. And that there would not be a lot of crappy people walking about without their brains.
I don't know how I can take this. Foolish people asking questions which expose their stupidity for the whole world to marvel at.
See?
I can be nice when I want to be.
Life is catching up on me.
Or rather, should I put it, REALITY is catching up on me.
Got to face up to the realities in life. Being a grown-up isn't as good as I had once envisioned.
My goodness.
The installation is taking forever.
Light my path
11:20:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 13 March 2007
I had just finished watching Road for Rain dvd.
It is some thing which I will want to watch again, not just because I like him; but also because of the words that he spoke.
Words, coming from a person who went through a lot to get to where he is today. Still modest and ever hard working.
I have been having a lot of fears, recently. So much so, that it is crippling. My fears have become a living thing and swallowing me whole.
In one of the interviews, Rain was talking about fears. He said he has fears too. He is afraid too. But he added that, he must set them (his fears) aside (before they get too much).
In another part, he continued, saying that if you don't work hard, you will never succeed in any thing.
The latter sentence was like a hammer to my head. True, these are words of common sense, but it seems like I have forgotten them and his words had just hammered some sense into me.
Though I am weak and will most likely falter again, I am much encouraged by Rain's words, attitude and drive.
Even when I fall, again and again, I will continue to move forward; at my own pace, some time walking, some time running, some time stopping.
If it gets too much, I will just hibernate.
It is some thing which I will want to watch again, not just because I like him; but also because of the words that he spoke.
Words, coming from a person who went through a lot to get to where he is today. Still modest and ever hard working.
I have been having a lot of fears, recently. So much so, that it is crippling. My fears have become a living thing and swallowing me whole.
In one of the interviews, Rain was talking about fears. He said he has fears too. He is afraid too. But he added that, he must set them (his fears) aside (before they get too much).
In another part, he continued, saying that if you don't work hard, you will never succeed in any thing.
The latter sentence was like a hammer to my head. True, these are words of common sense, but it seems like I have forgotten them and his words had just hammered some sense into me.
Though I am weak and will most likely falter again, I am much encouraged by Rain's words, attitude and drive.
Even when I fall, again and again, I will continue to move forward; at my own pace, some time walking, some time running, some time stopping.
If it gets too much, I will just hibernate.
Light my path
11:15:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
It's been some time since this blog has been updated, yes?
Last week hadn't been a good one for me. I had food poisoning, throwing up and having the runs for 2 days; causing me to give Rain's debut movie premiere a miss. I lost the chance to get the handphone accessories and movie poster too. Needlessly to day, I was utterly disappointed.
I hadn't minded missing the movie as much as the freebies, as I had planned on watching the movie again.
Sigh.
You must be thinking that I am such a cheapo, right?
To each his or her own.
To add to that, my laptop died on me last Saturday. But thank God that my files are saved. Thanks to Angeline and her colleague.
Though, it was rather a chore, having to lug my laptop around. It is really heavy, for a laptop.
This reminds me of those times in poly, zhen Yang would always help me to carry my laptop whenever we go home together.
I've been very unhappy recently.
So unhappy till I am getting depressed.
What exactly am I unhappy with?
Every thing.
But to put a finer point, it is my work. I am unhappy at my work place. I am unhappy working. I am unhappy whenever I have to work.
I am very unhappy.
I have enough of putting up with the whims of others. I am sick and tired of serving people.
Every single part of my body, heart and soul, they are screaming, yearning to leave immediately.
My place of work, is a mental hell for my physical body.
These are harsh words, I know, but very apt. For it is how I am feeling.
I cannot stand going to work, any more.
If I do not get out of here, I will go crazy.
Looking at my friends, I can't help but envy them, for some of them, they have found or obtained their goal.
Me??
I am just like a piece of rotting drift wood.
Where are all the dreams and hopes of old?
There are no clouds with silver lining,
For I can only see thunder storms.
I think that my blog is pretty depressing.
Lol.
Last week hadn't been a good one for me. I had food poisoning, throwing up and having the runs for 2 days; causing me to give Rain's debut movie premiere a miss. I lost the chance to get the handphone accessories and movie poster too. Needlessly to day, I was utterly disappointed.
I hadn't minded missing the movie as much as the freebies, as I had planned on watching the movie again.
Sigh.
You must be thinking that I am such a cheapo, right?
To each his or her own.
To add to that, my laptop died on me last Saturday. But thank God that my files are saved. Thanks to Angeline and her colleague.
Though, it was rather a chore, having to lug my laptop around. It is really heavy, for a laptop.
This reminds me of those times in poly, zhen Yang would always help me to carry my laptop whenever we go home together.
I've been very unhappy recently.
So unhappy till I am getting depressed.
What exactly am I unhappy with?
Every thing.
But to put a finer point, it is my work. I am unhappy at my work place. I am unhappy working. I am unhappy whenever I have to work.
I am very unhappy.
I have enough of putting up with the whims of others. I am sick and tired of serving people.
Every single part of my body, heart and soul, they are screaming, yearning to leave immediately.
My place of work, is a mental hell for my physical body.
These are harsh words, I know, but very apt. For it is how I am feeling.
I cannot stand going to work, any more.
If I do not get out of here, I will go crazy.
Looking at my friends, I can't help but envy them, for some of them, they have found or obtained their goal.
Me??
I am just like a piece of rotting drift wood.
Where are all the dreams and hopes of old?
There are no clouds with silver lining,
For I can only see thunder storms.
I think that my blog is pretty depressing.
Lol.
Light my path
9:12:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 5 March 2007
Rain Glazes Over Slanderous Report With A Smile
04 March 07, Sina Entertainment Mydaily News
Kr to Ch: blueberry@biwithrain
Ch to Kr: rayndrop @ RainSingapore
With regards to the rude and arrogant Singapore report, "World Star" Rain adopted a maganimous attitude and glazes over it with a smile. Rain held a press conference in Seoul this afternoon for his '07 Meeting of Rain's Fans event. Not long after the commencement of the press conference, Rain revealed, "I've seen similar reports in the internet. These reports which are based on twisted facts are meant to stir up trouble. Those people do not give objective reports, but simply criticise and give negative reviews because the subject is a Korean."
Rain also said, "Replying to those malicious reports will only end up giving me a headache. Working hard and showing the public my potential is my best answer to these reports. Many Korean artistes have developed bad reputations because of these malicious reports. The best way is still to glaze over it with a smile." He further added, "I want to attain better results and show them those."
04 March 07, Sina Entertainment Mydaily News
Kr to Ch: blueberry@biwithrain
Ch to Kr: rayndrop @ RainSingapore
With regards to the rude and arrogant Singapore report, "World Star" Rain adopted a maganimous attitude and glazes over it with a smile. Rain held a press conference in Seoul this afternoon for his '07 Meeting of Rain's Fans event. Not long after the commencement of the press conference, Rain revealed, "I've seen similar reports in the internet. These reports which are based on twisted facts are meant to stir up trouble. Those people do not give objective reports, but simply criticise and give negative reviews because the subject is a Korean."
Rain also said, "Replying to those malicious reports will only end up giving me a headache. Working hard and showing the public my potential is my best answer to these reports. Many Korean artistes have developed bad reputations because of these malicious reports. The best way is still to glaze over it with a smile." He further added, "I want to attain better results and show them those."
Light my path
11:25:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Management Company of Singer Rain Responds To Malicious Report
04 Mar 07, Innolife.com
Kr to Ch: blueberry@biwithrain
Ch to Eng: rayndrop@RainSingapore
"Rude and arrogant Singapore report" (Newsis 3 Mar, 2:23pm).
In representation of the management company of Singer Rain (25), Mr Hong Seung Song commented on the article which was "unworthy of mentioning", and said that they will be "making a legal reponse through international lawyers".
Hong said "Even we were shocked at the slander made towards Rain, who is developing rapidly in Asia. In future, we will need to pay more attention while being overseas. The report by local media in Singapore is groundless. "Needless to say in the airport, even in the hotel where he was residing, or inside and outside the concert stadium, Rain had always greeted his fans humbly. No matter what, Rain himself is not such a person."
Moreover, "how can it be possible for him to be full of smiles the entire day?" "Even when he smiles 10 times, just not smiling once evokes unhappiness." It is puzzling indeed. JYP has asked the publisher of this fictitious report to make a corrective report immediately. If the said media does not apologize and clarify appropriately, they shall take the publisher to court for slander and untruthful report.
The report made on 2 Mar by this electronic newspaper also criticised Rain for demanding "special treatments" during his concert in Singapore on 21 Jan, saying he "unsmiling during the press conference" and calling him "a difficult guest in the hotel".
04 Mar 07, Innolife.com
Kr to Ch: blueberry@biwithrain
Ch to Eng: rayndrop@RainSingapore
"Rude and arrogant Singapore report" (Newsis 3 Mar, 2:23pm).
In representation of the management company of Singer Rain (25), Mr Hong Seung Song commented on the article which was "unworthy of mentioning", and said that they will be "making a legal reponse through international lawyers".
Hong said "Even we were shocked at the slander made towards Rain, who is developing rapidly in Asia. In future, we will need to pay more attention while being overseas. The report by local media in Singapore is groundless. "Needless to say in the airport, even in the hotel where he was residing, or inside and outside the concert stadium, Rain had always greeted his fans humbly. No matter what, Rain himself is not such a person."
Moreover, "how can it be possible for him to be full of smiles the entire day?" "Even when he smiles 10 times, just not smiling once evokes unhappiness." It is puzzling indeed. JYP has asked the publisher of this fictitious report to make a corrective report immediately. If the said media does not apologize and clarify appropriately, they shall take the publisher to court for slander and untruthful report.
The report made on 2 Mar by this electronic newspaper also criticised Rain for demanding "special treatments" during his concert in Singapore on 21 Jan, saying he "unsmiling during the press conference" and calling him "a difficult guest in the hotel".
Light my path
11:16:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Rain Pours Out to Fans
K-pop star Rain met with 3,000 fans from 20 countries during a special fan meeting event held at the Weight Lifting Stadium in the Olympic Park, southern Seoul on Sunday.
The meeting titled “Rain’s Friend ’07 Meeting of Rain’s Fans” gave the pop star an opportunity to become closer with members from his fan club.
During the meeting hosted by popular MC Kim Je-dong, Rain spoke candidly about his life and career, much to the delight of his fans. Fans were allowed to ask Rain some questions.
One fan asked how he felt about the negative comments and rumors about him circulating on the Internet. Rain said anyone can be hurt by bad comments, but he sees this as a strong motivation to work harder and prove his detractors wrong.
Rain also talked about the five reasons for his existence: first, the hope of having a daughter who resembles his future wife, not him; second, to give happiness to his family, who went through tough times; third, for his mentor Park Jin-young, staff and close friends who support him; fourth, his fans and fifth, food.
When asked about his ideal type of woman, Rain said he is attracted to a pretty face, knockout figure and a good personality. He said that if he has a chance, he wants to get married as soon as possible and have three children.
Around 3,000 fans from Korea, China, Japan, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Singapore, the United States and the United Kingdom attended the event.
cathy@koreatimes.co.kr
03-04-2007 21:42
Source: http://times.hankooki.com/lpage/culture/200703/kt2007030421420811710.htm
K-pop star Rain met with 3,000 fans from 20 countries during a special fan meeting event held at the Weight Lifting Stadium in the Olympic Park, southern Seoul on Sunday.
The meeting titled “Rain’s Friend ’07 Meeting of Rain’s Fans” gave the pop star an opportunity to become closer with members from his fan club.
During the meeting hosted by popular MC Kim Je-dong, Rain spoke candidly about his life and career, much to the delight of his fans. Fans were allowed to ask Rain some questions.
One fan asked how he felt about the negative comments and rumors about him circulating on the Internet. Rain said anyone can be hurt by bad comments, but he sees this as a strong motivation to work harder and prove his detractors wrong.
Rain also talked about the five reasons for his existence: first, the hope of having a daughter who resembles his future wife, not him; second, to give happiness to his family, who went through tough times; third, for his mentor Park Jin-young, staff and close friends who support him; fourth, his fans and fifth, food.
When asked about his ideal type of woman, Rain said he is attracted to a pretty face, knockout figure and a good personality. He said that if he has a chance, he wants to get married as soon as possible and have three children.
Around 3,000 fans from Korea, China, Japan, Taiwan, Hong Kong, Singapore, the United States and the United Kingdom attended the event.
cathy@koreatimes.co.kr
03-04-2007 21:42
Source: http://times.hankooki.com/lpage/culture/200703/kt2007030421420811710.htm
Light my path
12:36:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 3 March 2007
能如此的感动我的人， 这一生唯有你。
可以如此的牵动我心的人， 非你莫属。
能如此随心所欲的波动我的情绪的人， 只有你这一个人。
可以如此的让我变得不像从前的我， 像个陌生人，
处了你， 别无他人。
可以如此的牵动我心的人， 非你莫属。
能如此随心所欲的波动我的情绪的人， 只有你这一个人。
可以如此的让我变得不像从前的我， 像个陌生人，
处了你， 别无他人。
Light my path
11:00:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
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