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Monday, 31 January 2005
"The red thread of fate, once broken, can never be rejoined."
These are the words spoken by Kikyo, from the anime - Inuyasha.
Ha.....at first, I disliked her...but later, I grew to like her, to sympathise with her.
Kikyo's a tragic figure in Inuyasha.
Because of her destiny, to be the protector of Shikon no Tama, she's forced to be strong, in all ways, not allowed to show any weakness. For, to show weakness, is to invite death home..She had to appear to be and must be strong, in order to protect the Shikon no Tama from demons & people who have evil intentions towards the jewel..
She was supposedly betrayed by Inuyasha, who was actually Naraku in disguise..she died believing that the one she loved betrayed her.....got near to her, used her affections for him to get his hands on the Shikon no Tama....She died angry, with hatred for Inuyasha..She could have killed him with her purifying arrow, yet she did not, instead choosing to seal him in eternal sleep..Though, she thought she was betrayed, she still loves him..
Actually, I find it sad, that both Kikyo and Inuyasha were tricked by Naraku..who appeared to the both of them seperately, in the other's form..
If, Kikyo and Inuyasha has enough trust in each other, they wouldn't have believed that the other would betray him/her...and wouldn't have fallen into Naraku's trap..
Trust..
Perhaps, there's wasn't enough of it in their relationship..
Then, Kikyo was resurrected by a woman with evil intentions..to control Kikyo, make her a puppet to search for the Shikon shards..But, of course, Kikyo is too strong to be controlled that easily..
Kikyo's story just gets more sad, her fate more tragic..
She's dead..
Yet, now, brought to life...
Forced to continue this cursed existance in the mortal world..
No longer having a body of flesh & blood, but one that's of bones & graveyard soil..needing the souls of dead people in her, for her to be able to move her body.
Everything's supposed to have ended on the day that she drew her last breath, after sealing Inuyasha..
Yet, she was brought back to "life"....it must have a great shock to her..
She had died in anger, hurt, betrayal & tears..
Now, she had to deal with all these feelings...
At first, whenever Inuyasha runs off to meet Kikyo (after she was resurrected & Inuyasha was released from the seal by Kagome), whenever he senses that she's nearby.........and Kagome will be sad...or angry...
I'd sympathise with Kagome...cuz at the initial part of the anime, Kikyo's acting like a bitch...
But, later...as the story progressed on, revealing more about Inuyasha & Kikyo's story...I began to like Kikyo...Also, plus the fact that Kagome's getting more & more ridiculously jealous and upset..(not that she threw a fit)..
In the realier part of the series, Kagome would be sad when Inuyasha goes off to see Kikyo..but in the later part, she starts to get angry & upset..which, I think, she has no right to.
It is not as though she is together with Inuyasha...she has no right to be angry or jealous..
Besides, I think she's bing unreasonable & petty...she travels with Inuyasha...gets to see him, talk to him, live with him, almost everyday...
Kikyo's not travelling with them..She's alone..Without companions..Before she dead, she lived a very lonely life, battling demons alone...only having a younger sister....and in the later part of her life, Inuyasha..After she was resurrected, she was even more lonely than ever...Her younger sister, is now around 60 yrs old...with all that happened to her, having anger, hurt, unfinished dreams, broken hopes...how could she go back to the life she once had, before she died??
How can Kagome be upset about Inuyasha seeing Kikyo?? She has him all to herself almost everyday...how can she begrudge Kikyo a few moments spent with Inuyasha?
Before Kikyo died & Inuyasha was sealed, the two of them have something going on, a relationship that was budding..But it was stomped on, all of a sudden by Naraku's trap..It was a sudden end.....too sudden...too abrupt..
Towards the end of the anime, I started to be annoyed with Kagome...Grr....
Ha..
As I watched the anime, Kikyo seems to have changed a little...She became a little more gentle....more like herself before she died...
When she was just resurrected, Kikyo's quite cold & hard...really cold..So unlike the way she is before she died...
Before she died, though she was cold, she wasn't really cold & hard...a cynic...She just had to put on a strong front..had to be quick to deal with the demons...but, she's forgiving, as shown when she told her sister (who told her that she hates Onigumo) to forgive him, despite the things he had said about herself...
I really liked the way she is, with little children...so gentle...that's the kind of person she is, deep down....
These are the words spoken by Kikyo, from the anime - Inuyasha.
Ha.....at first, I disliked her...but later, I grew to like her, to sympathise with her.
Kikyo's a tragic figure in Inuyasha.
Because of her destiny, to be the protector of Shikon no Tama, she's forced to be strong, in all ways, not allowed to show any weakness. For, to show weakness, is to invite death home..She had to appear to be and must be strong, in order to protect the Shikon no Tama from demons & people who have evil intentions towards the jewel..
She was supposedly betrayed by Inuyasha, who was actually Naraku in disguise..she died believing that the one she loved betrayed her.....got near to her, used her affections for him to get his hands on the Shikon no Tama....She died angry, with hatred for Inuyasha..She could have killed him with her purifying arrow, yet she did not, instead choosing to seal him in eternal sleep..Though, she thought she was betrayed, she still loves him..
Actually, I find it sad, that both Kikyo and Inuyasha were tricked by Naraku..who appeared to the both of them seperately, in the other's form..
If, Kikyo and Inuyasha has enough trust in each other, they wouldn't have believed that the other would betray him/her...and wouldn't have fallen into Naraku's trap..
Trust..
Perhaps, there's wasn't enough of it in their relationship..
Then, Kikyo was resurrected by a woman with evil intentions..to control Kikyo, make her a puppet to search for the Shikon shards..But, of course, Kikyo is too strong to be controlled that easily..
Kikyo's story just gets more sad, her fate more tragic..
She's dead..
Yet, now, brought to life...
Forced to continue this cursed existance in the mortal world..
No longer having a body of flesh & blood, but one that's of bones & graveyard soil..needing the souls of dead people in her, for her to be able to move her body.
Everything's supposed to have ended on the day that she drew her last breath, after sealing Inuyasha..
Yet, she was brought back to "life"....it must have a great shock to her..
She had died in anger, hurt, betrayal & tears..
Now, she had to deal with all these feelings...
At first, whenever Inuyasha runs off to meet Kikyo (after she was resurrected & Inuyasha was released from the seal by Kagome), whenever he senses that she's nearby.........and Kagome will be sad...or angry...
I'd sympathise with Kagome...cuz at the initial part of the anime, Kikyo's acting like a bitch...
But, later...as the story progressed on, revealing more about Inuyasha & Kikyo's story...I began to like Kikyo...Also, plus the fact that Kagome's getting more & more ridiculously jealous and upset..(not that she threw a fit)..
In the realier part of the series, Kagome would be sad when Inuyasha goes off to see Kikyo..but in the later part, she starts to get angry & upset..which, I think, she has no right to.
It is not as though she is together with Inuyasha...she has no right to be angry or jealous..
Besides, I think she's bing unreasonable & petty...she travels with Inuyasha...gets to see him, talk to him, live with him, almost everyday...
Kikyo's not travelling with them..She's alone..Without companions..Before she dead, she lived a very lonely life, battling demons alone...only having a younger sister....and in the later part of her life, Inuyasha..After she was resurrected, she was even more lonely than ever...Her younger sister, is now around 60 yrs old...with all that happened to her, having anger, hurt, unfinished dreams, broken hopes...how could she go back to the life she once had, before she died??
How can Kagome be upset about Inuyasha seeing Kikyo?? She has him all to herself almost everyday...how can she begrudge Kikyo a few moments spent with Inuyasha?
Before Kikyo died & Inuyasha was sealed, the two of them have something going on, a relationship that was budding..But it was stomped on, all of a sudden by Naraku's trap..It was a sudden end.....too sudden...too abrupt..
Towards the end of the anime, I started to be annoyed with Kagome...Grr....
Ha..
As I watched the anime, Kikyo seems to have changed a little...She became a little more gentle....more like herself before she died...
When she was just resurrected, Kikyo's quite cold & hard...really cold..So unlike the way she is before she died...
Before she died, though she was cold, she wasn't really cold & hard...a cynic...She just had to put on a strong front..had to be quick to deal with the demons...but, she's forgiving, as shown when she told her sister (who told her that she hates Onigumo) to forgive him, despite the things he had said about herself...
I really liked the way she is, with little children...so gentle...that's the kind of person she is, deep down....
Light my path
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youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 30 January 2005
Ha....had a long day todaY.....sort of...=P
Sunday is a day on which my eldest sister & I clean the house...ya
Normally, we'd start around 10am and wrap things up at 12pm...Today, we finished later...by the time I've finished my tasks, it was 2pm...yup yup!!
We did more cleaning today...cleaning windows...and wiping mirrors...
AggH...the windows in my room.....whoa!! They are unspeakable...They don't appear to be very dirty, to the eye..Whoa...after using a cloth to wipe, it came away black...DUH.....
Cleaned them inside out....took quite long I think..ha...I held on tightly as I stood up on my bed to wipe the windows...I sure do not want to tumble down & splat on the ground below..even if I live on the 3rd floor..haha..
Ah.....though it was slightly tiring...but I felt a sense of accomplishment when the windows are clear, the mirrors are sparkling, the floor's clean.....=)
Spent the day playing Neopets & reading comics...=)
WAH......was pretty irritated..annoyed...frustrated...later...was quite furious...
Why??
Hmm......I think, my laptop's touchpad's spoilt.....Ya...
A few weeks earlier, it wouldn't respond when I tried to scroll down the screen...Today....It wouldn't respond when I tried to click on things...Oh...the cursor does move...but it isn't clickable..ARRGGHH......
Haiz..
At first, I was pretty worried, I thought my laptop got hit by a virus or something..It didn't occur to me that something was wrong with the touchpad...till I was playing a game....It responded fine...But halfway through, no matter how hard I clicked...or rather hit the touchpad...or restarted the laptop...the problem still happened...
Then.....I knew......HAIZ
Ha...Was pretty furious..so gave the touchpad several hits.....now that I look back...I should.t have done that, right?? That probably made things worst......
Haiz......everything was fine last night.......but today.........ARRGGHHH.....
Duh.....
Haiz.....
S.O.S
Anyone??
S.O.S
Please give me some suggestions.......
I'm no computer expert....arrgghh
I probably ruined my computer with those knocks.......T.T
Oh...I thought to mention this......my optical mouse is kinda spoilt too...
That's why I switched to using the touchpad...
Oh well...ha...nothing much to say..
Going to shop for new year clothes this week..HAIZ..
I don't like CNY...
Apart from receiving red packets..food...there's nothing much to look forward to in every year's CNY...
I am especially NOT looking forward to this year's CNY.....DEFINITELY not.
Why?
I don't wish to tell.
Bleah.
CNY huh...
I remember them..
The family whom I stayed with for a few years before having to attend kindergarten...This family was actually my family's neighbour in Chai Chee...when they shifted to Tampines..my family put me in their care..as my parents were too busy working..and my sisters were either too young to look after me or they had school.....
I lived with this Hokkien-speaking family for several years..I think...I grew very attached to them..I even thought that they were my real family...If I remember correctly, my family didn't come to visit me during those years..Even if they did, they didn't leave an impression on me...because I don't remember them coming at all..
Ha...When my parents came to take me home..I kicked up a brawl...because, I don't remember my family at all..I don't think my family was very happy about it...ha..
Staying with my real family again..after staying with the other family, which I thought belonged to me....was...how to say?? I don't how...I don't know how my young mind thought back then..but I wasn't happy staying with them...Everyday, I thought about the family I thought was mine...about the people...the happy times..
But..children...forgets quickly..Soon, I learnt to adapt to the people who said they are my family...
With that, years went past....to now...15 years later..
Even after all these years, I still think about them...
Do they still remember me??
I remember them..
Always will...
How are they? I wonder constantly..Have they received Christ? Have they heard of Jesus? Will I ever see them again? Even if we've the chance to meet, will we know? I can't remember their faces anymore...
I hope to see them again..in heaven..
They are really good people..
Perhaps, you may think that I am naive..what do a child of 4-5yrs old know about good or bad people?
True.
But to this once young mind of mine, they were good to me, loved me as their own..treated me better than my own family...So..they are good..
Do they still live in Tampines?? A few years after I left them..my parents still bring me back during CNY (cuz I kicked up a fuss..I think)....but later my eldest sister persuaded my parents not to bring me there anymore...that was when I was in lower pri...I never saw them again...
I remember...they have a large soft toy...a lion.......big enough for me to sit on...Ya...I have a picture of me sitting on it...I quite liked the lion..I think..I remember sitting on it...its soft golden brown back...and dark brown mane..
Hmm...Oh ya....there was a little boy too...When I lived in Tampines, there was a woman..I called her Ah-mi..I think..Granny..
Every morning, she'd bring me down to cycle..and I'd see a little boy...cycling too...
So, we'd play together...ha
I wonder how is he now??
All grown up??
Duh...of course..ha
What kind of person did he grew up to be?
I grew up to be like this..
What about him?
What about the rest of the family?
I wish I can see them again...but.....it's impossible..yes??
Even if we stare at each other face to face, we'd most probably would not recognize each other..
When we were young children, we have lots of dreams, lots of hopes.. Many desires..
We wished to become someone in life..A doctor..a nurse..teacher...actor...dancr..lawyer...musician..
To be somebody..
To become accomplished in life..
For me...all those dreams..childish ambitions...never came through...
I've let my younger self down..
I'm glad that it is impossible for my younger self to see me...
I'm glad she never saw...she never anticipated that I am what she'd become when she grew up...
That way, she'd be able to keep on dreaming..hoping..wishing...
Sunday is a day on which my eldest sister & I clean the house...ya
Normally, we'd start around 10am and wrap things up at 12pm...Today, we finished later...by the time I've finished my tasks, it was 2pm...yup yup!!
We did more cleaning today...cleaning windows...and wiping mirrors...
AggH...the windows in my room.....whoa!! They are unspeakable...They don't appear to be very dirty, to the eye..Whoa...after using a cloth to wipe, it came away black...DUH.....
Cleaned them inside out....took quite long I think..ha...I held on tightly as I stood up on my bed to wipe the windows...I sure do not want to tumble down & splat on the ground below..even if I live on the 3rd floor..haha..
Ah.....though it was slightly tiring...but I felt a sense of accomplishment when the windows are clear, the mirrors are sparkling, the floor's clean.....=)
Spent the day playing Neopets & reading comics...=)
WAH......was pretty irritated..annoyed...frustrated...later...was quite furious...
Why??
Hmm......I think, my laptop's touchpad's spoilt.....Ya...
A few weeks earlier, it wouldn't respond when I tried to scroll down the screen...Today....It wouldn't respond when I tried to click on things...Oh...the cursor does move...but it isn't clickable..ARRGGHH......
Haiz..
At first, I was pretty worried, I thought my laptop got hit by a virus or something..It didn't occur to me that something was wrong with the touchpad...till I was playing a game....It responded fine...But halfway through, no matter how hard I clicked...or rather hit the touchpad...or restarted the laptop...the problem still happened...
Then.....I knew......HAIZ
Ha...Was pretty furious..so gave the touchpad several hits.....now that I look back...I should.t have done that, right?? That probably made things worst......
Haiz......everything was fine last night.......but today.........ARRGGHHH.....
Duh.....
Haiz.....
S.O.S
Anyone??
S.O.S
Please give me some suggestions.......
I'm no computer expert....arrgghh
I probably ruined my computer with those knocks.......T.T
That's why I switched to using the touchpad...
Oh well...ha...nothing much to say..
Going to shop for new year clothes this week..HAIZ..
I don't like CNY...
Apart from receiving red packets..food...there's nothing much to look forward to in every year's CNY...
I am especially NOT looking forward to this year's CNY.....DEFINITELY not.
Why?
I don't wish to tell.
Bleah.
CNY huh...
I remember them..
The family whom I stayed with for a few years before having to attend kindergarten...This family was actually my family's neighbour in Chai Chee...when they shifted to Tampines..my family put me in their care..as my parents were too busy working..and my sisters were either too young to look after me or they had school.....
I lived with this Hokkien-speaking family for several years..I think...I grew very attached to them..I even thought that they were my real family...If I remember correctly, my family didn't come to visit me during those years..Even if they did, they didn't leave an impression on me...because I don't remember them coming at all..
Ha...When my parents came to take me home..I kicked up a brawl...because, I don't remember my family at all..I don't think my family was very happy about it...ha..
Staying with my real family again..after staying with the other family, which I thought belonged to me....was...how to say?? I don't how...I don't know how my young mind thought back then..but I wasn't happy staying with them...Everyday, I thought about the family I thought was mine...about the people...the happy times..
But..children...forgets quickly..Soon, I learnt to adapt to the people who said they are my family...
With that, years went past....to now...15 years later..
Even after all these years, I still think about them...
Do they still remember me??
I remember them..
Always will...
How are they? I wonder constantly..Have they received Christ? Have they heard of Jesus? Will I ever see them again? Even if we've the chance to meet, will we know? I can't remember their faces anymore...
I hope to see them again..in heaven..
They are really good people..
Perhaps, you may think that I am naive..what do a child of 4-5yrs old know about good or bad people?
True.
But to this once young mind of mine, they were good to me, loved me as their own..treated me better than my own family...So..they are good..
Do they still live in Tampines?? A few years after I left them..my parents still bring me back during CNY (cuz I kicked up a fuss..I think)....but later my eldest sister persuaded my parents not to bring me there anymore...that was when I was in lower pri...I never saw them again...
I remember...they have a large soft toy...a lion.......big enough for me to sit on...Ya...I have a picture of me sitting on it...I quite liked the lion..I think..I remember sitting on it...its soft golden brown back...and dark brown mane..
Hmm...Oh ya....there was a little boy too...When I lived in Tampines, there was a woman..I called her Ah-mi..I think..Granny..
Every morning, she'd bring me down to cycle..and I'd see a little boy...cycling too...
So, we'd play together...ha
I wonder how is he now??
All grown up??
Duh...of course..ha
What kind of person did he grew up to be?
I grew up to be like this..
What about him?
What about the rest of the family?
I wish I can see them again...but.....it's impossible..yes??
Even if we stare at each other face to face, we'd most probably would not recognize each other..
When we were young children, we have lots of dreams, lots of hopes.. Many desires..
We wished to become someone in life..A doctor..a nurse..teacher...actor...dancr..lawyer...musician..
To be somebody..
To become accomplished in life..
For me...all those dreams..childish ambitions...never came through...
I've let my younger self down..
I'm glad that it is impossible for my younger self to see me...
I'm glad she never saw...she never anticipated that I am what she'd become when she grew up...
That way, she'd be able to keep on dreaming..hoping..wishing...
Light my path
10:03:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 27 January 2005
I want peace!!!!!!
ArrGGHH........as soon as my parents & eldest sister came home, the quiet & tranquility in the house was broken....haiz...
They have especially loud voices....complaining about this and that...blah...even when they talk, it seems like they are shouting...I am not exaggerating...that's how it is like....
Ha....perhaps, it's because of them that I dislike loud voices....they irritate me...Ha..I don't mean I hate all loud voices..I don't mean those that are done in the name of fun....I mean..when you talk, you'd talk in a volume which is comfortable for you and your audience, right?? Not shout like nobody's business..as though, the person who is within 1 metre of you, is deaf.
ARRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH................super pissed off...This happens almost every night..
I can't wait to earn my own keep..so I can move out one day...never to live with them anymore...ha..you may think that I'm just saying it in a fit of annoyance..but I'm serious..Ya..I can't wait to leave...
I'll only stay if my eldest sister is not living with my parents...but since that's almost impossible..I'll be moving out when I've got the bucks...
Did you notice the full moon these few nights??
It's very bright..=)
Love it..
I stay in my room whenever my family's home..Ya..I'm in my room every evening & every weekend..
I only step out of the room when I need the toilet or food...ya...that's how my days are, ever since I can remember.....hmmm...probably since secondary 1 or earlier..
What do I do, alone in the bedroom? Before I got a laptop (which was just a year ago), I spent my time reading story books...from Enid Blyton to Buffy the Vampire Slayer...from children's books to teenage & adult fiction...comics...and I sleep....That's what I've been doing all these years spent in my room....ha...
Seldom go out...too lazy...too troublesome...
Would rather spend the day reading...Time well spent...haha....=)
Ha..I really love reading storybooks..Every book that came to my possession, from day one, it never left my hands...All of them are still with me, in excellent condition...They are the same as the day they reached me..except for the yellowing pages..which I can't stop..
No one can stop the passage of time.
I remember that, when I was in primary school, there'd be bookfairs in our school. During those times, I wouldn't eat during recess, saving up the money to buy storybooks..
My friends think I'm crazy......ha....but, I just love books that much...
Reading, is such a wonderful past-time!=)
Now that I've grown older, it's kind of hard to find books that I like..I can't possibly be reading teenage fiction all the time..At this stage of my life, I find such books lacking in depth...But, even now, I still enjoy the ocasional teenage fiction book...
Ah..I thirst for books that have depth...any recommendations??
I enjoy all good books, regardless of whether it's adventure, mystery, romance or thriller...
Oh ya...no horror books, please......=)
I await in anticipation for your recommendations...=p
ArrGGHH........as soon as my parents & eldest sister came home, the quiet & tranquility in the house was broken....haiz...
They have especially loud voices....complaining about this and that...blah...even when they talk, it seems like they are shouting...I am not exaggerating...that's how it is like....
Ha....perhaps, it's because of them that I dislike loud voices....they irritate me...Ha..I don't mean I hate all loud voices..I don't mean those that are done in the name of fun....I mean..when you talk, you'd talk in a volume which is comfortable for you and your audience, right?? Not shout like nobody's business..as though, the person who is within 1 metre of you, is deaf.
ARRGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH................super pissed off...This happens almost every night..
I can't wait to earn my own keep..so I can move out one day...never to live with them anymore...ha..you may think that I'm just saying it in a fit of annoyance..but I'm serious..Ya..I can't wait to leave...
I'll only stay if my eldest sister is not living with my parents...but since that's almost impossible..I'll be moving out when I've got the bucks...
Did you notice the full moon these few nights??
It's very bright..=)
Love it..
I stay in my room whenever my family's home..Ya..I'm in my room every evening & every weekend..
I only step out of the room when I need the toilet or food...ya...that's how my days are, ever since I can remember.....hmmm...probably since secondary 1 or earlier..
What do I do, alone in the bedroom? Before I got a laptop (which was just a year ago), I spent my time reading story books...from Enid Blyton to Buffy the Vampire Slayer...from children's books to teenage & adult fiction...comics...and I sleep....That's what I've been doing all these years spent in my room....ha...
Seldom go out...too lazy...too troublesome...
Would rather spend the day reading...Time well spent...haha....=)
Ha..I really love reading storybooks..Every book that came to my possession, from day one, it never left my hands...All of them are still with me, in excellent condition...They are the same as the day they reached me..except for the yellowing pages..which I can't stop..
No one can stop the passage of time.
I remember that, when I was in primary school, there'd be bookfairs in our school. During those times, I wouldn't eat during recess, saving up the money to buy storybooks..
My friends think I'm crazy......ha....but, I just love books that much...
Reading, is such a wonderful past-time!=)
Now that I've grown older, it's kind of hard to find books that I like..I can't possibly be reading teenage fiction all the time..At this stage of my life, I find such books lacking in depth...But, even now, I still enjoy the ocasional teenage fiction book...
Ah..I thirst for books that have depth...any recommendations??
I enjoy all good books, regardless of whether it's adventure, mystery, romance or thriller...
Oh ya...no horror books, please......=)
I await in anticipation for your recommendations...=p
Light my path
9:21:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Tuesday, 25 January 2005
Ha....I don't know what to put for today's title..so..just make do with 'Ha' as a title...okie??=]
Hmm....actually, there's supposed to be 2 posts yesterday...cuz..after posting up the writing..I was bored.. Don't have anything to do while waiting till it's time for me to go out...so I posted a 2nd entry...
Ha.......come to think of it....you guys are better off not knowing what I wrote...all those crap..ha..
ARRGHH.........but was quite frustrated, all the time spent typing..then suddenly..all gone..so silently..bleah..HEH!
As you can see, I didn't re-type the entry...ya
Went surfing the Net for awhile before preparing to go out...
Met Angeline at City Hall...I was early, so went to Raffles City to walk about first...Ha..I've only been there once..twice, including yesterday...
Hmm...don't know what's up between the both of us..I get mild 'electric shocks' almost everytime when I'm out with Angeline..So, whenever we walk together & happen to touch..I'd get little shocks...HAIZ...it was funny & bewildering (cuz this seldom happens with others) at the same time..we had some laughs over it...=D
Ha...Angeline & I sorta got lost inside Carrefour...bleah.......we couldn't find the escalator down...so we walked & walked searching for it...just as we were about to give up, Angeline decided to try one more time...ha...determined person..=)
And.......TADA!! She found it!!!!!!!!!
The escalator was hidden behind a wall.....bleah..
No wonder, huh?
Heh.
Ha...was so attracted by the stuff inside...chocolate....*drool*..durian...*stomach growls*...
Get the picture huh?=)
We took some time deciding where to eat...ha...we are always like that...Both of us are fine with anything..so it was kinda difficlut to come to a decision...
But we finally did..yup!
To the foodcourt, we go!
Ha..the same situation sorta occurs again...when we tried to decide what to eat...Angeline suggested that we buy 2 dishes & share..we'll choose a dish each...
After walking around the foodcourt for 2-3 rounds, perhaps having the stall vendors wondering if I was really there to eat...I returned to our table empty handed...ha...I think she wants to cry..
I'm so indecisive...
In the end, she chose fo me too....ha..
We ate Ee Mee, fish & chips..(both recommended by angeline)..and Guo Tie (fried dumplings)..
The fish & chips r great!! I'd strongly recommend you to go try it at the Suntec City foodcourt..The Ee Mee has quite a big portion..tastes good too!!=) Worth the price..$3!!=p
We talked over food...then went to Mcdonald's to get chocolate sundae...yum yum!!!!! haha.......=D
Then, we talked again...till around 10pm..before heading home..=)
Really glad that we had this chance to come out..=p
Hmm....actually, there's supposed to be 2 posts yesterday...cuz..after posting up the writing..I was bored.. Don't have anything to do while waiting till it's time for me to go out...so I posted a 2nd entry...
Ha.......come to think of it....you guys are better off not knowing what I wrote...all those crap..ha..
ARRGHH.........but was quite frustrated, all the time spent typing..then suddenly..all gone..so silently..bleah..HEH!
As you can see, I didn't re-type the entry...ya
Went surfing the Net for awhile before preparing to go out...
Met Angeline at City Hall...I was early, so went to Raffles City to walk about first...Ha..I've only been there once..twice, including yesterday...
Hmm...don't know what's up between the both of us..I get mild 'electric shocks' almost everytime when I'm out with Angeline..So, whenever we walk together & happen to touch..I'd get little shocks...HAIZ...it was funny & bewildering (cuz this seldom happens with others) at the same time..we had some laughs over it...=D
Ha...Angeline & I sorta got lost inside Carrefour...bleah.......we couldn't find the escalator down...so we walked & walked searching for it...just as we were about to give up, Angeline decided to try one more time...ha...determined person..=)
And.......TADA!! She found it!!!!!!!!!
The escalator was hidden behind a wall.....bleah..
No wonder, huh?
Heh.
Ha...was so attracted by the stuff inside...chocolate....*drool*..durian...*stomach growls*...
Get the picture huh?=)
We took some time deciding where to eat...ha...we are always like that...Both of us are fine with anything..so it was kinda difficlut to come to a decision...
But we finally did..yup!
To the foodcourt, we go!
Ha..the same situation sorta occurs again...when we tried to decide what to eat...Angeline suggested that we buy 2 dishes & share..we'll choose a dish each...
After walking around the foodcourt for 2-3 rounds, perhaps having the stall vendors wondering if I was really there to eat...I returned to our table empty handed...ha...I think she wants to cry..
I'm so indecisive...
In the end, she chose fo me too....ha..
We ate Ee Mee, fish & chips..(both recommended by angeline)..and Guo Tie (fried dumplings)..
The fish & chips r great!! I'd strongly recommend you to go try it at the Suntec City foodcourt..The Ee Mee has quite a big portion..tastes good too!!=) Worth the price..$3!!=p
We talked over food...then went to Mcdonald's to get chocolate sundae...yum yum!!!!! haha.......=D
Then, we talked again...till around 10pm..before heading home..=)
Really glad that we had this chance to come out..=p
Light my path
11:47:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 24 January 2005
Wandering from a day to another
In a dream-like fog.
Time has no touch on my days.
I was content to drift through each day
Letting the world pass me by
Living each day without a sense of purpose.
How long? Oh, how long?
How long am I going to lead this so-called life?
How long will I continue to live life as if it’s a dream?
Like living in the midst of fog?
The sun! The sun!!
How I long for its bright rays to pierce through this fog!
Ending this journey to No-where Land!
But at the same time, I dread to let this end..
To wake up to the tormenting reality of life.
Blessed numbed-ness? Or painful reality??
Which should I choose?
To dwell in dreams?
Or to live in reality?
In a dream-like fog.
Time has no touch on my days.
I was content to drift through each day
Letting the world pass me by
Living each day without a sense of purpose.
How long? Oh, how long?
How long am I going to lead this so-called life?
How long will I continue to live life as if it’s a dream?
Like living in the midst of fog?
The sun! The sun!!
How I long for its bright rays to pierce through this fog!
Ending this journey to No-where Land!
But at the same time, I dread to let this end..
To wake up to the tormenting reality of life.
Blessed numbed-ness? Or painful reality??
Which should I choose?
To dwell in dreams?
Or to live in reality?
Light my path
2:08:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 23 January 2005
Ha......I know, I know...I said I was going to dreamland...But when I listened to this song..I can't help but write out my thoughts..This song is Kimi Ga Nozomu Eien..the opening song from Rumbling Hearts..an anime..(I think the anime originated from the PS2 game) I find the story quite sad..There was this couple...I think they were in high school..preparing to go to university..One day, the girl (Suzumiya Haruka) was knocked down by a car, while she was waiting for her boyfriend to come..(He's late for their date)...This accident caused her to lie in a coma for several years...(5 years..i think..or izzit 3yrs??)
Of course, eventually, Haruka woke up.....but everything's different...
Her boyfriend (dunno the jap name) is now with her best friend (Hayase Mitsuki)...
When Haruka woke up...she didn't know that she had been in a coma for several years..she still thought that things were the same as before...(the doctor advised the family not to let her know that she had slept for several years..as she may not be able to accept the sudden change)..
But of course...in the end..Haruka found out........
Ha...I'm not sure of the ending...but I'm quite, quite sure that the guy chose to be with her best friend--Hayase Mitsuki.. (Why am I not sure?? Ha...cuz when I saw that the guy made such a decision..which I think was kinda wrong & unfair to Haruka..so I didn't watch the anime anymore...haha...OppZ...)
Tell the truth..I dislike Hayase Mitsuki..because, she was the one who indirectly caused Haruka to be in that accident & in a coma for so long...losing everything that she had...
On the day of the accident, the guy was on the way to meet Haruka when he ran into Hayase Mitsuki...she sort of pestered him...delaying him...thus he was late meeting Haruka..If she didn't pester him, he wouldn't have been late..and Haruka wouldn't have been involved in the accident..
I can't believe that guy chose Hayase Mitsuki in the end, over Haruka...I know, that love can't be forced..ya...sucks..doesn't it?? But...ArrGHh....It was terrible for Haruka...all of a sudden, finding out that she had been in a coma for several years..everything has changed...not only that, the boy whom she loved, whom she looked forward to seeing, who is her support amidst all the confusion...is going out with her best friend...
If Hayase Mitsuki didn't have a crush on the guy while Haruka & the guy were going out..I still can accept it..but Hayase Mitsuki, knowing that those two are together...came between them..when Haruka was in the hospital...
I dislike the guy for his weakness....accepting Hayase Mitsuki when Haruka was in the hospital..for causing Haruka even more pain..Why is he so weak?? So indecisive?
ARRGGH......
Ha.......perhaps you may think I'm over-reacting...perhaps I am...but..I can't help but feel that way..Know that can't possibly expect the guy to swear off girls for the rest of his life..waiting for someone who, the doctors are not sure if she'll wake up..
Perhaps his love for her wasn't that deep, which was why he can be together with another...
Really feel for Haruka...ha..
Hope that there'll be no one in a situation like hers...
Wonder what is love all about, if it'd end one day...What makes love die away?
Listening to Sekai Ga Owarumadewa, ending song of Slam Dunk..=) It's great!!=p
My headache's subsiding...to a dull throb...
Begone headache!!
Begone!!!!!
Of course, eventually, Haruka woke up.....but everything's different...
Her boyfriend (dunno the jap name) is now with her best friend (Hayase Mitsuki)...
When Haruka woke up...she didn't know that she had been in a coma for several years..she still thought that things were the same as before...(the doctor advised the family not to let her know that she had slept for several years..as she may not be able to accept the sudden change)..
But of course...in the end..Haruka found out........
Ha...I'm not sure of the ending...but I'm quite, quite sure that the guy chose to be with her best friend--Hayase Mitsuki.. (Why am I not sure?? Ha...cuz when I saw that the guy made such a decision..which I think was kinda wrong & unfair to Haruka..so I didn't watch the anime anymore...haha...OppZ...)
Tell the truth..I dislike Hayase Mitsuki..because, she was the one who indirectly caused Haruka to be in that accident & in a coma for so long...losing everything that she had...
On the day of the accident, the guy was on the way to meet Haruka when he ran into Hayase Mitsuki...she sort of pestered him...delaying him...thus he was late meeting Haruka..If she didn't pester him, he wouldn't have been late..and Haruka wouldn't have been involved in the accident..
I can't believe that guy chose Hayase Mitsuki in the end, over Haruka...I know, that love can't be forced..ya...sucks..doesn't it?? But...ArrGHh....It was terrible for Haruka...all of a sudden, finding out that she had been in a coma for several years..everything has changed...not only that, the boy whom she loved, whom she looked forward to seeing, who is her support amidst all the confusion...is going out with her best friend...
If Hayase Mitsuki didn't have a crush on the guy while Haruka & the guy were going out..I still can accept it..but Hayase Mitsuki, knowing that those two are together...came between them..when Haruka was in the hospital...
I dislike the guy for his weakness....accepting Hayase Mitsuki when Haruka was in the hospital..for causing Haruka even more pain..Why is he so weak?? So indecisive?
ARRGGH......
Ha.......perhaps you may think I'm over-reacting...perhaps I am...but..I can't help but feel that way..Know that can't possibly expect the guy to swear off girls for the rest of his life..waiting for someone who, the doctors are not sure if she'll wake up..
Perhaps his love for her wasn't that deep, which was why he can be together with another...
Really feel for Haruka...ha..
Hope that there'll be no one in a situation like hers...
Wonder what is love all about, if it'd end one day...What makes love die away?
Listening to Sekai Ga Owarumadewa, ending song of Slam Dunk..=) It's great!!=p
My headache's subsiding...to a dull throb...
Begone headache!!
Begone!!!!!
Light my path
11:28:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Ya....that's how I am feeling now...LOUSY. GROUCHY. ARGGHH!!!!!!!!!! Heh. Haiz......>_<
Having a headache..my head throbs with every movement that I made..must be all those late nights..bleah. My nerves are worn thin..gonna snap anytime soon......Thank God that it's now night..so I can sleep away..the headache & irritation..bleah..In my current condition, I don't take well to sharp voices..yet that's the tone my mother takes on whenever she talks to me...haiz..it's not helping my headache..Phew!! Good that my parents are early sleepers..they've just gone to bed..=] My eldest sister has retired to her room, while my 3rd sister is not coming home tonight..
Ah..I think I'll sleep early today..maybe at 10pm...which's in a few minutes time...huh..=)
Ha...good news.......I've finished watching Inuyasha the anime..=] All 167 episodes..haha!! YuP! Ah...I can't wait for Inuyasha's 4th movie to be out!! The Crimsom Hourai Island!
Now listening to a song from Rurouni Kenshin - The Fourth Avenue Cafe..Its a great song!=)
Found that I have some missing files...that disappeared without a trace...mostly music files that have disappeared...ARRGHH........and I've gone to alot of trouble to acquire some of them too...as some are a little too hard to find....bleah.. Sob Sob.........Grrr......Haiz..
Perhaps it was because my laptop was too full..cuz of the Inuyasha anime that I saved in the laptop..then the computer system was forced to delete some of my files randomly...cuz I for one, didn't delete them...no one else could...My laptop's password-protected...
Haiz........Here I go again...to seek out the lost music...sob..
Ciaoz.....T.T
Begone headache!
Having a headache..my head throbs with every movement that I made..must be all those late nights..bleah. My nerves are worn thin..gonna snap anytime soon......Thank God that it's now night..so I can sleep away..the headache & irritation..bleah..In my current condition, I don't take well to sharp voices..yet that's the tone my mother takes on whenever she talks to me...haiz..it's not helping my headache..Phew!! Good that my parents are early sleepers..they've just gone to bed..=] My eldest sister has retired to her room, while my 3rd sister is not coming home tonight..
Ah..I think I'll sleep early today..maybe at 10pm...which's in a few minutes time...huh..=)
Ha...good news.......I've finished watching Inuyasha the anime..=] All 167 episodes..haha!! YuP! Ah...I can't wait for Inuyasha's 4th movie to be out!! The Crimsom Hourai Island!
Now listening to a song from Rurouni Kenshin - The Fourth Avenue Cafe..Its a great song!=)
Found that I have some missing files...that disappeared without a trace...mostly music files that have disappeared...ARRGHH........and I've gone to alot of trouble to acquire some of them too...as some are a little too hard to find....bleah.. Sob Sob.........Grrr......Haiz..
Perhaps it was because my laptop was too full..cuz of the Inuyasha anime that I saved in the laptop..then the computer system was forced to delete some of my files randomly...cuz I for one, didn't delete them...no one else could...My laptop's password-protected...
Haiz........Here I go again...to seek out the lost music...sob..
Ciaoz.....T.T
Begone headache!
Light my path
10:23:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 22 January 2005
Went out yesterday with Danny, Daniel & Sebastian....ha...met at City Hall MRT...Daniel, who arrived first, "led" Danny & I on a "merry-go-round chase"..why do I say that?? Ha..read on..
When I arrived, I smsed them both, asking where they were...Danny's on the way, Daniel had reached..He told me he's at the OCBC atm...which is on the left..correct?? So I went there, but couldn't see him at all...I called him asking him where he was, he told me he's at the OCBC atm..I looked around, but still couldn't see him...I began to wonder if I had stopped at the wrong station..(ha...I'm a very blur person..sometimes..)...as I didn't listen to the train announcement at the stop...I just got off the train instinctively...Then, I saw the big sign..Raffles City..I began to have the sinking suspicion that I've indeed stopped at the wrong station..But, at that moment, I saw the sign-Citilink..I knew for sure that I was in City Hall..Ha...I used to work in Suntec City..so I know where was I...=)
Daniel told me that he was on the right side of the control station...so I went there...but I still couldn't find him, I called him again...bleah...Turned out, he was quite near me...but I didn't see him...or rather, I couldn't recognize him...Inside my mind, I still have the picture of him, before he went to NS...But of course, now he's sporting a new haircut...ha...=) Anyway...ha...he gave the wrong directions...to Danny & I...BECAUSE!!!!!!!!!! He was standing outside the OUB atm!!! NOT the OCBC atm.....bleah...HAIZ.......ha..
After Danny arrived, we went into Citilink..Daniel wanted to buy a lip balm..he' having chapped lips...As he couldn't find the type that he wants, we went to Suntec..There he bought one...
We sat on the floor, in a corner & Danny started copying the Inuyasha anime from my laptop...then Sebastian arrived..So, we went for lunch at Mcdonald's..Daniel wanted the curly fries..Danny & Sebastian remarked that the curly fries are not that good...The reason that Daniel found them good was probably because army food's bad, so any food in aomparison's good...haha....Hmm..I think Mac's curly fries are okay..not bad..=) ha...they're great with chilli & mayo..yum yum!!!!!!!!=D ha..
After the anime had been copied to Danny's external hard disk...we took bus 16 to Orchard...I suggested a walk..but was over-ruled...sob sob...ha...I think, if we walked, it'd take quite long as it would be a long journey...oh well....Ha..=]
I made Daniel & Danny carry my bag...hee...HeY! It was heavy!! My laptop weighs 3.2kg..arrGHH...it was a torture to carry them on my already-aching shoulders...
On the bus..we talked..but later was stuck in a traffic jam..Ha..feeling a bit cooped up..I disturbed Sebastian & Daniel..haha..annoying them..=)
When we FINALLY reached Orchard, we headed down to Taka..to get the ice-cream that Daniel's craving for..It was good...the stall had a long queue..Ha...right beside the stall, was Hegendaz..there weren't many people frequenting their stall..ha..then the guys made some joke about it...
After that....hmm.....where did we go?? Oh ya.........we went to Lucky Plaza..to play pool....=)
Ha.....I'm lousy at it....ha...but managed to get some balls in, under the guys' coaching...ha...Sebastian was really good..he wiped us out..ha..=) Ha...perhaps because I'm lousy at Physics..but I could never get the angle right...bleah...never mind.......=p hee...After playing for some time, we played doubles...Daniel & Danny in a team, while Sebastian & I in the other...ha...guess who won??=p ANNOUNCEMENT! ANNOUNCEMENT!! The WINNER is.....................*drumroll* D&D!!! Ha...Daniel & Danny!!!=D YuP!!
Ha....after Danny left...to visit his father's CGL in the hospital..we went to play arcade..Sebastian & Daniel played car-racing....ha...I didn't play....I'm too lousy at it...ask Sebastian..hee...Well, comparing my skill now, to last time, I'm better now...At least my car doesn't overturn that frequently anymore..and goes in the opposte direction that I'm supposed to be in...bleah..T.T
After that, Daniel & I played Time Crisis II...It was fun!!! Ha...as we progressed into the later part of the game, Sebastian helped me to press the pedal..while I concentrated on the shooting..haha...All went quite well..till we reached the stage where Sebastian hadn't played before...so he didn't know when to press the pedal to hide...I was confused at first...as to why he didn't hide when there' a need to...(I thought he had completed the game)..till he told us that, that stage was unfamiliar to him...he hadn't played that before......HAIZ...haha...=p By the time it was game over, my arms were aching...>_
Leaving Lucky Plaza, we walked around and decided that it was time for dinner..We went to Lucky Plaza after waiting around for seats in Scotts Foodcourt...without success..Hmm...Kinda regretted going there, the food's quite expensive...ya...considering that we're in Lucky Plaza..
After dinner...Sebastian & I walked about........(Daniel went home..to spend some quality time with his family)..to Kinokuniya..AH.......It's my haven!!!=) books, books & more books!!!!!!^-^
We walked about...when I became attached to the manga section..Sebastian began to "pester" me to leave...ha..He knows me well....We dropped by Popular bookshop...he wanted to buy a pencilcase...but after digging into a small mountain of pencilcases...he still couldn't find what he wanted........Why?? Cuz..all the pencilcases were too kiddy..Had cartoons on them....every time, one of us would dig up a plain pencilcase, only to have the other point out that there was cartoon on the other side...it was frustrating.....haha......
Since he couldn't find a suitable pencilcase, we left...and headed home...Went to take bus 167...when the bus arrived, seeing that it was quite full, I decided to wait for the next one...but after waiting for 1/2 hr...and to see that the next bus was still very full...Frustrated & tired..with aching shoulders..I went to take the train home..after wasting 50mins waiting...bleah!!!!!! HAIZ........I didn't want to take the train as I had a direct bus home...but after waiting for SO long...i've no choice...but to take the train.........Heh.
Reached home around 11pm.....yup...Ha...It was a relief to be able to get rid of the load that's pressing down on my aching shoulders...Slept around 1145pm....I think...ha..
Ahh.....tired...gonna sleep the day away....maybe go swimming later...or jogging...heh..
When I arrived, I smsed them both, asking where they were...Danny's on the way, Daniel had reached..He told me he's at the OCBC atm...which is on the left..correct?? So I went there, but couldn't see him at all...I called him asking him where he was, he told me he's at the OCBC atm..I looked around, but still couldn't see him...I began to wonder if I had stopped at the wrong station..(ha...I'm a very blur person..sometimes..)...as I didn't listen to the train announcement at the stop...I just got off the train instinctively...Then, I saw the big sign..Raffles City..I began to have the sinking suspicion that I've indeed stopped at the wrong station..But, at that moment, I saw the sign-Citilink..I knew for sure that I was in City Hall..Ha...I used to work in Suntec City..so I know where was I...=)
Daniel told me that he was on the right side of the control station...so I went there...but I still couldn't find him, I called him again...bleah...Turned out, he was quite near me...but I didn't see him...or rather, I couldn't recognize him...Inside my mind, I still have the picture of him, before he went to NS...But of course, now he's sporting a new haircut...ha...=) Anyway...ha...he gave the wrong directions...to Danny & I...BECAUSE!!!!!!!!!! He was standing outside the OUB atm!!! NOT the OCBC atm.....bleah...HAIZ.......ha..
After Danny arrived, we went into Citilink..Daniel wanted to buy a lip balm..he' having chapped lips...As he couldn't find the type that he wants, we went to Suntec..There he bought one...
We sat on the floor, in a corner & Danny started copying the Inuyasha anime from my laptop...then Sebastian arrived..So, we went for lunch at Mcdonald's..Daniel wanted the curly fries..Danny & Sebastian remarked that the curly fries are not that good...The reason that Daniel found them good was probably because army food's bad, so any food in aomparison's good...haha....Hmm..I think Mac's curly fries are okay..not bad..=) ha...they're great with chilli & mayo..yum yum!!!!!!!!=D ha..
After the anime had been copied to Danny's external hard disk...we took bus 16 to Orchard...I suggested a walk..but was over-ruled...sob sob...ha...I think, if we walked, it'd take quite long as it would be a long journey...oh well....Ha..=]
I made Daniel & Danny carry my bag...hee...HeY! It was heavy!! My laptop weighs 3.2kg..arrGHH...it was a torture to carry them on my already-aching shoulders...
On the bus..we talked..but later was stuck in a traffic jam..Ha..feeling a bit cooped up..I disturbed Sebastian & Daniel..haha..annoying them..=)
When we FINALLY reached Orchard, we headed down to Taka..to get the ice-cream that Daniel's craving for..It was good...the stall had a long queue..Ha...right beside the stall, was Hegendaz..there weren't many people frequenting their stall..ha..then the guys made some joke about it...
After that....hmm.....where did we go?? Oh ya.........we went to Lucky Plaza..to play pool....=)
Ha.....I'm lousy at it....ha...but managed to get some balls in, under the guys' coaching...ha...Sebastian was really good..he wiped us out..ha..=) Ha...perhaps because I'm lousy at Physics..but I could never get the angle right...bleah...never mind.......=p hee...After playing for some time, we played doubles...Daniel & Danny in a team, while Sebastian & I in the other...ha...guess who won??=p ANNOUNCEMENT! ANNOUNCEMENT!! The WINNER is.....................*drumroll* D&D!!! Ha...Daniel & Danny!!!=D YuP!!
Ha....after Danny left...to visit his father's CGL in the hospital..we went to play arcade..Sebastian & Daniel played car-racing....ha...I didn't play....I'm too lousy at it...ask Sebastian..hee...Well, comparing my skill now, to last time, I'm better now...At least my car doesn't overturn that frequently anymore..and goes in the opposte direction that I'm supposed to be in...bleah..T.T
After that, Daniel & I played Time Crisis II...It was fun!!! Ha...as we progressed into the later part of the game, Sebastian helped me to press the pedal..while I concentrated on the shooting..haha...All went quite well..till we reached the stage where Sebastian hadn't played before...so he didn't know when to press the pedal to hide...I was confused at first...as to why he didn't hide when there' a need to...(I thought he had completed the game)..till he told us that, that stage was unfamiliar to him...he hadn't played that before......HAIZ...haha...=p By the time it was game over, my arms were aching...>_
Leaving Lucky Plaza, we walked around and decided that it was time for dinner..We went to Lucky Plaza after waiting around for seats in Scotts Foodcourt...without success..Hmm...Kinda regretted going there, the food's quite expensive...ya...considering that we're in Lucky Plaza..
After dinner...Sebastian & I walked about........(Daniel went home..to spend some quality time with his family)..to Kinokuniya..AH.......It's my haven!!!=) books, books & more books!!!!!!^-^
We walked about...when I became attached to the manga section..Sebastian began to "pester" me to leave...ha..He knows me well....We dropped by Popular bookshop...he wanted to buy a pencilcase...but after digging into a small mountain of pencilcases...he still couldn't find what he wanted........Why?? Cuz..all the pencilcases were too kiddy..Had cartoons on them....every time, one of us would dig up a plain pencilcase, only to have the other point out that there was cartoon on the other side...it was frustrating.....haha......
Since he couldn't find a suitable pencilcase, we left...and headed home...Went to take bus 167...when the bus arrived, seeing that it was quite full, I decided to wait for the next one...but after waiting for 1/2 hr...and to see that the next bus was still very full...Frustrated & tired..with aching shoulders..I went to take the train home..after wasting 50mins waiting...bleah!!!!!! HAIZ........I didn't want to take the train as I had a direct bus home...but after waiting for SO long...i've no choice...but to take the train.........Heh.
Reached home around 11pm.....yup...Ha...It was a relief to be able to get rid of the load that's pressing down on my aching shoulders...Slept around 1145pm....I think...ha..
Ahh.....tired...gonna sleep the day away....maybe go swimming later...or jogging...heh..
Light my path
12:49:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 20 January 2005
Ha..the blog's owner introduced me to this entry...I've read it..so thought, maybe you guys..(whoever's reading) may be interested to read it too!!=)
http://dannywatt.blogspot.com/2005/01/17-january-2004-freedom-in-christ-to.html
http://dannywatt.blogspot.com/2005/01/17-january-2004-freedom-in-christ-to.html
Light my path
12:00:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 17 January 2005
Ha...Just finished watching Inuyasha Ep 145..hmm...the series is gonna end soon..at episode 167..Ha...I can't wait for the Inuyasha's 4th movie to be out!! It seems to be great!! It's now out in the theatres of Japan..Hope that it'll come out in other countries asap...heek!! ^-^ YuP! YuP!!
Ha...nights are so dark & quiet...Even the air is silent too..It's quite dark around the area..with only street lamps & the chinese new year lamps lighting up our area...Ha...I liked the christmas lightings better...Ah...it's very quiet here...except for the occasional vehicle sound...Hmm...my 3rd sister's no coming back to sleep tonight..so I'll have the room all to myself..Ha..When I was younger, I used to be very, very afraid of being alone at night..due to those horror & ghost movies....about terrible things that go bump in the night..I'd be especially afraid during the Chinese's Hungry Ghost Festival..ya..even when i was in secondary school, i was afraid...During those times, I hated being in the afternoon session (for my school, the lower sec are in the afternoon session)..because, i'd reach home around 7pm..and it'd be dark in the house...there'd be no one except the dog--Whiskey..
Ha..during that time, i'd be very glad to have the dog greet me at the door..cuz i wouldn't be alone...I'd get out the door key beforehand, looking behind & around myself, quickly unlocking the door & slip in, only to lock the door immediately...Once inside, i'd switch on all the lights...only then, would i release my breath...Some times, i'd even lock the door from inside...Ha...My family members were annoyed when they came home, turn the key, pushed open the door only to find it locked on the inside...I was that scared..ha
Sometimes, i'd just hide in my bedroom, with the dog till my parents come home around 9pm...that's my life during my lower sec days......HAIZ..why am I writing this anyway?? T.T
You probably thought I'm silly.....ha..oh, well..
I thought I'd be like this for the rest of my life...afraid of the things in th night..
Later, when I entered poly, I received Christ into my life..met many wonderful brothers & sisters...I remembered, one night, we were eating at staff lounge after CLM..the guys started telling ghost stories..(ha..i don't know how it started)..bleah..I'm an imaginative person..so you probably can imagine the thoughts that were running through my mind as they were speaking...arrggHh...T.T I was NOT looking forward to the journey home...It was then..that time, I found out the truth...behind all those horror & ghosts movies...The brothers told me that there were no ghosts, only evil spirits..Because, when a man dies, he'd go either heaven or hell....that means they wouldn't be lingering around on earth...bleah..I half-believed them..but as they spoke more..I became convinced...
Later, I remembered Danny, he taught me to sing Christian songs if I feel frightened, on the way home..songs of praise & worship...Ha..till now, I still remember him joking..telling me not to be so brave to sing songs of challenge to the evil spirits...or something like that..haha...=) I really did sing some songs that night, as i walked sown the quiet carpark..I think, one of the songs, is "Lord, I Lift Your Name On High"...It took my mind off those lies that were fed to me since young and helped me to be affirmed that I belong to Jesus Christ & He is with me, as He promised..=)
From then on, whenever I feel frightened of the darkness & its shadows, I sang Christian songs...Now, I am free of those lies..about ghosts, zombies, vampires, monsters, preying on men...I am no longer afraid of the night & its darkness....=p Thank God!! And, thank you, Danny, for that time, about 3 years ago..when you taught me to sing...^-^
Ha...I'm doing badly..(or should I say, terribly??) in my walk with God...
Some times..perhaps, many times....I just wish, to escape, to hide..and for the world to pass me by....to forget my existance..Do I sound like a coward?? I feel like one..so weak..so useless...
I know, that..I can hide, I can run, I can go any where on earth, but I can't go away from the presence of God..no matter where I go, He knows where I am..
I yearn, to be close with God...to enjoy His loving presence in every aspect of my life..But, I do not have the motivation to go back..I know I should..but I don't have the heart to..
My heart, my whole being, it feels troubled..burdened..lost..I know I need God..but still..I don't turn to Him..Feel tired of struggling...yuP...
Ha...nights are so dark & quiet...Even the air is silent too..It's quite dark around the area..with only street lamps & the chinese new year lamps lighting up our area...Ha...I liked the christmas lightings better...Ah...it's very quiet here...except for the occasional vehicle sound...Hmm...my 3rd sister's no coming back to sleep tonight..so I'll have the room all to myself..Ha..When I was younger, I used to be very, very afraid of being alone at night..due to those horror & ghost movies....about terrible things that go bump in the night..I'd be especially afraid during the Chinese's Hungry Ghost Festival..ya..even when i was in secondary school, i was afraid...During those times, I hated being in the afternoon session (for my school, the lower sec are in the afternoon session)..because, i'd reach home around 7pm..and it'd be dark in the house...there'd be no one except the dog--Whiskey..
Ha..during that time, i'd be very glad to have the dog greet me at the door..cuz i wouldn't be alone...I'd get out the door key beforehand, looking behind & around myself, quickly unlocking the door & slip in, only to lock the door immediately...Once inside, i'd switch on all the lights...only then, would i release my breath...Some times, i'd even lock the door from inside...Ha...My family members were annoyed when they came home, turn the key, pushed open the door only to find it locked on the inside...I was that scared..ha
Sometimes, i'd just hide in my bedroom, with the dog till my parents come home around 9pm...that's my life during my lower sec days......HAIZ..why am I writing this anyway?? T.T
You probably thought I'm silly.....ha..oh, well..
I thought I'd be like this for the rest of my life...afraid of the things in th night..
Later, when I entered poly, I received Christ into my life..met many wonderful brothers & sisters...I remembered, one night, we were eating at staff lounge after CLM..the guys started telling ghost stories..(ha..i don't know how it started)..bleah..I'm an imaginative person..so you probably can imagine the thoughts that were running through my mind as they were speaking...arrggHh...T.T I was NOT looking forward to the journey home...It was then..that time, I found out the truth...behind all those horror & ghosts movies...The brothers told me that there were no ghosts, only evil spirits..Because, when a man dies, he'd go either heaven or hell....that means they wouldn't be lingering around on earth...bleah..I half-believed them..but as they spoke more..I became convinced...
Later, I remembered Danny, he taught me to sing Christian songs if I feel frightened, on the way home..songs of praise & worship...Ha..till now, I still remember him joking..telling me not to be so brave to sing songs of challenge to the evil spirits...or something like that..haha...=) I really did sing some songs that night, as i walked sown the quiet carpark..I think, one of the songs, is "Lord, I Lift Your Name On High"...It took my mind off those lies that were fed to me since young and helped me to be affirmed that I belong to Jesus Christ & He is with me, as He promised..=)
From then on, whenever I feel frightened of the darkness & its shadows, I sang Christian songs...Now, I am free of those lies..about ghosts, zombies, vampires, monsters, preying on men...I am no longer afraid of the night & its darkness....=p Thank God!! And, thank you, Danny, for that time, about 3 years ago..when you taught me to sing...^-^
Ha...I'm doing badly..(or should I say, terribly??) in my walk with God...
Some times..perhaps, many times....I just wish, to escape, to hide..and for the world to pass me by....to forget my existance..Do I sound like a coward?? I feel like one..so weak..so useless...
I know, that..I can hide, I can run, I can go any where on earth, but I can't go away from the presence of God..no matter where I go, He knows where I am..
I yearn, to be close with God...to enjoy His loving presence in every aspect of my life..But, I do not have the motivation to go back..I know I should..but I don't have the heart to..
My heart, my whole being, it feels troubled..burdened..lost..I know I need God..but still..I don't turn to Him..Feel tired of struggling...yuP...
Light my path
11:25:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Sunday, 16 January 2005
My eldest sister's colleagues will be coming over to our house to visit this friday..hmmm.I think it's a public holiday that day, right??? Ya..then I've gotten clean up my room...HAIZ..Not that it's messy or what..soft toys beside the pillow & at the foot of the bed, clothes, bible, bags, sports car-radio and food wrapper on the bed...not messy..right?? Right???
Hmmm...anyway, i've tidied my bed..yup..so now, there's only soft toys, my bible, the radio & the bags arranged nicely...so..its okie, right?? Presentable??
Bleah...I'll just pull the blanket over everything..No way are the visitors going to pull off the blanket to see what's underneath..Hmm..but, my sister might, when she does a spot-check...
Hmm...then there's my guitar, violin, laptop & a bag of comics(that I gave to Ronny for safe-keeping when i shifted house) on the floor...hope she doesn't dump them..she doesn't like things on the floor..But hey..There's no more place where I can put these stuff..Hmm..the store room..maybe..But I'm a person who likes to keep all my stuff with me...Oh well..Maybe I can just do it..with the music instruments in the store room for a day...The comics...no way am I putting them in the store room...they'll not be safe there...
ArrggH...can't find a place to keep them...the room that I am sharing with my 3rd sister, has a set of drawers (for foldable clothes), a wardrobe, a bed plus the pull-out bed underneath & a bookshelf mounted on the wall.
My storybooks & comics are almost bursting from the cupboard...I've even stacked up some comics & put them inside the wardrobe..A high pile..HAIZ...It'd be dangerous to put the remaining comics inside too..Hmm....I don't think the visiors will be so rude as to open a stranger's wardrobe, right?? Besides, who would want to see other people's clothes..Who am I trying to convince, huh?? Hmm..even if I can take that risk..there's no guarantee that my eldest sister wouldn't open the wardrobe...Cuz..when I lived in AMK..I used to stuff things inside the wardrobe when I can't find a place to keep my stuff...Oh man....HAIZ....What to do???
Any suggestions??
Oh ya..please don't tell me to dump my storybooks or comics...^-^
Whoa...I've drifted VERY far off from the title..ya?? I should've named it--Tidying the Bedroom, or Finding a Place for Comics....
Bleah.
Ha..there's a reason for the title--Photos..
Ya..I was keeping my stuff, so I had to slot in some stray photos into the album...Ah..all my 18 years are inside the album(you know, the size of a file?? The type you buy at Popular??)..the rest of my life are in 3 small albums(those type you get when you develope the film)..I've very little childhood or baby photos...so..when I was in secondary sch..I started taking more photos..photos of Chinese New Year concert, Prize Giving Day, Musical Night, SYF..whatever concerts in which I've a performance in..plus photos of my O'Levels Art project(I did fashion design)..
When I graduated from secondary sch & went to work in One.99 Shop, while waiting for results...Shuhui & I took many pictures of each other...On almost every off-day that we had together..we went out & took photos..Ha..We worked in the branch in Ngee Ann City..we should have gotten sick of that place..yet..on our off-days, we went there most of the time...crazy..huh..=)
I still remember the time when i celebrated my 1st birthday in poly--18 years old..It was with the people of SPCCC..Hanwen, Kailing, Janet, Paul & Kenny(TPCCC), Sebastian, Samuel Tan & Ronny..at Marina Bay..Hmm..don't think we went kite-flying..did we??
The 2nd birthday was celebrated around Esplanade..we went bowling..And took some weird photos around Esplanade..Some of them were clowning around, striking dramatic poses..ha..
My angel was there too..we didn't know each other very well when we were in the 1st semester of year 1..but we grew closer..Ha..Friendship is such an amazing thing..Both of us tried to pin-point as to exactly when did we become such close friends..but we failed...Haha...Guess, friendship is something that takes time to nurture...it doesn't happen overnight..=) I'm so glad & thankful to God for her in my life..Know who is she??
She's my angel!!^-^ From this, you should know who it is, right??
My 3rd birthday in poly...was celebrated at Marina Bay...again?? Yup!! It was great fun!! We went kite flying!! Ha...this time there was more people..so had more fun flying kites..Wah..it really takes technique to fly a kite...if you aren't careful, the string may snap and you can cry goodbye to your kite..^-^ Hmm....if i remember correctly, Meihu's kite flew the highest..=)
It was a specially enjoyable time...and i got to see Alvin...ha..didn't see him for a long time..so was glad when he came..=) He's a very nice person!! Ah..the food!!!=) For dinner, we ate at a place nearby..buffet..i think..i especially remember the fried buns...YUMMY!! Heek!! Actually, it's just a plain old bun, fried. But it was great!! Many of us loved it...in fact the buns were gone almost as soon as they were out!! Heehee!!=D
Must thank my angel..she organized the whole thing!!=]
Thank you very much， 我的天使！！ ^-^
All these photos brings back sweet memories, as well not so-nice memories...Ha..Oh well...there's two sides to a coin!!=)
I hope to take down more wonderful memories & keep them forever, frozen in that moment of time..That wonderful sparkle..
Hmmm...anyway, i've tidied my bed..yup..so now, there's only soft toys, my bible, the radio & the bags arranged nicely...so..its okie, right?? Presentable??
Bleah...I'll just pull the blanket over everything..No way are the visitors going to pull off the blanket to see what's underneath..Hmm..but, my sister might, when she does a spot-check...
Hmm...then there's my guitar, violin, laptop & a bag of comics(that I gave to Ronny for safe-keeping when i shifted house) on the floor...hope she doesn't dump them..she doesn't like things on the floor..But hey..There's no more place where I can put these stuff..Hmm..the store room..maybe..But I'm a person who likes to keep all my stuff with me...Oh well..Maybe I can just do it..with the music instruments in the store room for a day...The comics...no way am I putting them in the store room...they'll not be safe there...
ArrggH...can't find a place to keep them...the room that I am sharing with my 3rd sister, has a set of drawers (for foldable clothes), a wardrobe, a bed plus the pull-out bed underneath & a bookshelf mounted on the wall.
My storybooks & comics are almost bursting from the cupboard...I've even stacked up some comics & put them inside the wardrobe..A high pile..HAIZ...It'd be dangerous to put the remaining comics inside too..Hmm....I don't think the visiors will be so rude as to open a stranger's wardrobe, right?? Besides, who would want to see other people's clothes..Who am I trying to convince, huh?? Hmm..even if I can take that risk..there's no guarantee that my eldest sister wouldn't open the wardrobe...Cuz..when I lived in AMK..I used to stuff things inside the wardrobe when I can't find a place to keep my stuff...Oh man....HAIZ....What to do???
Any suggestions??
Oh ya..please don't tell me to dump my storybooks or comics...^-^
Whoa...I've drifted VERY far off from the title..ya?? I should've named it--Tidying the Bedroom, or Finding a Place for Comics....
Bleah.
Ha..there's a reason for the title--Photos..
Ya..I was keeping my stuff, so I had to slot in some stray photos into the album...Ah..all my 18 years are inside the album(you know, the size of a file?? The type you buy at Popular??)..the rest of my life are in 3 small albums(those type you get when you develope the film)..I've very little childhood or baby photos...so..when I was in secondary sch..I started taking more photos..photos of Chinese New Year concert, Prize Giving Day, Musical Night, SYF..whatever concerts in which I've a performance in..plus photos of my O'Levels Art project(I did fashion design)..
When I graduated from secondary sch & went to work in One.99 Shop, while waiting for results...Shuhui & I took many pictures of each other...On almost every off-day that we had together..we went out & took photos..Ha..We worked in the branch in Ngee Ann City..we should have gotten sick of that place..yet..on our off-days, we went there most of the time...crazy..huh..=)
I still remember the time when i celebrated my 1st birthday in poly--18 years old..It was with the people of SPCCC..Hanwen, Kailing, Janet, Paul & Kenny(TPCCC), Sebastian, Samuel Tan & Ronny..at Marina Bay..Hmm..don't think we went kite-flying..did we??
The 2nd birthday was celebrated around Esplanade..we went bowling..And took some weird photos around Esplanade..Some of them were clowning around, striking dramatic poses..ha..
My angel was there too..we didn't know each other very well when we were in the 1st semester of year 1..but we grew closer..Ha..Friendship is such an amazing thing..Both of us tried to pin-point as to exactly when did we become such close friends..but we failed...Haha...Guess, friendship is something that takes time to nurture...it doesn't happen overnight..=) I'm so glad & thankful to God for her in my life..Know who is she??
She's my angel!!^-^ From this, you should know who it is, right??
My 3rd birthday in poly...was celebrated at Marina Bay...again?? Yup!! It was great fun!! We went kite flying!! Ha...this time there was more people..so had more fun flying kites..Wah..it really takes technique to fly a kite...if you aren't careful, the string may snap and you can cry goodbye to your kite..^-^ Hmm....if i remember correctly, Meihu's kite flew the highest..=)
It was a specially enjoyable time...and i got to see Alvin...ha..didn't see him for a long time..so was glad when he came..=) He's a very nice person!! Ah..the food!!!=) For dinner, we ate at a place nearby..buffet..i think..i especially remember the fried buns...YUMMY!! Heek!! Actually, it's just a plain old bun, fried. But it was great!! Many of us loved it...in fact the buns were gone almost as soon as they were out!! Heehee!!=D
Must thank my angel..she organized the whole thing!!=]
Thank you very much， 我的天使！！ ^-^
All these photos brings back sweet memories, as well not so-nice memories...Ha..Oh well...there's two sides to a coin!!=)
I hope to take down more wonderful memories & keep them forever, frozen in that moment of time..That wonderful sparkle..
Light my path
1:57:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Friday, 14 January 2005
Cooked some pasta for lunch today, with my secondary school friend - Shuhui..and some chicken wings..stuffed ourselves silly....*blech*..oppZ...I didn't mean to burp..^-^ ha...
For the past 3 months, feelings of lost-ness (is there such a word?? T.T) came on & off..It is as though...the world is moving without me..felt oddly detached from the world..It is scary..having no purpose..going from day to day..Who or what do I live for?
I say that I am a Christian, does my life reflect it? Does my actions & words tell others who am I? Recently, I am behaving as though Christ isn't in my life..i haven't spent QT time with God in a long time..i don't talk to Him any more...I know that I can't do without God..yet..I still don't go back to Him..so rebellious huh..
Recently, I found my days to be too quiet, too empty, discomfortingly so...
Hmm....
Ha..Daniel called me, a few weeks ago...was surprised to receive his call..We used to talk alot on the phone & went out at times..He's my good advisor..haha...used to annoy him by asking him, "Should I tell you??" When he said,"Tell me." Then i would change my mind, saying, "Don't want la.." This cycle would go on & on for a few times when he'd get fed-up & say, "Don't tell la..." Ha.....it's then that i'd tell him......haha.....lame ah?? But it was fun annoying him............heehee.....
Ha..as i mentioned earlier..i was surprised to get his call..hmm...why?? Maybe, it's because, we seldom chat on the phone any more & also cuz he's in NS now..didn't expect him to call..But I had a good time talking with him, catching up on things..glad that he remembers me..........=) Cuz..friends tend to drift apart after graduation...as each one sets off on a new phase in life..
Hmm....I wonder how are each & every one of my friends doing?? Working? Studying? In NS?? Ha...as I remembered those closer friends..can't help but think of the times we had together..those memorable times..I'd not forget them...friends & memories....=)
I remember you, special people in my life..=]
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." - Gal 6:9
So...JIA YOU!! PRESS ON!!^-^
For the past 3 months, feelings of lost-ness (is there such a word?? T.T) came on & off..It is as though...the world is moving without me..felt oddly detached from the world..It is scary..having no purpose..going from day to day..Who or what do I live for?
I say that I am a Christian, does my life reflect it? Does my actions & words tell others who am I? Recently, I am behaving as though Christ isn't in my life..i haven't spent QT time with God in a long time..i don't talk to Him any more...I know that I can't do without God..yet..I still don't go back to Him..so rebellious huh..
Recently, I found my days to be too quiet, too empty, discomfortingly so...
Hmm....
Ha..Daniel called me, a few weeks ago...was surprised to receive his call..We used to talk alot on the phone & went out at times..He's my good advisor..haha...used to annoy him by asking him, "Should I tell you??" When he said,"Tell me." Then i would change my mind, saying, "Don't want la.." This cycle would go on & on for a few times when he'd get fed-up & say, "Don't tell la..." Ha.....it's then that i'd tell him......haha.....lame ah?? But it was fun annoying him............heehee.....
Ha..as i mentioned earlier..i was surprised to get his call..hmm...why?? Maybe, it's because, we seldom chat on the phone any more & also cuz he's in NS now..didn't expect him to call..But I had a good time talking with him, catching up on things..glad that he remembers me..........=) Cuz..friends tend to drift apart after graduation...as each one sets off on a new phase in life..
Hmm....I wonder how are each & every one of my friends doing?? Working? Studying? In NS?? Ha...as I remembered those closer friends..can't help but think of the times we had together..those memorable times..I'd not forget them...friends & memories....=)
I remember you, special people in my life..=]
"Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up." - Gal 6:9
So...JIA YOU!! PRESS ON!!^-^
Light my path
9:21:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Thursday, 6 January 2005
I was in the toilet in Dover MRT..there was a lady cleaner.. She asked if i was going home after class, i said no, i was going for class. Then, she spoke some words that hit me really hard...
She said, "有 机会读书真好" The feeling that i felt then, was beyond description.. The lady, must have gone through alot, to have said those words. It struck me then, that i was really very blessed to be able to have an education. There are so many people out there, who wished so, very much that they could go to school & learn, but they can't. And there i was, not paying full attention in class, not eager to learn, taking for granted my education..Felt ashamed..but i was woken up too..Yes..i agree with her..有 机会读书真好!!
Thank God for the chance to be able to study!! Such a precious chance! I'll not give it up nor take it for granted again.
Thank God! i'm truly blessed & fortunate! I should learn to count my blessings, instead of complaining that class was boring..blah blah..
She said, "有 机会读书真好" The feeling that i felt then, was beyond description.. The lady, must have gone through alot, to have said those words. It struck me then, that i was really very blessed to be able to have an education. There are so many people out there, who wished so, very much that they could go to school & learn, but they can't. And there i was, not paying full attention in class, not eager to learn, taking for granted my education..Felt ashamed..but i was woken up too..Yes..i agree with her..有 机会读书真好!!
Thank God for the chance to be able to study!! Such a precious chance! I'll not give it up nor take it for granted again.
Thank God! i'm truly blessed & fortunate! I should learn to count my blessings, instead of complaining that class was boring..blah blah..
有 机会读书真好!!
Light my path
6:29:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Monday, 3 January 2005
WOO......ha..FINALLY!! ^-^ haha....
Downloaded Inuyasha OVA...was quite frustrated when i just can't view the images despite using Winamp & Windows Media Player...there's only sound..no picture...=( It was the same when i downloaded Rurouni Kenshin OVA...
Hmm........BUT.. This time i found a solution!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHA!!! *cackles madly* again i tried playing the Inuyasha OVA using Winamp & Windows Media Player...it was still the same as before..but this time, it was discovered that i have some codecs missing (whatever that is)...so i went in search of the missing codecs...=) On one of the sites...in a forum..there was a person who had the same problem as myself....the people suggested that he/she use Real One Player...so i did too....^-^
After downloading Real One..i tried playing the OVA...guess what?? Still unplayable!!!!! ARRGGH.....
But this time, there was a solution...the Real One pointed out the specific codecs that's missing & directed me to download Divix Codec (whatever it is...bleah..As long as it works...^_^ hee)...And it worked!!!!!!!!! haha....haha.....haha.......^_^ YEAH!!
Hee.....i'll be off to watch the Inuyasha OVA as soon as all the downloads are completed..i downloaded 3 OVAs...hee...
Downloaded Inuyasha OVA...was quite frustrated when i just can't view the images despite using Winamp & Windows Media Player...there's only sound..no picture...=( It was the same when i downloaded Rurouni Kenshin OVA...
Hmm........BUT.. This time i found a solution!!!!!!!! AHAHAHAHA!!! *cackles madly* again i tried playing the Inuyasha OVA using Winamp & Windows Media Player...it was still the same as before..but this time, it was discovered that i have some codecs missing (whatever that is)...so i went in search of the missing codecs...=) On one of the sites...in a forum..there was a person who had the same problem as myself....the people suggested that he/she use Real One Player...so i did too....^-^
After downloading Real One..i tried playing the OVA...guess what?? Still unplayable!!!!! ARRGGH.....
But this time, there was a solution...the Real One pointed out the specific codecs that's missing & directed me to download Divix Codec (whatever it is...bleah..As long as it works...^_^ hee)...And it worked!!!!!!!!! haha....haha.....haha.......^_^ YEAH!!
Hee.....i'll be off to watch the Inuyasha OVA as soon as all the downloads are completed..i downloaded 3 OVAs...hee...
Light my path
9:25:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Saturday, 1 January 2005
Woo..love it...haha..^-^ Really great story!!=] Downloaded its OVA, but there's only sound..no image..tried using other programmes to open the movie..but to no avail..HAIZ....T.T
Disappointed.
Crushed.
ArrggHH..
Nevermind.
Read about the OVA..major spoiler...the story started after Kenshin's son grew up..Think it was quite serious & heavy, not like in the manga..where there are still some light-heartedness.. hmm..oh well..it's good that i cant watch the downloaded OVA..ha..don't want to spoil my view of the original story...ha..i like happy endings..=)
Ha...i've Rurouni Kenshin's songs..so it's okie....i guess..=D I can always read the manga & listen to its music...hee.. ^-^
Ha..my eldest sis & mom are going to Hong Kong next Tuesday..Whoopee!! ^-^
For 2days..
Hmm..wonder what is it like there? I've never been to other countries, except to JB & Batam..yuP....Haiz..
Hmm...Gonna earn more $$$..ha..then i can go where i want!!=] I want to go...UK..USA..to watch the ballet performance of Amanda Schull & Sascha Radetsky..hee...^-^
Disappointed.
Crushed.
ArrggHH..
Nevermind.
Read about the OVA..major spoiler...the story started after Kenshin's son grew up..Think it was quite serious & heavy, not like in the manga..where there are still some light-heartedness.. hmm..oh well..it's good that i cant watch the downloaded OVA..ha..don't want to spoil my view of the original story...ha..i like happy endings..=)
Ha...i've Rurouni Kenshin's songs..so it's okie....i guess..=D I can always read the manga & listen to its music...hee.. ^-^
Ha..my eldest sis & mom are going to Hong Kong next Tuesday..Whoopee!! ^-^
For 2days..
Hmm..wonder what is it like there? I've never been to other countries, except to JB & Batam..yuP....Haiz..
Hmm...Gonna earn more $$$..ha..then i can go where i want!!=] I want to go...UK..USA..to watch the ballet performance of Amanda Schull & Sascha Radetsky..hee...^-^
Light my path
5:56:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
Happy New Year!! ^-^
Light my path
12:26:00 pm
youdrovemydarknessaway`-//*
whoa...another year has gone by..Well..well..It's cliche..but i still have to say it -
How time flies!!! ^-^ It seemed like yesterday, when i first welcomed the new year in a church countdown..but in actual fact..it had been 3yrs since that day..It was specially memorable as it was my first time welcoming in the new year in a church & i was a new believer then..Ha..i wonder..how many people will know what church did i celebrate it at?? Not many, i believe..
At this minute, as i looked back on my past..many different feelings welled up..
Nostalgia. Sadness. Regretful. Hurt. Anger. Wistful. Happy. Thankful. Relieved. Embarrassed.
There are many, many things that i regret doing, words and things that i shouldn't or should have done, i did or didn't do. So many, so many....
How i long for those times..when i was young & ignorant...things were so simple then..There were friendships that soured due to problems...things never became the same again..
Embarrassing things that i had done...still etched in my mind..coming back to haunt me at unexpected times..
I still remember..there was once when i was upset..feeling alone & self-pity overwhelmed me. I sort of quarrelled with a friend..sort of..ya...I angrily told the friend that the world doesn't revolve around me, even if i die now, the earth will still turn. It doesn't matter. Nothing will change, people will still go on living..So will my friends. Then, he gave me a reply, which i would remember for life.
He said,"You are not us, how would you know?"
Ya..how would i know. Really. how would i know what would my friends think? I am not them. I am myself. I can't think for others.
So many regrets..so very many..So much so that, i've lost count of how many times i cried out..wishing that time would turn back. If i was fervent enough..it just may happen..
Especially in this past 1.5 yr.
But it never did. Time and tide waits for no man.
Despite knowing it, i can't help but still wish.
My friend asked if i regretted coming into poly (actually, he asked something else..but it is better that i don't put down what he actually asked, as it may cause unnecessary problems).
Looking back on everything..all the regrets..all the things, words that i should have done, should have said..all the things, words that i shouldn't have done nor said..so many bad choices..
I told him "No". True, there are a million, a zillion regrets. I regretted the bad choices that i made. But i didn't regret my time in poly. I didn't regret, not at all. For, if i didn't come into poly, i wouldn't have met Ai Mei and she wouldn't have led me to Christ. Then i wouldn't have known a wonderful bunch of people. Brothers & sisters who gave me the precious gift of their friendship. I wouldn't have experienced the love of Christ through them. The same friend who asked me the question..he told me..these people..these friends are an extension of God's love for me. Hearing that, i felt very loved by God.
But he also said, these people, these friends, will not always be by side, we'll drift apart, after all, all of us have different goals in life. Knowing this, would i still not regret, he asked.
My answer is still "No".
True, we may drift apart..from best friends to good friends to friends..maybe to those 'hi & bye' friends..When this happens..when we drift further..All these, it doesn't mean that the past was gone..disappeared..Those good times, playing & crying together..with the distance in the freindship, it doesn't mean that those good times were all gone too. Yes, those were history, but it doesn't mean that they have not existed at all. We may not be as close we used to be, but we once were. We once had good times together, sharing laughter, joy & tears. It is good enough for me.
I thank God for all these..people..circumstances..my past..everything. Because they are part of me..I am who i am now, because of who i was. Because of my past. Because of the people in my life.
How time flies!!! ^-^ It seemed like yesterday, when i first welcomed the new year in a church countdown..but in actual fact..it had been 3yrs since that day..It was specially memorable as it was my first time welcoming in the new year in a church & i was a new believer then..Ha..i wonder..how many people will know what church did i celebrate it at?? Not many, i believe..
At this minute, as i looked back on my past..many different feelings welled up..
Nostalgia. Sadness. Regretful. Hurt. Anger. Wistful. Happy. Thankful. Relieved. Embarrassed.
There are many, many things that i regret doing, words and things that i shouldn't or should have done, i did or didn't do. So many, so many....
How i long for those times..when i was young & ignorant...things were so simple then..There were friendships that soured due to problems...things never became the same again..
Embarrassing things that i had done...still etched in my mind..coming back to haunt me at unexpected times..
I still remember..there was once when i was upset..feeling alone & self-pity overwhelmed me. I sort of quarrelled with a friend..sort of..ya...I angrily told the friend that the world doesn't revolve around me, even if i die now, the earth will still turn. It doesn't matter. Nothing will change, people will still go on living..So will my friends. Then, he gave me a reply, which i would remember for life.
He said,"You are not us, how would you know?"
Ya..how would i know. Really. how would i know what would my friends think? I am not them. I am myself. I can't think for others.
So many regrets..so very many..So much so that, i've lost count of how many times i cried out..wishing that time would turn back. If i was fervent enough..it just may happen..
Especially in this past 1.5 yr.
But it never did. Time and tide waits for no man.
Despite knowing it, i can't help but still wish.
My friend asked if i regretted coming into poly (actually, he asked something else..but it is better that i don't put down what he actually asked, as it may cause unnecessary problems).
Looking back on everything..all the regrets..all the things, words that i should have done, should have said..all the things, words that i shouldn't have done nor said..so many bad choices..
I told him "No". True, there are a million, a zillion regrets. I regretted the bad choices that i made. But i didn't regret my time in poly. I didn't regret, not at all. For, if i didn't come into poly, i wouldn't have met Ai Mei and she wouldn't have led me to Christ. Then i wouldn't have known a wonderful bunch of people. Brothers & sisters who gave me the precious gift of their friendship. I wouldn't have experienced the love of Christ through them. The same friend who asked me the question..he told me..these people..these friends are an extension of God's love for me. Hearing that, i felt very loved by God.
But he also said, these people, these friends, will not always be by side, we'll drift apart, after all, all of us have different goals in life. Knowing this, would i still not regret, he asked.
My answer is still "No".
True, we may drift apart..from best friends to good friends to friends..maybe to those 'hi & bye' friends..When this happens..when we drift further..All these, it doesn't mean that the past was gone..disappeared..Those good times, playing & crying together..with the distance in the freindship, it doesn't mean that those good times were all gone too. Yes, those were history, but it doesn't mean that they have not existed at all. We may not be as close we used to be, but we once were. We once had good times together, sharing laughter, joy & tears. It is good enough for me.
I thank God for all these..people..circumstances..my past..everything. Because they are part of me..I am who i am now, because of who i was. Because of my past. Because of the people in my life.
Light my path
12:24:00 pm
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