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“Who can speak and have it happen
if the Lord has not decreed it?
Is it not from the mouth of the Most High
that both calamities and good things come?” – Jer 3:37-38
Another verse came to mind as I typed these words:
“…Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" – Job 2:10
I will be seeking God for direction and inspiration regarding the cookie and t-shirt venture with my friend.
Please keep me constantly in your prayers.
Prayer pointers:
i) Perseverance
ii) Clear mind and heart
iii) Teachable, obedient and sensitive heart
iv) Inspiration for designs of t-shirts and packaging of cookies
v) Good working relationship with my friend
vi) To seek God in everything we do
vii) That God will reveal His will to us
viii) Find joy in my work
viv) A heart that seeks God’s will
vv) Knowledge and wisdom
vvi) Good & fruitful time of discussion with my friend
vvii) The Lord’s guidance
“….Today, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts” – Heb 4:7
I desperately need God. Please pray that I’d seek Him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength.
“Seek the Lord while He may be found; call on Him while He is near.” Isa 55:6
“But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.” – Deut 4:29
“Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.” – 1 Chronicles 16:11
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Saturday, 30 April 2005
Yooho................I'm baaack.......my dearest fans and readers...(dodge rotten eggs and pieces of rubbish)..=)
Had been out for quite awhile, yes?? I bet all of you miss me....if not, why have I been receiving messages to post an entry??=p
Hmm....I had been sick for the past few days...And worst still, it happened on the days when I had work...Thank God for sustaining me through...It had been a bit bad though....A strong case of sniffles, stuffed nose, mild sore throat, general sense of tiredness...now that I had bored you with the details of my illness, let's move on...
Business had been pretty bad these few days, I don't know why. It may be because it's the end of the month and peope are broke. Or because of me, the walking Sniffling human. I was really worried about how poorly we are doing. I began to wonder if the problem lies with me. But, I hadn't been rude to the customers, in this new location, yet. I really hadn't. Or is it because I hadn't been working hard at building connections with the customers??? From what I heard about my colleague, she has contacts with customers...like, they ask about her when they see me working instead of her...I'd be like, ya, it's me, not her working today, you've got a problem??
Felt pretty irritated...Ya..
But I feel very small too.
And useless..
It just isn't my personality to go all friendly or buddy-buddy with strangers...I admit that I've gotten better at it..but at the core, I'm still the same...
I began to wonder if the poor business is caused by my lack of buddy-buddy personality...Felt really frustrated and worried. My boss was okie with the poor business, she told me that it may be because it's the end of the month, that there are good and bad times..so I mustn't be discouraged. Thank God for a good boss!!=)
Regarding my feelings of inferiority to my colleague, I understand that we have different working styles..Just because I'm not very out-going doesn't mean that I'm the cause of the poor business..Ya..Here's Reason speaking, but wait till my inferior complex rears its ugly head..
Duh.
Thank God that the sales today is better...=) Not as good as normal, but nontheless, better than the past few days...Really thank God for providing the sales...=D
I was quite anxious and kept praying for God's mercy and providence...He reminded me in Phil 4:6-7,
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Today was quite a good day for me...Before work, I went to 7-11 to buy a litre of fruit juice (to sooth my throat) and caught sight of the Reader's Digest. I remember hearing that it is good to read it, as it improves our English, so I bought one. At first, I hesitated as it costs $9.50, which in my opinion, was quite expensive for a magazine, for a book, it's different story..But, I bought it anyway, as the thought of using it to improve my command of English over-rides the sting of parting with my hard earned cash..
I talked to the friend of a customer, while he went to the toilet to try on his purchase..She had been to Switzerland and UK to study for her Degree in Hospitality..Had an enjoyable time chatting with her and getting to know about Switzerland & UK and the life and people there...=) She said that Switzerland is a very beautiful country, all scenery..but high living cost..The shops there close quite early, 8pm on wekdays and 4pm on weekends. It's a little boring for young people or for those who are looking for happening places..
Hmm.....I'd love to visit UK and Switzerland when I have the money...=) My dream countries...Hee..First is USA, second is UK, followed by Switzerland, New Zealand and Australia.
Ha..if you've placed close attention to my blog entries, you'd know why USA is my first choice..=) If you can't remember....well, with a little begging and grovelling from you, I can be convinced to tell you...=D
Well....since you asked so nicely, I'd tell. Remember my appreciation for ballet? And my regret that I'd never got a chance to learn it? Well, I want to go to USA to watch Amanda Schull and Sascha Radetsky dance...=) There you go........
The reason I want to go to UK, may be because of my fascination with the English language and the fact that I want to see their public phone booths.....=) Switzerland, is because I love places with beautiful landscape and I heard that Switzerland is very beautiful...
When I was young, New Zealand is my dream country..I wanted to visit it, to see their (don't you dare laugh) cows..Pretty weird, huh?? I can't remember why I want to see their cows...but I had wanted to go New Zealand after I'd known about her and the cows...=) Hmm...it may be because, in my childish mind, I'd imagined the cows in a pasture, grazing, is a very wonderul picture, so I'd want to see it for myself...Australia, is another story.........I want to go there because it was my friend's dream to go Australia...another reason is that I want to see their cows and sheep.....Hee........=p
YaY!!!!! No work for Hazel tomorrow!! Yahoooo!!!!!!!! Hurray!!=D Am I glad to have a day for myself!=) I had been working everyday of this week, with the exception of tomorrow...I'll go to church...then bum around town for awhile...look at books...Ahhhh........How I miss them!!=D
Hmm...Feel a little sad that I won't be getting my regular dose of Naruto manga this week as it's Japan's Golden Week holiday, so there'd be no manga out........*sobs*...oh well, I can satisfy myself with the fanfictions........hee........=)
Oh ya...not to forget, Guo Yi came to visit me at work yesterday...What a surprise...=) He called to ask if I was working and where I was at...He managed to kill one bird with two stones as he wanted to buy some books from Life Book Store and visit me..(My workplace has a Life Book Store on the 4th storey)..We chatted for awhile before he had to leave for Ronald's house..he's staying there as his sister(s) has / have some sort of flu..Good to see him..The last time that I saw him was when he invited me to his platoon's graduation dinner...
Had been out for quite awhile, yes?? I bet all of you miss me....if not, why have I been receiving messages to post an entry??=p
Hmm....I had been sick for the past few days...And worst still, it happened on the days when I had work...Thank God for sustaining me through...It had been a bit bad though....A strong case of sniffles, stuffed nose, mild sore throat, general sense of tiredness...now that I had bored you with the details of my illness, let's move on...
Business had been pretty bad these few days, I don't know why. It may be because it's the end of the month and peope are broke. Or because of me, the walking Sniffling human. I was really worried about how poorly we are doing. I began to wonder if the problem lies with me. But, I hadn't been rude to the customers, in this new location, yet. I really hadn't. Or is it because I hadn't been working hard at building connections with the customers??? From what I heard about my colleague, she has contacts with customers...like, they ask about her when they see me working instead of her...I'd be like, ya, it's me, not her working today, you've got a problem??
Felt pretty irritated...Ya..
But I feel very small too.
And useless..
It just isn't my personality to go all friendly or buddy-buddy with strangers...I admit that I've gotten better at it..but at the core, I'm still the same...
I began to wonder if the poor business is caused by my lack of buddy-buddy personality...Felt really frustrated and worried. My boss was okie with the poor business, she told me that it may be because it's the end of the month, that there are good and bad times..so I mustn't be discouraged. Thank God for a good boss!!=)
Regarding my feelings of inferiority to my colleague, I understand that we have different working styles..Just because I'm not very out-going doesn't mean that I'm the cause of the poor business..Ya..Here's Reason speaking, but wait till my inferior complex rears its ugly head..
Duh.
Thank God that the sales today is better...=) Not as good as normal, but nontheless, better than the past few days...Really thank God for providing the sales...=D
I was quite anxious and kept praying for God's mercy and providence...He reminded me in Phil 4:6-7,
"Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Today was quite a good day for me...Before work, I went to 7-11 to buy a litre of fruit juice (to sooth my throat) and caught sight of the Reader's Digest. I remember hearing that it is good to read it, as it improves our English, so I bought one. At first, I hesitated as it costs $9.50, which in my opinion, was quite expensive for a magazine, for a book, it's different story..But, I bought it anyway, as the thought of using it to improve my command of English over-rides the sting of parting with my hard earned cash..
I talked to the friend of a customer, while he went to the toilet to try on his purchase..She had been to Switzerland and UK to study for her Degree in Hospitality..Had an enjoyable time chatting with her and getting to know about Switzerland & UK and the life and people there...=) She said that Switzerland is a very beautiful country, all scenery..but high living cost..The shops there close quite early, 8pm on wekdays and 4pm on weekends. It's a little boring for young people or for those who are looking for happening places..
Hmm.....I'd love to visit UK and Switzerland when I have the money...=) My dream countries...Hee..First is USA, second is UK, followed by Switzerland, New Zealand and Australia.
Ha..if you've placed close attention to my blog entries, you'd know why USA is my first choice..=) If you can't remember....well, with a little begging and grovelling from you, I can be convinced to tell you...=D
Well....since you asked so nicely, I'd tell. Remember my appreciation for ballet? And my regret that I'd never got a chance to learn it? Well, I want to go to USA to watch Amanda Schull and Sascha Radetsky dance...=) There you go........
The reason I want to go to UK, may be because of my fascination with the English language and the fact that I want to see their public phone booths.....=) Switzerland, is because I love places with beautiful landscape and I heard that Switzerland is very beautiful...
When I was young, New Zealand is my dream country..I wanted to visit it, to see their (don't you dare laugh) cows..Pretty weird, huh?? I can't remember why I want to see their cows...but I had wanted to go New Zealand after I'd known about her and the cows...=) Hmm...it may be because, in my childish mind, I'd imagined the cows in a pasture, grazing, is a very wonderul picture, so I'd want to see it for myself...Australia, is another story.........I want to go there because it was my friend's dream to go Australia...another reason is that I want to see their cows and sheep.....Hee........=p
YaY!!!!! No work for Hazel tomorrow!! Yahoooo!!!!!!!! Hurray!!=D Am I glad to have a day for myself!=) I had been working everyday of this week, with the exception of tomorrow...I'll go to church...then bum around town for awhile...look at books...Ahhhh........How I miss them!!=D
Hmm...Feel a little sad that I won't be getting my regular dose of Naruto manga this week as it's Japan's Golden Week holiday, so there'd be no manga out........*sobs*...oh well, I can satisfy myself with the fanfictions........hee........=)
Oh ya...not to forget, Guo Yi came to visit me at work yesterday...What a surprise...=) He called to ask if I was working and where I was at...He managed to kill one bird with two stones as he wanted to buy some books from Life Book Store and visit me..(My workplace has a Life Book Store on the 4th storey)..We chatted for awhile before he had to leave for Ronald's house..he's staying there as his sister(s) has / have some sort of flu..Good to see him..The last time that I saw him was when he invited me to his platoon's graduation dinner...
Light my path
10:58:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 20 April 2005
2 posts in a day.......good, ne??=)
Ha....the reason I posted a 2nd entry is because I'm quite happy & excited!!!!!! Do any of you remember Bare Knuckles from Sega Genesis??? Perhaps to you, it may be something which you hadn't heard of before...to me, it brings back fond memories...=p
I played this game when I was in P4...loved it so very much!!! I was crazy over it..not doing any homework...The 1st thing I did everyday after school was to play the game........Crazy huh?? Hee........Really enjoyed playing the game, till the point of obsession.
I thought the game would be lost to me forever, but it didn't, in a way....This afternoon as I was surfing the Net, I came across a site with alot of ROMs for games.....Woo.....What a treat!!=) In this site (I'll post it under my links), I found the ROM for Bare Knuckles (wait....don't congratulate me yet), but these ROMs are not the original...They are all re-makes of something like that...Not the real thing...
As I tried out some of the versions, some part of the music is quite similiar to the real thing...Whoa..was I excited or what. I am really very excited...Very. After downloading about 3 of the re-makes, I found the last that I downloaded to be the most similiar to the real game...About 75%...Ya....But one down point is that the drawing of Blaze and her group sucks...The real Blaze is a very beautiful lady...She doesn't dress so cheaply...(you get my drift??) I really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really like Blaze....
Although I am very happy and excited to have found such a treasure, but all of them doesn't measure up to the real Bare Knuckles..
So.........anyone out there who has Bare Knuckles??? I'd adore you to bits if you have the game and Sega Genesis and is willing to lend me..........=)
Anyone??? *makes adorable & pitiful faces at you*
Anyone??=)
Ha....the reason I posted a 2nd entry is because I'm quite happy & excited!!!!!! Do any of you remember Bare Knuckles from Sega Genesis??? Perhaps to you, it may be something which you hadn't heard of before...to me, it brings back fond memories...=p
I played this game when I was in P4...loved it so very much!!! I was crazy over it..not doing any homework...The 1st thing I did everyday after school was to play the game........Crazy huh?? Hee........Really enjoyed playing the game, till the point of obsession.
I thought the game would be lost to me forever, but it didn't, in a way....This afternoon as I was surfing the Net, I came across a site with alot of ROMs for games.....Woo.....What a treat!!=) In this site (I'll post it under my links), I found the ROM for Bare Knuckles (wait....don't congratulate me yet), but these ROMs are not the original...They are all re-makes of something like that...Not the real thing...
As I tried out some of the versions, some part of the music is quite similiar to the real thing...Whoa..was I excited or what. I am really very excited...Very. After downloading about 3 of the re-makes, I found the last that I downloaded to be the most similiar to the real game...About 75%...Ya....But one down point is that the drawing of Blaze and her group sucks...The real Blaze is a very beautiful lady...She doesn't dress so cheaply...(you get my drift??) I really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really, really like Blaze....
Although I am very happy and excited to have found such a treasure, but all of them doesn't measure up to the real Bare Knuckles..
So.........anyone out there who has Bare Knuckles??? I'd adore you to bits if you have the game and Sega Genesis and is willing to lend me..........=)
Anyone??? *makes adorable & pitiful faces at you*
Anyone??=)
Light my path
11:34:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Boy oh boy....I think I am getting sick...with the tell-tale sniffles...(not those morning sniffles that you get) and a general sense of tiredness...Ba...
Hmmm...it seems like I haven't posted in awhile, ne?
Nothing much to crap (something a friend said when I asked him why he didn't update his blog for so long) about...
Feeling very hot & sticky...Singapore weather....
Ah...My winamp is playing one of my old time favourites - 再见 by 小虎队.
Wanted to go for a jog this morning, but I was put off by my sniffles. It's difficult to breathe when you have a runny nose...
Been playing another Naruto RPG..So cool....ha...but when it comes to parts that require one to understand Japanese, I lose out...But, all is fine...=)
I read some Naruto fanfictions on Fanfiction.Net...Yay!! Sasuke kun...*swoons*
I quite enjoy reading stories about my favourite anime/manga characters...Some of the stories are pretty good, with good storylines, setting themselves apart from the usual typical sleeping inducing stories. While most of the grammar & vocabulary of those stories are alright, or above average, others made me wince. The English is simply atrocious...Ba..
I may sound snotty here, but the English of some of the stories is really terrible, messing up on the simple basics of English....
I have this bad habit...I'd check out the grammar & vocabulary of everything that I read, picking out the mistakes....Of course, I wouldn't say or do anything to humilate the writer....It's one thing to spot mistakes and another to cruelly humilate the person. Never use a partonising tone..or a Your-English-sucks-man-go-back-to-primary-sch tone..
So what if one is better? It doesn't give them the right to lord it over others.
I think that it is rude to correct a person in the middle of his/her speech...or in front of many people. Ha...maybe I am over-sensitive, but I think it'd be embarrassing to the person. Besides, the person never asked for your opinion, did he/she?
I've work at 1700....Duh...
Speaking of work...Seriously, I'm enjoying my 2nd workplace more than the first...The staff and Team Leaders are very nice...True, there are boring moments when there's no customers, but other than that, things are good. Oh ya...I've got my uniform.....BaH....I'm not happy with it...Too flowery for my taste...why can't female staff get the same uniform as the male?? Ha..Yesterday, my TL said that if I was bored, I can take any of the magazines from the rack and read...YaY!! Heek!!=) Cool......right??
Now playing: 游鸿明 - 爱我的人和我爱的人.
ArrggH...my runny nose.....
I'm quite pissed off at a friend...If you read the chatterbox, you'd know who he is...
Man..he's so set in his ways, that he can't even see that he'd dug himself a grave. That idiot. True, I'm a greenhorn at BGR...but this is getting ridiculous. No, not getting. It is. Ridiculous.
This had been going on for years. So far, I had been patient with this friend, but he just did something that I would not tolerate. No more pampering him. It's time to scold him. And pray that God'd wake him up. Too bad I'm not the kind to beat up my friends (contrary to popular belief) or else I can beat some sense back into him. Ba....I'm sick of his way of handling things and warped way of thinking..
I feel so helpless. How do you save one who's intent on drowning?
Seriously, I am not furious with him, more like...that kind of helpless anger. True, I know nothing about relationships, but I do know that he's not doing any good to himself...
IDIOT! BAKA!
Go on...knock yourself out with your foolish thinking...
Hmmm...it seems like I haven't posted in awhile, ne?
Nothing much to crap (something a friend said when I asked him why he didn't update his blog for so long) about...
Feeling very hot & sticky...Singapore weather....
Ah...My winamp is playing one of my old time favourites - 再见 by 小虎队.
Wanted to go for a jog this morning, but I was put off by my sniffles. It's difficult to breathe when you have a runny nose...
Been playing another Naruto RPG..So cool....ha...but when it comes to parts that require one to understand Japanese, I lose out...But, all is fine...=)
I read some Naruto fanfictions on Fanfiction.Net...Yay!! Sasuke kun...*swoons*
I quite enjoy reading stories about my favourite anime/manga characters...Some of the stories are pretty good, with good storylines, setting themselves apart from the usual typical sleeping inducing stories. While most of the grammar & vocabulary of those stories are alright, or above average, others made me wince. The English is simply atrocious...Ba..
I may sound snotty here, but the English of some of the stories is really terrible, messing up on the simple basics of English....
I have this bad habit...I'd check out the grammar & vocabulary of everything that I read, picking out the mistakes....Of course, I wouldn't say or do anything to humilate the writer....It's one thing to spot mistakes and another to cruelly humilate the person. Never use a partonising tone..or a Your-English-sucks-man-go-back-to-primary-sch tone..
So what if one is better? It doesn't give them the right to lord it over others.
I think that it is rude to correct a person in the middle of his/her speech...or in front of many people. Ha...maybe I am over-sensitive, but I think it'd be embarrassing to the person. Besides, the person never asked for your opinion, did he/she?
I've work at 1700....Duh...
Speaking of work...Seriously, I'm enjoying my 2nd workplace more than the first...The staff and Team Leaders are very nice...True, there are boring moments when there's no customers, but other than that, things are good. Oh ya...I've got my uniform.....BaH....I'm not happy with it...Too flowery for my taste...why can't female staff get the same uniform as the male?? Ha..Yesterday, my TL said that if I was bored, I can take any of the magazines from the rack and read...YaY!! Heek!!=) Cool......right??
Now playing: 游鸿明 - 爱我的人和我爱的人.
ArrggH...my runny nose.....
I'm quite pissed off at a friend...If you read the chatterbox, you'd know who he is...
Man..he's so set in his ways, that he can't even see that he'd dug himself a grave. That idiot. True, I'm a greenhorn at BGR...but this is getting ridiculous. No, not getting. It is. Ridiculous.
This had been going on for years. So far, I had been patient with this friend, but he just did something that I would not tolerate. No more pampering him. It's time to scold him. And pray that God'd wake him up. Too bad I'm not the kind to beat up my friends (contrary to popular belief) or else I can beat some sense back into him. Ba....I'm sick of his way of handling things and warped way of thinking..
I feel so helpless. How do you save one who's intent on drowning?
Seriously, I am not furious with him, more like...that kind of helpless anger. True, I know nothing about relationships, but I do know that he's not doing any good to himself...
IDIOT! BAKA!
Go on...knock yourself out with your foolish thinking...
Light my path
12:54:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 12 April 2005
Hoo…Thank God that I did not have any shortage today. I even had an excess of 50 cents..=) lala..
I was feeling really very down as I was working today. I can’t really put those feelings in words, but in general, I felt really down, stretched, really sian and down in the dumps. I can’t muster up any smile. Felt really terrible. This is probably due to a piece of news that I’d received before going for work.
Bah.
Don’t want to talk about it.
I felt so bad, so sian, that I considered quitting my 2nd job. I always seem to be working. When was the last time I went out to just walk around or stay at home and stone? It seemed like ages. Really cannot take it. The attitude of people doesn’t help my situation too. Especially people with an attitude of a capital A. They really think that customers are always right. They treat the person serving them like dirt. Please. Who do they think they are??!!
Man, I am not going to swear and curse over those lousy people. Not worth my time and space on this blog.
Really have a lot of things happening to me in work, home and friends. I desperately need the time to get my bearings and to get settled deep into God’s Word.
As I was working today, I thought the time for me to go home would never come. The clock crawled, so slowly that I thought I’d go crazy with waiting. I prayed to God for help. I don’t know why, but somehow I was reminded of Job. Perhaps, these recent happenings are tests?? God allowed those things to happen to mould me? Help me?
I am reminded of the following verse:
I was feeling really very down as I was working today. I can’t really put those feelings in words, but in general, I felt really down, stretched, really sian and down in the dumps. I can’t muster up any smile. Felt really terrible. This is probably due to a piece of news that I’d received before going for work.
Bah.
Don’t want to talk about it.
I felt so bad, so sian, that I considered quitting my 2nd job. I always seem to be working. When was the last time I went out to just walk around or stay at home and stone? It seemed like ages. Really cannot take it. The attitude of people doesn’t help my situation too. Especially people with an attitude of a capital A. They really think that customers are always right. They treat the person serving them like dirt. Please. Who do they think they are??!!
Man, I am not going to swear and curse over those lousy people. Not worth my time and space on this blog.
Really have a lot of things happening to me in work, home and friends. I desperately need the time to get my bearings and to get settled deep into God’s Word.
As I was working today, I thought the time for me to go home would never come. The clock crawled, so slowly that I thought I’d go crazy with waiting. I prayed to God for help. I don’t know why, but somehow I was reminded of Job. Perhaps, these recent happenings are tests?? God allowed those things to happen to mould me? Help me?
I am reminded of the following verse:
“Who can speak and have it happen
if the Lord has not decreed it?
Is it not from the mouth of the Most High
that both calamities and good things come?” – Jer 3:37-38
Another verse came to mind as I typed these words:
“…Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?" – Job 2:10
I will be seeking God for direction and inspiration regarding the cookie and t-shirt venture with my friend.
Please keep me constantly in your prayers.
Prayer pointers:
i) Perseverance
ii) Clear mind and heart
iii) Teachable, obedient and sensitive heart
iv) Inspiration for designs of t-shirts and packaging of cookies
v) Good working relationship with my friend
vi) To seek God in everything we do
vii) That God will reveal His will to us
viii) Find joy in my work
viv) A heart that seeks God’s will
vv) Knowledge and wisdom
vvi) Good & fruitful time of discussion with my friend
vvii) The Lord’s guidance
“….Today, if you hear His voice, do not harden your hearts” – Heb 4:7
I desperately need God. Please pray that I’d seek Him with all my heart, soul, mind and strength.
“Seek the Lord while He may be found; call on Him while He is near.” Isa 55:6
“But if from there you seek the LORD your God, you will find him if you look for him with all your heart and with all your soul.” – Deut 4:29
“Look to the LORD and his strength; seek his face always.” – 1 Chronicles 16:11
Light my path
11:57:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 11 April 2005
Okie..At the "request" of Sebastian, I am updating my blog. Bleah. Why must I listen to him huh?? Heh. Nevermind.
I am no longer working at Jurong Point, I've moved to another branch. It is quite near my house. Yah..Ha..Thank God for the saving of transportation fees and time...=) Thank You, Papa!!
Today was my first day. At first, I felt like fish out of water. After all, I had worked a month at the branch in Jurong Point, facing the same items and environment. Now, I had to adapt to the change in environment, people and way of working. Thank God that it got better as the day went by. Hmm...I'd have to say that I like it here, better than when I was at Jurong Point. The environment is totally different. The customers are an entire different group of people. Less annoying. Hmm...but then, I may too quick to judge, after all, it's just my first day there. Plus the fact that I have not worked the weekend yet. We'll see then.
Ha..but I like my neighbours in JP better. I am closer with the staff of OP...=) Here, there are a few pushcarts near mine. The one to my left is selling shawls and clothes...I think. The girl I met today is called Mira, 20yrs old this year. She's quite an extrovert...=) Quite pretty. When she asked how old I was, I told her to guess. She said I look like 17....hahaha........=D Yay!!!!!! Hey..I am not lying...There are many crusade year ones who thought that I was year one, like them.hee..lala.....
Sooooooo happy...=D
Feels kind of sad...why do I have a mature looking face??? Hmm..but, I believe that God has His own reasons for who I am and the way I am...I thank God for it..=)
Besides, "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." - Proverbs 31:30.
One thing I like about the place I am in now, is that the food is cheaper than JP. Yup!
Speaking of food, I don't know why, but recently, I've been having stomach upsets when I eat. I don't mean everytime, but more often than usual. It makes me reluctant to eat. Having stomach upsets is an inconvenience when I am working.
Ha..after hearing from Sebastian that his PC crashed due to his low hard disk space, I hardened my heart and deleted all my Inuyasha anime episodes, except for the 3 movies and Naruto movie. With all the empty space, I re-downloaded the programmes & songs that I had deleted, in order to make space for Inuyasha.
Ahh.........feeling bored...I want to play games.......RPG.......
Just the other day, I saw some PC CD-ROM games for sale in the 7-11 near my house. I was tempted to buy, but didn't as I was going to be late for work, in addition, I do not know much about games, it'd be safer to consult experts. Ha.
So I asked Ronny on MSN last night. He told me not to get them....Not to play games....ba..Know what?? He said not to play games...later as he signed off, he told me that he was playing games, which was why he's slow to reply to my message...BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
HEH!! IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to play games........Any one has any to lend me??=) PS1? PS2? Sega games? I don't mind..I like adventure games, RPG. My favourite is Bare Knuckles from Sega Games. Ah...like it alot.......Games......................Games.........Games.................
I am no longer working at Jurong Point, I've moved to another branch. It is quite near my house. Yah..Ha..Thank God for the saving of transportation fees and time...=) Thank You, Papa!!
Today was my first day. At first, I felt like fish out of water. After all, I had worked a month at the branch in Jurong Point, facing the same items and environment. Now, I had to adapt to the change in environment, people and way of working. Thank God that it got better as the day went by. Hmm...I'd have to say that I like it here, better than when I was at Jurong Point. The environment is totally different. The customers are an entire different group of people. Less annoying. Hmm...but then, I may too quick to judge, after all, it's just my first day there. Plus the fact that I have not worked the weekend yet. We'll see then.
Ha..but I like my neighbours in JP better. I am closer with the staff of OP...=) Here, there are a few pushcarts near mine. The one to my left is selling shawls and clothes...I think. The girl I met today is called Mira, 20yrs old this year. She's quite an extrovert...=) Quite pretty. When she asked how old I was, I told her to guess. She said I look like 17....hahaha........=D Yay!!!!!! Hey..I am not lying...There are many crusade year ones who thought that I was year one, like them.hee..lala.....
Sooooooo happy...=D
Feels kind of sad...why do I have a mature looking face??? Hmm..but, I believe that God has His own reasons for who I am and the way I am...I thank God for it..=)
Besides, "Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." - Proverbs 31:30.
One thing I like about the place I am in now, is that the food is cheaper than JP. Yup!
Speaking of food, I don't know why, but recently, I've been having stomach upsets when I eat. I don't mean everytime, but more often than usual. It makes me reluctant to eat. Having stomach upsets is an inconvenience when I am working.
Ha..after hearing from Sebastian that his PC crashed due to his low hard disk space, I hardened my heart and deleted all my Inuyasha anime episodes, except for the 3 movies and Naruto movie. With all the empty space, I re-downloaded the programmes & songs that I had deleted, in order to make space for Inuyasha.
Ahh.........feeling bored...I want to play games.......RPG.......
Just the other day, I saw some PC CD-ROM games for sale in the 7-11 near my house. I was tempted to buy, but didn't as I was going to be late for work, in addition, I do not know much about games, it'd be safer to consult experts. Ha.
So I asked Ronny on MSN last night. He told me not to get them....Not to play games....ba..Know what?? He said not to play games...later as he signed off, he told me that he was playing games, which was why he's slow to reply to my message...BAH!!!!!!!!!!!!
HEH!! IDIOT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I want to play games........Any one has any to lend me??=) PS1? PS2? Sega games? I don't mind..I like adventure games, RPG. My favourite is Bare Knuckles from Sega Games. Ah...like it alot.......Games......................Games.........Games.................
Light my path
11:12:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 7 April 2005
I had my final paper this morning at 9am. I must give thanks to God for His mercy and grace. For the paper, though it was like last year (the format all changed), I thank God that I am able to answer almost all of the questions. I was really worried about the paper, but I managed to do what I can, by the grace of the Lord. He has been merciful to me...=)
Thanks to all those who prayed for me....Thank YOU. I don't know who you are, but God knows...=D
Thank God for such a wonderful semester. I enjoyed my classes and classmates. The Lord has even provided for me a lab partner, even when I started my class on the 3rd week of the semester. Normally, by the 3rd week, everyone would have lab partners. At that time, I was prepared to do my lab alone or be forced to join a group, to be the 3rd wheel...bleah. But there was a guy who didn't go for lab for the first 2 weeks, so he'd no partner. It was like this that he and I got together...=) God works in wonders, eh? As I trusted Him and went for class, (not running away like the coward I was), He opened doors as I put my hand to the knobs. I've got a great class, friendly people and a good lab partner..=D He's a nice guy...humorous, friendly, considerate and would take care of me...in a way la........=) Very glad and thankful to God for my lab partner!!
My poly days had started off with sometimes good, sometimes bad, with alot of joy and troubles in the middle and towards the end. But God is gracious...He has sustained me through it all. My poly years have ended off great......=)
Ha...Sebastian...he ah..GGrrrr........After my paper, I SMSed some friends to tell them how I fared. Later, when I was back in Sembawang, buying the ingredients for the cookies, he called.
I was quite surprised..hee...because normally, I'd be the one calling him..and annoying him...Hee...=p OppZ.......lala
Know what he asked???!!!!! GGGGrrrrrrrr...........
He called to confirm that I'd be graduating this semester..........Bleah.
Such a lack of trust!!
Either that, or he didn't understand my SMS. Another possibility is that he's too overjoyed for me that he daren't believe my SMS, thinking it to be a trick of the light or some thing....
So.....................
Which is it, Sebas???=D
Ha...I went home after buying the ingredients and started on baking from 1245 till 2050...
Long day...
I've finished baking the chocolate chip, oatmeal & raisin and cornflakes cookies....The dough for the ginger cookies is mixed and refrigerated. I'll be baking it tomorrow morning, before work...
Ahhhh...........a sense of accomplishment........=) Tired..thirsty..not that hungry, although I've not eaten anything today, except about 5 cookies...All that baking has made me "full"...
This is bad, as I think I am getting sick of cookies.....Haiz...I love cookies, you know..
But with all the cookies that I've baked recently...I am like - "bleah..no more cookies please..."
I am like this when I cook for many people...like the crusade events...I seldom eat after cooking...even if I do, I won't eat my own cooking, unless it is a dish that I seldom eat...Strange huh?? Ya...I just have this kind of thinking and behavior......=D
That is me.......Shuying, Hazel, take me as I am or leave me alone. I am no one's replacement nor the replica of anyone. Don't try to change me, for that wouldn't be me...=)
Thanks to all those who prayed for me....Thank YOU. I don't know who you are, but God knows...=D
Thank God for such a wonderful semester. I enjoyed my classes and classmates. The Lord has even provided for me a lab partner, even when I started my class on the 3rd week of the semester. Normally, by the 3rd week, everyone would have lab partners. At that time, I was prepared to do my lab alone or be forced to join a group, to be the 3rd wheel...bleah. But there was a guy who didn't go for lab for the first 2 weeks, so he'd no partner. It was like this that he and I got together...=) God works in wonders, eh? As I trusted Him and went for class, (not running away like the coward I was), He opened doors as I put my hand to the knobs. I've got a great class, friendly people and a good lab partner..=D He's a nice guy...humorous, friendly, considerate and would take care of me...in a way la........=) Very glad and thankful to God for my lab partner!!
My poly days had started off with sometimes good, sometimes bad, with alot of joy and troubles in the middle and towards the end. But God is gracious...He has sustained me through it all. My poly years have ended off great......=)
Ha...Sebastian...he ah..GGrrrr........After my paper, I SMSed some friends to tell them how I fared. Later, when I was back in Sembawang, buying the ingredients for the cookies, he called.
I was quite surprised..hee...because normally, I'd be the one calling him..and annoying him...Hee...=p OppZ.......lala
Know what he asked???!!!!! GGGGrrrrrrrr...........
He called to confirm that I'd be graduating this semester..........Bleah.
Such a lack of trust!!
Either that, or he didn't understand my SMS. Another possibility is that he's too overjoyed for me that he daren't believe my SMS, thinking it to be a trick of the light or some thing....
So.....................
Which is it, Sebas???=D
Ha...I went home after buying the ingredients and started on baking from 1245 till 2050...
Long day...
I've finished baking the chocolate chip, oatmeal & raisin and cornflakes cookies....The dough for the ginger cookies is mixed and refrigerated. I'll be baking it tomorrow morning, before work...
Ahhhh...........a sense of accomplishment........=) Tired..thirsty..not that hungry, although I've not eaten anything today, except about 5 cookies...All that baking has made me "full"...
This is bad, as I think I am getting sick of cookies.....Haiz...I love cookies, you know..
But with all the cookies that I've baked recently...I am like - "bleah..no more cookies please..."
I am like this when I cook for many people...like the crusade events...I seldom eat after cooking...even if I do, I won't eat my own cooking, unless it is a dish that I seldom eat...Strange huh?? Ya...I just have this kind of thinking and behavior......=D
That is me.......Shuying, Hazel, take me as I am or leave me alone. I am no one's replacement nor the replica of anyone. Don't try to change me, for that wouldn't be me...=)
Light my path
8:51:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 6 April 2005
Ah…I’m now a bundle of nerves..
Worried. Anxious. Nervous.
I can’t concentrate!!!!!!! And I don’t have enough time left!!!!! My paper is TOMORROW morning!!!!!!!!
When I get nervous, nothing productive comes out. I may be spending a lot of time on it, but nothing stays in my head. Very worried for myself.
My mother found out that I am still studying……no one in the family knew…Ya…So now, they would. This is bad…all these happening on the eve of my paper.
Actually, I am confident of doing well as I went through the past year exam papers…but, I’m the type who does well in normal course work and not-so-well in exams. This is only true for papers that require calculations and formulas. Papers that only need pure memorizing, I am extremely confident of doing well. I usually do well in exams, but if the module’s one that requires all that maths, physics, graphs…..I’d be in trouble….Bleah.
My prayer requests:
i) Good memory
ii) Alertness
iii) Pray against anxiety, confusion & carelessness
iv) Peaceful heart
v) To apply all that I’ve learnt, well
vi) Be on time
vii) Make full use of the time left
viii) Have a productive revision
Thanks!!=D
Worried. Anxious. Nervous.
I can’t concentrate!!!!!!! And I don’t have enough time left!!!!! My paper is TOMORROW morning!!!!!!!!
When I get nervous, nothing productive comes out. I may be spending a lot of time on it, but nothing stays in my head. Very worried for myself.
My mother found out that I am still studying……no one in the family knew…Ya…So now, they would. This is bad…all these happening on the eve of my paper.
Actually, I am confident of doing well as I went through the past year exam papers…but, I’m the type who does well in normal course work and not-so-well in exams. This is only true for papers that require calculations and formulas. Papers that only need pure memorizing, I am extremely confident of doing well. I usually do well in exams, but if the module’s one that requires all that maths, physics, graphs…..I’d be in trouble….Bleah.
My prayer requests:
i) Good memory
ii) Alertness
iii) Pray against anxiety, confusion & carelessness
iv) Peaceful heart
v) To apply all that I’ve learnt, well
vi) Be on time
vii) Make full use of the time left
viii) Have a productive revision
Thanks!!=D
Light my path
1:55:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Bah. The page took forever to load… Several things I don’t like about Blogspot is that when an error occurs, whatever that you’d been typing would all be gone…I had that happen to me a few times…Was steaming mad. Furious. GGGRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrr……
In addition, it doesn’t allow copy & paste…heh. Plus the fact that, the alignment of text doesn’t follow what I had in mind…..bleah.
Hmm……guess what, I’d heard from Ronny (who called when I was sleeping this afternoon, bleah. Disturbed my beauty sleep. Heh.) that the order for 30 packs of cookies is confirmed!!!=) With an addition of 10, so that makes it 40 packs of cookies, man!!! Whoa….a tall order…….
I’m happy…..but feeling a little overwhelmed. I’d have been ecstatic, if not for my upcoming exam. Plus, I’ve some worries regarding the cookies… Never mind.
Whoa…guess what? As some of you know, what my workplace looks like, you’d understand what happened. I’d just received a SMS from a colleague, who told me that the pushcart’s door came off as she was closing up just now. Bleah. Lousy maintenance. Just the other day, the plastic joint of the side door came loose. I noticed that the workmanship pf the pushcart’s not that good. The screws weren’t deeply screwed. The drilled holes weren’t deep enough. It is not secure enough for our use.
Well…..I’m signing off now. To dreamland & a day of mugging and working tomorrow.
Speaking of working, I’ve to thank God that I didn’t have any shortage of money today. I don’t know why, I tend to have shortage whenever I work in this place. It’s probably also due to the fact that there’s more than one person handling the cashier. At this workplace, they have a fixed schedule, 8am – 2pm and 2pm to 10pm. As I’ve class, I couldn’t possibly work at these fixed hours. Nonetheless, if I would be working that day, once the shift starts, they’d use my name to sign in and use the cashier till I come in for work. Ant losses, I’d have to bear…bleah. But they give an allowance of $5…they’d pay for me if my losses are within $5.
Oh ya…I’d an excess of $10.30…..I think…I don’t know how or why it happened. I’m grateful, though a bit worried that it’d be just a miscalculation….Haiz…
Bye now.
Keep me in your prayers if you remember me. Any time, any where. Till the end of my paper on Thursday, at 1110.
Thanks……=D
Hey Sebastian, do you want to chip in to buy a present for Jimmy? Let me know, okie? Normally, I'd prefer to buy alone, but this month, I've have many friends' birthdays...Next month is Alvin's. Next is yours. Next is Ronny's. Next is Daniel's. The list goes oooonnnnnn....
April's a nightmare...The following months are not-so-bad. Months with none of my friends having birthdays are a dream. Wonderful dream. Too bad, it doesn't last. Oh well, by then, mine would be around the corner......Heek.
In addition, it doesn’t allow copy & paste…heh. Plus the fact that, the alignment of text doesn’t follow what I had in mind…..bleah.
Hmm……guess what, I’d heard from Ronny (who called when I was sleeping this afternoon, bleah. Disturbed my beauty sleep. Heh.) that the order for 30 packs of cookies is confirmed!!!=) With an addition of 10, so that makes it 40 packs of cookies, man!!! Whoa….a tall order…….
I’m happy…..but feeling a little overwhelmed. I’d have been ecstatic, if not for my upcoming exam. Plus, I’ve some worries regarding the cookies… Never mind.
Whoa…guess what? As some of you know, what my workplace looks like, you’d understand what happened. I’d just received a SMS from a colleague, who told me that the pushcart’s door came off as she was closing up just now. Bleah. Lousy maintenance. Just the other day, the plastic joint of the side door came loose. I noticed that the workmanship pf the pushcart’s not that good. The screws weren’t deeply screwed. The drilled holes weren’t deep enough. It is not secure enough for our use.
Well…..I’m signing off now. To dreamland & a day of mugging and working tomorrow.
Speaking of working, I’ve to thank God that I didn’t have any shortage of money today. I don’t know why, I tend to have shortage whenever I work in this place. It’s probably also due to the fact that there’s more than one person handling the cashier. At this workplace, they have a fixed schedule, 8am – 2pm and 2pm to 10pm. As I’ve class, I couldn’t possibly work at these fixed hours. Nonetheless, if I would be working that day, once the shift starts, they’d use my name to sign in and use the cashier till I come in for work. Ant losses, I’d have to bear…bleah. But they give an allowance of $5…they’d pay for me if my losses are within $5.
Oh ya…I’d an excess of $10.30…..I think…I don’t know how or why it happened. I’m grateful, though a bit worried that it’d be just a miscalculation….Haiz…
Bye now.
Keep me in your prayers if you remember me. Any time, any where. Till the end of my paper on Thursday, at 1110.
Thanks……=D
Hey Sebastian, do you want to chip in to buy a present for Jimmy? Let me know, okie? Normally, I'd prefer to buy alone, but this month, I've have many friends' birthdays...Next month is Alvin's. Next is yours. Next is Ronny's. Next is Daniel's. The list goes oooonnnnnn....
April's a nightmare...The following months are not-so-bad. Months with none of my friends having birthdays are a dream. Wonderful dream. Too bad, it doesn't last. Oh well, by then, mine would be around the corner......Heek.
Light my path
12:28:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 4 April 2005
I've been having many visitors at work recently...bleah. Let me see, there were Angeline, Mei Hu, Benjamin, Selina, Jonathan and today, Ronny. Bah...
Ha..I don't mean the "bah", in a bad way...=) I'm glad to have friends over to visit me, especially on weekdays, when the mall's quiet and I'm bored to tears...(due to yawning..bleah.)
He's very funny...haha...no insult la...=p Ha..he probably would know nothing of this...so don't tell on me...ya??=p
He dropped by as he booked out to go to the hospital and had extra time on his hands....
He did some things which I found amusing...haha..
Want to know? Ask him.
Duh.
Today was a trying day...so many irritating people........bleah. It really tests my patience and tolerance to work in the service line...
My paper's this Thursday morning..I've got to study hard...=) I'd be working on Tuesday and Wednesday night...Haiz...I hope I've sufficient time........
Ha..I don't mean the "bah", in a bad way...=) I'm glad to have friends over to visit me, especially on weekdays, when the mall's quiet and I'm bored to tears...(due to yawning..bleah.)
He's very funny...haha...no insult la...=p Ha..he probably would know nothing of this...so don't tell on me...ya??=p
He dropped by as he booked out to go to the hospital and had extra time on his hands....
He did some things which I found amusing...haha..
Want to know? Ask him.
Duh.
Today was a trying day...so many irritating people........bleah. It really tests my patience and tolerance to work in the service line...
My paper's this Thursday morning..I've got to study hard...=) I'd be working on Tuesday and Wednesday night...Haiz...I hope I've sufficient time........
Light my path
11:22:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 3 April 2005
Ha...I had many thoughts as I travelled home from the library. My paper's on this coming Thursday, morning paper...rats...T.T Haiz.......
Anyway......
Ya...I went there this morning to study, from 1000 till 2100...I did the usual..Did my QT first before studying. It was hard to concentrate, as there was a bunch of annoying school girls chit-chatting. I wouldn't mention which school they are from. You may ask, how do I know which school they are from?? Well...they were wearing their school uniforms......Bah. A disgrace to their school.
Despite my repeated glares, they did not cease in their mindless chatter nor at least talk softer. I was really frustrated. Bah. They didn't or couldn't even keep quiet for a minute! I am not exaggerating. God is my witness. I put on my earphones and listened to Jeff Cheung's soothing voice, rather than their annoying, high-pitched and mindless chatter which makes one stupid, with regard to what they had talked about.
I sound mean, ya?
So what.
If you don't like what I'd said, well, too bad. I am entitled to write what I want on my blog and I didn't even name their school. So, don't come to rag at me.
Ya....after the Woodlands library closed, I took a bus home. It was a long ride, so I'd plenty of time to think. Exam's this coming week, I'll be graduating soon. I hadn't wanted to attend the graduation ceremony. It isn't like I'm on the honours roll or something. I met my primary school friend, Lynette on Friday, at my workplace. She was surprised to learn that I am repeating..bleah. She said that I'd pretty good grades back then. Well, as she said, back then, as in the past. I'd have to blame myself for thinking that like in primary school, I could get good grades just by listening and study at a minimum. Bah. It was a fatal mistake that I made in secondary school.
As I was writing, I hadn't wanted to go for my graduation ceremony because of that. In addition, there's no one who will be coming to see my get my diploma. Pathetic huh. Well, that's my life. My family never came for any of my graduations. The most hurtful blow was the day when I received my O' Levels results. I've no wish to elaborate.
But then, a thought struck me. I'm finally graduating from SP. After all the pain, frustrations & confusion, I'm finally going to graduate. After all the trouble that I've gone through, all the trouble that I've caused to Jimmy and after all the prayers of my friends, I am going to graduate. How can I not go? How can I not go?
I am reminded that I will not be alone, "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." & "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” God is with me. He'd see me graduate......=)
Hmm.....maybe I can invite Jimmy, as he ends work at 1700. But the graduation ceremony's at 1700 too...on a friday....
I made a promise to myself that when I've children, I'll celebrate their birthday every year and go for their graduations. Even if there's no time, I'd make time.
I'm having some thing going on inside of me..some sort of problem, you may say. As it threatens to overwhem me, I thought back to how I behaved 3 yrs ago, because of it. I am determined not to let history repeats itself. I am 21 now. Almost 3 years had passed since then, I am sure that God has made me stronger. I am not a girl of 18 anymore. I must not and will not be a slave to my emotions.
Anyway......
Ya...I went there this morning to study, from 1000 till 2100...I did the usual..Did my QT first before studying. It was hard to concentrate, as there was a bunch of annoying school girls chit-chatting. I wouldn't mention which school they are from. You may ask, how do I know which school they are from?? Well...they were wearing their school uniforms......Bah. A disgrace to their school.
Despite my repeated glares, they did not cease in their mindless chatter nor at least talk softer. I was really frustrated. Bah. They didn't or couldn't even keep quiet for a minute! I am not exaggerating. God is my witness. I put on my earphones and listened to Jeff Cheung's soothing voice, rather than their annoying, high-pitched and mindless chatter which makes one stupid, with regard to what they had talked about.
I sound mean, ya?
So what.
If you don't like what I'd said, well, too bad. I am entitled to write what I want on my blog and I didn't even name their school. So, don't come to rag at me.
Ya....after the Woodlands library closed, I took a bus home. It was a long ride, so I'd plenty of time to think. Exam's this coming week, I'll be graduating soon. I hadn't wanted to attend the graduation ceremony. It isn't like I'm on the honours roll or something. I met my primary school friend, Lynette on Friday, at my workplace. She was surprised to learn that I am repeating..bleah. She said that I'd pretty good grades back then. Well, as she said, back then, as in the past. I'd have to blame myself for thinking that like in primary school, I could get good grades just by listening and study at a minimum. Bah. It was a fatal mistake that I made in secondary school.
As I was writing, I hadn't wanted to go for my graduation ceremony because of that. In addition, there's no one who will be coming to see my get my diploma. Pathetic huh. Well, that's my life. My family never came for any of my graduations. The most hurtful blow was the day when I received my O' Levels results. I've no wish to elaborate.
But then, a thought struck me. I'm finally graduating from SP. After all the pain, frustrations & confusion, I'm finally going to graduate. After all the trouble that I've gone through, all the trouble that I've caused to Jimmy and after all the prayers of my friends, I am going to graduate. How can I not go? How can I not go?
I am reminded that I will not be alone, "And surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age." & "Never will I leave you; never will I forsake you.” God is with me. He'd see me graduate......=)
Hmm.....maybe I can invite Jimmy, as he ends work at 1700. But the graduation ceremony's at 1700 too...on a friday....
I made a promise to myself that when I've children, I'll celebrate their birthday every year and go for their graduations. Even if there's no time, I'd make time.
I'm having some thing going on inside of me..some sort of problem, you may say. As it threatens to overwhem me, I thought back to how I behaved 3 yrs ago, because of it. I am determined not to let history repeats itself. I am 21 now. Almost 3 years had passed since then, I am sure that God has made me stronger. I am not a girl of 18 anymore. I must not and will not be a slave to my emotions.
" Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised." Proverbs 31:30
Light my path
9:45:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
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"Charm is deceptive, and beauty is fleeting; but a woman who fears the LORD is to be praised."
Proverbs 31:30
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Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go."
Joshua 1:9
A psalm of David.
The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.
Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.
You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.
"Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light."
Matthew 11:28-30
"Call to Me and I will answer you and tell you great and unsearchable things you do not know"
Jeremiah 33:3