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Ha...check out the link below...a friend of mine..Danny did the wallpaper..=)
http://www.originalsins.net/WallpaperDetail.aspx?wallpaperId=363
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When you've fallen, stop when you've reached your line. And return.
It is time to return.
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Sunday, 27 February 2005
Ha...I'm pretty hooked on the Naruto game...WaHH..I still can't believe that I am so ignorant!! The people whom I asked, all knew about emulators..when they were in secondary school!!! *cries* Ha..I've lost out on ALOT of the anime games!!! Duh...Hmm..but come to think of it, even if I knew about emulators earlier, it wouldn't have made a difference, except for me to be more upset, as I didn't have a computer till Jan 04. So, if I had known earlier, I'd be very upset.
Ha..in a way, it's good..=) Things have a way of working themselves out..it's just the timing..=)
Here's another embarrassing thing to share..I got lost on the way to church yesterday..
Yup.
I did.
Yes.
Your eyes do not deceive you.
It's because, the staircase that I always took, was closed off, thus I was directed to an underpass. There's was a man in the underpass, sitting on the ledge. He asked for the time. I told him..BIG mistake..He started talking, asked where I was heading to, said I looked like a secondary school kid, talked about how expensive things are in Singapore, religions and some other stuff...
I started to freak out a bit..He knew that I am a Christian and talked alot about Christians and good deeds...Then he said he needs help. He's not married. Can I help him?? At first, I thought had misunderstood him, so, I told him that I have no friends who wants to get married. It was then that he asked if I can be friends with him. I officially freaked out. You do not receive a 'marriage proposal' from a stranger in the underpass..I looked around me for help, but it was pretty quiet, not many people came by during the 15mins conversation I had with him. I started crying to God for help, inwardly.
Of course, I told him, "No. I can't help you." He asked why can't I help him? Inwardly, I thought, "Because I was taught since young, not to talk to strangers." Ha..I didn't say that to him..just firmly repeated that I couldn't help him and told him that I am running very late for Cell Group. He kept trying to stop me, I began to wonder what would he do if I start to run away and continued to cry to God for help..*sob*
Really thank God, it was then that a passer-by came by, so I took the opportunity to say that I am going, now. He had no choice, but to let me go, I suppose he knew that it'd not be smart to do anything when there's another person in the underpass. So, I made my get-away. Phew!! Thank God!!!
But, come to think of it, what if he's there next saturday?? OH no!!! And the staircase leading to church is still closed off too! *shudders*
After running like crazy away from the guy, I reached a road, at the back of Park Mall, I think, beside Fort Canning. I was at loss at to which way to turn to go to church, go with the traffic, or to go against it?? I picked the first. But, after walking for awhile, something seemed to be amissed, so I called Abby, from my SG (Small Group, most people call it Cell Group, my church, we call it SG), to ask for help. After a good 10mins of confusion, I managed to find my way to church. As it turned out, I should have gone against the flow of traffic, instead of going with it as I previously did. Duh. I reached my church, very late, only to get lost, again. Duh. Why me?? Huh? *sobs* Ha..because the rooms where we previously had our bible study lessons, had room numbers on the door, but yesterday, the room that our prayer meeting was held at, had no number. I walked around the entire level, wondering what to do, not wanting to peek in each room as it seemed a bit weird..ha..so I called Abby again...oppZ..hee..so, after having so many things happening, I finally found my SG members..*cries*
I told the SG about what happened at the underpass, then Lionel and the others said that I should have just told the guy the time and left..and that they must teach me to dodge this kind of things..ha..
Hmm..I don't know leh, but, it seemed a bit rude to just rush away?? I couldn't leave as the guy was striking up a conversation with me..At first, I thought it was okie to talk a little as he seemed harmless...oh well..Never judge by appearance..
After prayer meeting, we went to Park Mall. Oh ya!! I got a job!=) Really, it's by God's grace! Ha..when I started looking for jobs, I bought Straits Times, then the staff asked if I'd want the free copy of Today..I thought, since it's free, I'd take it la..ya..Ha...It was from the copy of Today that I found the job!=) If I didn't take the Today..ha...It's really amazing, you know..=p I had switched my phone to silent mode during the prayer meeting..had 2 missed calls from my Mum..Later, as Abby and I were waiting for the rest of our SG, I had nothing to do, so I checked my phone and found that someone was calling me..I answered and found that I had a job!! YAY!!=) Ha..really must thank God for the timing, because, knowing me, if I hadn't took out the handphone at that moment, I wouldn't have called the person back..Why?? Ha..because, I have a habit of not answering calls or calling people whose numbers are not in my phonebook..ha..Weird eh?? Ya..If I hadn't picked up the phone then, the job would be gone..
Hmm........come to think of it, the person does call at weird hours..She called around 1745..on a saturday...Ha..Who am I to comment on it??=P duh.
Since I still have some time left before having to meet my friend, Cesen, I followed them to Park Mall, where Gladwin, my SG leader, took an interest in a fish tank. It was pretty intersting, the tank, I mean. It was built in a way, that no algae would grow in the tank. The salesman said that the lamp is fixed in the center of the tank, shining only on the rocks. It was amazing, you know, when we put our hands at the side of the tank, we cant see our hands from the inside of the tank!!! WOO!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha..even after the salesman explained to me, I still don't understand why can't our hands be seen from the inside of the tank..Ha..maybe you can check it out and tell me??=p Oh..ya..another feature of the fish tank is that, it is actually a coffee table. Amazing, yes? A fish tank coffee table. Whoa!=)
Ha..I left after that, to Pasir Ris, while the others head for dinner.
My primary school friend, Shuyun's having her 21st birthday celebration at Downtown East, till monday..I had arranged to meet Cesen, another primary school friend at Pasir Ris, to go together..Ha...I am a 路痴..as you can gather from the earlier part of the entry..and that wasn't the only time I got lost too..Got lost countless of time..*cries..hides face in embarrassment* Bleah.
Arranged to meet Cesen at 1900, but he SMSed to say that he'd be late, it was okie, as I still had to get a card for Shuyun..so I went to Popular and chose out a card..After that, I walked around for a bit, before deciding to write on the card...Memories of the past came to mind as I wrote to Shuyun..We used to be very close in primary school. I remember going to her house to play dress-up for her barbie dolls, I loved going to her home, as I can play with her dolls, which I don't have..I remember her cuckoo clock that goes "Cuckoo! Cuckoo! Cuckoo!" many times..used to find it annoying, but I missed it now..
After writing the card, I SMSed some friends to tell them that I've got a job..ya..ha..didn't want to go to Comics Connection as I want to save $$$...hee..Later, Cesen called as I was going down the escalator, as it turned out, Zhiwei, another pri sch friend was in Comics Connection!! Ha..I was in there for awhile, to look for a keychain to go with the bag that Cesen bought for Shuyun. Ha..Zhiwei must have been inside while I was writing the card..ha...Really a small world..come to think of it, even if I saw him, I don't think I'd have recognized him..
Cesen told me to go meet Zhiwei, ha...but I didn't want to, as I don't think I can recognize him..
So, instead, I shopped around, went to Marks & Spencer, Watsons and This Fashion, where I tried on a skirt that I liked...it was not bad, but I didn't have enough cash on me..oh well, I'll check out the branch in Sun Plaza..=)
Cesen finally arrived at 2020..duh...Ha
We walked to Downtown East..I received a birthday present from the both of them..which I still haven't open...ha..=)
Hmm..though we haven't been in contact for very long, especially for Zhiwei, I haven't seen him since Sec 1, Cesen is still okie, I talked to him on the phone and went out with him once in a very long while...We still can talk like old friends..ha...At first, I thought, it'd be awkward between Zhiwei and I..But it turned out to be fine..Guess the tie of our friendship, although old and faint, is still there..=)
We reached the chalet and was a little lost as to what to do, as we couldn't spot Shuyun, so I called her and she came out..=p After wishing her "Happy Birthday", we got down to eat..WaHH..I was famished!! Didn't eat any thing yesterday, except 年糕 (nian gao) and half of the birthday cake that the SG bought for Viona and I..
Ha..It was a little weird...and we felt quite out of place, but thank God the three of us have each other...so it wasn't so bad..Shuyun cut her cake around 2130, I think..It was a great chocolate cake...very delicious..Yum Yum!!=D
There was this kid who seem to like Cesen alot, kept talking to him..haha..the things that they said and did were pretty hilarious..I told Cesen that he'd make a good father..ha..=)
Before we left, we talked with Shuyun, she's studying Civil Engineering in NTU..2nd year..
We teased Zhiwei and Cesen alot...hee hee..so fun..=) Must take advantage of the chance to milk it for as long as possible as we seldom meet..ha..
I am glad that I went to Shuyun's bithday party..=)
I came to realize how true it is when people say that memories are better as memories, trying to turn memories into reality, is a nightmare.
Let's just say that, we all grow up and we can't expect people to remain the same as before...Ya..
Ha..this is going to be a looonngggggggggggg....................entry, as I am writing about things that happened for the past 2 days.
On friday, I went to Guo Yi's platoon's Social Night..at Temasek Country Club. It was a rough evening..Why?? Because, I can't remember whether he said the Social Night was on this friday or next friday..Haiz..I tried SMSing him, when that didn't work, I tried calling, but he didn't answer..Was really having a throbbing head..As it wouldn't be nice not to turn up, so I decided to go, I can always go home if it wasn't on this friday..Heh...Next thing you know, I'd even forget my name...I'm not joking. If I can forget what was said to me a few minutes ago, why can't I forget other things too?? Right??
Bleah.
Ha..Felt pretty out of place at first..ya..I'm not used to such places..In fact, both of us are not..ha..
But thank God, we met one of his friends, as it turned out, his friend and his friend's date, are both from my church!!! YAY!! Ha...so we got to talk and the evening wasn't so bad..and the feeling of being out of place, was soon gone..
Ha..we met one of Benjamin's classmate!! He recognized me...he said he hung around the room outside CCC room..probably discussing projects with Benjamin..ya..Really small world!! One of my module's project mate is Guo Yi's bunk mate..ha...Small world, no>???=]
We started eating around 2030..was pretty hungry by that time, as again, I had nothing to eat the entire day..was busy with the Naruto game..duh...
The food was alright, but Gou Yi & my churchmate complained that the meat's tough..ha..
After dinner, they showed powerpoint of the pictures and video clips..All showing the fun times..But, later, as an officer remarked, all those are just the good time...but there were alot of tough time inside..Very true..
All my friends in NS, thank you for what you are doing!! I greatly appreciate all that you've done! Please bear with the tough life inside...=) No matter how terrible this kind of life is, one day, it'll all be over..so please, bear with it till the end comes..=) There is a rainbow after the storm.
There were a few people who got plastered off downing too many drinks..and had to be carried off...Some times, I find it sad, how life changes people...Ya..But then, again, we have the choice, to do it, or not. Some chose to succumb to the shitty life, (pardon my language), coming out of it bitter. Others chose to believe that there's a way out without taking the easy, but destructive way out..and come out of it a stronger person..
But then, there's no one who would come out of an ordeal without at least a scar..
Sebastian's words to me, on my bithday card, are especially impacting. He told me,
Ha..in a way, it's good..=) Things have a way of working themselves out..it's just the timing..=)
Here's another embarrassing thing to share..I got lost on the way to church yesterday..
Yup.
I did.
Yes.
Your eyes do not deceive you.
It's because, the staircase that I always took, was closed off, thus I was directed to an underpass. There's was a man in the underpass, sitting on the ledge. He asked for the time. I told him..BIG mistake..He started talking, asked where I was heading to, said I looked like a secondary school kid, talked about how expensive things are in Singapore, religions and some other stuff...
I started to freak out a bit..He knew that I am a Christian and talked alot about Christians and good deeds...Then he said he needs help. He's not married. Can I help him?? At first, I thought had misunderstood him, so, I told him that I have no friends who wants to get married. It was then that he asked if I can be friends with him. I officially freaked out. You do not receive a 'marriage proposal' from a stranger in the underpass..I looked around me for help, but it was pretty quiet, not many people came by during the 15mins conversation I had with him. I started crying to God for help, inwardly.
Of course, I told him, "No. I can't help you." He asked why can't I help him? Inwardly, I thought, "Because I was taught since young, not to talk to strangers." Ha..I didn't say that to him..just firmly repeated that I couldn't help him and told him that I am running very late for Cell Group. He kept trying to stop me, I began to wonder what would he do if I start to run away and continued to cry to God for help..*sob*
Really thank God, it was then that a passer-by came by, so I took the opportunity to say that I am going, now. He had no choice, but to let me go, I suppose he knew that it'd not be smart to do anything when there's another person in the underpass. So, I made my get-away. Phew!! Thank God!!!
But, come to think of it, what if he's there next saturday?? OH no!!! And the staircase leading to church is still closed off too! *shudders*
After running like crazy away from the guy, I reached a road, at the back of Park Mall, I think, beside Fort Canning. I was at loss at to which way to turn to go to church, go with the traffic, or to go against it?? I picked the first. But, after walking for awhile, something seemed to be amissed, so I called Abby, from my SG (Small Group, most people call it Cell Group, my church, we call it SG), to ask for help. After a good 10mins of confusion, I managed to find my way to church. As it turned out, I should have gone against the flow of traffic, instead of going with it as I previously did. Duh. I reached my church, very late, only to get lost, again. Duh. Why me?? Huh? *sobs* Ha..because the rooms where we previously had our bible study lessons, had room numbers on the door, but yesterday, the room that our prayer meeting was held at, had no number. I walked around the entire level, wondering what to do, not wanting to peek in each room as it seemed a bit weird..ha..so I called Abby again...oppZ..hee..so, after having so many things happening, I finally found my SG members..*cries*
I told the SG about what happened at the underpass, then Lionel and the others said that I should have just told the guy the time and left..and that they must teach me to dodge this kind of things..ha..
Hmm..I don't know leh, but, it seemed a bit rude to just rush away?? I couldn't leave as the guy was striking up a conversation with me..At first, I thought it was okie to talk a little as he seemed harmless...oh well..Never judge by appearance..
After prayer meeting, we went to Park Mall. Oh ya!! I got a job!=) Really, it's by God's grace! Ha..when I started looking for jobs, I bought Straits Times, then the staff asked if I'd want the free copy of Today..I thought, since it's free, I'd take it la..ya..Ha...It was from the copy of Today that I found the job!=) If I didn't take the Today..ha...It's really amazing, you know..=p I had switched my phone to silent mode during the prayer meeting..had 2 missed calls from my Mum..Later, as Abby and I were waiting for the rest of our SG, I had nothing to do, so I checked my phone and found that someone was calling me..I answered and found that I had a job!! YAY!!=) Ha..really must thank God for the timing, because, knowing me, if I hadn't took out the handphone at that moment, I wouldn't have called the person back..Why?? Ha..because, I have a habit of not answering calls or calling people whose numbers are not in my phonebook..ha..Weird eh?? Ya..If I hadn't picked up the phone then, the job would be gone..
Hmm........come to think of it, the person does call at weird hours..She called around 1745..on a saturday...Ha..Who am I to comment on it??=P duh.
Since I still have some time left before having to meet my friend, Cesen, I followed them to Park Mall, where Gladwin, my SG leader, took an interest in a fish tank. It was pretty intersting, the tank, I mean. It was built in a way, that no algae would grow in the tank. The salesman said that the lamp is fixed in the center of the tank, shining only on the rocks. It was amazing, you know, when we put our hands at the side of the tank, we cant see our hands from the inside of the tank!!! WOO!!!!!!!!!!!! Ha..even after the salesman explained to me, I still don't understand why can't our hands be seen from the inside of the tank..Ha..maybe you can check it out and tell me??=p Oh..ya..another feature of the fish tank is that, it is actually a coffee table. Amazing, yes? A fish tank coffee table. Whoa!=)
Ha..I left after that, to Pasir Ris, while the others head for dinner.
My primary school friend, Shuyun's having her 21st birthday celebration at Downtown East, till monday..I had arranged to meet Cesen, another primary school friend at Pasir Ris, to go together..Ha...I am a 路痴..as you can gather from the earlier part of the entry..and that wasn't the only time I got lost too..Got lost countless of time..*cries..hides face in embarrassment* Bleah.
Arranged to meet Cesen at 1900, but he SMSed to say that he'd be late, it was okie, as I still had to get a card for Shuyun..so I went to Popular and chose out a card..After that, I walked around for a bit, before deciding to write on the card...Memories of the past came to mind as I wrote to Shuyun..We used to be very close in primary school. I remember going to her house to play dress-up for her barbie dolls, I loved going to her home, as I can play with her dolls, which I don't have..I remember her cuckoo clock that goes "Cuckoo! Cuckoo! Cuckoo!" many times..used to find it annoying, but I missed it now..
After writing the card, I SMSed some friends to tell them that I've got a job..ya..ha..didn't want to go to Comics Connection as I want to save $$$...hee..Later, Cesen called as I was going down the escalator, as it turned out, Zhiwei, another pri sch friend was in Comics Connection!! Ha..I was in there for awhile, to look for a keychain to go with the bag that Cesen bought for Shuyun. Ha..Zhiwei must have been inside while I was writing the card..ha...Really a small world..come to think of it, even if I saw him, I don't think I'd have recognized him..
Cesen told me to go meet Zhiwei, ha...but I didn't want to, as I don't think I can recognize him..
So, instead, I shopped around, went to Marks & Spencer, Watsons and This Fashion, where I tried on a skirt that I liked...it was not bad, but I didn't have enough cash on me..oh well, I'll check out the branch in Sun Plaza..=)
Cesen finally arrived at 2020..duh...Ha
We walked to Downtown East..I received a birthday present from the both of them..which I still haven't open...ha..=)
Hmm..though we haven't been in contact for very long, especially for Zhiwei, I haven't seen him since Sec 1, Cesen is still okie, I talked to him on the phone and went out with him once in a very long while...We still can talk like old friends..ha...At first, I thought, it'd be awkward between Zhiwei and I..But it turned out to be fine..Guess the tie of our friendship, although old and faint, is still there..=)
We reached the chalet and was a little lost as to what to do, as we couldn't spot Shuyun, so I called her and she came out..=p After wishing her "Happy Birthday", we got down to eat..WaHH..I was famished!! Didn't eat any thing yesterday, except 年糕 (nian gao) and half of the birthday cake that the SG bought for Viona and I..
Ha..It was a little weird...and we felt quite out of place, but thank God the three of us have each other...so it wasn't so bad..Shuyun cut her cake around 2130, I think..It was a great chocolate cake...very delicious..Yum Yum!!=D
There was this kid who seem to like Cesen alot, kept talking to him..haha..the things that they said and did were pretty hilarious..I told Cesen that he'd make a good father..ha..=)
Before we left, we talked with Shuyun, she's studying Civil Engineering in NTU..2nd year..
We teased Zhiwei and Cesen alot...hee hee..so fun..=) Must take advantage of the chance to milk it for as long as possible as we seldom meet..ha..
I am glad that I went to Shuyun's bithday party..=)
I came to realize how true it is when people say that memories are better as memories, trying to turn memories into reality, is a nightmare.
Let's just say that, we all grow up and we can't expect people to remain the same as before...Ya..
Ha..this is going to be a looonngggggggggggg....................entry, as I am writing about things that happened for the past 2 days.
On friday, I went to Guo Yi's platoon's Social Night..at Temasek Country Club. It was a rough evening..Why?? Because, I can't remember whether he said the Social Night was on this friday or next friday..Haiz..I tried SMSing him, when that didn't work, I tried calling, but he didn't answer..Was really having a throbbing head..As it wouldn't be nice not to turn up, so I decided to go, I can always go home if it wasn't on this friday..Heh...Next thing you know, I'd even forget my name...I'm not joking. If I can forget what was said to me a few minutes ago, why can't I forget other things too?? Right??
Bleah.
Ha..Felt pretty out of place at first..ya..I'm not used to such places..In fact, both of us are not..ha..
But thank God, we met one of his friends, as it turned out, his friend and his friend's date, are both from my church!!! YAY!! Ha...so we got to talk and the evening wasn't so bad..and the feeling of being out of place, was soon gone..
Ha..we met one of Benjamin's classmate!! He recognized me...he said he hung around the room outside CCC room..probably discussing projects with Benjamin..ya..Really small world!! One of my module's project mate is Guo Yi's bunk mate..ha...Small world, no>???=]
We started eating around 2030..was pretty hungry by that time, as again, I had nothing to eat the entire day..was busy with the Naruto game..duh...
The food was alright, but Gou Yi & my churchmate complained that the meat's tough..ha..
After dinner, they showed powerpoint of the pictures and video clips..All showing the fun times..But, later, as an officer remarked, all those are just the good time...but there were alot of tough time inside..Very true..
All my friends in NS, thank you for what you are doing!! I greatly appreciate all that you've done! Please bear with the tough life inside...=) No matter how terrible this kind of life is, one day, it'll all be over..so please, bear with it till the end comes..=) There is a rainbow after the storm.
There were a few people who got plastered off downing too many drinks..and had to be carried off...Some times, I find it sad, how life changes people...Ya..But then, again, we have the choice, to do it, or not. Some chose to succumb to the shitty life, (pardon my language), coming out of it bitter. Others chose to believe that there's a way out without taking the easy, but destructive way out..and come out of it a stronger person..
But then, there's no one who would come out of an ordeal without at least a scar..
Sebastian's words to me, on my bithday card, are especially impacting. He told me,
"Well, it is a long road ahead for you and you might face lots of uncertainity and many junctions, but remember to keep a good relationship with God, trusting in Him and your road will be easier to walk."
Yes..Life is like a journey, there may be many nooks and crannys, hidden traps..God knows about them all, so He is the best Guide for our life.
Light my path
11:54:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Wednesday, 23 February 2005
Whoa...here it is...It's official..I am 21 years old today...
Duh.
To others, today is just another day, but for me, it is a day when I was born.
But, this year, this day, to me, is just like any other day, just more depressing than usual.
Not a very happy birthday, huh.
Today was the usual, woke up around 930am, to watch Gashbell (a jap anime)...received some "Happy Birthday" sms from friends...and throughout the day...(I am not saying that I had tonnes of well-wishers, just that some SMSed me in the morning, others in the afternoon and yet some, during the night..)
Went online...Played an online RPG at this site...you may want to check it out...
http://www.battleon.com/
It is alright, I suppose, there are pros and cons to the game..but there are some things that are particularly annoying & frustrating...ha...not in the mood to type them out...ha...after reading this, you most probably wouldn't want to play...am I right?? OppZ....
Ha...I don't know how, but somehow I stumbled onto Naruto games...oh ya..I remember how I came to find out about the games...
I was searching for Naruto movie to download...it was then that I came across Naruto games..ha...
I knew that Naruto had games...games that I can't play, because they are in Gameboy, Gamecube or Playstation...which I don't have...so was pretty disappointed...as almost all of my favourite anime have games..
This website that I stumbled upon has Naruto games for download...I was ecstatic!!! WOO HOO!!! I downloaded the file, but discovered that it can't be played...my heart plummeted..T.T...
Ah..but wait!!
After some searching, I've managed to find the programme that opens this type of file!!!!! Yeah!!! Hurray!! Whoopie!!!!!!!=D A great birhtday present!!
Later, I sent the link to Danny and we spent the afternoon playing the game...haha..I played till 7pm, that was when I need to go out and meet Priscilla for dinner at Sun Plaza..at 730pm..
Took quite long to figure out how to play, as all the words are in Japanese...but with the help of a walkthrough, explaining the details and restarting for a few times, I was able to get by..=) Yip! Yip! I can't wait to get back to the game!!
I was late in meeting Priscilla..oppz..ha..we ate at Mcdonald's...I love their DoubleCheese Burger and fries...absolutely heavenly!!!!! *drools*...duh..=) My absolute favourite!!!!=p
After going to NTUC to buy some stuff, I headed home, reaching about 915pm...
Was feeling pretty down for some reasons..ya...
When I went into my room, I had a surprise waiting for me on my pillow....A Starhub bill...no, not that...and a present...mailed from from my primary school friend...Shuyun..ha..our names quite similiar right?? Our birthdays are quite near too..hers is on the 27th Feb...4 days away...
Very touched and happy that Shuyun had actually mailed me my present..=D
Really very surprised and happy...=)
After getting over the surprise, I went online and started on today's blog..=)
Sometime later, a friend called...what a surprise..Initially, I thought that he had called to wish me happy birthday..but he did not...
He asked if I'd be free this friday, as his company (NS), has a dinner at a country club at Bunoa Vista...I think it is some sort of celebration for graduation from course. As everyone has to bring a friend along and that he couldn't find any, he asked me..I agreed..yuP..
Ha..hope what I am planning on wearing is suitable..don't want to embarrass him or myself...bleah..
Asked around about the dinner...from a few friends who are currently in NS...
Went to cut my birthday cake...didn't light up the candle....
Ha...it was a strange atmosphere...so quiet..not at all like a festive occasion..
Oh well...ha...
Ha..sorry if things seemed to be hurries..because I want to play the Naruto game...so......
Tada..
Oh....
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday to me.....
*Blows out candles*
*Lights out*
Duh.
To others, today is just another day, but for me, it is a day when I was born.
But, this year, this day, to me, is just like any other day, just more depressing than usual.
Not a very happy birthday, huh.
Today was the usual, woke up around 930am, to watch Gashbell (a jap anime)...received some "Happy Birthday" sms from friends...and throughout the day...(I am not saying that I had tonnes of well-wishers, just that some SMSed me in the morning, others in the afternoon and yet some, during the night..)
Went online...Played an online RPG at this site...you may want to check it out...
http://www.battleon.com/
It is alright, I suppose, there are pros and cons to the game..but there are some things that are particularly annoying & frustrating...ha...not in the mood to type them out...ha...after reading this, you most probably wouldn't want to play...am I right?? OppZ....
Ha...I don't know how, but somehow I stumbled onto Naruto games...oh ya..I remember how I came to find out about the games...
I was searching for Naruto movie to download...it was then that I came across Naruto games..ha...
I knew that Naruto had games...games that I can't play, because they are in Gameboy, Gamecube or Playstation...which I don't have...so was pretty disappointed...as almost all of my favourite anime have games..
This website that I stumbled upon has Naruto games for download...I was ecstatic!!! WOO HOO!!! I downloaded the file, but discovered that it can't be played...my heart plummeted..T.T...
Ah..but wait!!
After some searching, I've managed to find the programme that opens this type of file!!!!! Yeah!!! Hurray!! Whoopie!!!!!!!=D A great birhtday present!!
Later, I sent the link to Danny and we spent the afternoon playing the game...haha..I played till 7pm, that was when I need to go out and meet Priscilla for dinner at Sun Plaza..at 730pm..
Took quite long to figure out how to play, as all the words are in Japanese...but with the help of a walkthrough, explaining the details and restarting for a few times, I was able to get by..=) Yip! Yip! I can't wait to get back to the game!!
I was late in meeting Priscilla..oppz..ha..we ate at Mcdonald's...I love their DoubleCheese Burger and fries...absolutely heavenly!!!!! *drools*...duh..=) My absolute favourite!!!!=p
After going to NTUC to buy some stuff, I headed home, reaching about 915pm...
Was feeling pretty down for some reasons..ya...
When I went into my room, I had a surprise waiting for me on my pillow....A Starhub bill...no, not that...and a present...mailed from from my primary school friend...Shuyun..ha..our names quite similiar right?? Our birthdays are quite near too..hers is on the 27th Feb...4 days away...
Very touched and happy that Shuyun had actually mailed me my present..=D
Really very surprised and happy...=)
After getting over the surprise, I went online and started on today's blog..=)
Sometime later, a friend called...what a surprise..Initially, I thought that he had called to wish me happy birthday..but he did not...
He asked if I'd be free this friday, as his company (NS), has a dinner at a country club at Bunoa Vista...I think it is some sort of celebration for graduation from course. As everyone has to bring a friend along and that he couldn't find any, he asked me..I agreed..yuP..
Ha..hope what I am planning on wearing is suitable..don't want to embarrass him or myself...bleah..
Asked around about the dinner...from a few friends who are currently in NS...
Went to cut my birthday cake...didn't light up the candle....
Ha...it was a strange atmosphere...so quiet..not at all like a festive occasion..
Oh well...ha...
Ha..sorry if things seemed to be hurries..because I want to play the Naruto game...so......
Tada..
Oh....
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me.
Happy Birthday to me...
Happy Birthday to me.....
*Blows out candles*
*Lights out*
Light my path
9:22:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 20 February 2005
HA!! At last, I'm home!!=) Today, I went out with Angeline..met her at Esplanade...was late...OppZ...hee...lala..
At first, she suggested that we go to to the library to watch a musical that was being played..but later we changed our minds and went to the top of the building, overlooking the sea...ah..so nice..
Intially, I thought it'd be hot, as it's around 540pm..I think, but it was surprising cooling...
We sat on the stone ledge..chatting, playing with the stones (eg: 5 stones...), stomping on ants that dared to take a bite at Angeline (actualy, it was she stomped them..haha..the ants didn't take a nip at me..guess I am not tasty enough..ha), looked at the pictures in the digital camera...(cute pics of a kitten...SO cute!!! I love cats!!)...There was a person playing the di zi (flute), very melodic..sounds like the hero in the drama, with a sword by his waist, beautiful scenery and a flute in the hand...you get my picture???=) ha..I'm not experienced in music, but the melody is pleasing to the ear...=)
Later in the evening, we walked around the top, with Angeline showing me where she took the pictures from...we looked down at the people in the outdoor cafe...and those who were in the library...then went to the other side...There was an outdoor concert being set up...Two guys were singing mandarin pop songs...with the lead singing and playing the keyboard while the guitarist does the backup...
Ha...I can't even tell that there was a backup singer...but Angeline told me that the guitarist was the one singing backup..Whoa...Ha...It's different huh...for one who was in backup singing for a year...=) It takes experience to know...ha..=p As the singing sounds not bad, I wanted to go down, to be closer...haha...actually, it was to see the face that went with the good voice...=) So, down we went!! It was late evening then.
Went to take a look at the lead singer...he was wearing a white sleeveless top and jeans, with highlighted hair, and an arm band on both of his upper arms...As for his face...I cna't really tell if he was good-looking...haha...because I am short-sighted...duh...
We sat by the sea, listened to the songs, breathing in the sea air, looked at the darkening sky and took some photos...Upon looking at the digital camera, I realized that Angeline had sneaked some shots without my notice...ARRGGHH...sneaky!! Demanded that she delete one which I think was unflattering....sob sob..but she refused, so I promised to pose one for her...ha...She deleted it...and we took some together, with her holding the camera in her left hand..ha..Some shots were funny...=p
As it was getting late, we left Esplanade around 740pm and went to Suntec City's Cafe Cartel for dinner...In there I got a surprise waiting for me..
Mei Hu, Zhiwei, Sebastian, Hansheng, Alvin, Janet, Elaine and Deborah were waiting for us!!=)
haha...
Actually, I sort of suspected that something was up when Angeline kept receiving SMSes and phonecalls when we were on the rooftop...in addition, Hansheng called to ask where I was, which was kind of strange...Why would anyone call to ask your location, unless they had seen you and want to confirm it, or they are going to meet you...right??=] Also, based on what I know of Angeline, she is one who would do this kind of stuff...haha...=)
Plus, when we walked into Cafe Cartel, she looked like she's looking for people, not like one who's looking for seats..
So...ha...Wasn't very surprised...haha...but Angeline's acting skills...give her 100%..haha...Yup! Yup!!=)
I was really happy to see my friends again, some of whom I'd not seen in almost 2 years...Really very glad...=)
We fooled around for some time before settling down to order our food...(actually, we took quite long..haha) Felt abit bad when I found out that they had been waiting for us for an hour..
I'm sorry!!!!
Heard from Elaine that Alvin wrote a song while they were waiting....oh boy...that means they had waited for quite long!!!! Oppz.......haiz...very sorry...
While wating for our food to arrive, (which took quite long)..we talked and asked about each other...Janet is now teaching in a primary school..Elaine is in NUS, 2nd yr...Deborah is in her 2nd yr, going onto final year....Alvin is now in OCS, with 5 more months before passing out..Zhiwei has 2 more weeks before he passed out, to be either in sispec or OCS...Mei Hu is a MP...Military Police...Ah...my friends are all moving along the path of their lives...=) Really glad to see that they are doing fine...But, it made me feel a bit lost too...Everyone's moving..but I seem to be stuck...or rather, I don't know where to move, how to move...
Later, they gave me my presents..=)
Danny gave a toy lamb, with a voice-recording function, he sang and recorded a birthday song..ha...very sweet of him..=) Sebastian gave me a bag....which I had requested for, since mine as falling, or rather, fallen apart...sob...ha...I didn't open the rest of the presents, as I wanted to save them to open on my actual birhtday, which is next wednesday, 23rd Feb..Ha....weird??=) I want to save the surprises for my birthday...haha..=p
We were in Cafe Cartel till around 1030pm, if I wasn't wrong..or maybe slightly earlier...Walked to Esplanade, where we talked and played around for awhile, taking photos...Hansheng caught me on camera, with an unsightly expression....sob sob!!! Tried to snatched his camera..tickled him...pulled and pushed..had some help..but still couldn't get his camera...*cries rivers*
Sebastian went to buy ice-cream for everyone...With an ice-cream as the cake, they sang Happy Birthday song to me and Deborah played the guitar...=) I made a wish. Ha...now thinking back, they had forgotten to ask what was my wish...haha...=p
My wish ah.....................
I'm not going to tell...
Haha.......
Duh.
Ate our ice-creams, mine was chocolate....yummy!!=) I love chocolate!!=] ha...
After taking some group photos, we started on our way home, by that time it was around 1140pm...
Alvin drove Elaine, Deborah and I home...
Whoa...Alvin and Elaine have driving licenses!! And Deborah is learning now.....WAH.....Thats great! ha...now we know who to call when we need a ride home, eh?? *grins wickedly* heehee...
During the ride, we chatted, Deborah played & sang on her guitar...ha...Alvin commented about the radio being turned on..Ha...its a compliment..right?? That her playing's good, like those on the radio...=p
After dropping Elaine off, we went to Deborah's home...I used the toilet and had a drink..she even generously gave me a packet of orange juice to drink on the way home...Thankz!!!=p
Next, we started towards my house...We went to the 7-11 near my house to get Alvin a can of coffee...Wahh...he's really tired....It's dangerous to drive when you are sleepy...Rushed back home to get his birthday present (from last May..oppZ...hee)..After passing him his birthday present, he asked what colour do I like, white or red. I chose white. Turns out that he gave me a white wristband..W.W.F...ha..Not World Wrestling Federation, but Worth Waiting For..=P
After which he left..
Reached home...changed clothes, switched on the laptop and started on the blog...while waiting for Alvin's SMS to say that he had reached home...Cuz, he was feeling so tired, so was bit worried that he had to drive home...
He arrived home almost about 2am...Ah...now with that, I can go to dreamland!! Tada!!=)
Have an early morning tomorrow...Got to vacuum & clean the house every sunday...
So, without further ado, I am going to bed..I've only about 6.5 hours of sleep left....
WaHH..those who have ealy church service tomorrow are really going have to literally drag themselves out of bed tomorrow....or rather today....like Angline & Alvin...they are the ones I know of....
Well...night!!=) *Yawns*
Thank you!! For celebrating my 21st birthday with me, making it a special one!!=)
Thanks for everything!!c",)
At first, she suggested that we go to to the library to watch a musical that was being played..but later we changed our minds and went to the top of the building, overlooking the sea...ah..so nice..
Intially, I thought it'd be hot, as it's around 540pm..I think, but it was surprising cooling...
We sat on the stone ledge..chatting, playing with the stones (eg: 5 stones...), stomping on ants that dared to take a bite at Angeline (actualy, it was she stomped them..haha..the ants didn't take a nip at me..guess I am not tasty enough..ha), looked at the pictures in the digital camera...(cute pics of a kitten...SO cute!!! I love cats!!)...There was a person playing the di zi (flute), very melodic..sounds like the hero in the drama, with a sword by his waist, beautiful scenery and a flute in the hand...you get my picture???=) ha..I'm not experienced in music, but the melody is pleasing to the ear...=)
Later in the evening, we walked around the top, with Angeline showing me where she took the pictures from...we looked down at the people in the outdoor cafe...and those who were in the library...then went to the other side...There was an outdoor concert being set up...Two guys were singing mandarin pop songs...with the lead singing and playing the keyboard while the guitarist does the backup...
Ha...I can't even tell that there was a backup singer...but Angeline told me that the guitarist was the one singing backup..Whoa...Ha...It's different huh...for one who was in backup singing for a year...=) It takes experience to know...ha..=p As the singing sounds not bad, I wanted to go down, to be closer...haha...actually, it was to see the face that went with the good voice...=) So, down we went!! It was late evening then.
Went to take a look at the lead singer...he was wearing a white sleeveless top and jeans, with highlighted hair, and an arm band on both of his upper arms...As for his face...I cna't really tell if he was good-looking...haha...because I am short-sighted...duh...
We sat by the sea, listened to the songs, breathing in the sea air, looked at the darkening sky and took some photos...Upon looking at the digital camera, I realized that Angeline had sneaked some shots without my notice...ARRGGHH...sneaky!! Demanded that she delete one which I think was unflattering....sob sob..but she refused, so I promised to pose one for her...ha...She deleted it...and we took some together, with her holding the camera in her left hand..ha..Some shots were funny...=p
As it was getting late, we left Esplanade around 740pm and went to Suntec City's Cafe Cartel for dinner...In there I got a surprise waiting for me..
Mei Hu, Zhiwei, Sebastian, Hansheng, Alvin, Janet, Elaine and Deborah were waiting for us!!=)
haha...
Actually, I sort of suspected that something was up when Angeline kept receiving SMSes and phonecalls when we were on the rooftop...in addition, Hansheng called to ask where I was, which was kind of strange...Why would anyone call to ask your location, unless they had seen you and want to confirm it, or they are going to meet you...right??=] Also, based on what I know of Angeline, she is one who would do this kind of stuff...haha...=)
Plus, when we walked into Cafe Cartel, she looked like she's looking for people, not like one who's looking for seats..
So...ha...Wasn't very surprised...haha...but Angeline's acting skills...give her 100%..haha...Yup! Yup!!=)
I was really happy to see my friends again, some of whom I'd not seen in almost 2 years...Really very glad...=)
We fooled around for some time before settling down to order our food...(actually, we took quite long..haha) Felt abit bad when I found out that they had been waiting for us for an hour..
I'm sorry!!!!
Heard from Elaine that Alvin wrote a song while they were waiting....oh boy...that means they had waited for quite long!!!! Oppz.......haiz...very sorry...
While wating for our food to arrive, (which took quite long)..we talked and asked about each other...Janet is now teaching in a primary school..Elaine is in NUS, 2nd yr...Deborah is in her 2nd yr, going onto final year....Alvin is now in OCS, with 5 more months before passing out..Zhiwei has 2 more weeks before he passed out, to be either in sispec or OCS...Mei Hu is a MP...Military Police...Ah...my friends are all moving along the path of their lives...=) Really glad to see that they are doing fine...But, it made me feel a bit lost too...Everyone's moving..but I seem to be stuck...or rather, I don't know where to move, how to move...
Later, they gave me my presents..=)
Danny gave a toy lamb, with a voice-recording function, he sang and recorded a birthday song..ha...very sweet of him..=) Sebastian gave me a bag....which I had requested for, since mine as falling, or rather, fallen apart...sob...ha...I didn't open the rest of the presents, as I wanted to save them to open on my actual birhtday, which is next wednesday, 23rd Feb..Ha....weird??=) I want to save the surprises for my birthday...haha..=p
We were in Cafe Cartel till around 1030pm, if I wasn't wrong..or maybe slightly earlier...Walked to Esplanade, where we talked and played around for awhile, taking photos...Hansheng caught me on camera, with an unsightly expression....sob sob!!! Tried to snatched his camera..tickled him...pulled and pushed..had some help..but still couldn't get his camera...*cries rivers*
Sebastian went to buy ice-cream for everyone...With an ice-cream as the cake, they sang Happy Birthday song to me and Deborah played the guitar...=) I made a wish. Ha...now thinking back, they had forgotten to ask what was my wish...haha...=p
My wish ah.....................
I'm not going to tell...
Haha.......
Duh.
Ate our ice-creams, mine was chocolate....yummy!!=) I love chocolate!!=] ha...
After taking some group photos, we started on our way home, by that time it was around 1140pm...
Alvin drove Elaine, Deborah and I home...
Whoa...Alvin and Elaine have driving licenses!! And Deborah is learning now.....WAH.....Thats great! ha...now we know who to call when we need a ride home, eh?? *grins wickedly* heehee...
During the ride, we chatted, Deborah played & sang on her guitar...ha...Alvin commented about the radio being turned on..Ha...its a compliment..right?? That her playing's good, like those on the radio...=p
After dropping Elaine off, we went to Deborah's home...I used the toilet and had a drink..she even generously gave me a packet of orange juice to drink on the way home...Thankz!!!=p
Next, we started towards my house...We went to the 7-11 near my house to get Alvin a can of coffee...Wahh...he's really tired....It's dangerous to drive when you are sleepy...Rushed back home to get his birthday present (from last May..oppZ...hee)..After passing him his birthday present, he asked what colour do I like, white or red. I chose white. Turns out that he gave me a white wristband..W.W.F...ha..Not World Wrestling Federation, but Worth Waiting For..=P
After which he left..
Reached home...changed clothes, switched on the laptop and started on the blog...while waiting for Alvin's SMS to say that he had reached home...Cuz, he was feeling so tired, so was bit worried that he had to drive home...
He arrived home almost about 2am...Ah...now with that, I can go to dreamland!! Tada!!=)
Have an early morning tomorrow...Got to vacuum & clean the house every sunday...
So, without further ado, I am going to bed..I've only about 6.5 hours of sleep left....
WaHH..those who have ealy church service tomorrow are really going have to literally drag themselves out of bed tomorrow....or rather today....like Angline & Alvin...they are the ones I know of....
Well...night!!=) *Yawns*
Thank you!! For celebrating my 21st birthday with me, making it a special one!!=)
Thanks for everything!!c",)
Light my path
1:27:00 am
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 18 February 2005
Whoo.....received the first birthday present of this year!!=) haha....
But, I'm not going to open it till the actual day...ha..weird right?? But, I am like this!!=)
Went with Jimmy to eat sushi...and watched a movie..."Hide and Seek"...It was alright...a bit boring at first...but turned out to be quite fine...It's a movie with an unexpected twist..
*Spoiler Alert!!* (Don't read this part is you are planning to watch it!)
I find that it is quite ironic, the father, David, was trying to find his daughter's 'imaginary' friend, Charlie, as this friend proved to be too dangerous to be a companion for his daughter..but after all the suspense...all the searching, he found out that he himself is Charlie..It seems like he has a split personality..His other self, Charlie, killed the wife, policeman, a woman (Elisabeth) who was trying to get close to him and tried to kill his daughter...
Ironic, isn't it?? After searching high & low for 'Charlie', the bad guy, he found out that he himself is Charlie...that he is the baddy...What a blow. The good guy, who tries to hunt for the bad guy, is the bad apple, himself.
The way this movie, 'Hide & Seek' impacted me the most, was the unexpected twist...really very ironic. Very. It can happen in real life too. Oh, I am not saying that the person has a split personality or so...but, many times, when we rally to get the bad guy, it seems like we are even worse than the so-called bad guy...What is bad in our eyes, may not be bad in others' eyes. In our own eyes, we see ourselves as good, as righteous, but, in others' eyes, due to our actions, we are the baddies..As, we may be being too blind to our own faults..We are most likely to look to others and judge them, seldom do we evaluate ourselves, our actions...It is easier to see others than to see ourselves...
Yup.
WAHH...know what?? I find it embarrassing to put this down in words, but my fingers ae typing them out, despite my protests...so here goes:
I banged my head against the glass door, of a shop in Junction 8...
Yeah..
I did.
Haiz..
I saw some interesting stuff through the glass, so I walked closer, bending down my head to have a closer look, then came a resounding bang...(nope, it's not the glass shattering)..My head met the glass.
ArrGGHH.......
I forgot that I was outside the shop, not inside, so there's no way could I actually be able to bend down to have a closer look....
It was SO embarrassing.
I didn't dare to look up after I cracked my head against the glass, but just rubbed it and pretended to cotinue to look at the display, while wincing mentally...The people inside the store must have gotten a good laugh..(I think I heard them laughing) as I am visible to the counter staff...
Haiz.....
Nevermind...It's not as if it is my first time bashing myself against the glass..At least this time, I did not walk into the glass door...like I did about 4 years ago...
NOPE!! I am not going to tell you about that. Comparing both walk-ins, today's head bashing was more embarrassing, as more people witnessed it...
Haiz...
I wonder if the glass panel of the shop at Junction 8 has cracks on it...
We went home after the show....on the way, we talked about some stuff..ha...Was being teased..sob sob...*cries madly*....Ha..but gave him a taste of his own medicine too..haha....*evil laughter*...
We talked about BGR too...He told me that, sometimes, our brain deceives us..so we need to use both our mind and hearts...Need to think over what he had said...Many things to think over...
But, I'm still very lost...I don't know when am I using my heart, when am I using my brain.....I don't know what are my real feelings...How do I really feel...I don't know my heart...
I don't know...
Ha..one thing about me, I may not act like it, but I'm quite shy...no matter how much I like a person, I'd never ever tell him...Never. I'd do many things, but never express myself...I'm satisfied with how things are..Just friends..with all the things I do, it is never to let the person know of my feelings, but they are just my way of caring..=)
As for now..I am happy with the way I am now...No particular urge to get attached..ha..=)
So, I'm going to just let things take their natural course..=)
Once again, I must give thanks to God...for He has blessed me with good friends...Really, very good people...I'm a person with quite a short temper...there aren't many who can accept my short fuse...But, Angeline is one of those rare few, who stayed by my side no matter how ugly my mood is...Many people were turned off by my temper and lousy personality, but Angeline, she really accepted me...she cares for me alot..Despite the fact that, because she's by my side, she often became an outlet for my temper...she still didn't leave. Really blessed by God...Angeline's really a very good friend...Really.
Cherish your loved ones..=)
Tell them, show them how much they mean to you..
Don't always wait till the next day, because you may not have one..
But, I'm not going to open it till the actual day...ha..weird right?? But, I am like this!!=)
Went with Jimmy to eat sushi...and watched a movie..."Hide and Seek"...It was alright...a bit boring at first...but turned out to be quite fine...It's a movie with an unexpected twist..
*Spoiler Alert!!* (Don't read this part is you are planning to watch it!)
I find that it is quite ironic, the father, David, was trying to find his daughter's 'imaginary' friend, Charlie, as this friend proved to be too dangerous to be a companion for his daughter..but after all the suspense...all the searching, he found out that he himself is Charlie..It seems like he has a split personality..His other self, Charlie, killed the wife, policeman, a woman (Elisabeth) who was trying to get close to him and tried to kill his daughter...
Ironic, isn't it?? After searching high & low for 'Charlie', the bad guy, he found out that he himself is Charlie...that he is the baddy...What a blow. The good guy, who tries to hunt for the bad guy, is the bad apple, himself.
The way this movie, 'Hide & Seek' impacted me the most, was the unexpected twist...really very ironic. Very. It can happen in real life too. Oh, I am not saying that the person has a split personality or so...but, many times, when we rally to get the bad guy, it seems like we are even worse than the so-called bad guy...What is bad in our eyes, may not be bad in others' eyes. In our own eyes, we see ourselves as good, as righteous, but, in others' eyes, due to our actions, we are the baddies..As, we may be being too blind to our own faults..We are most likely to look to others and judge them, seldom do we evaluate ourselves, our actions...It is easier to see others than to see ourselves...
Yup.
WAHH...know what?? I find it embarrassing to put this down in words, but my fingers ae typing them out, despite my protests...so here goes:
I banged my head against the glass door, of a shop in Junction 8...
Yeah..
I did.
Haiz..
I saw some interesting stuff through the glass, so I walked closer, bending down my head to have a closer look, then came a resounding bang...(nope, it's not the glass shattering)..My head met the glass.
ArrGGHH.......
I forgot that I was outside the shop, not inside, so there's no way could I actually be able to bend down to have a closer look....
It was SO embarrassing.
I didn't dare to look up after I cracked my head against the glass, but just rubbed it and pretended to cotinue to look at the display, while wincing mentally...The people inside the store must have gotten a good laugh..(I think I heard them laughing) as I am visible to the counter staff...
Haiz.....
Nevermind...It's not as if it is my first time bashing myself against the glass..At least this time, I did not walk into the glass door...like I did about 4 years ago...
NOPE!! I am not going to tell you about that. Comparing both walk-ins, today's head bashing was more embarrassing, as more people witnessed it...
Haiz...
I wonder if the glass panel of the shop at Junction 8 has cracks on it...
We went home after the show....on the way, we talked about some stuff..ha...Was being teased..sob sob...*cries madly*....Ha..but gave him a taste of his own medicine too..haha....*evil laughter*...
We talked about BGR too...He told me that, sometimes, our brain deceives us..so we need to use both our mind and hearts...Need to think over what he had said...Many things to think over...
But, I'm still very lost...I don't know when am I using my heart, when am I using my brain.....I don't know what are my real feelings...How do I really feel...I don't know my heart...
I don't know...
Ha..one thing about me, I may not act like it, but I'm quite shy...no matter how much I like a person, I'd never ever tell him...Never. I'd do many things, but never express myself...I'm satisfied with how things are..Just friends..with all the things I do, it is never to let the person know of my feelings, but they are just my way of caring..=)
As for now..I am happy with the way I am now...No particular urge to get attached..ha..=)
So, I'm going to just let things take their natural course..=)
Once again, I must give thanks to God...for He has blessed me with good friends...Really, very good people...I'm a person with quite a short temper...there aren't many who can accept my short fuse...But, Angeline is one of those rare few, who stayed by my side no matter how ugly my mood is...Many people were turned off by my temper and lousy personality, but Angeline, she really accepted me...she cares for me alot..Despite the fact that, because she's by my side, she often became an outlet for my temper...she still didn't leave. Really blessed by God...Angeline's really a very good friend...Really.
Cherish your loved ones..=)
Tell them, show them how much they mean to you..
Don't always wait till the next day, because you may not have one..
Light my path
10:33:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
WaHH.....I'm HUNGRY.........HUNGRY....You hear me?? I'm hungryyyyy..........
Ha...crazy huh...I should go stuff my face..bleah...
Nay...
Going out with a friend later for dinner, around 5pm, I think..
I can wait till then...
*Stomach growls*
I CAN wait..
*growls*
Oh...keep quiet, stomach...I'm ignoring you..
So there!
Ha...Was up till early morning..almost 4am...downloading manga & sending them to Danny..
Don't know why, but he can't download them...problem with the site???
Woke up around 930am...went out with my 3rd sister, who's heading out to work, to buy newspaper..After buying Straits Times, I went to sit with my sister in the bus-stop, leaving when her bus came..
Reached home about 10am. I switched on my handphone, received a SMS from Jimmy, asking if I want to meet up...
Looked through the Recruit, was quite happy to see some good catch...=p
After snitching some CNY leftover goodies, I called Shuhui to talk...Told her of some jobs that I thought she'd be interested in...Ha...we chatted for quite long...from 1020am till 2pm...Scary huh...haha....=)
We talked about many, many stuff...in case you don't know, Shuhui is my sec sch & poly friend..We were in the same classes throughout our sec sch days...Ended up in the same poly too....haha...Our school departments were both in the engineering side too..She's from EEE, I was from MM..haha...we even worked in Mos Burger (in sec sch) & One.99 Shop (while waiting for O'Levels)....
Ya...talked about the time when we were working in One.99 Shop, the people there...our sec sch classmates..how they are now..The girls whom she kept contact with, are all attached except for me & another classmate...sob sob...haha...Oh well, I don't really care anymore or is bothered by my singleness...Used to be quite bothered...but now, God has opened my eyes..and time did too..There's nothing wrong with being single...Besides, I don't want to waste my time being anxious..God has His timing...=) Also, plus the fact that, I am not ready for a relationship now..I need more growing up..=)
Ha....While talking to Shuhui, I realized that my memory has deteriorated...there were quite alot of things that I can't seem to remember...People...events...Ah...Growing old...sob sob....must be because my birthday is next wed....hint hint....haha.........lala...=p
She mentioned that there was once, our school organized some sort of English enrichment course for the entire level...There was a day when things got too boring for many people, I think...because about half the entire level skipped that day's enrichment course...My friend skipped too...with so many people skipping, it became quite a serious matter...They were punished with the 'A' Form..which in our school, is VERY serious...it leaves a bad record in your MOE file...My friend and the people whom she skipped the course with, weren't handed the 'A' Form...as there were some counsellors among the group, who spoke for them....
Hmmm....honestly, I really can't remember anything about it...According to Shuhui, it was quite a big thing....hmmm...so why can't I remember?? Weird...oh well....must be because I'm growing up..since my birthday's next wed...eh???=p hee hee..
Ha.....If you are wondering if i skipped the enrichment course....I can tell you, "No"...
I'm a good girl in my pri and sec sch days...=) Ask anyone..=)
YuP!!
haha........
Hmmm.......the only thing that I remembered about the course, is that I quite enjoyed it..ha..English and Literature are fun!!!!!!!!!!!=) I love them...=D
Ha...I remember Ms Tan Lee San, my form teacher..She taught me English, Literature and Civics & Moral...She's really a teacher..in the 'teacher' sense...Really a good one..=) Commanding presence, without being overbearing...never had to use force to make us pay attention..
She's one of my favourite teachers, besides Miss Mah (who taught me in Pri 3-4)....
She's very fair too...Ha...I remembered there was once, when almost the entire class got punished..sent outside the class, I think..I'm not very sure..because, they didnt do or complete the assignment given to them...If we didn't bring our books, we'd get punished too...by standing outside the class till she finished teaching...Once, I was sent out too...I forgot to bring my literature book..for the 2nd time in a row...so she had no choice but to punish me...The 1st time that I forgot, she allowed me to share with a classmate...but the following day, I forgot again....ArrggHH........lousy memory...so I got punished...
Ha...Don't think that Ms Tan is harsh, she isn't..=) She's really a very good teacher..
After talking with Shuhui, I sent her an email, with the jobs that I thought she may want.....
Then wrote this blog...
Ha...I think I'll go swimming now...=)
Then meet my friend...
Bye...=p
Remember, my birthday's next wednesday - 23rd Feb..=)
Now...it'd be a test...to see how many of my friends have 'heart'...haha.....=)
Bye......
Ha...crazy huh...I should go stuff my face..bleah...
Nay...
Going out with a friend later for dinner, around 5pm, I think..
I can wait till then...
*Stomach growls*
I CAN wait..
*growls*
Oh...keep quiet, stomach...I'm ignoring you..
So there!
Ha...Was up till early morning..almost 4am...downloading manga & sending them to Danny..
Don't know why, but he can't download them...problem with the site???
Woke up around 930am...went out with my 3rd sister, who's heading out to work, to buy newspaper..After buying Straits Times, I went to sit with my sister in the bus-stop, leaving when her bus came..
Reached home about 10am. I switched on my handphone, received a SMS from Jimmy, asking if I want to meet up...
Looked through the Recruit, was quite happy to see some good catch...=p
After snitching some CNY leftover goodies, I called Shuhui to talk...Told her of some jobs that I thought she'd be interested in...Ha...we chatted for quite long...from 1020am till 2pm...Scary huh...haha....=)
We talked about many, many stuff...in case you don't know, Shuhui is my sec sch & poly friend..We were in the same classes throughout our sec sch days...Ended up in the same poly too....haha...Our school departments were both in the engineering side too..She's from EEE, I was from MM..haha...we even worked in Mos Burger (in sec sch) & One.99 Shop (while waiting for O'Levels)....
Ya...talked about the time when we were working in One.99 Shop, the people there...our sec sch classmates..how they are now..The girls whom she kept contact with, are all attached except for me & another classmate...sob sob...haha...Oh well, I don't really care anymore or is bothered by my singleness...Used to be quite bothered...but now, God has opened my eyes..and time did too..There's nothing wrong with being single...Besides, I don't want to waste my time being anxious..God has His timing...=) Also, plus the fact that, I am not ready for a relationship now..I need more growing up..=)
Ha....While talking to Shuhui, I realized that my memory has deteriorated...there were quite alot of things that I can't seem to remember...People...events...Ah...Growing old...sob sob....must be because my birthday is next wed....hint hint....haha.........lala...=p
She mentioned that there was once, our school organized some sort of English enrichment course for the entire level...There was a day when things got too boring for many people, I think...because about half the entire level skipped that day's enrichment course...My friend skipped too...with so many people skipping, it became quite a serious matter...They were punished with the 'A' Form..which in our school, is VERY serious...it leaves a bad record in your MOE file...My friend and the people whom she skipped the course with, weren't handed the 'A' Form...as there were some counsellors among the group, who spoke for them....
Hmmm....honestly, I really can't remember anything about it...According to Shuhui, it was quite a big thing....hmmm...so why can't I remember?? Weird...oh well....must be because I'm growing up..since my birthday's next wed...eh???=p hee hee..
Ha.....If you are wondering if i skipped the enrichment course....I can tell you, "No"...
I'm a good girl in my pri and sec sch days...=) Ask anyone..=)
YuP!!
haha........
Hmmm.......the only thing that I remembered about the course, is that I quite enjoyed it..ha..English and Literature are fun!!!!!!!!!!!=) I love them...=D
Ha...I remember Ms Tan Lee San, my form teacher..She taught me English, Literature and Civics & Moral...She's really a teacher..in the 'teacher' sense...Really a good one..=) Commanding presence, without being overbearing...never had to use force to make us pay attention..
She's one of my favourite teachers, besides Miss Mah (who taught me in Pri 3-4)....
She's very fair too...Ha...I remembered there was once, when almost the entire class got punished..sent outside the class, I think..I'm not very sure..because, they didnt do or complete the assignment given to them...If we didn't bring our books, we'd get punished too...by standing outside the class till she finished teaching...Once, I was sent out too...I forgot to bring my literature book..for the 2nd time in a row...so she had no choice but to punish me...The 1st time that I forgot, she allowed me to share with a classmate...but the following day, I forgot again....ArrggHH........lousy memory...so I got punished...
Ha...Don't think that Ms Tan is harsh, she isn't..=) She's really a very good teacher..
After talking with Shuhui, I sent her an email, with the jobs that I thought she may want.....
Then wrote this blog...
Ha...I think I'll go swimming now...=)
Then meet my friend...
Bye...=p
Remember, my birthday's next wednesday - 23rd Feb..=)
Now...it'd be a test...to see how many of my friends have 'heart'...haha.....=)
Bye......
Light my path
2:12:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 17 February 2005
Fond memories that seemed so good, so wonderful, so sweet
Are more often than not, beautified.
Instead of looking back and languishing over the lost past,
Look to the present, so that you do not lose what you now have.
Are more often than not, beautified.
Instead of looking back and languishing over the lost past,
Look to the present, so that you do not lose what you now have.
Ha...check out the link below...a friend of mine..Danny did the wallpaper..=)
http://www.originalsins.net/WallpaperDetail.aspx?wallpaperId=363
Light my path
7:06:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 13 February 2005
ArrGGHHH.......SUPER pissed off...all kind of words are fighting to be the first to tumble out of my mouth....Haiz...I'm getting more vulgar, am I not??
But, I am really, really, really pissed off....At this moment, anyone who comes into contact with me will be incinerated...
Haiz...
One thing I hate, detest most, is having others dictate my life. NO WAY!! Who died and made them boss of my life??!! My mom keeps pestering me to look for a job (which I did, but so far, without any success), then along comes people, with job offers...My mom nagged at me to accept them...2 words - FUCK off!! I will not go into details, but the job offers are not in my league. One is, I am not interested. Two, I don't forsee myself in that kind of business, never will. Three, I know that I am not up to that kind of job.
Arrggghh, I have alot that I want to write out, but I can't and I won't. I'm really, very mad and pissed off right now. I can't believe that my mother will just - nope..I am not saying it..
You may be thinking I am over-reacting, well, (cuz, I am in a pissed off mood now, I am not gonna be nice to you), here its is - Before you chide me, solve your own damn problems first! You are not me, you won't understand my cirumstances.
CNY was boring, nothing good came out of it.
Went to a restaurant on thursday afternoon, to eat with my family & brother in-laws..It was terrible. We might as well have been strangers, the way everyone behaved at the table. Not much talk, only so-called polite conversation, with some not-so-polite remarks, that made the whole environment at the table, awkward. Looking at the other families, who were talking and laughing comfortably, I wondered to myself, "Is this family, a family?" Other families, teased each other, good naturedly, true, there maybe arguements, brawls..whatever. But my famil members, they thrived on back-stabbing, cutting remarks, running all over you, gossip, ruling over you. It's like without all of the above, they wouldn't be able to survive. For them, it's as necessary as breathing.
I know that, there are people who are in families that's even worse than mine. I should be thankful. Yes, I am. I tried. I tried to love them. I tried to open up. But all they did was to stomp on me. Betray my trust. Look down on me. I know that I have done many wrongs things too. All their cutting remarks, the way they treat me, I can forgive. But there's one thing that they did 4 years ago, that I can never forgive. Never.
It was the deepest cut they ever gave.
I know that God told us to forgive others' transgressions against us. But this, I simply can't. From the day that it happened, I realized that my place in this family is zilch. Nil. None.
Jesus Christ, despite all the things that men did to him, He could have called down fires from heaven to burn them to ashes, from where they stood, but He did not do that. He forgave them.
But, I am not God...I am merely a human. An extremely inperfect one, at that. This inperfection in me, fuels my anger, disappointment & hatred. I will not forgive. I choose not to forgive.
My life is not my family's. I am not a toy doll, nor a puppet, nor a dog. I will not be used as they please, then be kicked away when they grow bored.
My life's direction, I will decide it.
No one else.
But, I am really, really, really pissed off....At this moment, anyone who comes into contact with me will be incinerated...
Haiz...
One thing I hate, detest most, is having others dictate my life. NO WAY!! Who died and made them boss of my life??!! My mom keeps pestering me to look for a job (which I did, but so far, without any success), then along comes people, with job offers...My mom nagged at me to accept them...2 words - FUCK off!! I will not go into details, but the job offers are not in my league. One is, I am not interested. Two, I don't forsee myself in that kind of business, never will. Three, I know that I am not up to that kind of job.
Arrggghh, I have alot that I want to write out, but I can't and I won't. I'm really, very mad and pissed off right now. I can't believe that my mother will just - nope..I am not saying it..
You may be thinking I am over-reacting, well, (cuz, I am in a pissed off mood now, I am not gonna be nice to you), here its is - Before you chide me, solve your own damn problems first! You are not me, you won't understand my cirumstances.
CNY was boring, nothing good came out of it.
Went to a restaurant on thursday afternoon, to eat with my family & brother in-laws..It was terrible. We might as well have been strangers, the way everyone behaved at the table. Not much talk, only so-called polite conversation, with some not-so-polite remarks, that made the whole environment at the table, awkward. Looking at the other families, who were talking and laughing comfortably, I wondered to myself, "Is this family, a family?" Other families, teased each other, good naturedly, true, there maybe arguements, brawls..whatever. But my famil members, they thrived on back-stabbing, cutting remarks, running all over you, gossip, ruling over you. It's like without all of the above, they wouldn't be able to survive. For them, it's as necessary as breathing.
I know that, there are people who are in families that's even worse than mine. I should be thankful. Yes, I am. I tried. I tried to love them. I tried to open up. But all they did was to stomp on me. Betray my trust. Look down on me. I know that I have done many wrongs things too. All their cutting remarks, the way they treat me, I can forgive. But there's one thing that they did 4 years ago, that I can never forgive. Never.
It was the deepest cut they ever gave.
I know that God told us to forgive others' transgressions against us. But this, I simply can't. From the day that it happened, I realized that my place in this family is zilch. Nil. None.
Jesus Christ, despite all the things that men did to him, He could have called down fires from heaven to burn them to ashes, from where they stood, but He did not do that. He forgave them.
But, I am not God...I am merely a human. An extremely inperfect one, at that. This inperfection in me, fuels my anger, disappointment & hatred. I will not forgive. I choose not to forgive.
My life is not my family's. I am not a toy doll, nor a puppet, nor a dog. I will not be used as they please, then be kicked away when they grow bored.
My life's direction, I will decide it.
No one else.
Light my path
7:06:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 8 February 2005
Ha...since it's CNY, I've decided to use red...getting into things..you know..=]
It's finally here, well, almost..CNY huh..if you've read previous entries, you'd know that I'm not looking forward to it..ya..
My friend gave me a bottle of chocolate chip cookies, I think..made by his mother..hmm...ha...I love chocolate!!!!!!! *little hearts in eyes*
In return, I gave him...how to say it in English?? It's like a mini curry puff..with a peanut filling, about maybe 3-4cm..ya...hope that it tastes good..my parents bought them from a person who makes this kind of stuff..Hmm...the pineapple tarts that the person made tastes great..so I guess these mini puffs will be ok too, right?? Besides, if they aren't good, my parents wouldn't have bought 4 bottles, right? They've bought them last year too...if they aren't good, my parents wouldn't have bought them again this year..right?? ha..
Just hope that these mini puffs are up to my friend & his family's standard..that they'd like it...i'd feel bad if those snacks are not to their liking, after all, I received handmade cookies...Please like them...okie???=p
I'm crazy, eh??
Ya know...it's funny...when my friend told me to meet him today, saying that he's got something for me, I was almost 100% sure that he'd be giving me some CNY stuff...so I also prepared mine..ha...When we met, at that moment, when we saw each other, we laughed...for each of us have brought CNY foodstuff, complete with 2 mandarin oranges, for the other!!=) haha...it was quite amusing..
Ha..listening to Jap anime radio stations...yay!!
My Winamp can connect to internet radio stations, just thought of it yesterday...so here I am, listening to the anime music..SUPER!!=) heek!
Changed & washed my bedsheets yesterday...
The radio station's playing a song from Love Hina..I can never understand why a friend of mine likes Love Hina so much..He's practically crazy over it..He has all their stuff..anime...music..blah...
I find Love Hina abit too..how to say..some parts are really boring...it always happens...the main lead would somehow stumble into a girl in the bath or some other activities that the girl's doing...eg: changing clothes..and the girl would scream...then the main lead will get chased & beaten up..Not that the main lead wants to peek or is doing it on purpose..these things just happen to him..bleah.
Don't like it...duh.
Danny sent me chapter 246 of the manga of Naruto..WHOA!! It has awakened an interest in me...which is kind of BAD...because when I get interested in a manga or anime, I'd really lay my hands on all of its manga or anime...will go to download its songs too...I'd be spending most of my waking hours in front of my computer...not moving, unless it's to go to the toilet or to eat...very, very bad..
I have to thank God..ha..my laptop's running out of space...because of the 167 episodes & 3 movies of Inuyasha that I downloaded...I don't have any CD-RW to burn the anime, so I can only keep them in my laptop, for the moment..Ha..You wouldn't like to see me when I was watching the Inuyasha anime that I downloaded...Woke about about 930am to watch till the wee hours...like 3-4am..Didn't do much of anything except to watch the anime...crazy, huh..
Ha...but would really like to watch Naruto..or read its manga..I know that I complained a while again that I find Naruto abit draggy...it is...especially the fighting scene...ArrGGHH...horrible.....But, I'm willing to overlook that...big of me, eh??(sarcastic smile)..haha...cuz I found out about the latest development in the storyline...Really exciting..Sasuke has turned bad....Awww..*cries*....
Can't wait to get my hands on Naruto anime & manga...heehee...=p
My day was spent watching television programmes, surfing the Net, reading Naruto fanfiction, bathing the dog & vaccuming & cleaning the house...ah..CNY is near..I'd be off to sleep soon...My parents want to set off early tomorrow...at 9am..can you imagine it?? Going to people's home at 930am in the morning??(My eldest sister has a car, so travelling's no problem)..If I happen to be the unfortunate person, I'd scream & throw them out...yup!! I'd do it..*don't mess with me..Anyone who gets between me & a good sleep, is not going to look pretty after I get through with them..so there!* heh.
Hmm...knowing my family, they will dilly-dally...we'll probably go out at 10am..ya..Will have to wake up early tomorrow..to go jogging..haiz...
I'm off..
Happy Chinese New Year!! ^-^
It's finally here, well, almost..CNY huh..if you've read previous entries, you'd know that I'm not looking forward to it..ya..
My friend gave me a bottle of chocolate chip cookies, I think..made by his mother..hmm...ha...I love chocolate!!!!!!! *little hearts in eyes*
In return, I gave him...how to say it in English?? It's like a mini curry puff..with a peanut filling, about maybe 3-4cm..ya...hope that it tastes good..my parents bought them from a person who makes this kind of stuff..Hmm...the pineapple tarts that the person made tastes great..so I guess these mini puffs will be ok too, right?? Besides, if they aren't good, my parents wouldn't have bought 4 bottles, right? They've bought them last year too...if they aren't good, my parents wouldn't have bought them again this year..right?? ha..
Just hope that these mini puffs are up to my friend & his family's standard..that they'd like it...i'd feel bad if those snacks are not to their liking, after all, I received handmade cookies...Please like them...okie???=p
I'm crazy, eh??
Ya know...it's funny...when my friend told me to meet him today, saying that he's got something for me, I was almost 100% sure that he'd be giving me some CNY stuff...so I also prepared mine..ha...When we met, at that moment, when we saw each other, we laughed...for each of us have brought CNY foodstuff, complete with 2 mandarin oranges, for the other!!=) haha...it was quite amusing..
Ha..listening to Jap anime radio stations...yay!!
My Winamp can connect to internet radio stations, just thought of it yesterday...so here I am, listening to the anime music..SUPER!!=) heek!
Changed & washed my bedsheets yesterday...
The radio station's playing a song from Love Hina..I can never understand why a friend of mine likes Love Hina so much..He's practically crazy over it..He has all their stuff..anime...music..blah...
I find Love Hina abit too..how to say..some parts are really boring...it always happens...the main lead would somehow stumble into a girl in the bath or some other activities that the girl's doing...eg: changing clothes..and the girl would scream...then the main lead will get chased & beaten up..Not that the main lead wants to peek or is doing it on purpose..these things just happen to him..bleah.
Don't like it...duh.
Danny sent me chapter 246 of the manga of Naruto..WHOA!! It has awakened an interest in me...which is kind of BAD...because when I get interested in a manga or anime, I'd really lay my hands on all of its manga or anime...will go to download its songs too...I'd be spending most of my waking hours in front of my computer...not moving, unless it's to go to the toilet or to eat...very, very bad..
I have to thank God..ha..my laptop's running out of space...because of the 167 episodes & 3 movies of Inuyasha that I downloaded...I don't have any CD-RW to burn the anime, so I can only keep them in my laptop, for the moment..Ha..You wouldn't like to see me when I was watching the Inuyasha anime that I downloaded...Woke about about 930am to watch till the wee hours...like 3-4am..Didn't do much of anything except to watch the anime...crazy, huh..
Ha...but would really like to watch Naruto..or read its manga..I know that I complained a while again that I find Naruto abit draggy...it is...especially the fighting scene...ArrGGHH...horrible.....But, I'm willing to overlook that...big of me, eh??(sarcastic smile)..haha...cuz I found out about the latest development in the storyline...Really exciting..Sasuke has turned bad....Awww..*cries*....
Can't wait to get my hands on Naruto anime & manga...heehee...=p
My day was spent watching television programmes, surfing the Net, reading Naruto fanfiction, bathing the dog & vaccuming & cleaning the house...ah..CNY is near..I'd be off to sleep soon...My parents want to set off early tomorrow...at 9am..can you imagine it?? Going to people's home at 930am in the morning??(My eldest sister has a car, so travelling's no problem)..If I happen to be the unfortunate person, I'd scream & throw them out...yup!! I'd do it..*don't mess with me..Anyone who gets between me & a good sleep, is not going to look pretty after I get through with them..so there!* heh.
Hmm...knowing my family, they will dilly-dally...we'll probably go out at 10am..ya..Will have to wake up early tomorrow..to go jogging..haiz...
I'm off..
Happy Chinese New Year!! ^-^
Light my path
11:09:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 4 February 2005
I complain about life
About this, about that.
About my circumstances
About everything.
When I run into problems
I got angry, sad, troubled.
I grumbled when I don't have enough.
I whined when I don't have.
In all that I've done,
I have forgotten to do one thing.
That is to give thanks to God.
I thank you, God, for making me healthy,
With a strong and complete body.
I thank you, God, for every breath
That I am able to take.
I thank you, Lord, for a roof over my head,
When there are many who don't.
I thank you, Lord, for the clothes
That keep me warm.
I thank you, God, for the plentiful food every day
For there are many who barely had enough to live
I thank you, God, for buses and trains to help me travel
For there are many who had to walk
I thank you, Lord, for technology, which brings loved ones closer
Despite being continents apart.
I thank you, Lord, for blessing us with friends
To share weal and woe.
I thank you, God, for loving us so much
That You gave our only begotten Son, Jesus to die on the cross.
I thank you, God, that no matter how far we've wandered from You
You still desire us to go back to You
You are still waiting with open arms.
My spirit can feel Your call.
My heart can sense Your voice.
You are saying,
"Come to me. Come to me.
Come back to me.
I am here,
by your side.
I have never left.
Come."
About this, about that.
About my circumstances
About everything.
When I run into problems
I got angry, sad, troubled.
I grumbled when I don't have enough.
I whined when I don't have.
In all that I've done,
I have forgotten to do one thing.
That is to give thanks to God.
I thank you, God, for making me healthy,
With a strong and complete body.
I thank you, God, for every breath
That I am able to take.
I thank you, Lord, for a roof over my head,
When there are many who don't.
I thank you, Lord, for the clothes
That keep me warm.
I thank you, God, for the plentiful food every day
For there are many who barely had enough to live
I thank you, God, for buses and trains to help me travel
For there are many who had to walk
I thank you, Lord, for technology, which brings loved ones closer
Despite being continents apart.
I thank you, Lord, for blessing us with friends
To share weal and woe.
I thank you, God, for loving us so much
That You gave our only begotten Son, Jesus to die on the cross.
I thank you, God, that no matter how far we've wandered from You
You still desire us to go back to You
You are still waiting with open arms.
My spirit can feel Your call.
My heart can sense Your voice.
You are saying,
"Come to me. Come to me.
Come back to me.
I am here,
by your side.
I have never left.
Come."
When you've fallen, stop when you've reached your line. And return.
It is time to return.
Light my path
5:33:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
"Wishes are far away. Dreams are in vain"
Ah...my legs are aching..went jogging & swimming yesterday...=] YuP.
Ha...today's just another day...normal...quiet...boring..haiz..
Not that I want to have a noisy day....It's just that things are pretty quiet..Ya.
Feeling quite restless...
Haiz..
Know what??
I should rename my blog..instead of 'Journey', it should be 'Complaints'.
Bleah..
Complaining aloT....no??=]
Ha...
Hey....why should I feel apologetic about it?? It's MY blog....heh..
Ha...I don't really want to get whoever's reading my blog, depressed...
Quite hot today..not much to do...no television shows to watch...no dog to play with (cuz its sleeping)..no games to play..no good books to read...sick of Internet...BORING...haiz..*yawns*
Depressing entry........no??
"Wishes are far away. Dreams are in vain"
Took this line from a Fushigi Yuugi song..It caught my eye...
Been downloading Fushigi Yuugi songs last night...
The following song - Setsunakutemo Zutto (Although it's Painful...Always),
Sung by: Hayashi Nobutoshi (as Tasuki) is one of my favourites..=) Below is an english translation...ha
Even the setting sun that sinks like it was burning out
is alone,
unable to embrace
the earth or the deep seas.
Though it's been sleeping
at the bottom of my heart,
the red, painful passion
takes me by surprise.
Whenever I see your tears,
I can't stand it.
It makes me want to
hold you close from behind.
I love you to the point it breaks me.
No kind of words are enough,
because I also have a love
that I can never give voice to.
Can't become a man
just by being born.
True strength surely
starts with love.
If there's a smile
beyond your tears,
I'll watch over you
like the dependable guy I am.
I love you to the point it breaks me.
No kind of words are enough.
If it's a love that can't be granted,
then I'll wish only for your happiness.
The setting sun sinks again
As it embraced its passion
It reaches its inward rest
Even though it's painful...always
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true...
Will they ever come true??
Dreams that are far away,
Will I be able to reach them?
Hopes that are in vain
Will they prove to be otherwise?
- Hazel
Ah...my legs are aching..went jogging & swimming yesterday...=] YuP.
Ha...today's just another day...normal...quiet...boring..haiz..
Not that I want to have a noisy day....It's just that things are pretty quiet..Ya.
Feeling quite restless...
Haiz..
Know what??
I should rename my blog..instead of 'Journey', it should be 'Complaints'.
Bleah..
Complaining aloT....no??=]
Ha...
Hey....why should I feel apologetic about it?? It's MY blog....heh..
Ha...I don't really want to get whoever's reading my blog, depressed...
Quite hot today..not much to do...no television shows to watch...no dog to play with (cuz its sleeping)..no games to play..no good books to read...sick of Internet...BORING...haiz..*yawns*
Depressing entry........no??
"Wishes are far away. Dreams are in vain"
Took this line from a Fushigi Yuugi song..It caught my eye...
Been downloading Fushigi Yuugi songs last night...
The following song - Setsunakutemo Zutto (Although it's Painful...Always),
Sung by: Hayashi Nobutoshi (as Tasuki) is one of my favourites..=) Below is an english translation...ha
Even the setting sun that sinks like it was burning out
is alone,
unable to embrace
the earth or the deep seas.
Though it's been sleeping
at the bottom of my heart,
the red, painful passion
takes me by surprise.
Whenever I see your tears,
I can't stand it.
It makes me want to
hold you close from behind.
I love you to the point it breaks me.
No kind of words are enough,
because I also have a love
that I can never give voice to.
Can't become a man
just by being born.
True strength surely
starts with love.
If there's a smile
beyond your tears,
I'll watch over you
like the dependable guy I am.
I love you to the point it breaks me.
No kind of words are enough.
If it's a love that can't be granted,
then I'll wish only for your happiness.
The setting sun sinks again
As it embraced its passion
It reaches its inward rest
Even though it's painful...always
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true...
Will they ever come true??
Dreams that are far away,
Will I be able to reach them?
Hopes that are in vain
Will they prove to be otherwise?
- Hazel
Light my path
2:36:00 pm
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