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Light my path
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Friday, 27 January 2006
Thank you very much, dezelous, for your encouragement..=) The song lyrics are lovely..=]
Things have quietened down, for the time being.
Is it me? For I feel that each year's Chinese New Year, is getting more quiet and..how to say...not so festive anymore. Perhaps, this is just the child in me growing up..
Perhaps this is my pessimistic side rearing its head, but, somehow, looking back on the years that had passed, I can't help but feel sadness, regrets, bitterness, anger and frustration.
A friend is leaving soon, for studies in a foreign land. He wouldn't be back for 2-4 years. Or even longer. Perhaps he would decide to stay there for good, as he'd told me. I don't know what to do. Somehow, all seems unreal. The fact that he'll be leaving didnt register in me.
Alot of things happened, I am angry, I guess. For what had happened to him.
The last time we met, I came away from the meeting, very distressed. I can only pray, for God to heal his scars and for him to allow God into his life once again.
Personally, I am quite at a loss as to what to do with my life. What is God's purpose for me in this place? I am caught between a promise to a friend and my friendship and relationship to another. For, at a very low point in my life, she came in with help. I can never forget that. What first started as a formal relationship, developed into friendship. I can never, will never and must never cause her distress by the decision that I must make. Though I had known the other longer, but I have stronger ties to her than to him. Suddenly, I realized that things aren't going to be as easy as I had thought they would be.
I was thinking of trying out as a child care teacher. I like the young ones. So innocent and adorable, without guile. But, I don't think I can do that now. Perhaps, this is good, in a sense, that my friend called upon me to my promise, if it was any later, I might have gone for it and things may become complicated if I'd been accepted and signed the bond of 2 years.
One thing that I've settled between God and myself, is that, though, I may not be living life according to His way, nor please Him with the way that I talk, think and act, but one thing I desire, one thing that I will do, is to choose His way. Between love, family, friends, promises and own desires, I choose God.
I am not acting all holy, because, I can tell you that, my life is anything but that. Choosing God's way, is the decision that I have made for my life.
Things have quietened down, for the time being.
Is it me? For I feel that each year's Chinese New Year, is getting more quiet and..how to say...not so festive anymore. Perhaps, this is just the child in me growing up..
Perhaps this is my pessimistic side rearing its head, but, somehow, looking back on the years that had passed, I can't help but feel sadness, regrets, bitterness, anger and frustration.
A friend is leaving soon, for studies in a foreign land. He wouldn't be back for 2-4 years. Or even longer. Perhaps he would decide to stay there for good, as he'd told me. I don't know what to do. Somehow, all seems unreal. The fact that he'll be leaving didnt register in me.
Alot of things happened, I am angry, I guess. For what had happened to him.
The last time we met, I came away from the meeting, very distressed. I can only pray, for God to heal his scars and for him to allow God into his life once again.
Personally, I am quite at a loss as to what to do with my life. What is God's purpose for me in this place? I am caught between a promise to a friend and my friendship and relationship to another. For, at a very low point in my life, she came in with help. I can never forget that. What first started as a formal relationship, developed into friendship. I can never, will never and must never cause her distress by the decision that I must make. Though I had known the other longer, but I have stronger ties to her than to him. Suddenly, I realized that things aren't going to be as easy as I had thought they would be.
I was thinking of trying out as a child care teacher. I like the young ones. So innocent and adorable, without guile. But, I don't think I can do that now. Perhaps, this is good, in a sense, that my friend called upon me to my promise, if it was any later, I might have gone for it and things may become complicated if I'd been accepted and signed the bond of 2 years.
One thing that I've settled between God and myself, is that, though, I may not be living life according to His way, nor please Him with the way that I talk, think and act, but one thing I desire, one thing that I will do, is to choose His way. Between love, family, friends, promises and own desires, I choose God.
I am not acting all holy, because, I can tell you that, my life is anything but that. Choosing God's way, is the decision that I have made for my life.
Light my path
2:05:00 pm
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